Ednita's Diary ::.fRoM fLobbA fLOBbA tO hUbBa hUbBa!!.::

eDnIta

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My name is Edna, I’m 23 years old, I’m going to graduate next year from dentistry FINALLY! now...about why I'm here:

For as long as I can remember I been told by my parents to eat everything on my plate, I’ve been in the kind of family where fat is healthy and I really have to say that plate was SOME PLATE! It was a big big plate with a loot of food on it, greasy, very salted... They would put bread, tortillas, cheese, salsa... etc. Around the table to eat with this dish, also we drank a lot of soda if not some extra sugary water.
I’m half Mexican half Lebanese and well i guess you know how popular we are with the food haha... :piggy:

I think one of my biggest issues with being obese is my father, when I was young he called me names, it didn’t bother me until I grew older and then he embarrassed me in public and he even permitted my brother to do it, (I was confused he wanted me to eat everything, we always went out for greasy, chunky food, he wanted me fat, what did I do wrong?) I cried a lot on those days, my father usually said that he made fun of me because maybe I’d be ashamed and loose some weight, with time (that would be from 18 to my 20’s so not that long ago) I learned how to fight back and somehow ignore him or make fun of him instead so he is kinda learning to shut up. Don’t take me wrong I love my father and he has given me everything except confidence...nor self esteem hehe..:(

My personality is this, I'm the fat girl who makes you laugh, the girl who hangs out with boys but never becomes their girlfriend, the one who has a beautiful face but she is fat (believe me I heard that 2 many times before), the one that goes out with friends but never gets picked by boys, the kind of girl that everyone will say shes tha bomb! that she is fun, outgoing, friendly... but still, the one who cries at night and thinks to herself "girl...you are a joke"

So the thing is I learned to stay fat, I think I’ve been hiding in my obesity for to long, its my safe zone, its my shell, but I need to be healthy, I need to grow up and build a new me, a person full of life, with self esteem and a bright future. :D

In a year I’ll be a dentist as I said, I want to look beautiful on my graduation day and I want THAT day to mark a new start in my life.

So, you are very welcome to read the pages I'll write every day (hopefully) in this diary, where I'll show everything I'll be doing to become this new girl. My diet, my calorie count, my problems in every day and well some jokes and silly things to! :rotflmao:

I'll see you around and thanks for reading...

-Edna

P.S. “Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending”...right?
 
Bad bad day

Pfff... Today wasn't exactly what I thought it would be, its a bad day 4 me, I don't have a penny to buy anything on my diet and everything that I have to eat in y home is junk... so.. I messed up big time because I had a problem with my boyfriend earlier :( I think he doesn't understand whats going on in my house, I had I fight with my father 2, thing is, I ate a lot and not the healthier choices :( still I'll try to recover later on the end of the day... :)
 
:waving:Hi (almost) Dr. Edna! How very cool that you are almost done your degree and ready to hang your own shingle! Well done. And might I add, if you can get through Dentist School - YOU CAN DO ANYTHING!!! You are obviously one determined (and smart) cookie.

Speaking of cookies, sorry that you had a hard day yesterday, hun. :banghead: Relationships are certainly tricky, aren't they? Be kind to yourself!

Changes don't happen overnight. Be willing to change. :Angel_anim: Research how many calories you need daily to reach your goal. Set an exercise plan - and follow it! And you will be at your goal before you know it.

Hang in there, and welcome to the forum!
Best wishes on your journey,:auto:
ABBA
 
yay^^ i found your diary :3
nice intro btw.
i know exactly what you mean about the whole eat everything on your plate.. i was the first born. and my parents enforced that with me. but my younger brother and sister were left alone... and guess what?! they are slim >.<
mmm... and that sucks with your bf and dad... just remember to stay true to yourself. your health is the most important thing... lol along with looking hot! =P
 
Heey! thank you for writing in :D

I am counting my calories :p and well everything is going well so far :D
I am on the right track again yeeei!

I was a first born 2 and yes my brother is skinny, I had everything on my shoulders and he just made his way pfff that's not good hahaha

Today i'm doing ok so far I'm going to do my calorie count and then i'll post it... love 2 you all
 
Friday 23 Jan

Today :p

Breakfast:
2 eggs (- 1yolk)
coffee
1 bread

Cal: 70+200+6 = 276

Snack: 1 granola bar 180

Lunch:
Subway
Bread Wheat 100
Light Mayonnaise18
Cheese 41
Ham 112
Lettuce, tomatoe, cucumber blah 10 aprox

Cal: 100+18+41+112+10 = 493 (276+281= 557 so far)

Snack:
apple and yogurt 74+1000=174

Dinner:

Cereal (special K) 114
Milk: 112
banana: 110

Cal: 114+112+110= 336 (557+336=893)
SNACKS: 354

893+SNACKS= 1247

pfff... I'm burning calories with so much counting!! I hate math hahahaha
 
back to shool!

ABBAgirl thanks for the cheers :p I'm getting on my path again hehe no more bf problems

So I'll focus on my diet... somehting like What am I going to do on monday? I'll be back 2 school and have no idea what my diet plan is going to be,

I think I need to do something different with my meals haha ... today was the only diferent day since I started (all the other day I had been eating tuna..pfff enough.. I'm looking 4 some new recepies :D) I need something I can take 2 school, I'll be all around clinics and classrooms pff and all there is to eat in campus is what the machines sell (can't eat that) so I am on resignation zone to hold my lunch bag all day long lol!
 
tnx! I am determinated to loose every pound I have on my shoulders (well the excess one lol) bout the title lol I thoug about the flubber movie haha and the hubba thing I don't remember when I heard it but when I see a cute guy I go: hubba hubba :eek2::blush5: lol

xOxO
 
sheeesh to school days

Hey Angie !!

I've been so busy this days I couldn't even get to the computer, I started school today and well with the organization of the clinics and class and labs pfff its a mess so far, but I'm trying to hold on to the diet, still I made a terrible mistake today :( my friends and I went to have breakfast and they had pancackes so I did 2 and well thats not all when we got out of school I totally forgot my diet and I had a coke! I feel so ashamed.. I need a plan to follow on school days cuz If I don't Ill fall again :(:(:( soooo sad.. there goes my 4 pounds PPPPFFFFF!! :'(
 
ok I'm still doing this... I messed up but well hehe still I have to do my calorie count right?


pancakes-347
2 eggs - 211
coffee-6
Coke-97 (all sugar haaaa)

Lunch
(this one I screw up 2 :()
sugar bread- 500
tuna-191
2 slices bread- 140
mayo-90

Dinner
tuna- 191 (yes tuna again)
soup veggies-128

TOTAL: 1901 DAAAAAMMIIIT!!!!!! :( so disappointed
 
mmm... well dont worry.. i dont think you gained! i have a feeling your bmr is at least 2000+ calories a day soo you should have stayed pretty even today... mmm maybe you can pack lunches? soo its all ready to go and no fuss. =P we all need a chance to slip up on occasion we just have to make sure it doesnt become a habit. or we will fall right back into that same evil lazy fatty boat again D:

good luck!
 
awwww

tnx girl :D

I'm back and good :p

I'm a little sad because my boyfriend was sent by hes company to another state today, he will come back on Tuesday but still I'm going to miss him <3 I love him hehehe... and I do most of my diet with him :( buuuh ok anyway I want to make a big difference on me in this 2 weeks :D aaand you can also see it cuz at the end of it I'll upload a few photos .. so I'm a little scared lol
 
Hey hun! I was reading through your journal and I can totally relate to you! It's definitely hard to go out with friends and never get hit on by guys. ORR have guys only be your friends and you know it's only because of your weight. It's great that you're making a change though! :) The weight will melt off super fast!

ALSO, just wondering, what state do you go to dental school in? :)
 
hi :D

hi! tnx for writing here :D

Yup I've always been friends with boys pff but they don't behave the same with other girls... but this year that is tottally changing!

I don't live on the US I live in Tijuana California (in Mexico) and I'm studying here :hat: the name of the school is UABC (University of Baja California) Still I'm getting my papers in order cuz I'm going to do my practice in San Diego once I do my professional exam :p I'll send pics of that 2.. hehehe
 
hi! tnx for writing here :D

Yup I've always been friends with boys pff but they don't behave the same with other girls... but this year that is tottally changing!

I don't live on the US I live in Tijuana California (in Mexico) and I'm studying here :hat: the name of the school is UABC (University of Baja California) Still I'm getting my papers in order cuz I'm going to do my practice in San Diego once I do my professional exam :p I'll send pics of that 2.. hehehe


OH GOSH! HAh nice. I was about to FREAKKK out because I'm going to pharmacy school and my university also offers a dental school (DDS)anddddd i thought you may have been a student here. HAHA. OK so you're not. we can still be friends though. ;)
 
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OH GOSH! HAh nice. I was about to FREAKKK out because I'm going to pharmacy school and my university also offers a dental school (DDS)anddddd i thought you may have been a student here. HAHA. OK so you're not. we can still be friends though. ;)

what school r u in? I have some friends on SDSU that's the school I'm doing my exam for (I live like 10 min from San Diego)

and yup I'd love 2 b friends even if we are not on the same school hahaha
 
your boyfriend is also getting into shape with you?!

lol yeah we will all have to post pictures in the summer/fall for sure... i think thats when most of us are going to be hitting are goals... and then its going to be time for our lifetime of maintenance and living fully! wooh there will be no more weight to hold us back!
 
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