eerika
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Ok, so this is my start. My weight loss history is long and hopeless, but here i am willing to try again. In last years I've succeeded to gain weight insted of losing it. I've struggeled with my weight since i was teenager, and i am afraid to gain any more kilo. So i want to make a permanent change in my life.
I'm from a family which is very conscious of their health and eating punctually. At some point i kind of fed up with it all and eated what i wanted and how much i wanted. I didnt want to exercise and i gain weight a lot in a pretty short time. So i am about 20kg overweighted and 175cm tall. My goal has always been to weigh under 70kg, and at the moment im 90kg.
In 2008 i got some help from a personal trainer who created a diet for me, which was about 1500- 1600 caloried per day, and i actually achieved something and losed almost 10kg in 3months! Then i met my current boyfriend and my attention kind of made a move to other things. So obviously my diet suffered a lot and in the end i forgot it. I realised that i filled myself again with all the crap i got in my hands and didnt care about the healthy side of it.
After that i've tried to start weight losing couple of times with no results. But i've managed to keep my weight in the same reading for few months now. Around the christmas my state of being was again pathetic and i really felt disgusted by myself. It was the peak of all this, and i thought i really cant deal with this feeling anymore. I didnt enjoy the christmas really because i felt uncomfortable with my family. I think they just feel sorry for me because i cant make it. I've sporty parents and two fabilous sisters, and im just this sad fat black sheep with them! And yes, they have made it very clear to me. Whenever i see them i hear this lecture about it. At some point i thought that they just cares about me and im trying my best. Now i dont want to hear the lecture any more time. I've decided to not see my family for while because they attend to discourage me at this point. I have to make the START by myself. It's me who has to lose every single kilo.
Anyway, maybe there's a little lecture about my family! After all they are good people.
I've been browsing this forum for few weeks now and im very inspired of all you who have made committed to lose your overweight! It has also been very uplifting to see before and after photos of people who has made a huge change in their lifes. It makes me feel i can do it! I also hope i will get some support i need from here, from people who are struggling with same thing.
I think im going to update this when i feel like it. I started my diet about week ago and i can already see a small change on my scale, -1,3kg!
I've felt a bit hunger, specially in the evenings, but its just because my stomach is shrinking. First weeks are always the hardest right..? I've also exercised in the past week four times. Mainly walking, i cant even jog yet not to mention running! I like doing body pump and gym training but i think i will invest in walking because aerobic, long lasting training is my key to lose weight. I also have this distant dream about running a half marathon some day!
I think i will finish this post now and get back to you later!
I'm from a family which is very conscious of their health and eating punctually. At some point i kind of fed up with it all and eated what i wanted and how much i wanted. I didnt want to exercise and i gain weight a lot in a pretty short time. So i am about 20kg overweighted and 175cm tall. My goal has always been to weigh under 70kg, and at the moment im 90kg.
In 2008 i got some help from a personal trainer who created a diet for me, which was about 1500- 1600 caloried per day, and i actually achieved something and losed almost 10kg in 3months! Then i met my current boyfriend and my attention kind of made a move to other things. So obviously my diet suffered a lot and in the end i forgot it. I realised that i filled myself again with all the crap i got in my hands and didnt care about the healthy side of it.
After that i've tried to start weight losing couple of times with no results. But i've managed to keep my weight in the same reading for few months now. Around the christmas my state of being was again pathetic and i really felt disgusted by myself. It was the peak of all this, and i thought i really cant deal with this feeling anymore. I didnt enjoy the christmas really because i felt uncomfortable with my family. I think they just feel sorry for me because i cant make it. I've sporty parents and two fabilous sisters, and im just this sad fat black sheep with them! And yes, they have made it very clear to me. Whenever i see them i hear this lecture about it. At some point i thought that they just cares about me and im trying my best. Now i dont want to hear the lecture any more time. I've decided to not see my family for while because they attend to discourage me at this point. I have to make the START by myself. It's me who has to lose every single kilo.
Anyway, maybe there's a little lecture about my family!
After all they are good people. I've been browsing this forum for few weeks now and im very inspired of all you who have made committed to lose your overweight! It has also been very uplifting to see before and after photos of people who has made a huge change in their lifes. It makes me feel i can do it! I also hope i will get some support i need from here, from people who are struggling with same thing.
I think im going to update this when i feel like it. I started my diet about week ago and i can already see a small change on my scale, -1,3kg!
I've felt a bit hunger, specially in the evenings, but its just because my stomach is shrinking. First weeks are always the hardest right..? I've also exercised in the past week four times. Mainly walking, i cant even jog yet not to mention running! I like doing body pump and gym training but i think i will invest in walking because aerobic, long lasting training is my key to lose weight. I also have this distant dream about running a half marathon some day!
I think i will finish this post now and get back to you later!
