Dutch girl working from 240 to 150 lbs!

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Cattitude

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Well, here goes. This will be my diary for the next few months and I hope to post something about exercise and food every day to keep my motivation up. (Except for the days that I'll be away from the computer, of course!) I want to put up a goal for every day, or couple of days, so I know what I'm doing this for! So I'll tell you guys tomorrow if I made today's goal, etc, etc.

Oh and FYI: I'm a 27 year old girl living in The Netherlands.

June 19th:

Weight: 109 kilos (240.3 lbs)
Bodyfat: 38,4 %
Muscle index: 31,2 %

Good: brought my own lunch to work, all healthy stuff (broccoli! nuts!)
Good: haven't smoked yet (I'm also quitting cigs at the same time as dieting...might as well throw all the bad stuff out in one go!)
Bad: I'm grouchy and a little short-tempered today, which must be due to sugar- and nicotine-cravings, cause I'm normally really nice LOL

Goal for today: walk to the beach tonight to watch the sunset (it's about 40 mins round trip from the house)


LONG TERM GOAL: weighing 70 kilos (154.3 lbs)
 
Im taking being grouchy up to an art form :) don't ever apologize for it :D just kinda go with it if the mood hits -being nice all the time is sooo overrated :D

Welcome to yuor diary and to the wonderful world of being smoke free :D good luck on your journey - and have fun :D
 
I have to run to work Cattitude but was thrilled to see your diary. I was born in Holland in Santpoort, Velsen in north Holland. I live in Canada now. All my relatives stlll live in Holland. Welcome to weight-loss.fitness and I know you are going to find the support you need here. Have a nice day. I'll check in later :)
 
Ooooh you guys, this sucks! It's turning into a really bad day. I had a crying breakdown at work for no reason at all and ended up leaving early, which for sure is gonna get me into trouble tomorrow!

Then I lost my bike key and spent an hour trying to pry open the lock with a hammer and screwdriver and that didn't work, so I had to take the damn bus home...

I feel a little better now that I've had some pieces of lean turkey at home, so maybe it was bloodsugar-related, but I think I just really hate my job too.

Anyways, I'm still gonna try to get to the beach tonight, because even if I have another crying fit (and it feels that way) then I'd much rather be at the beach than feeling sorry for myself on the couch.

More tomorrow.
 
Wow! That's great that you're working on smoking and weight-loss at the same time. I know that will probably make it twice as hard for you! I am about the same size as you are, with the same goals, and eating well and exercising 5-6 days a week has helped me lose 12 lbs so far. This diary has been a great motivation for me, the people here are great. I'll continue to post to try to motivate you.

As for the crying fits... they freakin suck, huh. I had them all last week really bad. And I rarely ever cry. Funerals, my baby getting hurt, fights with my love, sometime I cry at those. But only sometimes. Last week it was so bad that I had to go take a pregnancy test because I was losing my mind. My trainer said it could be a lot to do with body changes. I have only had one minor breakdown this week when my mom started yelling at me for something she did that was stupid. She had forgotten she was the one who did it and lashed out even more when she remembered.

These will get better... and you're right. If it happens again, be on the beach. Better than anywhere I can think of. I do my crying in the pool so I can blame the wetness and redness on the water. I'm a dork, but it works for me.
 
Quitting smoking and unhealthy foods at once could sure cause a crying spell, that's for sure. Just roll with it. You WILL get past the cravings sweetie :). Keep us posted.
 
Oy, sorry to hear your having crying jags, but if losing weight and quitting smoking were easy every body would be doing it. No, your taking a road that is definalty less traveled in this day and age because its inconvenient and hard and people are used to convenience and ease. The only advice I have to offer is if you feel like crying and having a breakdown go right ahead and do it. Don't hold it in for the sake of someone elses comfort. I've been traveling the weightloss path for 8 months now and sometimes I lose it too, and you know what, most of the time I FEEL BETTER after a good cry, it doens't solve anything, but it kinda gives you a numb feel for a while...lol.

I know you can do this, I have been doing it and you can do it to. Giving up smoking and losing weight are two things that are positive changes in your life, and you may not feel the effects of those positive changes right now but guarenteed your going to feel them in a couple of months.
 
Cattitude said:
Ooooh you guys, this sucks! It's turning into a really bad day. I had a crying breakdown at work for no reason at all and ended up leaving early, which for sure is gonna get me into trouble tomorrow!

Then I lost my bike key and spent an hour trying to pry open the lock with a hammer and screwdriver and that didn't work, so I had to take the damn bus home...

I feel a little better now that I've had some pieces of lean turkey at home, so maybe it was bloodsugar-related, but I think I just really hate my job too.

Anyways, I'm still gonna try to get to the beach tonight, because even if I have another crying fit (and it feels that way) then I'd much rather be at the beach than feeling sorry for myself on the couch.

More tomorrow.
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Hey ...

if your sugar is too low ... you will be a very unhappy person ... so try eating some fruit .. it tastes good and keeps your engine revved ..

ttylater
Natalie jo :)
 
Its great that your quitting smoking at dieting at the same time. You also must be really strong because they are both difficult things to do. If you feel you need to have a crying fit go ahead and have one. I had a huge one last night. Sometimes you just need one. You'll find all the support you need at WLF. I'm new here too but everyone here is really nice and supportive and its a great help.
 
Nat's totally right. Blood sugar can cause a major downward spiral, and when mine gets too low, I'm more likely to binge.

You're in the right place for crying jags, too. We'll all hold your hand, sit down with you, and say "It's really ok to cry" and half the time, we'll cry with you... Shared joy is twice the joy. Shared pain is half the pain.
 
Welcome Cattitude. I'm an american expat living next door to you in Germany. I like the idea of posting short-term goals in your journal and then coming back and commenting on them. It keeps you accountable.

Good luck with your journey, hopefully we'll both get there with our desired weight loss.
 
Hey y'all,

Thanks so much for all your kind words, it really makes me feel so much better! I haven't smoked in two days and the first pain of it is already gone...that's to say, I don't think about it ALL the time anymore. Have been eating too much today though, but I still feel really healthy and rosy cause of all the salty sea air. We'll see what the scale says tomorrow (aargh aargh).

Two days ago:
Goal for today: walk to the beach tonight to watch the sunset (it's about 40 mins round trip from the house)
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Made it! Both yesterday (Tuesday) and today (Wednesday)...cause the weather was TOO nice to be in the gym, so I walked an hour instead. Well...more like 40 mins of walking, hour and a half of lying on the beach watching the sunset, another 20 mins walk home

@Jolie: thanks for the support re: the crying bouts...I know it works this way, but it's good to know you guys get it too And at the beach I can blame sand getting in my contacts

@ a-new-me: i LOVE your avatar

Goal for tomorrow: go to the gym and take a class (any class, really, they're all pretty intense!)
 
I don't think I need a patch, do it does exist out here. Quitting smoking is easy, I've done it lots of times. It's the not starting again after two years when I happen to be in a pub and not quite sober and talking to some cute guy who's having a smoke...that's the real issue.

So....I was gonna go to the gym last night, but I didn't make it. And what's worse, I did make it to the supermarket and bought...*gasp*...Pringles! Potato chips are my big weakness, though I think it's the craving for salt really. On a good day I can curb myself with a little bit of broth, but yesterday was not a good day.

So today the goal is very simple: eat healthy! (and don't feel guilty, that doesn't help! Just get up and start again!)

Plus, I'm going to see my doctor today and ask him about some diet stuff. And my knee hurts when I'm walking, which I'm sure is not good.
 
Good luck at the doctor today. I really think, given all the ailments that go along with being overweight, that doctors should do more in the way of helping people struggling with weight-loss. Be it in the form of pills or advice or referrals to nutritionists/personal trainers.

I'm willing to bet eventually they'll get to that point, but it's going to take lots of years. Where I live in Germany they don't even like prescribing antibiotics, I can't imagine asking for help with my weight. lol

And Pringles are evil... evil & yummy!
 
a_new_me said:
Where I live in Germany they don't even like prescribing antibiotics, I can't imagine asking for help with my weight.
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Ya no kidding. I just love to eat, that's the real problem I think.

So my doctor told me that exercise doesn't actually do that much and that the biggest part (no pun intendeD) of losing weight is cutting down calories. I don't really care if he's right or not, I just know I feel better when I work out!
But I'm to keep the weight off my knees until I drop 40 pounds or so. So, less elliptical, more recumbent bike and rowing.

Tonight I'm going over to my mom's and I think the main goal is to not eat eveything she gives me. Her feeding frenzies are at least partly to blame for my size!

...and now I'm going to hunt throgh out office building, cause I'm sure I saw a dispenser somewhere that actually dispensed broth and that's the only think I want right now!
 
yeah the patch is good, i still had cravings on that - but it was a LOT easier to deal with for sure.
Only used it for a week then went cold turkey - most of the cravings were gone and i was fine.
 
Last week: 109.5 kilos
This morning: 109.6 kilos (241.6 lbs)

Oh no!! I know I'm eating too much, but this is just not fair! Ok, will try again this week...and try to not eat my depression away cause that's just too easy!

Thanks you guys.
 
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