Diary of a fat 16 year old- Alex's Diary

alex19114

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Hmm.. first post. :] Dontcha just love 'em?

Well, I'm Alex. I'm 16 years old and I live in Wisconsin (Yay for wisconsinites!!). I've been struggling with my weight all my life- it might not be as long as some other people have been, but it's tough to be a teenager who can't fit into regular Junior Sized clothes. Okay, I'm done being petty with the clothing size thing. The reason why I came on here was for support, because I don't get a lot from my family. We're all overweight at my house, and it's hard sometimes. You can always find something with a ton of fat, a ton of sugar and a ton of NOT HEALTHY. My Mom was always one of those people who believed the fads. She trys new pills and new diets just about once every month. The only time she actually set a good example for me was when she was on Weight Watchers, which actually worked for her. But then she quit that, and gained a whole bunch of weight back. I've tried some different things with her, I think my first diet was when I was around 8 years old when she was doing the low carb thing. Well, the lesson for me then was that you can't just cut things out of your diet in order to lose weight. But that knowledge didn't stick with me for long and I soon gained a lot of weight. When I was 10 years old, I was around 4' 6" and weighed 130 lbs. I knew I was different from the other kids, but I ran and played with the best of them. I tried to lose weight whenever my mom started a new diet, but the plans always backfired. I was young and didn't know anything about fat contents of foods or how calories affected you.

I gained weight throughout puberty, eating and eating and eating, seeming to be constantly on a growth spurt. I was short and tubby and way out of shape when I went into 7th grade. I was close to 200 lbs by that time and only 5' 2". I was obese, but no one really told me that before kids at school started picking on me. It's hard enough being in a new school, but when kids you don't even know start giving you odd looks just because you're not wearing name brand clothes or could fit in them, it affects you. I grew depressed and ate even more, but luckily didn't gain much more weight. I know that was because of gym, which gave me a challenge. My gym teacher was amazing. She never gave up on me, and always told me to keep going. I still remember my time on the mile that first semester of 7th grade- 14.5 minutes. By 2nd semester I brought that down to 12 minutes.
I didn't really care about how I looked, so I didn't give much thought about how much I weighed at that time.

When 9th grade rolled around, I realized that I was fat. Really. That was the first time I ever thought about how I looked really different from my other classmates. I started wearing hoodies, baggy jeans and sneakers every day. I grew so self conscious that I didn't even want to change for gym in the changing rooms so i changed in the bathroom. Last summer was the summer I told myself everything would change. I would lose a whole bunch of weight get skinny and everything wuold be perfect. God, how wrong I was. I think I lsot a whole 10 pounds, making me about 189 when I started 10th grade. Sure, that was better than nothing, but I gained about 30 pounds back during the year.

So, Now I'm going into 11th grade. I want things to change this year, but I'm going to take it slowly, and I'm going to do it my way.

I've been working out everyday, doing a simple but effective workout from Cosmogirl. I know, I know. Kind of stupid, but I can actually feel it working. My muscles are sore! I've also been eating a high Fiber High Protein diet for the past couple weeks. :/ I've slipped a little but I'm trying hard to keep on track.

Specs:

Chest- 44
Waist- 48.5
Hips- 47
Thigh-28.5

Weight- 223.0 lbs


Goals:

Chest- 40
Waist-35
Hips- 37
Thigh- 23 (I don't know about this one. What's a normal / healthy size for your thigh to be? My thighs are really muscular but they have some flab on them)

Weight- 135 lbs


So, what do you think? Help me out here. :]
 
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hiya!

hello , ive never actually replied to anyone else thread b4 , but are stories are simmilar however im tall and large so i feel beefy and broad like a man hehe i was also called names and bullied and changing in the bathrooms yep thats me too! ive lost 1st in almost two months all through kcal counting & plenty of walking

its not nice whatsoever being targeted exspecially whilest are heads are all mashed up with hormones and stuff but i think im finally getting on with it even though im a lil shyer than average well anyway sorry if i talk about myself alot ,
i also hope to follow you on your diary and keep in touch and maybe in a while i might be able to give you some top advice and support :) tk

Emma. x
 
Hey Emma! Well, it's good to hear from someone my age that knows what I'm (we're.. lol) going though. And with the feeling beefy and broad like a man, I know what thats like. :]

Haha, you're not talking about yourself too much. There's really no one around here that I can actually talk to about any of this because all my friends are smaller than me and my family just plain doesn't understand.
You know, I'm exactly the same way! I'm really shy sometimes but I'm outgoing at other times. : /
And I'll read yours, too, okay? :] And if I happen to have any advice for you then I'll try and help out.
 
So, everyone, how are you? I'm feeling great! I just realized today that even without any work whatsoever, I lost 2 inches off my waist, 3 off my hips and I gained 1/2 an inch on my chest since January! I'm pretty proud of myself. But sadly, I've gained a little weight. How does that work?!

Anyways, that was my happy moment for the day. :]
I was naughty today, i must say. I had pizza for both breakfast and lunch, but tomorrow, I swear I'm going to stay on track. Even if we go out to lunch. I'm gonna have a salad! That's right. No junk food tomorrow. No sirree.

I ate way too much today. And I didn't really do any exercise. :[ But I'm not going to let that get me down. It's just one of my "I don't feel like doing anything at all" days. Tomorrow is going to be different. I'm getting some more school clothes tomorrow (Kind of worried about that... : / ) and I don't want to be all bloated and crap. I'm making a promis to myself to look at the exercise equip. tomorrow, also. One of those balls and some weights? I think so. Hopefuly I don't spend all my money in one place though. :]

But I have to go to bed now, get some sleep.

Goodnight!!
<3 Alex
 
Oh sheesh...

So, I haven't updated at all this weekend! I'm sorry. :[ I've been busy busy busy...

August 26th. That means 9 more days until SCHOOL starts. :] I'm so excited!!! But I feel kinda dumb for not sticking to the plan that I wanted to go with at the beginning of the summer. I keep telling myself that i want to lose 20 pounds before wrestling starts... (I'm going to be a manager this year.) So I really gotta get my butt in gear!! Only 2 1/2 months until that starts.

I think (more like hope) I did pretty good this weekend in terms of food and exercise. I ate lots of fruit, if that counts. :] But not much exercise, only here and there. This week I'm going to exercise every single day. I swear I'm going to.

So, i think I'm done for tonight, going to bed soon.

Goodnight!

<3 Alex
 
Excited!!!

Okay, I know it's not much, but I'm really excited because I lost about 5 lbs already!!!!!!! Yeah, it's only 5 lbs, but I'm determined to keep it off. :] I had to eat something naughty today... one of those KFC biscuits (sp?? Wow sad, and I'm usually so proud of myself for my spelling abilities.) because I wasn't feeling good and those actually help a little bit when I feel that way. That or two bottles of Vitamin Water, which I would totally drink in a heartbeat. :] I don't know. I'm really happy / peppy / hyper tonight. But that's just because I'm happy I've lost without really having to do anything major.

Okay. Food for today: Salad w/ Chicken, Whole grain mini bagel w/ shredded cheese (Yum!), Strawberry Mini Shredded Wheat, Lots of Watermelon :)]!!! My fave), a pear, 2 KFC biscuits (gah even nauthier- two! Oh well. Forgive and forget. :]) and a few taco doritos. I really need to drink more water. I'm usually pretty good about that but I've been slacking a lot.

Exercise: None really, walking here and there with William, picking up golf balls, etc. But I'm going to go do some crunches on the ball tonight before I go to bed. And maybe some tomorrow morning since I'm getting up extra early for work and I'm going to have a lot of time.

Goodnight!

<3 Alex
 
Keep it up darling you're doing exceptional :)

My family also don't have a clue, i've told a few & the natural reaction is to laugh (& they do) my mums all on my side of course, she is also doing the diet but she is the type to just give in to any random craving & just buy something from mcdonals etc etc, then she'll get depressed for quitting it, then just quit altogether. I usually give up when she gives up (If i co-diet with her, you knwo the whole, dieting together is likely to improve odds etc) but not this time, i'm sticking to this & it'll go on whether she keeps up or not.

As for bullying at school, well i'm a 6"5 male, fairly large while i was at school but any people pestering me would have to back up there insults I'm not a bully or anything, just umm, anti-bully :p maybe.

Goot luck, don't give in to the devious temptation your faimly may inflict on you
 
Holy Crap.

Wow. So it has been a loooooongggg time since I last posted, eh? Yeah.. sorry. :/ I've been really busy with school, and I kinda felt a little bit guilty...

Update::: I gained the five lbs back. :/ But no more than that. And then I lost 3. Sheesh, it's like a freaking yo yo or something. :]

I'm really going to try hard this time... not gonna give up anymore. I can't really say no more junk food.. that's probably like cutting a drug addict off of their drugs right away. :] Slowly weaning myself off it.

Sadly, I haven't been able to eat much breakfast or lunch, so I resort to eating most of my food late afternoon. And that's not good, since i need energy because I have gym first hour of the day. I should probably wake up a bit earlier to eat something, but I already get up at 4:45 AM to get on the bus at 6:30. Isn't that early enough?? Oh boy..


I've been exercising almost everyday, mostly because of gym. I probably run at least a mile and a half in a week (for me, that's pretty damn good.) and I run laps around our gym. Next week we're doing swimming.. !!! I love swimming!!

And about the whole family thing.. my family really just doesn't care.. lol Not that they don't care about me, they just say they don't see the need for me to lose weight. :/ They don't get it that I actually want to be healthy and not have problems. Oh well.. they'll see. :]

4 weeks until Wrestling season. And I want to lose at least 10 lbs. :] And by the time to first tourney comes around.. 7 weeks! I want to lose 20 - 30. I can do it. I know I can. :]


Thanks for the support, guys!

<33 Alex
 
hey :) im a 17 year old girl from england, 5'4 & weigh 161lb. I know how hard it is being an overweight teen, & i hope you achieve all your goals.
xx
 
You'll get there!

Hey girl!
Sounds like you are ready for change! I skimmed your journal (read most of the first post and bits of the other ones) and I can totally feel your yo-yo ing pain!! I have been trying to lose 15-20lbs (not tons, but enough) for about 5 years, and just can't seem to do it. I'll start, but then go back up, then go down, then go up, and it's the never ending yo-yo.
I started doing the CURVES (gym for women) diet, and it worked wonders - I then had a bunch of hectic things happening during which I paid no attention to food, and then a 3 week vacation where all we ate was deep fried crap. And now I'm back to square one. Actually, I'm 3lbs heavier than I was during square one. lol.
I recomend that you find some sort of program that you can follow - you said you have a small workout thing from a magazine which is great, do you have a food plan? I personally HATE counting calories, and the curves one is more about portion control than anything which is great. But find something that sounds managable for you.

ALSO - set mini-goals. You mentioned not being able to cut out junk food all at once. Start slow - pick 2 things that you can live with out and replace them with a fruit or veggie. For example I started cutting out Coke. I LOVEd drinking it all the time, with dinner, during the day etc. And I cut it out and replaced it with flavoured water - and honestly after a week, I didn't even like the coke anymore. I now drink coke maybe once a month - and it's never as good as it used to be.

ANyway, I'll book mark you (if i can figure out how) lol, and we can help keep each other on track :)

Nicole:blush5:
 
Hii, I read this is I really think you'll make it. You're incredibly determined and aren't going to replace everything you've used to eat. I, and many others, know how awful it feels to get teased in high school. Now, half of the people who made fun of me are over weight now. You know, that type of person who can eat whatever they want without getting fat? I guess going into a new life stage changes things, and they are used to junking out as well...

Stay positive! Pce
 
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