Eerika's Diary

Okay, so Im very bored at the moment, and I have absolutely nothing else to do, sooo I update some more my brain vomit here! :D (Mom would say to this,.. that how about the schoolworks.) But Im really not at the mood for schoolworks now!:D

Heres some things on my mind at the moment. Im a bit worried about my skin, because in the past year my skin has changed a lot, nowadays it looks like I have some kind of acne and theres spots all over my face! Umm, yuck?

So I wonder will the diet help my skin, I hope so! I dont want to get any kind of medicine yet to this problem, because acne medicine has side effects like depression! :ack2:

I also went to the gym today and did some leg workout. First I warmed up with the bike and in the end did some abs too, but my abs are so sore from yesterday's workout! I also walked to the gym and back, so it was like 20min there and 20min back.. Good warmup too!

Tomorrow we're going to the spinning class with my boyfriend..

I wish I will be able to keep this good spirit up! :rolleyes:
 
Helloooo there!

Just a short post coming.. I went spinning class yesterday and it was absolutely great! Today my legs was sore but I went to the body pump class.. Oh boy, it was such a torture! :D I almost saw stars.. But survived to the end! YAYY! :)

I found from the grocery store low carb bars and some cashew & macadamia nuts what Im going to eat in the movies tonight. :) Not all of them though!

Okay but hope you guys are feeling good today!
 
Hey there eerika. You weren't kidding when you said your parents were "sporty". They look very posh and dapper LOL. I really like that suit your dad is wearing. I wish one day I could look good in a suit too :-/ Your mom does remind me of Rox as well :D

To answer your question on the other thread, the age limits for enlistment in reserves is pretty high (39) but pretty strict for Marines and Air Force (guess they need the youngest and fit there). I hope you and your bf come to an agreement about your "dream" :)

I've never heard of the Paleo kick start diet. I know they had a large argument about the paleo diet here a few weeks back but this seems different. Will be interesting to see how it works for you.
 
Its good to see you posting so much. You will lose your weight and you will be beautiful in your own special way,never mind what some one else looks like. Think long term andwhat's manageable today.
 
Daybehavior said:
Hey there eerika. You weren't kidding when you said your parents were "sporty". They look very posh and dapper LOL. I really like that suit your dad is wearing. I wish one day I could look good in a suit too :-/ Your mom does remind me of Rox as well :D

To answer your question on the other thread, the age limits for enlistment in reserves is pretty high (39) but pretty strict for Marines and Air Force (guess they need the youngest and fit there). I hope you and your bf come to an agreement about your "dream" :)

I've never heard of the Paleo kick start diet. I know they had a large argument about the paleo diet here a few weeks back but this seems different. Will be interesting to see how it works for you.
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Haha, you though I was lying about my parents? :D Well, they're very athletic as you can see from the photo. My father's figure is like a bodybuilder's! :D And my mom is also very lean.. They've exercised like crazy last 5-7 years and eaten healthy of course.

Im sure the day will come when you will wear a suit and think you're looking great! You have already lost over 30 lbs right? You're in a very good start already.. Dont you dare to quit! ;) And by the way, I insist to see the photo of you then wearing a suit! Ha! :D

In Finland all the men are required to do their military service and their service can last from 6 months to 12 months. Women in the other hand can choose if they want to go to the army.. And of course they will choose women who are in a good physical condition because training is really hard. And I think my bf wont ever give his approval to my dream.. He doesnt like the idea women going to army as a volunteer. Plah..

Paleo is working great for me.. Im just waiting to get on a scale, because I can feel there has happened some change! Okay, but I will write more later.. :)
 
Happychubette said:
Its good to see you posting so much. You will lose your weight and you will be beautiful in your own special way,never mind what some one else looks like. Think long term andwhat's manageable today.
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You're right about that I shouldnt compare myself to anyone else ever.. Its hard though. And Im trying to focus on this in a long term..

Thanks for your comment, made me smile! :)
 
I watched such a sad documentary about a young girl who had cystic fibrosis. The disease isnt something you can cure, so after years of fighting against it she got a transplant (new lungs).. But 1,5 years later she died anyway. So so sad.. :(

I've cried my eyes out of my head! Not a very nice saturday evening, Im feeling depressed for her.. That a young girl had to die such a painful way! And as a becoming nurse, Im feeling in a this kind of moments, will I be able to handle this kind of things in the future. Huh.. LIFE IS HARSH! Too harsh sometimes..

So let's be grateful that we can live and make our dreams come true.. At least overweight is something we can cure of. And Im 100% sure it is worth it!! It is for our own health, so we could live a long healthy life.

Love to you all and I wish you the best energy ever for a new day! :waving:
 
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Paleo kick-start, DAY 6

I came to my own apartment just a while ago, my school continues tomorrow. Its so silent and nice here, I kinda like my own space, but of course time with my bf is precious. :beating:

I should clean this place, specially my bathroom needs a little facelift! :D I actually hate the most when bathroom is messy. Im not a cleanfreak though.. I havent been in my place for three weeks so you can wonder how the dust has landed!! I have also so many bags to unpack, arghh..

My paleo dieting has went alright, eventhough I have eaten few fruits and couple of glasses juice. But I think its better than if I had fell to eat some junk food or candy! But after next week I will add some fruits and berries in to my diet.

My own scale showed NO difference in my weight! I feel much lighter, but I weighted still 91 kg! My parent's scale shows few kilos less.. I dunno which one is right now, I will use mine though and go with it. :cool:
I also measured my waist and it showed 99cm, which is about 6cm less than a month ago! So yayyy! :biggrinjester: But I wont be discouraged about my scale now, Ive been losing weight just about two weeks now. Im waiting so bad to weight under 90 kg on my own scale!! :p But I will weight myself tomorrow morning, so I will get a right result.. So we will see! :)
 
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I cleaned up my bathroom, unpacked my bags and made the most perfect tasting guacamole. :hurray: Feeling like a winner, except..
Im feeling like shit about one thing. This is out of topic now, not about food or dieting or working out.

Tomorrow is the day when volunteer women will be stepping in a military service, I was supposed to be there.. But Im not, because I didnt have a guts enough to sign up last year and also because I am in a shitty shape. Im feeling pretty sad about this..

BUT, there's few months left to sign up again and I would be stepping in the service on july.. I just dont know what to do. My bf is VERYVERY against it, he has always been. And he makes me angry.. He feels like he has the right to crush my dream. Ive been thinking about signing in without telling him. Not such a good idea, but well.. I should listen to my heart? And he can choose does he wanna be with me then. Huh..

I think Im going to do my evening workout with my indoor bike now!
 
Well it sounds like you have a difficult decision to make. Be strong girl. Do what makes you happy and if he loves you he will follow. Good work on the exercise front.
 
Happychubette said:
Well it sounds like you have a difficult decision to make. Be strong girl. Do what makes you happy and if he loves you he will follow. Good work on the exercise front.
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Yes Ive a difficult decision to make.. And you're right, or I hope you are. I think Im signing up this year..
 
Hi Eerika! It's great to see your progress...you seem so motivated and energetic!

And I enjoyed seeing the photo of your parents...especially your beautiful mother ;)

As for your problem... I'd say that it's best to follow your dream.People who love you need to support your dreams, not hold you back from them. If your bf truly loves you, he'll get used to the idea. So, no worries, right?
It's a hard decision, but I do hope you sign up....
You are so young- I really think you need to seek life experiences that interest you!
 
Rox said:
Hi Eerika! It's great to see your progress...you seem so motivated and energetic!

And I enjoyed seeing the photo of your parents...especially your beautiful mother ;)

As for your problem... I'd say that it's best to follow your dream.People who love you need to support your dreams, not hold you back from them. If your bf truly loves you, he'll get used to the idea. So, no worries, right?
It's a hard decision, but I do hope you sign up....
You are so young- I really think you need to seek life experiences that interest you!
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Hey there! Nice to see you here after a while Rox! I suprised myself too because I feel so motivated and well.. Im trying to be energetic! :D

I agree, my mother is a beautiful woman. :)

Shortly about my problem: I do have a conflict about this army thing with my bf, but we will se what happens.. I have few months time to think about it and so has my bf. But you're right though.. He shouldnt hold my dreams back, he should support me. It just seems like he doesnt get it. :(

I went spinning class today! It was such a torture, but much easier than two weeks ago! Im so proud of myself that I havent eaten any junk food or candy! The last weekend with my bf was annoying at times, because he did wanna go for pizza but I refused to go! :D
 
Yikes...that is a tough decision eerika. Most people will bend to their partner's will, but its good that you're thinking about yourself and your dream. I don't know you well enough to give you any advice but I hope whatever decision you make, it is one that you will not regret later on in life.

Great job on passing up the pizza hahaha
 
Its my 15th weight loss day! The time has felt long even its just a bit ovet two weeks..

Im so tired of school already! :D Im wondering am I eating too much because my weight havent dropped at all.. Argh.
Today Im feeling very a bit angry and frustrated. My (skinny) friend bought a big bag of candy today at school, and then she ate them and praised to all how tasty the candies was.. I felt bad at the moment. She doesnt know about me losing weight, but I just kinda got annoyed of her.. Because she is just pretty and skinny AND she can eat those candies without feeling bad about it!! And at that moment I just wanted to cry and eat all the candies in this world! :D Really strong feelings!

So now Im also feeling like I should eat something.. Even I really shouldnt. So I will go and take a nap instead of eating, and I will go to core work out to the gym tonight. Even I dont feel like working out.. Im just feeling like I wanna eat candy. :banghead:
Trying to stay strong..
 
Are you using the same scale when you say that you haven't lost anything in two weeks? Or maybe it just water or something? Well if she continues to eat a lot of candy even she will become overweight someday. Or then she is just one of the few lucky ones that seem to get away with anything when it comes to weight gain. She might have those kind of genes or something. Not many people are that lucky. :banghead:

Be strong! Don't have any candy!
 
TikTak said:
Are you using the same scale when you say that you haven't lost anything in two weeks? Or maybe it just water or something? Well if she continues to eat a lot of candy even she will become overweight someday. Or then she is just one of the few lucky ones that seem to get away with anything when it comes to weight gain. She might have those kind of genes or something. Not many people are that lucky. :banghead:

Be strong! Don't have any candy!
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I used my own scale yesterday.. But my parent's scale shows about two kilos less always than mine. But I havent lost really nothing yet, I dunno am I eating too much now or something. Im stressing about it now..

And you're right if the girl would continue eating candy, she will become fat. Haha! :D But no she wont become fat, she is very athletic girl. I envy her a bit. :D

And I stayed strong today, I went to the gym and not to the Makuuni (you know the shop, right?) :D But Ive felt very bad and pathetic today.. Im wondering is my diet working or am I doing something wrong now. And if I have to be more strict I dont know how can I handle it.. Im stessing out now.
 
This day has been very bad. All this started when I forgot my lunch home and I went to the school canteen for a luch, I ate food what isnt aloud.. Soo I felt bad about it and I was REALLY cranky about it. When I got home I was tired and hungry.. So somehow I binged food and some chocolate. One hour later and my stomach is hurting very bad. Im feeling down at the moment. Im pretty weak because Im eating just to comfort my feelings! So sick!

I have a spinning class tonight, and you can just guess how excited I am at the moment.. OR NOT! This sucks real bad that my stomach hurts just because I ate some shitty food and candy. Argh..!! And also my tummy is like a swollen football at the moment, all because of the food. I dont want to fail. :(
 
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