Eerika's Diary
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Rox2
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This day has been very bad. All this started when I forgot my lunch home and I went to the school canteen for a luch, I ate food what isnt aloud.. Soo I felt bad about it and I was REALLY cranky about it. When I got home I was tired and hungry.. So somehow I binged food and some chocolate. One hour later and my stomach is hurting very bad. Im feeling down at the moment. Im pretty weak because Im eating just to comfort my feelings! So sick!
I have a spinning class tonight, and you can just guess how excited I am at the moment.. OR NOT! This sucks real bad that my stomach hurts just because I ate some shitty food and candy. Argh..!! And also my tummy is like a swollen football at the moment, all because of the food. I dont want to fail.
Oh sweetie!
No matter what happens, you are not going to fail, ok?
If you have one bad day...even if you have 30 bad days or 100.... you will think about what you REALLY want in your life and you will try again. And you'll keep trying until you get results!! So, over the long-term, you can't fail! Right?
Tomorrow is another day, lovely Eerika, and it will be a good one for you, I think. When you wake up Friday morning, you just get right back on the path of health and fitness you have been following for these last two weeks. It's as easy (and as hard!) as just that. and I know you can do it!
Be strong and know that I (and many other really nice people on this site!) are thinking of you!
eerika
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Hello guys! There is a reason why I havent posted lately. Not a good news.. Im very ill at the moment. My innocent flu has turned out a veryvery bad pneumonia! So I finally started to get medicines yesterday, and the case is so serious that I must get the antibiotics as injections to my muscle every day or a week now or so.. Ive got two shots now and Im still having troubles with breathing and Ive a very bad cough.
So Ive been laying in the bed over week now.. Im feeling like dying! Terrible.. I really think I need a few prayers for me! Ill be writing again when getting better.. Everything is now very messed up because Im so ill. Ive lost over 5kg is 1,5 weeks because Im not able to eat
So Ive been laying in the bed over week now.. Im feeling like dying! Terrible.. I really think I need a few prayers for me! Ill be writing again when getting better.. Everything is now very messed up because Im so ill. Ive lost over 5kg is 1,5 weeks because Im not able to eat
Rox2
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Hello guys! There is a reason why I havent posted lately. Not a good news.. Im very ill at the moment. My innocent flu has turned out a veryvery bad pneumonia! So I finally started to get medicines yesterday, and the case is so serious that I must get the antibiotics as injections to my muscle every day or a week now or so.. Ive got two shots now and Im still having troubles with breathing and Ive a very bad cough.
So Ive been laying in the bed over week now.. Im feeling like dying! Terrible.. I really think I need a few prayers for me! Ill be writing again when getting better.. Everything is now very messed up because Im so ill. Ive lost over 5kg is 1,5 weeks because Im not able to eat
That's terrible! I'm so sorry that you have gotten so ill!!!
It's good that you've got proper care and medicines now and can start to get better.
All that matters is getting well and strong again.
I'm thinking of you, Eerika, and sending my hopes that you will make a swift and entire recovery
eerika
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Comeback!!
Hello guys!
I think I should finally make a comeback to this lovely site. Ive recovered from my pneumonia and feeling totally normal again, except Im going through some harsh times on my emotional side.. In other words Im breaking up with my boyfriend. Soo you can imagine how problematical it is to concentrate on anything else. It wasnt surprise though.. And Im the one who wants to break up. It just didnt work again. I guess Im one restless soul searching for my way in this life!
My weightloss project has got some punches, so I really need to pull it together soon. I havent gained any more kilos, Ive kept those 3-4kg away successfully. Its good to continue here.. Ive been thinking about participating on a kickboxing classes on march.
Hello guys!
I think I should finally make a comeback to this lovely site. Ive recovered from my pneumonia and feeling totally normal again, except Im going through some harsh times on my emotional side.. In other words Im breaking up with my boyfriend. Soo you can imagine how problematical it is to concentrate on anything else. It wasnt surprise though.. And Im the one who wants to break up. It just didnt work again. I guess Im one restless soul searching for my way in this life!
My weightloss project has got some punches, so I really need to pull it together soon. I havent gained any more kilos, Ive kept those 3-4kg away successfully. Its good to continue here.. Ive been thinking about participating on a kickboxing classes on march.
TikTak
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Hello and welcome back!
I'm glad to hear that you have recovered from the pneumonia and I'm sorry to hear that you are going through some emotional stress and breaking up with your bf. Well done for not putting on weight. Sounds like you're on the wagon again and ready to continue your weight loss journey. Keep it up!
I'm glad to hear that you have recovered from the pneumonia and I'm sorry to hear that you are going through some emotional stress and breaking up with your bf. Well done for not putting on weight. Sounds like you're on the wagon again and ready to continue your weight loss journey. Keep it up!
Rox2
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I'm so glad you're well and back on the board, Eerika!
On the other hand, I'm very sorry to hear about your breakup. I know how stressful and horrible that is. So, I really congratulate you on not gaining the weight back despite the troubles you're going through.
Let's both concentrate now on new beginnings and future successes...agreed?!
On the other hand, I'm very sorry to hear about your breakup. I know how stressful and horrible that is. So, I really congratulate you on not gaining the weight back despite the troubles you're going through.
Let's both concentrate now on new beginnings and future successes...agreed?!
eerika
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Im glad to be here.. I have been here reading your journals, but Ive felt like not ready to write my own. But I definitely should keep up with my weightloss now, and not fell into self-pity. Because break ups usually make you feel like that. And put you eat all the junk to comfort the bad feelings. I try not to do that, I really dont have the appetite right now. I was amazed when I jumped on the scale this morning, 87kg with clothes on! Ok, so its like 5kg loss now. I weighted about 92-93kg in december! It good to continue here definitely..
I think it makes a lot because I walk 7 hours in a day at work and lift people etc. Its like a exercise, hard work!
But I need to start exercising more.. But I think because of work I havent gained the weight.
eerika
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I went to the medical-examination today because army requires it. Doctor told me straight I must lose more weight by july, if I really want to cope with the men. Otherwise there is huge risks to get repetetive stress injuries and other fun if Im in a shitty condition. But Im glad Im not starting from the bottom, Ive exercised always.. I just need to lose my weight, starting with eating healthier again!
But it was kind of cold water to the face when I heard it from the doctor. Ive known Im overweighted, but it was so close he didnt write me the papers. I really need to do hard work for this dream! And all the hard work is ahead of me.. Im not even in army yet. OMG.
Anyway, I will get back to you later..
But it was kind of cold water to the face when I heard it from the doctor. Ive known Im overweighted, but it was so close he didnt write me the papers. I really need to do hard work for this dream! And all the hard work is ahead of me.. Im not even in army yet. OMG.
Anyway, I will get back to you later..
Rox2
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Wow! Well...you were already pretty motivated and now you really have a good reason to work hard on losing weight.
You told the doctor that you already lost 4kg, right? That must have felt good to at least be able to tell him that you've already started losing weight!
I know you can get to your goal by July!!!
Go Eerika!
You told the doctor that you already lost 4kg, right? That must have felt good to at least be able to tell him that you've already started losing weight!
I know you can get to your goal by July!!!
Go Eerika!
eerika
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I really did it. Put the applications forward.. Going to the army!
But Im little bit worried about myself now. These relationship things are messing up my thoughts. I cant focus on working out. Ive been smoking again (I used to smoke..), and Im enjoying it because it's taking away my mind from thinking about food! Ive lost a few kilos last week because of it. Bad bad me.. I know its not the right thing, but I feel like punishing myself now.
I came to my apartment again this weekend. I actually went to the club last night with my friend. We had a great time.. And I actually met also someone interesting man. I dunno should I do anything about it. But its nice to have some attention at the moment.. I dont really have anything sane to say here now. I just wanted to announce Im alive!
But Im little bit worried about myself now. These relationship things are messing up my thoughts. I cant focus on working out. Ive been smoking again (I used to smoke..), and Im enjoying it because it's taking away my mind from thinking about food! Ive lost a few kilos last week because of it.
Bad bad me.. I know its not the right thing, but I feel like punishing myself now.I came to my apartment again this weekend. I actually went to the club last night with my friend. We had a great time.. And I actually met also someone interesting man. I dunno should I do anything about it. But its nice to have some attention at the moment.. I dont really have anything sane to say here now. I just wanted to announce Im alive!
Rox2
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I'm so glad you are alive!!!!
Also- don't be hard on yourself. You are going through a rough time and just doing the best you can.
And that is all that can be asked of you!
You'll no doubt quit smoking again when your emotions have calmed and you can concentrate on that aspect of your health, I'm sure of it.
As for going out and meeting new, fun people...that's great! It can really raise your spirits, even if you don't "do anything about it".
And don't worry about being sane. Sane is WAY over-rated, in my book!
Also- don't be hard on yourself. You are going through a rough time and just doing the best you can.
And that is all that can be asked of you!
You'll no doubt quit smoking again when your emotions have calmed and you can concentrate on that aspect of your health, I'm sure of it.
As for going out and meeting new, fun people...that's great! It can really raise your spirits, even if you don't "do anything about it".
And don't worry about being sane. Sane is WAY over-rated, in my book!
eerika
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Back in business!
My diary has been living in silence around here.. I feel so embarrased because I failed again in February. I just doubled up with all the misery in my life back then and couldnt continue. My life has changed dramatically from february though.. My life is taking a new direction!
Ive been exercising like crazy lately, but I started with my low-carb diet a week ago. I will stand up again ready to battle! I really need to get the overweight off! Anyway my goal is to get 8 kg off before 11th of July when Im going to the army. Yep! This girl is going to the military service finally!
In the army you cant avoid shrinking, so I will lose the rest of my overweight in service. That is my plan.
So something has happened. I am making my dream come true. I didnt listen to my ex.. Our messed up relationship ended in january-february. I felt miserable for a while, but I knew it was the right decision. You shouldnt be with a person who isnt supporting you! And actually Ive met a really nice guy lately, I think we are getting serious with him!
He doesnt underestimate me. He is extremly supportive and lovely.
Anyway Im so thrilled for my 1,3kg loss! My 11 workouts and 7 sweaty hours did matter! Not to mention about all the moment feeling the hunger. I survived from my first week! This is good start to continue my long journey... I dont want to give up this time, I cant!
Ive taken my before pictures again, I will post them with my after pics in july.
But now I will wish you all energetic day and I will head to the body pump lesson!!
My diary has been living in silence around here.. I feel so embarrased because I failed again in February. I just doubled up with all the misery in my life back then and couldnt continue. My life has changed dramatically from february though.. My life is taking a new direction!
Ive been exercising like crazy lately, but I started with my low-carb diet a week ago. I will stand up again ready to battle! I really need to get the overweight off! Anyway my goal is to get 8 kg off before 11th of July when Im going to the army. Yep! This girl is going to the military service finally!
In the army you cant avoid shrinking, so I will lose the rest of my overweight in service. That is my plan.
So something has happened. I am making my dream come true. I didnt listen to my ex.. Our messed up relationship ended in january-february. I felt miserable for a while, but I knew it was the right decision. You shouldnt be with a person who isnt supporting you! And actually Ive met a really nice guy lately, I think we are getting serious with him!
He doesnt underestimate me. He is extremly supportive and lovely. Anyway Im so thrilled for my 1,3kg loss! My 11 workouts and 7 sweaty hours did matter! Not to mention about all the moment feeling the hunger. I survived from my first week! This is good start to continue my long journey...
I dont want to give up this time, I cant!Ive taken my before pictures again, I will post them with my after pics in july.
But now I will wish you all energetic day and I will head to the body pump lesson!!
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eerika
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Ouch.. Ive heard those stories too, gaining weight in the army. I havent planed to gain any more kilo though. But some men are so skinny that they get also muscle in the service you know.. Thats why they come back 10kg more heavy. Thats what happened to my ex. Anyway my goals are high what comes to army anyway, Im looking for physically rough service. I dont want to sit on my ass doing some driver's duty.
But some men are so skinny that they get also muscle in the service you know.. Thats why they come back 10kg more heavy. Thats what happened to my ex. Anyway my goals are high what comes to army anyway, Im looking for physically rough service. I dont want to sit on my ass doing some driver's duty.
eerika
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Wednesday 11/5/11
This is the day when I feel like giving it all up. Im not struggling with the diet, Im struggling with other things like school, summerjob.. And because Im stressed, I would like to comfort myself with FOOD of course. So far I havent slipped badly, just drunk a cup of vanilla cappuccino. It was around 100kcal, and first I was thinking about eating Hot cup which included 150kcal.. So I decided to rather enjoy the cappuccino.
My today's eatings have been just normal otherwise:
For breakfast I ate oatmeal with 100g cottage cheese 1,5% and 100g of sugarfree juice soup.
In forenoon I did smoothie from blueberries, quark and sugarfree juice soap. Basic snack..
I also ate about 20g nuts (macadamia, peanuts, cashew..) Good fat!
In afternoon I did 40g pasta, 100g ground meat with garlic, spices and spinach. I also ate 200g veggies. (I didnt eat my another luch today, which includes 200g veggies, 100g meat/fish/chicken
In the evening I was doing my exam at the school and took for snack 20g walnuts and I didnt eat them all...
Just a moment ago I drunk the cappuccino and I will eat egg whites for evening meal.
My calories are around 1500-1600. I didnt exercise today, I had a day of rest. Ive already done 4 workouts on this week and my neck is hurting.. I guess its because Ive trained my back too much.
Anyway I didnt comfort myself with food and thats the main point!
This is the day when I feel like giving it all up. Im not struggling with the diet, Im struggling with other things like school, summerjob.. And because Im stressed, I would like to comfort myself with FOOD of course. So far I havent slipped badly, just drunk a cup of vanilla cappuccino. It was around 100kcal, and first I was thinking about eating Hot cup which included 150kcal.. So I decided to rather enjoy the cappuccino.
My today's eatings have been just normal otherwise:
For breakfast I ate oatmeal with 100g cottage cheese 1,5% and 100g of sugarfree juice soup.
In forenoon I did smoothie from blueberries, quark and sugarfree juice soap. Basic snack..
I also ate about 20g nuts (macadamia, peanuts, cashew..) Good fat!
In afternoon I did 40g pasta, 100g ground meat with garlic, spices and spinach. I also ate 200g veggies. (I didnt eat my another luch today, which includes 200g veggies, 100g meat/fish/chicken
In the evening I was doing my exam at the school and took for snack 20g walnuts and I didnt eat them all...
Just a moment ago I drunk the cappuccino and I will eat egg whites for evening meal.
My calories are around 1500-1600. I didnt exercise today, I had a day of rest. Ive already done 4 workouts on this week and my neck is hurting.. I guess its because Ive trained my back too much.
Anyway I didnt comfort myself with food and thats the main point!
eerika
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60 days left as a civilian! After july I will always be a reservist.. 
My weekend started today, too bad my boyfriend has to do night sift for the whole weekend. So Im spending the weekend alone, doing school works and just working out... I hope I have lost another kilo in this week. But Ive decided to not weight myself until sunday or monday.
I felt like eating chocolate and candy today, like I felt yesterday.. But Im glad I know why! My period appeared.. Blah. I hate these feelings, my stomach is all swollen and Im having terrible cramps. I shouldnt even look at myself from the mirror now. Feels like Im standing in the starting-point! It is really astonishing how your body can act, and how it reacts on changes. I hate that women have to suffer once in a month.
I just have to stay strong now, manage to monday. Cant eat any crap on the weekend. Then it will get easier.
What did I eat today?
Breakfast: Oatmeal, 100g cottage cheese 1,5%, 100g sugarfree juice soup. (Vitamins, magnesium and omegas)
Snack: 200g Quark, 100g sugarfree juice soup, 10g ryecereals.
Lunch: 200g Vegetables, 2 fried eggs, 50g turkey fillet.
Dinner: 200g Veggies, 100g ground meat with garlic and spices, 40g bulgur, 30g cottage cheese 1,5%. (+omegas)
Snack: Vanilla cappuccino
For the evening meal Im going to eat whether quark with juice soup or fried eggs. (+omegas)
Calories should be again around 1500-1600.
I went to the spinning/pump class today, such a lazy work out!! I dunno whats going on... My body is in recover state I guess.
My weekend started today, too bad my boyfriend has to do night sift for the whole weekend. So Im spending the weekend alone, doing school works and just working out... I hope I have lost another kilo in this week. But Ive decided to not weight myself until sunday or monday.
I felt like eating chocolate and candy today, like I felt yesterday.. But Im glad I know why! My period appeared.. Blah. I hate these feelings, my stomach is all swollen and Im having terrible cramps. I shouldnt even look at myself from the mirror now. Feels like Im standing in the starting-point! It is really astonishing how your body can act, and how it reacts on changes. I hate that women have to suffer once in a month.
I just have to stay strong now, manage to monday. Cant eat any crap on the weekend. Then it will get easier.
What did I eat today?
Breakfast: Oatmeal, 100g cottage cheese 1,5%, 100g sugarfree juice soup. (Vitamins, magnesium and omegas)
Snack: 200g Quark, 100g sugarfree juice soup, 10g ryecereals.
Lunch: 200g Vegetables, 2 fried eggs, 50g turkey fillet.
Dinner: 200g Veggies, 100g ground meat with garlic and spices, 40g bulgur, 30g cottage cheese 1,5%. (+omegas)
Snack: Vanilla cappuccino
For the evening meal Im going to eat whether quark with juice soup or fried eggs. (+omegas)
Calories should be again around 1500-1600.
I went to the spinning/pump class today, such a lazy work out!! I dunno whats going on... My body is in recover state I guess.
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eerika
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I couldnt resist to weight myself this morning when I was having motivation problems. Well, it was worth it! I went afterwards for a jogg with a happy face! I weighted last time 90kg in last year on my own scale! So this morning it showed me 90,8kg! I think Im able to get rid of that number untill monday. Then I will say GOODBYE to 90 kilos and I dont never ever want to weight that much again!
Im losing weight pretty quickly now, but there is fat where to lose! So Im not wondering.. I know it will slow down quickly also. These kind of moments really make all the hard work worth it! I just have to be patient, right?!
This is my second weekend without candy or any other junk food. Im a bit proud of myself! Ive followed the diet pretty strictly. It hasnt been easy, but definitely worth it. First week is the hardest anyway. I assume this will get a bit easier every week.
I woke up late today, then went for a 50min jogg. Now Im enjoying my oatmeal and in few hours Ive to go to Core lesson to the gym. Life is good!
I weighted last time 90kg in last year on my own scale! So this morning it showed me 90,8kg! I think Im able to get rid of that number untill monday. Then I will say GOODBYE to 90 kilos and I dont never ever want to weight that much again! Im losing weight pretty quickly now, but there is fat where to lose! So Im not wondering.. I know it will slow down quickly also. These kind of moments really make all the hard work worth it! I just have to be patient, right?!
This is my second weekend without candy or any other junk food. Im a bit proud of myself! Ive followed the diet pretty strictly. It hasnt been easy, but definitely worth it. First week is the hardest anyway. I assume this will get a bit easier every week.
I woke up late today, then went for a 50min jogg. Now Im enjoying my oatmeal and in few hours Ive to go to Core lesson to the gym. Life is good!
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