diary of a crayon.

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So I'm not really sure how to start this.. I guess I'll just say hi to everyone! I'm paranoid about being recognized on this forum, so you can just call me crayon- that is, if you even decide to post in this silly diary, which I most certainly don't mind but also don't expect. Before I get into specifics I'll just say I have struggled with my weight for the near entire duration of my short life thus far, and I've accepted that for my entire life I am always going to have to work hard. I was lucky enough to receive a retarded metabolism, which makes it extraordinarily easy for me to gain weight, and difficult for me to lose it. But oh well- you can't change biology, but you can fight it!

Let's see, I'm 17 years of age, female, 5'9, and weigh roughly 155 pounds at the moment. My highest weight was about a year ago, when I hit 170. I managed to gain about 20 pounds in a ridiculously short amount of time, but when it got to that, I freaked and turned it around. Unfortunately I've been bouncing from 152 to about 157 for the past while. However I'm determined to kickstart another round of losing, and zat is why I am here.

I go back for my last year of high school early September, and I'd like to weigh 145 by that time. Ten pounds in a little less than a month sounds tough, but if I can even get close to that I'll still be happy.

I suppose I should mention that I'm fairly athletic. I don't play any sports now, but I used to play soccer, and I now consider myself a runner. Not a naturally talented runner, but a dedicated one. I try to run for about an hour a day, alternating tempo, speed interval and hill workouts. Mostly just tempo or longer runs- I've got the endurance, and I'm trying to improve speed now. I run because I love it, not to lose weight. It evens me out. But it sure doesn't hurt weight loss progress.

I guess I'll shut up now.. Like I mentioned before, I'm not here for replies or anything, but I will gladly accept comments of any sort- just don't feel obligated. I'm mostly here to track my progress here for the next month, and likely after that. If I could ever weight 130, that would be cool. But depends on how I look and feel when approaching that. I'm happy just paving the way for a healthy life.

:rant: <--- Haha, that made me smile. I do tend to rant sometimes, though not usually in an angry manner.
 
Okay so here's my first real diary entry, I suppose, haha. Today was so bad! In a funny way, sort of. I weighed 153 this morning, which is less than I thought it would be, so that was good. But I spent all day with my friends, which means lots of food and I didn't get any exercise. But that's okay, because one of my friends is leaving and I had to see him as much as possible, and that to me is more important than going home early to work out. (And it was not my fault we ordered pizza at midnight..silly boys.)

Tomorrow I'm going to a family bbq/campout thing, which also means lots of food, but that doesn't mean I have to eat a lot. Since I was so bad today, I'll be good tomorrow. Get a really nice long run/bike tomorrow morning, and be active at the bbq too. Shouldn't be too tricky, since my cousins and siblings are hyper monsters.

So yah. That was boring. I'm excited for my run tomorrow; I always feel way too energetic at the end of a rest day (I never plan rest days, but usually I have an accidental one about once a week, which is probably good for me).
 
I suppose I should give a better account of what's going on in my days. Okay so yesterday my eating was okay; I didn't eat very much, but I had a lot of crap food, like chocolate, sorbet, and later some dairy queen haha (260 calories for a small sundae though, I will admit, is pretty darn reasonable). But late in the evening I ran for an hour on the treadmill (blasted off about 700 calories) and went on the exercise bike for another half hour (about 250 calories).

I weight 151.5 today, which is pretty good considering what I ate yesterday. Today so far I've had cereal and again some junk food, but not too much, and now it's already almost 6pm. Time flies when you're shooting things on the xbox. Haha. Planning on going on a run right now because it's pretty nice out.

Hope everyone is doing well! Only 6 and a half pounds to go before I hit 145, my goal for back to school.

edit: So just got back from my run- it was wicked! Too damn hot out there, haha. I was swerving around trees for the shade where there were no buildings or anything. Ran for almost an hour, and at a good pace. I feel like I haven't burned enough calories today, but I've got at least four days I think (or five? Huh I can't remember haha) in a row without even having an easy run, they've all been pretty intense. So I'll hit the showers then. I already had some pasta (not a great after run meal! I wish we had some protein in the house, like really). I don't want to anything more tonight since it's already 8 but chances are I'll find something to snack on, haha. Anyway ciao.
 
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Hokay, so today went like this:

Early afternoon: Multigrain cheerios with 1% milk, small apple. Coffee.
Around 4:30pm: 220 calories from a kid sized dairy queen cone that was actually shoved into my hand by my 65 year old aunt with family surrounding. Wanted to turn it down, couldn't. But at least my head was in check.
Around 6pm: Another small apple (I just love apples hahaha), tuna salad (aka tuna, celery, and miracle whip- but not too much!), pickles, lots of other veggies, courtesy of my lovely mother.
Late evening: Burned 200 calories on the bike, 600 calories on the treadmill, and another 200 calories on the bike. It was a long easy workout.
Just had: Oatmeal (240 calories worth- gosh I haven't had oatmeal in ages, I was so stoked when it showed up in the pantry, even though homemade is way better), banana, a little bit of fruit salad.

Oh and I tried the scale twice this morning, and got one reading of 151.5, and one of 151.0. My scale only goes up in 0.5s, so I think that means I'm somewhere between that. :p
 
Allo, today I didn't have much of an appetite, which hasn't happened in a long time, hahaha. I dunno why. I drank coffee with a little milk around noon and from then until about 6:30 I didn't eat anything except for a few chips and a few five cent candies (at my friend's house) and a glass of pink grapefruit juice. Then at 6:30 I had some special k cereal with 1% miiiilk. And then I burned 500 calories running and 300 on the exercise bike. And then I had oatmeal again, 240 calories (man my diet is booring), aaand hmm what else, a babybel and another handful of chips.

The damn scale didn't change at all this morning, so I think it should tomorrow. Hint hint weight.

Well that sure was an interesting post. Hope everyone else on the forum is doing well.
 
Hi Crayon! Good luck on continued success… Although you are taller than me, sounds like we started from a very similar place… My max ever has been 165, and I lost around 15 by running. Back up to 165 recently and trying to use running as my primary tool to lose again. But, you’ve already had success and I’m still working on it, haha. Anyway, keep up the good work!
 
Hi Laura! :) Thank you! I always like meeting people who are in the same sort of position as me. Don't let weight gain get you down, just get right back to it! I love running; I think it's so so helpful. Allows me to eat what I want sometimes haha (usually my biggest meal is after I workout), without worrying too much about it. But yeah thanks and good luck to you too!

Today was pretty goood. I haad a bowl of cereal, and a small-ish bowl of pasta. Snacked on some fishy crackers- they're too darn addicting! Early in the day I burned 300 calories on the exercise bike. Around 8:30 I hopped on the treadmill and blasted off about 750 calories, I think. After that I had two homemade taco wraps (thin pita-like bread, spicy ground beef, shredded cheese tomatoes lettuce cucumbers blah blah) which are relatively small and healthy, yet I feel uncomfortably full. Oh well, that's probably my favourite meal of what my mom cooks, so whateverr. At least I skipped out on the corn cobs. Oh and I also had a venti iced latte in the afternoon (180 calories, yikes, no wonder I usually just drink regular coffee with milk. I hate liquid calories).

I can't remember what the scale said this morning but I know I wasn't very happy with it. However my favorite jeans felt very loose today since I haven't worn them in a while, which is both good and bad, haha. Goodnight!
 
Todaaay has been weird so far, and the only reason I'm posting now instead of at the end of the day like usual is that I'm waiting for the shower, haha. Woke up pretty early, weighed myself half-asleep wearing shorts and a tank, and got 151.5. Naturally that made me frustrated, because I've seen that number for way too many days in a row. However since today was a nice sunny day for once (the climate is not extremely warm or sunny where I live, haha), I went out in my backyard and lounged around reading for two hours working on my tan. After that I weighed myself (after having drank a bottle of water throughout that two hours, but not eaten anything) I saw 149.5 on the scale. And that confused me, but made me happy nonetheless, even if it's not accurate.

Well that was a pointless rant, but I'll continue for lack of better things to do. It was about two in the afternoon and all I'd had in the day was vitamin water and 35 calories of yogurt, when I decided to make myself go run on the treadmill, because I'm going to be home late tonight and probably won't have the energy. It was awful. It was liking running in sand. I figure it was a combination of lack of sleep, lethargy after being in the sun, lack of food, and just the fact that I am not a morning person so I always work out better in the evenings. I think I only burned about 350 calories and gave up. Oh well. Maybe I'll try again later.

After that I had what sounds to me like a lot of food. I had some scrambled eggs (not many though, now that I think of it), a bowl of multigrain cheerios with a small chopped banana, and one piece of toast with peanut butter. And now I have a coffee in hand which I hope will perk me up.

I'm going to a football game with my friend and my family tonight. The upside: should be fun; I like football even though my favourite team isn't playing. The downside: my friend is a track star that eats so much it's ridiculous. But pretty much the only thing I ever get tempted by at those games is red liquorice (which my family buys and offers me). Everyone always gets pizza, but it tastes very undercooked if you ask me, haha. I might be hungry enough though. I can finally go take my shower now so I will likely update later, buh bye.

edit: So I ended up eating a piece of pizza and a snow cone (walked a lot at the game too I suppose), and when I got home I had some raisin bran and crackers. Today was probably the worst day diet-wise I've had in a while, but I'm okay with that. I know I was wearing my body out with all the exercise, so a lighter day like today is good for me. There's not really an excuse for the food, but I'm okay with having one crappy day. :p Back to it tomorrow! I feel like I have a fever though. Hope I don't. Hey maybe I'll do an isagenix cleanse tomorrow! You're supposed to do two days for the full effect, but for a teenager who likely doesn't have many toxins in the body, one day is fine. Hmm depends on what I'm doing tomorrow. Don't want to have to refuse food if I'm out and about with people. I kinda want to now though!
 
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My scale and I are fighting today. Then again, I hadn't at all expected to be happy with what it would say this morning, considering my day yesterday, so I suppose I can't be too angry with him. I'm just not very pleased.

Today I once again worked on my tan (makes you look thinner, what can I say? I'm a vain teenager like that), and didn't eat until around 2pm, which lead me to a bowl of cereal and of course a good cup of coffee. That was three hours prior to now, and I'm waiting for my dad to get home so we can go to dinner. Have you ever noticed how absolutely ridiculous restaurant meals can be calorie-wise? I knew beforehand that I must be very careful when browsing a menu, and I usually order salads or whole-wheat pastas, but today we're going to the keg, which I must say is quite lacking in the above. I'm thinking teriyaki chicken, and no thank you to those 380 calorie garlic mashed potatoes (is it just me or is that sum outrageous? And some 500 something for the rice that comes with seafood! Insanity)! Hopefully it comes with vegetables too; I'm sure it must.

My beloved treadmill got taken away today because it's a clunker, so hopefully I can fit a run in outside before it gets dark (we're getting a new treadmill in a few days, hopefully). I'm gonna need it especially if those potatoes prove to be too tempting. Oh well I won't worry about it too much. Off I go.

edit: Oh man so the rest of tonight was just a mess. I had maybe 500 calories at the restaurant, no, maybe closer to 600. I dunno. I felt sick after and I got home too late to go for a run, so I just went on the bike for an hour and twenty. And then I had multigrain cheerios with milk, an apple with peanut butter..and gummy worms! My dad cleaned out all the old (ish) candy from his desk and put it in the kitchen- great. Bah! I don't know what's wrong with me, I feel so dead. Tonight is the closest I've come to a binge in a long time!

Going to the zoo tomorrow.. exercise and not much food, I hope.
 
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Hello all. 151.0 today. I really want to get under 150. x-x

As said yesterday, I went to the zoo today. I think we got roughly three hours of solid walking in (at the very least walking/standing), not including all the sitting breaks and whatnot. Maybe even more than that, though. However I ate a lot of junk food there as well. Aside from the bowl of cereal I had in the morning (about 250 calories), I had some crackers (100 calories probably), a small soft serve ice cream cone, a handful of fries, and a reasonably large cinnamon bun. But when I got home I went for a rather arduous run, nearly 10k at a decent speed over varied ground. After that I had a little bit of leftover chicken (not more than 150 calories), multigrain cheerios with milk, and a small banana. And now I'm here. More than likely I'll snack more today because I'm about to watch a movie with the fam, but I'm not very hungry so maybe not.
 
Today was a boring one. I stayed at home all day except for my short run. My left foot was sore today from pounding a bit too hard yesterday, so it was indeed short; almost 40 minutes, but it was also a light pace. Takin' it easy. I then went on the exercise bike barefoot for 40 minutes. That was my workout for the day. I ate too much and didn't eat super healthy, but I'm not too choked up. It was a lazy stay at home and try not to melt from the heat kind of day. I weighed 150 in the morning though, which was nice to see. It will probably have gone up tomorrow though, but oh well! Back on track tomorrow I hope.
 
Hey all, it seems like ages since I last said anything! Well that was for a number of reasons. The main one being I injured my back. Well, re-injured it, really. I've got a horrible back as in it hurts pretty much all the time, but only once in a while do I ever truly injure it. I did it helping my mom lift that damn treadmill out of the van; I should have known better. It's like every few months, I get a bit too confident and I reinjure my back (this all started oh, four years ago) just so that I'm again careful for the next few months, and then it happens again.. Bah! Awful back issues when I'm 17- I just can't wait until I'm 70!!!

Anyway, that injury literally put me on the couch with a heating pad with very, very limited mobility (stretching so as to avoid stiffness and all that though..and walking very very slowly..blahblahblah) for two days. And up until now I've continued to be really careful, although I'm moving around a lot now. No working out though- I'm too damn scared.

My back problems give me a lot of grief..I cried a few times, haha. It's just so sad. This is not a usual kid problem. But there are way worse health problems, so whatever! What I mean to say is that with frustration and being damned to immobility, I've gotten FAT. I did do a one-day cleanse, no food and a disgusting cleansing drink + a gazillion ounces of water. But the rest of the days were really bad food-wise.

But tomorrow I think I'm ready to brave a run (the treadmill is still not set up, despite my efforts. We need my cousins to get it downstairs for us), and get back on track! School starts on the 2nd...whoop dee doo! Actually I am sort of excited.

G'night!
 
Today has been okay. Stayed home & snacked a lot but mostly healthy eating. Was generally lazy aside from my workout, which consisted of a half hour jog, some dumbell exercises, some crunches and planks (had to be real careful and light with all this, because my back is still sore and I could easily pull something again), and an hour on the exercise bike. I want tomorrow to be really good- maybe I'll do a liquid diet? Green tea and coffee are all I neeeed.
 
Sorry to hear about your back problems. My daughter had knee problems a few years back and was not allowed to run, do sports or much at all but rest it for about a year. She ended up putting on a lot of weight so I know how frustrating it is for you. Just try and build up gently and stop as soon as you get a twinge.
I hope you got your treadmill set up.
 
Thank you, eyckmans. Oh my gosh, that would be awful! Thankfully this injury healed fast, although I'm sure my back will always be prone to injury. I just have to be careful. Thankfully I've never had knee problems. I've been through many a sprained ankle, broken foot, lower leg stress fracture, etc..but never knees. Thanks, we got the treadmill down the stairs and are just piecing it together now. :)

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Today was one of those days that isn't good but isn't bad either. I ate fairly healthy except for at my friend's house, where I had an ice cream sandwich and too many chips. Other than that I had special k cereal, an apple, a banana, coffee, vegetable soup.. and after my workout I had two egg whites, a few slices of cheese, silhouette yogurt with granola, and a piece of toast with peanut butter. And four crackers, haha. I may have forgotten something, but I don't believe so. As for my workout, I went on the exercise bike for an hour, and took a break twice at each twenty minute point to do crunches and planks. After the biking I did a bunch of leg exercises- squats with dumbbells, lunges, etc, as well as a few sets of girly pushups. I feel a bit shaky, so I know I'm gonna be at least a bit sore tomorrow, which is a good thing! I can't even remember the last time I did any strength training for my legs. I think the treadmill will be ready tomorrow, which I can't wait to give a go. Holy I need to get on a better sleeping schedule before school starts, or I'm screwed! 'Night!
 
I tried for a second to think of some way to start a post without 'today' being my first word, but really I've decided I don't care that much. :p TODAY I went for a job interview at safeway and got hired (I've worked there before), and I'm super happy that they're willing to give me limited shifts during school (I can't handle too many hours). Getting a job now makes me super happy because I'm going on a trip with my family tomorrow where there's lots of shopping to do! I'll be able to do some IOU's with my mom. 'You give me 500 bucks now and my pay checks for the next while go to you..' Haha. Speaking of shopping, I wish I weighed less. But alas, new clothes before school are a must! I'll obviously just have to shop shape-smart. ;] And speaking of weight, I weighed 151 this morning.

Food-wise today was alright. I was below 'even' which is good. I ran on the new treadmill for an hour, and it's fabulous! Also I mentioned yesterday that I knew I would be sore today, and man am I ever! I could be more sore, but I can tell I got a good workout yesterday.

I'm not sure if I'll be posting again before the 31st when I get back, but we'll see how much Internet access I get.
 
Have a great time on your holiday. If you're anything like my daughter half of the IOUs never get paid back. I use them to bribe her with other stuff :)
 
Thanks eyckmans. :) That's funny, and probably so true with me! I need to write down all I spent so that I don't forget; my mom is too trusting and sweet to really demand anything from me, haha.

My shopping trip was great, for anyone wondering. I bought tons of things, including a dress which ahem doesn't actually fit yet (They didn't have a ten so I bought the eight..and it's one of those dresses where you reeeally have to be an eight if you're gonna get it on you- no cheating haha!), that I got because I'm confident that I'll lose enough to fit into it soon! ;D

Eating and exercise on the trip was okay.. lots of walking, but lots of food too, and not necessarily the healthiest foods, but that's alright. I didn't work out while there, but I got a good hour long run in today. So overall lots of fun! Hope everyone is doing well.
 
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