Diary of the Damned - Now Sugar Free!

Hey! Remember me? I failed the universe back in August trying to do this thing. I realized since then that you can't really deprive yourself and I can't set workout goals. Cause if I set goals, then they fail and I get down on myself and quit. So I came up with something different, that just might work!


I'm going to go from now (read: a week ago) and do this until June. That's what, 3 monthes? I can rock 3 monthes. I always found it daunting the whole "This should be a lifestyle change and you can never go back to your old ways!". It was terrifying! But until June? I can do that. By the time June rolls around, I want to be less than what I am now. Im not setting a number for anything, I just want to be less.


I have access to a treadmill at home and I've been going every day since march 17th (2012). And it doesnt matter how long I use it, as long as I use it every day. I can go for two minutes and stop, it doesnt matter. As long as I do it EVERY DAY. Cause the length of time isnt the hard part. The REAL hard part is getting on the treadmill in the first place. The motivation to take that first step. And before it was daunting, cause it was start and go for half an hour! And that was scary. So the goal is to just start. And start everyday. And I only missed one day (yesturday) due to emotional crap. But I DID do today and I did do the six days before yesturday. So its no big deal.


I've been doing 30mins per day the last 3 or 4 days, at 2.5mph. Today I did 17min at 3.0mph, which was much harder, so I think the faster speed at a less time might be better. But we'll see. I burnt 100Cal and 36g Fat at least! :D


I haven't cut out junk, but I eat that in the mornings so I can work it off throguh the day (like before) and my junk consists of frozen yogurt, mostly, which replaces my icecream obsession. I picked up a box of fruit loops today so that shall be my breakfast from now on.


I haven't been eating a lot due to depression - my husband and I are separated, he's supposed to decide if he wants to stay with me and give me his answer by June. He has feels for another woman and he may leave me for her, which make me sad, but there really isnt anything I can do. Thats sort of why I started this excercise thing again. To keep my mind occupied. Anyways.


I'm going to take my measurements once a week and weigh myself once a month.


My stuff (as of a few days ago):



weight: 240 (20lbs less that the laaast time I started)


bust: 46in


waist: 44in


hips: 52in


Though I re-measured myself yesturday, and it was Bust 44in, Waist 46in and Hips 51in. So I guess I lost weight on my hips and regained it on my waist? o__O Weird stuff.
 
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