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Elissa1
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Wednesday December 30th = feeling like shi*
Wednesday December 30
1:01 AM
Crap, I had typed a long and meaningful paragraph, but I lost it by clicking on the wrong thing, now i dont feel like writing it over again, and instead I feel like sleeping.
well, I guess I might as well, Tired, would be the word of the day. I'm really dizzy, and I think it might be from the fumes of the cleaning products that I used while cleaning the bathroom, its so beautiful now, you can it food of the floor. But im sure that wont last for long, as seven people in the house make sure it always goes back to the discusting way it was before I cleaned it.
Ouch, actually my head really hurts, and my finger tips are dry - again, the cleaning stuff, I should of worn gloves. Although I doubt there are any in the house. Right now, my room is clean and I have a warm mug filled with green tea and a bit of hunny, welcoming me to drink it. One thing that always makes me feel better, is silence and tea. No matter how hard my life and life in general might get, as long as I get a chance to mull it over in a silent place - a comfortable place, with my always cold fingers wrapped around a round mug of steaming tea, I know things will be okay. I've been dizzy with school aswell, applying to university might be one of the hardest things I've ever done, because I dont know what im applying into. The problem is that all these years of concintrated on one particular school, and program, and now that I have to put 2 more options after the first, its become a strange thing to do. Because none offer the same program, and that would be that I would have to choose another program or settle for something less than the program - ouch this is making my head hurt even more, alright thats enough of university. One thing I want to get of my chest, well there are a million and one things that I want to get off my chest, but Ill start with this. I feel very ugly, all the time. No matter what time of day, I wake up, and start the day feeling like no one will ever want me, I feel so distraught because of it. I feel like the shortest, fattest, thing that if anyone were to look at, it would only be because they had nothing better to look at. I really don't know why I have such a self-loathing atitude, I want to say, that my mother played a role in the way I feel, she always makes me feel guilty, angry, and pathetic, insulting me, and hurting me without
-- you know what, i left for about an hour, and Ive gotten really tired,
im going to head to bed, good night
Wednesday December 30
1:01 AM
Crap, I had typed a long and meaningful paragraph, but I lost it by clicking on the wrong thing, now i dont feel like writing it over again, and instead I feel like sleeping.
well, I guess I might as well, Tired, would be the word of the day. I'm really dizzy, and I think it might be from the fumes of the cleaning products that I used while cleaning the bathroom, its so beautiful now, you can it food of the floor. But im sure that wont last for long, as seven people in the house make sure it always goes back to the discusting way it was before I cleaned it.
Ouch, actually my head really hurts, and my finger tips are dry - again, the cleaning stuff, I should of worn gloves. Although I doubt there are any in the house. Right now, my room is clean and I have a warm mug filled with green tea and a bit of hunny, welcoming me to drink it. One thing that always makes me feel better, is silence and tea. No matter how hard my life and life in general might get, as long as I get a chance to mull it over in a silent place - a comfortable place, with my always cold fingers wrapped around a round mug of steaming tea, I know things will be okay. I've been dizzy with school aswell, applying to university might be one of the hardest things I've ever done, because I dont know what im applying into. The problem is that all these years of concintrated on one particular school, and program, and now that I have to put 2 more options after the first, its become a strange thing to do. Because none offer the same program, and that would be that I would have to choose another program or settle for something less than the program - ouch this is making my head hurt even more, alright thats enough of university. One thing I want to get of my chest, well there are a million and one things that I want to get off my chest, but Ill start with this. I feel very ugly, all the time. No matter what time of day, I wake up, and start the day feeling like no one will ever want me, I feel so distraught because of it. I feel like the shortest, fattest, thing that if anyone were to look at, it would only be because they had nothing better to look at. I really don't know why I have such a self-loathing atitude, I want to say, that my mother played a role in the way I feel, she always makes me feel guilty, angry, and pathetic, insulting me, and hurting me without
-- you know what, i left for about an hour, and Ive gotten really tired,
im going to head to bed, good night
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Elissa1
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Thursday December 31
Tomorrow is the new year, and nothing in my life has really changed this year, I told myself that I'll change my ways, but I never do, and whats worse is that the people around me think that I;ll always be this way. There is a family that bothers the fuc out of me, two daughters - snobby as hell, with they're stupid bother. Recently, they're mother who I've been seeing a lot this week, thinks its alright for her to mention my flaws, as though her daughters have none, that bitc. She has been seriously getting me angry, before I saw her I was on such a positive road to getting better and eating better, but after her daughters and her were there, along with the pressure that comes with her being present, I felt the need for comfort, and I ate to the point of sickness.
I didn't even feel full.
I'm really pathetic, I;ve been trying ever since elementary school to lose weight
Tomorrow is the new year, and nothing in my life has really changed this year, I told myself that I'll change my ways, but I never do, and whats worse is that the people around me think that I;ll always be this way. There is a family that bothers the fuc out of me, two daughters - snobby as hell, with they're stupid bother. Recently, they're mother who I've been seeing a lot this week, thinks its alright for her to mention my flaws, as though her daughters have none, that bitc. She has been seriously getting me angry, before I saw her I was on such a positive road to getting better and eating better, but after her daughters and her were there, along with the pressure that comes with her being present, I felt the need for comfort, and I ate to the point of sickness.
I didn't even feel full.
I'm really pathetic, I;ve been trying ever since elementary school to lose weight
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Big D
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I've had those types around me before, it's definitely no fun. One of the biggest acts of willpower is to ignore the jeers of others and continue on with what you need to do. Took a lot for me to dig down and finally say Thank you for your observation, but I don't need your negativity any longer. have a good day.
Couragewolf says: If life's a bitch, make it your bitch. I love couragewolf
Good luck on your journey
Couragewolf says: If life's a bitch, make it your bitch. I love couragewolf
Good luck on your journey
Elissa1
New member
Thanks Big D, I left the forum a long while ago,
today is Monday May, 31st 6:54 PM and I think that I should stick to coming back onto this site. A lot of the time I feel as though I'm struggling alone, but this site helps me realize that isn't true. I haven't checked my weight recently, I'm not sure if I'm at 160 or if I have lost some weight. Well I've been trying to handle under all this pressure, but first before I explain that, a little update,
I applied to university, and was accepted into my choice! That I am proud off, God I'm excited for September to roll around and just let me escape home at school, chilling in the library and drinking black coffee in the cozy cafes. God I can't wait for the new experiences. But I really do not want to start the years of university in this mentality, like dreading getting up for school because I know I'll have to go through that damn closet looking for over sized things to wear and hide under. So I will need to hit the gym each day starting tomorrow spend my life at the gym and really take on each workout with all I got, and continue until I lose 40 pounds. That's my aim: Lose 40 pounds in 3 months. I think I can do it!
today is Monday May, 31st 6:54 PM and I think that I should stick to coming back onto this site. A lot of the time I feel as though I'm struggling alone, but this site helps me realize that isn't true. I haven't checked my weight recently, I'm not sure if I'm at 160 or if I have lost some weight. Well I've been trying to handle under all this pressure, but first before I explain that, a little update,
I applied to university, and was accepted into my choice! That I am proud off, God I'm excited for September to roll around and just let me escape home at school, chilling in the library and drinking black coffee in the cozy cafes. God I can't wait for the new experiences. But I really do not want to start the years of university in this mentality, like dreading getting up for school because I know I'll have to go through that damn closet looking for over sized things to wear and hide under. So I will need to hit the gym each day starting tomorrow spend my life at the gym and really take on each workout with all I got, and continue until I lose 40 pounds. That's my aim: Lose 40 pounds in 3 months. I think I can do it!
Elissa1
New member
Why I want to lose weight:
(this is all in my journal but I think I should type it in this diary)
To be secure in my skin.
I want to be healthy.
I want to look good.
I want to be able to feel good about myself.
I want to be able to walk, run, swim, bike with ease.
I want to be able to sleep better, instead of having night depression.
My physical and mental health need to be better.
To increase my feelings of self worth.
To be able to run and jump without feeling self conscious.
To live longer and stronger.
To not worry about the way that my legs look sitting, enough of my thighs expanding and overtaking chairs.
To not get "the looks of pity and disgust"
To be able to go to the mall, and buy clothing I like and not just settle with the only clothes that fit.
To be able to wear something that says, "M" or "S" on it, instead of "XL"
So I can feel comfortable, making my clothing look good, and looking good because of my clothes.
So my pants wont wear out between my inner thighs.
So that the damn scale can read, "120 LBS"
I want to look in the mirror and like what I see.
Because I am tired of having "feel fat" days be everyday of my life.
I want to wear Yves Saint Laurent Black Pumps and not fear that the heal would break under my weight.
To buy cute panties and Lingerie that make me feel sexy.
So I'm never called, "Tubba" again.
So I can be comfortable to have my photo taken and it can actually be a wonderful photo, instead of a photo that would ruin my memory of that event.
So I call cross my legs elegantly.
So I can bend, shift, over, under, around tables, chairs and furniture without feeling and looking fat.
So I can feel pride and not despair.
So I can look amazing in my business suit.
So I don't hide under a winter coat all season of winter, and hate it when summer comes along.
To speak my weight out loud without hesitation.
So I don't fear tipping anything, be it: tables, chairs.
So no one remembers me as the "fat sister" or the "fat one".
So I can wear knee high boots that can actually zip up that high.
So I don't worry about Arthritis or Osteoporosis when I'm older.
So I will never feel envious and jealous again.
So I never purposely stop seeing my 'very thin' friends because of feeling angry/jealous around them just depresses me to much.
So I can have a womanly 6 pack that looks amazing in a bathing suit.
So I can enjoy community celebrations and choose clothing I enjoy to wear and not what I have to settle with because of my size.
So my clothing isn't limited, and nothing is off limits for me, I can choose anything to know I'll look amazing in it.
So I can wear a business blazer with more than one layer underneath to know that I am not adding on to my size, and that I carry the clothes and layers well and that they hang loose to make the outfit perfect.
So nothing will feel tight anymore.
You'll be able to run without all that extra weight holding you back.
To regain control of my life, and not take orders from food and uncontrolled emotion.
I wanna wake up each morning and feel alive and excited.
I want to be 19 and beautiful and feel sexy, not having to dread my young years and actually live them to the fullest.
I want to exercise and each time I do, I want to feel alive and really working my body, really using it, and giving it a purpose.
Quotes:
"Work with your body, not against it."
"Focus your attention on what you really want."
"You become what you think, if you consistently perceive a negative about your body image it will eventually manifest in some way"
"The only thing standing between you and thin in your own will power."
"The battle of fat vs thin is not won overnight."
"I'm not there yet, but I'm closer than I was yesterday."
"Fridge pickers wear big knickers" - LOL
"Don't look so far into the future that you can't enjoy the moment your living."
"It doesn't matter about anyone else: at home and what the families weight is and what they eat, at the gym, and what the peoples weight is and what they eat., concentrate on today and what you can do healthier."
"Everyday five it all you got, that by the time you weigh yourself at the end of the week you know you've given it all that you can give and then some."
"Believe in yourself, you can do anything you put your mind on."
"People old, young, of all sizes and ages have lost weight, your can do it just like the many before you have, your not an exception for non-weight loss."
"You are limitless, held by nothing, and capable of everything."
"Its a life choice not a quick fix."
"Make small goals for yourself, and work to your ultimate goal."
System of Rules:
1) Eat when your hungry.
2) Eat what you want not what you think you should.
3) Consciously enjoy every mouthful.
4) As soon as you feel full stop eating.
5) Leave something on your plate.
6) Take care of yourself emotionally before you eat.
(this is all in my journal but I think I should type it in this diary)
To be secure in my skin.
I want to be healthy.
I want to look good.
I want to be able to feel good about myself.
I want to be able to walk, run, swim, bike with ease.
I want to be able to sleep better, instead of having night depression.
My physical and mental health need to be better.
To increase my feelings of self worth.
To be able to run and jump without feeling self conscious.
To live longer and stronger.
To not worry about the way that my legs look sitting, enough of my thighs expanding and overtaking chairs.
To not get "the looks of pity and disgust"
To be able to go to the mall, and buy clothing I like and not just settle with the only clothes that fit.
To be able to wear something that says, "M" or "S" on it, instead of "XL"
So I can feel comfortable, making my clothing look good, and looking good because of my clothes.
So my pants wont wear out between my inner thighs.
So that the damn scale can read, "120 LBS"
I want to look in the mirror and like what I see.
Because I am tired of having "feel fat" days be everyday of my life.
I want to wear Yves Saint Laurent Black Pumps and not fear that the heal would break under my weight.
To buy cute panties and Lingerie that make me feel sexy.
So I'm never called, "Tubba" again.
So I can be comfortable to have my photo taken and it can actually be a wonderful photo, instead of a photo that would ruin my memory of that event.
So I call cross my legs elegantly.
So I can bend, shift, over, under, around tables, chairs and furniture without feeling and looking fat.
So I can feel pride and not despair.
So I can look amazing in my business suit.
So I don't hide under a winter coat all season of winter, and hate it when summer comes along.
To speak my weight out loud without hesitation.
So I don't fear tipping anything, be it: tables, chairs.
So no one remembers me as the "fat sister" or the "fat one".
So I can wear knee high boots that can actually zip up that high.
So I don't worry about Arthritis or Osteoporosis when I'm older.
So I will never feel envious and jealous again.
So I never purposely stop seeing my 'very thin' friends because of feeling angry/jealous around them just depresses me to much.
So I can have a womanly 6 pack that looks amazing in a bathing suit.
So I can enjoy community celebrations and choose clothing I enjoy to wear and not what I have to settle with because of my size.
So my clothing isn't limited, and nothing is off limits for me, I can choose anything to know I'll look amazing in it.
So I can wear a business blazer with more than one layer underneath to know that I am not adding on to my size, and that I carry the clothes and layers well and that they hang loose to make the outfit perfect.
So nothing will feel tight anymore.
You'll be able to run without all that extra weight holding you back.
To regain control of my life, and not take orders from food and uncontrolled emotion.
I wanna wake up each morning and feel alive and excited.
I want to be 19 and beautiful and feel sexy, not having to dread my young years and actually live them to the fullest.
I want to exercise and each time I do, I want to feel alive and really working my body, really using it, and giving it a purpose.
Quotes:
"Work with your body, not against it."
"Focus your attention on what you really want."
"You become what you think, if you consistently perceive a negative about your body image it will eventually manifest in some way"
"The only thing standing between you and thin in your own will power."
"The battle of fat vs thin is not won overnight."
"I'm not there yet, but I'm closer than I was yesterday."
"Fridge pickers wear big knickers" - LOL
"Don't look so far into the future that you can't enjoy the moment your living."
"It doesn't matter about anyone else: at home and what the families weight is and what they eat, at the gym, and what the peoples weight is and what they eat., concentrate on today and what you can do healthier."
"Everyday five it all you got, that by the time you weigh yourself at the end of the week you know you've given it all that you can give and then some."
"Believe in yourself, you can do anything you put your mind on."
"People old, young, of all sizes and ages have lost weight, your can do it just like the many before you have, your not an exception for non-weight loss."
"You are limitless, held by nothing, and capable of everything."
"Its a life choice not a quick fix."
"Make small goals for yourself, and work to your ultimate goal."
System of Rules:
1) Eat when your hungry.
2) Eat what you want not what you think you should.
3) Consciously enjoy every mouthful.
4) As soon as you feel full stop eating.
5) Leave something on your plate.
6) Take care of yourself emotionally before you eat.
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Elissa1
New member
OK, today has been so so, in the morning I felt controlled by everything and unable to win any battle and unable to attain any goal, but it kinda went further down and then up after that. I had to go see a friend at a coffee book store, she called and said she wanted to see me, and talk about life and everything, but I didn't feel like leaving the house. All I felt was to stay at home and eat until my heart felt numb, so I when she called, I said, yes, and only if one of my sisters comes back home (since I'm babysitting-yeah right) so she could take care of my youngest brother. So I called them and neither one could come home, so I was stuck because my friend called on private and I couldn't call her back to say, "No" -- I had no option but to leave the house.
Yes. I had to leave, so I got dressed. I hated this part, putting on size 13 jeans on a 5, 3, 18yearold, looks like crap, here is where I started feeling worse, as I was walking, these girls who have always been very cruel to me were in their car as my shirt was blowing up because of the wind. My ass in jeans is not the best sight in the world, so that surrounding pressure forced me to stop and just recollect my self (yes, while I was on the sidewalk). But here is where it got good, as I was about to cross the street, my friend pulls up and says she can give me a ride. Which was helpful I got to the coffee place, only to tell my friend that I couldn't stay and that I had to go back home to babysit, I mean I didn't want her to wait for me. I'm not that kinda of person. But the friend with the car waited for me and then dropped me off at my house. I sorta felt like crap but then I had a sudden urge to exercise my anger, so I did, Damn did I exercise for an hour straight non stop.
God does exercises feel great, that burn in my muscle feels so good, especially when I'm angry. I think I felt most of my anger at how I spent my life so far in an unhealthy way, I don't want to live like that anymore.
Today:
Calories in: 1,049
Exercise: 1 hour of boot camp
Yes. I had to leave, so I got dressed. I hated this part, putting on size 13 jeans on a 5, 3, 18yearold, looks like crap, here is where I started feeling worse, as I was walking, these girls who have always been very cruel to me were in their car as my shirt was blowing up because of the wind. My ass in jeans is not the best sight in the world, so that surrounding pressure forced me to stop and just recollect my self (yes, while I was on the sidewalk). But here is where it got good, as I was about to cross the street, my friend pulls up and says she can give me a ride. Which was helpful I got to the coffee place, only to tell my friend that I couldn't stay and that I had to go back home to babysit, I mean I didn't want her to wait for me. I'm not that kinda of person. But the friend with the car waited for me and then dropped me off at my house. I sorta felt like crap but then I had a sudden urge to exercise my anger, so I did, Damn did I exercise for an hour straight non stop.
God does exercises feel great, that burn in my muscle feels so good, especially when I'm angry. I think I felt most of my anger at how I spent my life so far in an unhealthy way, I don't want to live like that anymore.
Today:
Calories in: 1,049
Exercise: 1 hour of boot camp
Aw, sorry you had a tough day, with all that friend stuff. : (
I'm really sorry to hear how hard it is to get dressed! I can certainly relate to a point...we're all here trying to lose weight, after all. I doubt you look as bad as you think, though!
Awesome job turning your anger into energy working out, though!! It's great that you could release the tension.
Hope you have a better day tomorrow!
I'm really sorry to hear how hard it is to get dressed! I can certainly relate to a point...we're all here trying to lose weight, after all. I doubt you look as bad as you think, though!
Awesome job turning your anger into energy working out, though!! It's great that you could release the tension.
Hope you have a better day tomorrow!
Verobc1
New member
Hey welcomn back to the forum!!! You will be able to find lots of support, and a lot of people on the same road as you! Keep up the good work, keeping yourself from your emotional eating will be hard (I am still struggling myself) you are off to a great start by exercising instead of eating your anger!!!!! Also you might want to take your measurment, sometimes the scales doesn't move but it you measure yourself you will see changes as you exercise you will form muscle that can add weight on the scale but not on the measurments! Good Luck. Just beleive that you can do this, as long as you really want it! I wish I would have taken the steps you are when I was your age at 18 and 5"3 I was around 160lb myself so it's good that you are creating a healthier lifestyle right now!
Elissa1
New member
Thanks Hanabi and Verobc, today is looking great already!
It’s raining in my town, and I love the rain, as a child I always had so much fun, splashing and running in the rain. I don't know how people can dislike it ahha. Today I'm really starting to notice when I'm full, as I eat breakfast or any snack, I really taste the food, really smell and write down exactly what it is that I taste on my tongue, sometimes I close my eyes to really appreciate what it is I'm tasting. And doing that technique makes me realize that I do not need to eat the whole thing, that I'm satisfied having a few long bites. I realized that watching TV distracts your brain, and you're not appreciating the food going into your mouth so you keep stuffing your stomach even though it isn't hungry anymore.
I've also noticed a correlation between my friends who are thin and they speed at which they eat, which undoubtedly is very slow.
As of right now, I feel really good about myself,
-- 9:50 PM
Back for an update, the day started okay, but right now I feel very unhappy about my weight, I would say the number one reason why I've always failed at losing weight is by being depressed by losing weight and having my body be overweight. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed and unable, no exercise today : ( I over ate today 2000 - 2200 calories or so..
I feel like such a fat pig.
It’s raining in my town, and I love the rain, as a child I always had so much fun, splashing and running in the rain. I don't know how people can dislike it ahha. Today I'm really starting to notice when I'm full, as I eat breakfast or any snack, I really taste the food, really smell and write down exactly what it is that I taste on my tongue, sometimes I close my eyes to really appreciate what it is I'm tasting. And doing that technique makes me realize that I do not need to eat the whole thing, that I'm satisfied having a few long bites. I realized that watching TV distracts your brain, and you're not appreciating the food going into your mouth so you keep stuffing your stomach even though it isn't hungry anymore.
I've also noticed a correlation between my friends who are thin and they speed at which they eat, which undoubtedly is very slow.
As of right now, I feel really good about myself,
-- 9:50 PM
Back for an update, the day started okay, but right now I feel very unhappy about my weight, I would say the number one reason why I've always failed at losing weight is by being depressed by losing weight and having my body be overweight. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed and unable, no exercise today : ( I over ate today 2000 - 2200 calories or so..
I feel like such a fat pig.
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Verobc1
New member
Hey Elissa
I remember feeling a lot like you! I still do at times, but you have to realise that even when you do lose the weight the body image problem will still be there....If you read on here you will see a lot of people who are almost at their goal weight and looking great but still have confidence issue, so I suggest you start addressing it now! Find something about you that you like and focus on that. This loosing weight journey is not an easy one, and it's long it took more then a couple months to get to the weight you are at now, and it's gonna take longer but that is ok because in the prosses of getting to your goal you are also get to see your inner strenght and learn tool to remain at your goal weight. Try to stick to healthy eating so that even if you don't have time to exercise you can still lose. You can do it!!!! You will find a tone of support on here!
I remember feeling a lot like you! I still do at times, but you have to realise that even when you do lose the weight the body image problem will still be there....If you read on here you will see a lot of people who are almost at their goal weight and looking great but still have confidence issue, so I suggest you start addressing it now! Find something about you that you like and focus on that. This loosing weight journey is not an easy one, and it's long it took more then a couple months to get to the weight you are at now, and it's gonna take longer but that is ok because in the prosses of getting to your goal you are also get to see your inner strenght and learn tool to remain at your goal weight. Try to stick to healthy eating so that even if you don't have time to exercise you can still lose. You can do it!!!! You will find a tone of support on here!
Hi Elissa!
It's raining where I live this morning, and I really do love the rain, too! I almost went for a run in it... xD
It's great that you're working on the way you eat. I might need to do that as well...I have always eaten super quickly!
I can really relate to what you wrote, about not being able to lose weight because you're so sad about being overweight. I am the same way. Whenever I have good eating habits and such, it depressed me whenever I realize that I'm still bigger than I'd like to be; whereas when I'm binging and eating too much, I at least feel like I have a reason to still be larger, if that makes sense. So I always end up heading for the more comfortable route!
But I agree with what Verobc said: it really is possible, and important, to start working on having a good body image now, because it really doesn't necessarily come with losing weight. I know that I've got more appreciation for my body now than I did when I was 15, 20kg lighter, just because I've worked on having a positive self image, at least trying to accept my body as it is and not hate on it so much.
I hope you can pick yourself back up, don't worry too much about eating over 2000 calories (that's enough to maintain or even lose weight for most people, not to gain!). And I hope you have an even better day tomorrow!
It's raining where I live this morning, and I really do love the rain, too! I almost went for a run in it... xD
It's great that you're working on the way you eat. I might need to do that as well...I have always eaten super quickly!
I can really relate to what you wrote, about not being able to lose weight because you're so sad about being overweight. I am the same way. Whenever I have good eating habits and such, it depressed me whenever I realize that I'm still bigger than I'd like to be; whereas when I'm binging and eating too much, I at least feel like I have a reason to still be larger, if that makes sense. So I always end up heading for the more comfortable route!
But I agree with what Verobc said: it really is possible, and important, to start working on having a good body image now, because it really doesn't necessarily come with losing weight. I know that I've got more appreciation for my body now than I did when I was 15, 20kg lighter, just because I've worked on having a positive self image, at least trying to accept my body as it is and not hate on it so much.
I hope you can pick yourself back up, don't worry too much about eating over 2000 calories (that's enough to maintain or even lose weight for most people, not to gain!). And I hope you have an even better day tomorrow!
Elissa1
New member
Thanks to both Verobc and Hanabi, you both give me excellent advice and I've learned a lot on this forum because of members like yourselves who continue on their journey to lose weight and live a healthy fit life. You are both so Pro may I add, you can really stand on your feet and continue onwards, that inspires me so much! Thanks a million for your feedback and positive energy. Today was great, hopefully it will end that way. 
Here is a list of what I ate today:
2 Apples, raw, large
1 Peach, raw, small
Honey 1 tablespoon
Mug Coffee, Turkish
4 bunch, Spinach, raw
1 slice Pizza, cheese, with vegetables
1L Water
Calorie Count: 969 at 6:02 PM
Exercise: 1 hr boot camp
may I add, you can really stand on your feet and continue onwards, that inspires me so much! Thanks a million for your feedback and positive energy. Today was great, hopefully it will end that way. Here is a list of what I ate today:
2 Apples, raw, large
1 Peach, raw, small
Honey 1 tablespoon
Mug Coffee, Turkish
4 bunch, Spinach, raw
1 slice Pizza, cheese, with vegetables
1L Water
Calorie Count: 969 at 6:02 PM
Exercise: 1 hr boot camp
Elissa1
New member
Its been a while since I came back on here and updated.
Today is, Wednesday June 9th, 3:21 PM
for the past couple of days I've been going to the gym to burn 1000 calories, I've made it a mission to burn at least 1000 a day. It's been going good so far, and I really think I can do this.
not to mention I've lost 2 pounds! yeah! from June 1 - 7th 2 pounds gone!
now all I need to lose this month is 8 more pounds to get to my target of 10 pounds in the month of June. God I really take wait until I see 150! So close!
I've also decided to eat as less if nothing at all of bread. When I wondered why have I gotten so large for my age, I noticed how I always used to eat something with bread, eggs with bread, tomatoes with bread, anything with bread, as soon as I cancel bread out of my day to day diet, I'll lose weight because now those starchy bread carbohydrates are not clogging my colon anymore.
Today is, Wednesday June 9th, 3:21 PM
for the past couple of days I've been going to the gym to burn 1000 calories, I've made it a mission to burn at least 1000 a day. It's been going good so far, and I really think I can do this.
not to mention I've lost 2 pounds! yeah! from June 1 - 7th 2 pounds gone!now all I need to lose this month is 8 more pounds to get to my target of 10 pounds in the month of June. God I really take wait until I see 150! So close!
I've also decided to eat as less if nothing at all of bread. When I wondered why have I gotten so large for my age, I noticed how I always used to eat something with bread, eggs with bread, tomatoes with bread, anything with bread, as soon as I cancel bread out of my day to day diet, I'll lose weight because now those starchy bread carbohydrates are not clogging my colon anymore.
Verobc1
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If you eat whole grain breads like multi grain and flax there are really nutrients in there and lots of fiber you just have to eat it in moderation.
As for white bread, pasta, and rice a lot less nutrients in those since they have been processed so much!!!! Carbs are also good for energy and make you feel full longer! Just a suggestion! Even good foods need to be eaten in moderation it is all about the size of the serving and how many times a day you eat it!
Great job on the workout!
As for white bread, pasta, and rice a lot less nutrients in those since they have been processed so much!!!! Carbs are also good for energy and make you feel full longer! Just a suggestion! Even good foods need to be eaten in moderation it is all about the size of the serving and how many times a day you eat it!
Great job on the workout!
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Elissa1
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Thanks for the pointers, I'll be out shopping today, Hopefully I can find some whole grain breads. I've always wondered though, what is the difference between whole grain and organic bread?
Elissa1
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I feel very exhausted today, and this period pain is killing me, I normally take a lot of pain-killers to avoid the pain and this time I've chosen not to. I need to accept this pain, and any pain in the world that might come my way, because there are no pills for those painful future moments, I'm going to need to learn to take the pain, accept it, and embrace any obstacle.
shawnnam
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Organic means the grains were not grown with pesticides, and whole grain means well... the whole grain is being used instead of being refined into just the crappy parts. The best would be organic whole grain.