Diary to a Skinnier, More Fit, Happier Me!!

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Hello! My name is Noa, I'm 16, and I'm training to be a professional ballerina! I guess that'll be my little introduction, since I'm not in the mood to write too much now ;)

So, I guess I'll get right to it!

I have a dietitian, and she's helping me lose weight. I get weighed in once a week (every Wednesday) blindly, meaning I am not told what my weight is, but I am only told my loss (or gain, but...you know haha) and I have a plan that I follow and review with her each week. I keep a food diary, but I am no longer allowed to count -- anything. I used to have an eating disorder, and in helping me recover we are trying to stray away from the obsessive counting and all that jazz. So, I used to be obsessed with calories. We started by having me count exchanges instead of calories, and now I've moved on to not counting anything, but rather only writing down the foods themselves. I feel like it's really helping! :)

I am very much into exercise -- usually I am active for at least 30 min each day in addition to ballet practice. I recently (two weeks ago) got surgery on my ankle so I haven't been active :( but next week I can finally start going to the gym again and stuff.

This is what my weekly schedule looks like...

Everyday: wake up anywhere between 6:00-6:45 depending on when I have to be at school, breakfast, PT exercises, school starts at 8:40 and ends at 3:40, lunch is early, at 10:40. I am in 11th grade, btw, but I'm supposed to be in 10th! :D

Mondays:
3:40 - walk to the PT, have snack
4:00 - get to PT
4:15 - PT
5:30 - PT over; walk to gym, have snack
5:45 - get to gym
6:00 - walk on treadmill 30 min
6:30 - stretch
7:15 - go to LifeCafe to do homework, have coffee and snack
8:30 - get home, shower, eat dinner, finish homework

Tuesdays:
6:00 am - wake up early
6:15 am - stationary bike 15 min
6:30 am - stretch
6:45 am - get ready, eat breakfast, go to school, etc.
3:40 - walk down 2200, 2300, 3200, 3300, 4200, 4300 halls at school
4:00 - SAT perp course, have snack
5:30 - go to ballet, snack
6:00 - lyrical
7:00 - ballet
8:30 - get home, shower, eat dinner, finish homework

Wednesdays:
3:40 - go to dietitian, have snack
4:15 - dietitian
5:45 - get home, have coffee and snack
6:00 - stationary bike 30 min
6:30 - PT exercises, stretching, floor barre
7:15 - go to ballet, snack
7:30 - contemporary
8:45 - get home, shower, eat dinner, finish homework

Thursdays:
3:40 - walk to gym, have snack
4:00 - get to gym
4:15 - walk on treadmill 45 min
5:00 - stretch
5:45 - go to ballet, have snack
6:30 - ballet
9:30 - get home, shower, finish homework

Fridays:
3:40 - walk to gym, have snack
4:00 0 get to gym
4:15 - walk on treadmill 45 min
5:00 - stretch
5:30 - go to ballet, snack
6:15 - ballet
9:15 - get home, shower, eat dinner, finish homework

Saturdays and Sundays:
-walk outside for 30 min
-PT exercises
-floor barre

Because of my schedule, I usually end up eating this meal plan for each day...

Every day:
Breakfast - coffee/hot cocoa, 2oz cranberry juice + 2oz lemon juice + 4oz water, yogurt, 1 fruit, green tea
Lunch - water bottle, lean cuisine OR bagel/2 slices bread w/ tuna/1 egg + 1 white/3 slices roast beef, salad OR cooked veggies
Dinner - water/diet soda, 4oz chicken OR 6oz fish, cooked veggies, salad, green tea, hot cocoa

Mondays:
Snack 1 - 1 fruit
Snack 2 - cheese sandwich
Snack 3 - protein bar, coffee
Plus - 2 popsicles

Tuesdays:
Snack 1 - 1 fruit, cheese sandwich, water bottle
Snack 2 - protein bar
Plus - 2 popsicles

Wednesdays:
Snack 1 - 1 fruit
Snack 2 - protein bar, coffee
Snack 3 - cheese sandwich, 2 popsicles

Thursdays:
Snack 1 - cheese sandwich, 1 fruit
Snack 2 - protein bar
Plus - 2 popsicles

Fridays:
Snack 1 - cheese sandwich, 1 fruit
Snack 2 - protein bar
Plus - 2 popsicles

Saturdays and Sundays:
this changes but basically I can have a protein bar and 2 popsicels OR popcorn and a fudgesickle AND a grilled cheese AND a fruit, and I can sub some stuff for restaurants/cafe items once a week.

So one day I might sub a starbucks vivanno (with ff milk) for my protein bar or for my lunch protein and one fruit, or whatever. I can even have chick-fil-a or other junk food or another restaurant item (although I'm not a big junk food fan - gives me stomache aches!) as long as I account for it and it's on my list of allowed things.

I like to be organized, as you can probably tell! :blush5:

So every day I'll update what I ate and how much I exercised and stuff, and when the time comes I will post up my summer schedule - it will be different because no shcool obviously, and so I will have more time to exercise and do otehr stuff like volunteer work, plus I am going to Maine for 5 weeks to train at a ballet intensive for the later half of summer break.

Tomorrow I am going on a small trip with my family (it's spring break and it's over after this weekend :( ) to a small town a few hours away and I have tons to do still...

-SAT practice
-Homework (lit circles, culinary arts cookbook project, "MADE" video, Great Gatsby)
-card for borther's birthday, finish his gift (well, part of it at least)
And I don't even know what else.

I plan on reading Great Gatsby on the way to wherever we're going and bringing my SAT stuff with me to do when I can. Tomorrow night I'll finish all my homework and whatever's left I'll do on Sunday, but I will try to finish it all because it'd be nice to have Sunday left over to relax before the end-of-the-year craziness begins!

I at least had a great day today - with food and all, but also with everything else! I hung out with my friend, and I have an amazingly easy and efficient shopping spree: I got my prom dress, the shoes to go with it, the cluch purse to go with it, and I figured out my hairstyle and got the acessories for it all in about 2-3 hours! It was amazing, hahaha.

Now it's late so time for bed, heh ;) almost 1am...well good night and if you read this go you because that was long! Later!
 
So far, I've read some of your posts - I think I can relate to you - so I wish you even more luck with your weight loss.

I am curious - what happened to your ankle that you had to have surgery? Last year I fell on vacation and broke my ankle, but I didn't know it was broken, and kept walking on it, ect. Then a couple months later, I broke it again, because it never healed properly the first time. I don't like not being able to do the same things I usually do - and I hate being held up!
 
Thank you - if you ever need support...I'm here! :)

I got surgery because I had a bone spur called an Os Trigonum in the back of my ankle. Evertime I pointed my foot it would get caught and be pinched along with nerves, tendonds, etc. and as a result, it became inflamed (it hurt) and I got symptomatic ankle impingement (I had a limited range of motion.) So, needless to say, I couldn't dance at my fullest because I couldn't pointe my foot, so my options were have surgery, recover, get better, go back to ballet, or don't have surgery, deal with it, give up a professional career and dance recreationally, and not dance very well...which would you pick? Haha!

That stinks about your ankle - have you gone to an orhtopedist to talk about your options? Maybe he/she can give you rmore insight?

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In 20 min or so I'm leaving with my dad to pick up the Great Gatsby before our trip so I can read it in the car. Then at around 9:30 we'll leave

With me I'm taking:
-purse
-ipod
-SAT practice booklet
-Great Gatsby
-dietitian stuff
-agenda

*need to remember to put on contacts...

Today I had:
Breakfast - my juice, an apple, pomegranate yogurt
 
Breakfast - my juice, an apple, pomegranate yogurt, hot cocoa
Lunch - sandwich w/ salmon, LC cheese, 1 egg white; veggies; protein bar w/ coffee
Snacks - 100-cal pack, an apple, protein bar w/ coffee, 2 slices lite bread, a popsicle
Dinner - 6oz fish w/ 1c spaghetti squash and veggies; salad
Snack - hot cocoa

I haven't had my dinner or my hot cocoa yet...I kind of had some extras today because we were out and about so I had to change my plan slightly, and I got hungry, and we were on the road...but I didn't do bad at all. My extras were a popsicle (30 cals), an apple (80 cals), and the 2 slices of bread (80 cals), so in all I had about 190 extra calories -- I know I'm not supposed to be counting calories, but it's just for me to get an idea of where I stand and to reassure myself that I did, in fact, do ok. So the extra 200 calories is, of course, 200 more than what I would have hoped for, but I'm really not concerned about it.

I have a TON of homework left for tomorrow!

On Monday my schedule has to change slightly:
3:40 - walk to the PT, have snack
4:00 - get to PT
4:30 - PT
5:30 - PT over; walk to gym
5:45 - get to gym, sit at LifeCafe to do homework, have snack and coffee
7:30 - walk on treadmill 30 min
8:00 - stretch 15 min
8:15 - go home
8:30 - get home, shower, eat dinner, finish homework

AND

Snack 1 - 1 fruit, cheese sandwich
Snack 2 - protein bar, coffee
Plus - 2 popsicles
 
So, tomorrow...!

To do:
-lit circles
-culinary arts cookbook
-Ido's cookbook
-"MADE" submission and plan
-culinary arts article
-read at least one chapter of Great Gatsby
-SAT homework
-finish room

Breakfast: my juice, blueberry greek yogurt, a fruit, hot cocoa
Lunch: water bottle, lean cuisine, vegetables, green tea
Dinner: 4 oz chicken w/ spaghetti squash and vegetables, salad, hot cocoa
Snacks: a fruit w/ green tea, protein bar w/ coffee, grilled cheese, fudgesicle
 
Helllooooo...

So, I'm going to set up a free consultation with one of the personal trainers at my gym, because I might want to do something over the summer. Here is what I'd like to talk to them about:
-ballet requirements (no bulky muscles)
-weight loss
-HR monitors
-PRICE! hehe ;)

I had breakfast except for I had vanilla yogurt w/ cocoa powder, not blueberry. Now I'm going to have lunch...

I'm doing well with everything I have to do! Woohoo... :)

Breakfast: cranberry juice, yogurt, banana, hot cocoa
Lunch: apple juice, Chicken Pesto Lean Cuisine Flatbread, cooked veggies; a pear, green tea

Until 3 I will take a break/do some 'me' stuff, and then at 3 it'll be time to finish HW....then at 5 I'm going to Publix to get some stuff, and hopefully I can go to the park for a little while - I feel like swinging!
 
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Tomorrow's Schedule, Plan, Whatever :)

Wake up at: 6:45
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3:40 - walk to PT, have snack
4:30 - PT
5:30 - PT over; walk to gym
5:45 - get to gym, sit at LifeCafe to do homework, have snack and coffee
7:30 - walk on treadmill 30 min
8:00 - stretch 15 min
8:15 - go home
8:30 - get home, shower, eat dinner, finish homework

Breakfast: SQ, cranberry/lemon juice, yogurt, a fruit, green tea
Lunch: water bottle, cooked veggies, sliced veggies, lean cuisine, pudding
Snack: 1 fruit, cheese sandwich
Snack: protein bar, coffee
Dinner: 4oz chicken or 6oz fish, salad, cooked veggies
 
Tomorrow -- Tuesday, April 14th, 2009

Tuesdays:
3:40 - school is over
4:00 - SAT prep course, have snack
5:30 - go to ballet, snack
6:00 - lyrical
7:00 - ballet
8:30 - get home, shower, eat dinner, finish homework

Breakfast: juice, yogurt, banana, green tea
Lunch: diet soda, bagel (4 slices turkey, 1 slice cheese, mustard, lettuce, tomato), cauliflower soup, apple, water bottle
Snack 1: water bottle, cheese and veggie sandwich (1 wedge LC, lettuce, cucumber, bell peppers, mustard), pear
Snack 2: protein bar
Dinner: 4oz chicken or 6oz fish, veggies; hot cocoa
 
11 more days until prom!! And I HAVE to lose some more weight...to what extremes will I go now?? Well, I am trying to stay safe and sane and healthy, you know? It's kind of a hard thing to do sometimes.

I want to stop eating again and take the diet pills and drink the tea and work out like mad, but...I know I promised to myself that I'm done with that, and I intend to stick to my promise.

Tomorrow I have my weigh-in and I do expect to see at least a 1lb loss, hopefully more. I have been doing pretty well this past week. I don't really have time to work out tomorrow, which bothers me a lot...a lot a lot!

I mean, right after school I go to my dietitian for my weigh-in. Then I have to go to the florist to get the boutenniere for my prom date. But I think I'll just change that and do it later, because I really have to work out. I didn't go today because I didn't have time, so I feel really orrible not going two days in a row.

I'll be done with my weigh-in at around 5:30 at the latest, so I can get to the gym by 6 max. Then I can have an hour or so to work out - maybe 45 min on the treadmill and 15 min stretching or something of the sort.

Yeah, I think I'll do that.

Then on Thursday it's my brother's 12th birthday - of course we'll have our traditional cake-for-breakfast-and-balloons-and-presents morning, ans I'm making him a baked alaskan, but I'll only take a bite and put the rest away. Just for the celebration of it, and because it's not nice to not eat someone's birthday cake (especially if it's your brother, and you made the cake!!) Then in the evening we're going to Yamato for hibachi and I'm scared about that, but tomorrow I'll tell my dietitian and she'll help me figure it out and fnd a solution. I also don't know when are reservations are for, but I'm guessing not before 6:00, so I can definitely squeeze in at least 30 min on the treadmill (I'm not allowed to do the elliptical which is my favorite but this gives me a chance to try something different.)

I'll just have to be super good and accurate with my plan for the next 11 days (and I always am, but I do tend to have a bite of this and that here and there, you know?) I can do it, though, I know I can; I'll just constantly remind myself of prom and everything else, haha! Can I be absolutely perfect for 11 days? Sure I can!! That's only a week and a half, that's nothing! :)

So, I have two lean cuisines left and I'm thinking of just leaving them for the weekend because it's more convinient than microwaving food at school and it just makes more sense to me.

So.

Tomorrow:
Breakfast - cranberry/lemon juice, greek yogurt, banana, green tea
Lunch - water bottle, cauliflower soup, bagel w/
 
11 more days until prom!! And I HAVE to lose some more weight...to what extremes will I go now?? Well, I am trying to stay safe and sane and healthy, you know? It's kind of a hard thing to do sometimes.

I want to stop eating again and take the diet pills and drink the tea and work out like mad, but...I know I promised to myself that I'm done with that, and I intend to stick to my promise.

Tomorrow I have my weigh-in and I do expect to see at least a 1lb loss, hopefully more. I have been doing pretty well this past week. I don't really have time to work out tomorrow, which bothers me a lot...a lot a lot!

I mean, right after school I go to my dietitian for my weigh-in. Then I have to go to the florist to get the boutenniere for my prom date. But I think I'll just change that and do it later, because I really have to work out. I didn't go today because I didn't have time, so I feel really horrible not going two days in a row.

I'll be done with my weigh-in at around 5:30 at the latest, so I can get to the gym by 6 max. Then I can have an hour or so to work out - maybe 45 min on the treadmill and 15 min stretching or something of the sort.

Yeah, I think I'll do that.

Then on Thursday it's my brother's 12th birthday - of course we'll have our traditional cake-for-breakfast-and-balloons-and-presents morning, ans I'm making him a baked alaskan, but I'll only take a bite and put the rest away. Just for the celebration of it, and because it's not nice to not eat someone's birthday cake (especially if it's your brother, and you made the cake!!) Then in the evening we're going to Yamato for hibachi and I'm scared about that, but tomorrow I'll tell my dietitian and she'll help me figure it out and fnd a solution. I also don't know when are reservations are for, but I'm guessing not before 6:00, so I can definitely squeeze in at least 30 min on the treadmill (I'm not allowed to do the elliptical which is my favorite but this gives me a chance to try something different.)

I'll just have to be super good and accurate with my plan for the next 11 days (and I always am, but I do tend to have a bite of this and that here and there, you know?) I can do it, though, I know I can; I'll just constantly remind myself of prom and everything else, haha! Can I be absolutely perfect for 11 days? Sure I can!! That's only a week and a half, that's nothing! :)

So, I have two lean cuisines left and I'm thinking of just leaving them for the weekend because it's more convinient than microwaving food at school and it just makes more sense to me.

So.

Tomorrow:
Breakfast - cranberry/lemon juice; greek yogurt; banana; green tea + yogi tea
Lunch - water bottle; 1c cauliflower soup; 1 western bagel w/ 1 pouch tuna, mustard, and celery; apple
Snack 1 - cheese sandwich (3 slices ff cheese)
Snack 2 - protein bar w/ coffee
Dinner - water bottle; salad; 1c cauliflower soup; 6oz fish w/ 1c cooked veggies; SD tea; hot cocoa

1,200 cals

I will follow it to the dot.

I don't know yet what Thursday's menu will bring but I will know by tomorrow...so skipping over that for now...but going on to Friday.

Friday:
Breakfast - juice; vanilla yogurt w/ 1T cocoa powder; banana; green tea + yogi tea
Lunch - water bottle; 1c cauliflower or cabbage soup; 1 western bagel w/ 1 egg and 1 white, mustard, and tomato; orange
Snack - cheese sandwich (3 slices ff cheese)
Snack - protein bar
Dinner - water bottle; salad; 1c cauliflower or cabbage soup; 6oz fish w/ 1c cooked veggies; SD tea; hot cocoa

At the gym on Friday I will have time for 30 min on the treadmill and a 15 min stretch and a 15 min sauna session (get to gym at 4, get ready until 4:30, treamill + stretch + sauna until 5:30, leave at 5:45.) Friday is my first day back at ballet (although I can't dance totally full out yet) so that's exciting!! :D


On Saturday morning I have to get all of my homework done (ahhhh!!!) and get a present for my friend; I'm going to my friend's 17th surprise birthday party at 5:30, so I will tell my dietitian about that tomorrow, too. This ALSO complicated things as it's a sleepover. The good news is they are a healthy family that is good about moderation. They always have fresh veggies around, even though I know she will have candy and chips (barbeque for sure haha) and other stuff like that at her party. But I know her fmaily well so I feel ok asking her parents for something else. They also know I watch my weight. I will ask my dietitian for tips, though: like what to say, because that is where I get stuck. I don't like telling people I'm watching my weight because it seems to tempt them to feed you more for some reason. So, I think I'll probably say something along the lines of "I'm not hungry, no thanks" but if they ask again then say "I'm really not supposed to have certain foods because I just found out I have some allergies" which is not far from the truth - well not too far, since I was just tested for celiacs (haven't gotten the results back yet but I have a nice big bruise on my arm to remind me of the fun blood test hahaha!!) But yeah, I'll ask my dietitian. She'll tell me exactly what to do!

So skipping Saturday again, and I will get back to that tomorrow. Now Sunday.

Sunday:
Breakfast - juice; yogurt w/ 1T cocoa powder; banana; green tea + yogi tea
Lunch - water bottle; salad; 1c cauliflower or cabbage soup or cooked veggies; lean cuisine; green tea + yogi tea
Snacks - hot cocoa; an apple; grilled cheese/cheese sandwich (3 slices ff cheese); 100-cal pack popcorn/kettlecorn; fudgesicle
Dinner - water bottle; salad; 1c cauliflower or cabbage soup; 6oz fish w/ cooked veggies; SD tea; hot cocoa

On Sunday morning I might meet up with my prom date, not sure yet. Either way I'll go to the gym to work out in the morning for about an hour and a half (15 min treadmill, 15 min stretch, 10 laps swimming, 15 min sauna) after breakfast. At 2 I have to be at Tzofim and I'll probably be there until 6, so what I'll do is I'll have lunch before I go, and I'll bring a snack with me (an apple) and I'll have dinner when I get back. Then I still also have a grilled cheese sandwich, popcorn, and a fudgesicle left to eat and that's plenty.

Monday:
Breakfast - juice; yogurt w/ 1T cocoa powder; banana; green tea + yogi tea
Lunch - water bottle; 1c cauliflower or cabbage soup; sandwich w/ 4 slices turkey, mustard, and veggies; apple
Snack - cheese sandwich
Snack - protein bar w/ coffee
Dinner - water bottle; salad; 1c cauliflower or cabbage soup; 6oz fish w/ cooked veggies; SD tea; hot cocoa

On Monday I have PT again from 4:30-5:30 but I might be done early at around 5:15-ish if I start early; either way I won't be able to go to the gym as I have two friends from school coming over at 6 to do a project with me for Spanish. I might just wake up and do 15 min on my stationary bike. I also might not, because I might be way too tired. Lol. It's ok, I forgive myself for Monday if I don't work out, even though on Tuesday I can't work out, either.

Tuesday:
Breakfast - juice; yogurt w/ 1T cocoa powder; banana; green tea + yogi tea
Lunch - water bottle; 1c soup; 1 western bagel w/ 1 egg and 1 white, mustard, and tomato; apple
Snack - cheese sandwich
Snack - protein bar
Dinner - water bottle; salad; 1c soup; 6oz fish w/ 1c cooked veggies; SD tea; hot cocoa

Tuesday is SAT day so have that right after school and I go straight from there ot ballet. No time to work out.

Wednesday:
Breakfast - juice; yogurt w/ 1T cocoa powder; banana; green tea + yogi tea
Lunch - water bottle; 1c soup; 1 western bagel w/ 4 slices turkey, mustard, tomato, and lettuce; apple
Snack - cheese sandwich
Snack - protein bar w/ coffee
Dinner - water bottle; salad; 1c soup; 6oz fish w/ cooked veggies; SD tea; hot cocoa

On Wednesday I will work out again after my dietitian and before contemporary (prob. 45 min treadmill and 15 min stretching again.)

I will finish later - good night now!! It's almost 1:30AM!!! :O
 
Looks like you're doing well. It seems like you are incredibly organised. Good luck for the weigh in!:D
 
Haha, yeah! Kind of weird, huh? Well, I guess I have to be that organized otherwise I would lose track of everything I have to do...I am so busy all the time! But then, that's how I like it. I have to be running around all day otherwise I feel just blah! :)
 
So....drumroll pleas, this week I lost.....



2.5lbs!!! And I haven't gotten my period yet but I'm expecting, so it may have been more!!

Today I did very well until I got home and my mom had made muffins and my brother saved me sushi and we had guests and I was starving and I somehow forgot that I have prom in 10 days!! But, right now losing weight is as important as learning to forgive myself and to learn to not put myself under so much pressure to be perfect. So I recognize that I did wrong, but I forgive myself and I am ready to move on!

Oh, I did 30 min on the treadmill today, by the way.

So, this is what my dietitian came up with for the "tricky days" (not so tricky any more):

Tomorrow:
Breakfast - yogurt, apple
Lunch - sandwich (2 slices bread, 4 slices turkey, mustard, veggies)
Snack - pretzels, protein bar
Dinner - Hibachi -- ask for veeeery little or, if possible, no oil, get shrimp and cooked veggies; have a few bites of sorbet if offered at dessert time; miso soup and salad with vinegar is good to have before the meal

We have reservations for 7:30 so my parents will pick me up at 7 or so, 6:45 at the earliest, I guess. I want to do 30 min on the treadmill but I also have to get ready and dressed nicely when I am done working out. Sooo...
4:00 - get to lifetime, do homework
5:30 - get dressed
5:40 - treadmill 30 min
6:10 - stretch
6:30 - get ready
6:45 - be ready

Friday again:
Breakfast - yogurt, banana
Lunch - bagel w/ 1 egg 1 white, apple
Snack - cheese sandwich, protein bar
Dinner - chicken or fish, 2 popsicles or 1 fudgesicle, hot cocoa

Saturday:
Breakfast - yogurt, banana
Lunch - lean cuisine
Snack - grilled cheese, apple
Dinner - chicken or fish
Snack - protein bar

Basically, I will eat dinner at home before I go, and I have to be there at 5:30 so that's a very early dinner for me, so I will get hungry later; that is why I am taking my protein bar with me, so that way I can have something I feel comfortable eating when I get hungry, and I can have any sliced veggies they have, and as for cake and stuff like that: if they offer, accept it and say thank you and take a bite or two, play with it, NEVER say no thank you or I don't want any because that will draw unwanted and unnecessary attention, and talk a LOT ;)

Sunday again:
Breakfast - yogurt, banana
Lunch - lean cuisine
Snack - cheese sandwich, apple, protein bar
Dinner - chicken or fish, 2 popsicles or 1 fudgsicle, hot cocoa

Changing Monday through Wednesday...
Monday-Wednesday:
Breakfast - yogurt, banana
Lunch - sandwich (2 slices bread, 4 slices turkey, musard, veggies), apple
Snack - cheese sandwich, protein bar
Dinner - chicken or fish, popsicles/fudgesicle, hot cocoa

And I guess Thursday and Friday will be the same, but I'll see...
 
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