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I’m Mandy, 24 from London, UK. Joined this here forum to mingle with those of you who know what it’s like to feel painfully uncomfortable in your own skin and want to do something about it.

For some while, I’ve been unhappy with the way I look. It seems clothes don’t quite fit the way they used to. Everything feels frumpy. I don’t quite feel feminine anymore.. just.. lumpy. I feel physically unfit and ashamed of the way I eat. I’m a complete comfort eater by nature. If something depresses me.. I turn to food. I don’t mean like literally shovel 10 chocolate bars down my throat... It’s more of a craving/binge than anything. I’ll sit and happily eat a tub of glacier cherries and a bag of pork rinds if it takes my fancy.

I took a stroll on the GI diet last year for two months, but found it excruciatingly painful. I was moody, snappy, unhappy and unable to cater for the strict routine the diet employed. I’ve not thought about dieting since! Until now!! I’ve decided the best plan for me would be to start on the Weight Watchers plan. Where I can eat a *little* bit of what I crave every now and again to reward me for the milestones I’ve crossed.

I’m currently 11st 2lbs (156lbs) and hoping to lose at least 3st (42lbs) by December.

Looking to make some new friends, lose weight, give support to other users, get support and share some luuurrrve!
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Hi Mandy!

Welcome! You've come to the right place! Plenty of luuurrrve here!

Sounds like you are ready to do it! Don't know much about Weight Watchers but some people are very successful with their program. The only concern I have about "programs" is that if they're radically different (in food choices) from the way you are accustomed to eating, then it may be hard to maintain the loss you work for.

Because once you do lose weight, if you return to the way you've previously eaten, even with the best of intentions to limit portions, it's all too easy to drift back into old unhealthy patterns.

In my opinion (and I'm no expert) I think it is better to work with your present eating habits and make small manageable changes gradually, while at the same time, gently increasing your activity level.

One thing WW has is accountability and camradery, but you can also get that here. I'm not trying to talk you out of WW, just be certain that you understand that the way you must eat to lose weight is going to be very similar to the way you must eat to maintain a healthy weight.

You mention "rewarding" yourself with favorite foods for reaching milestones. IMO that's "fat-talk." Better to allow occasional treats in moderation, but to figure them in to your calorie total and stay within the optimal range for your height and body type.

Your reward for reaching the goals will be the ease with which you move and how you feel and look in your clothing along with the energy and health that you regain, which, in turn will allow you to lead an active lifestyle allowing you to remain fit and trim always. It's a much better reward than crisps, chocolate and pork rinds.

Best of luck! Post your goals and plans in detail, it helps! It really does.

David
 
Hi David,

Thanks so much for taking time out to spread some luurrrve this way! It really is appreciated more than you will know!

Completely understand where you are coming from from every angle and deeply appreciate your advice. Believe me, I’m not just senselessly locking myself in a dark room with the Weight Watchers plan and saying – DO IT OR DIE, WOMAN! – I’m effectively trying to wean myself off all the junk I cram into my day. I am absolutely terrible with self-motivation, so figure if I have a heathy set of ‘rules’ in front of me to abide by, I’m more likely to stick on the straight and narrow. That’s why I’ve chosen to go on a planned diet. I’m highly confident I won’t fall back into old habits because I’m absolutely fed up of feeling the way I do and I *CAN* change my eatiung habits. A year ago, I wouldn't even LOOK at anything green. After the one month I spent on GI, I got addicted to sugar snap peas and broccoli. :) So, I believe that I won't take a step back. It's all forwards from this point on. I want to be healthy. I want to feel good. I want to succeed. And damn, I’m strong and will!

You’re right with the point you made about “fat talk”. I guess as I’ve only just started dieting, I’m still in the routine of thinking about the foods I so desperately want to eat! :p But that will pass. As you said, I can reward myself with how good I feel/look when the pounds start coming off. I might even get to buy that fantastical dress I was eyeing up.. ;)

-Mandy
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Mandy,

I certainly don't have any problems with a planned diet. planning what and how much you are going to eat and the quantity is a good lifelong habit to aquire. I know WW meals are sensible. it's the translation into your own meal planning after you stop WW that people have trouble with.

Mindful planning of the food I eat is an important factor in my own weight loss. For example, if I don't pack a lunch I get fat! True!

I either skip lunch altogether and then tear at dinner like a wolf and gorge myself or I go to a restaurant.

Every bad thing you've heard about American restaurants is true. They practically trip over themselves rushing huge portions of greasy drek to the table. Being a Manly-Man....I - must - eat - it, all of it, and if you aren't going to finish your fries (chips) I'll eat those too!!! (more fat talk)

The simple act of bringing my lunch every day makes a big difference.

But it sounds like you are on the right road. Do be careful with statements like "I am absolutely terrible with self-motivation" Your subconcious mind is listening! Plus, you sound pretty motivated to me!

Getting the dress sound like a great goal, be sure to post pics of you in it in the "Before and After" section!! :)

David C
 
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DCarr10760 said:
Mindful planning of the food I eat is an important factor in my own weight loss. For example, if I don't pack a lunch I get fat! True!

I either skip lunch altogether and then tear at dinner like a wolf and gorge myself or I go to a restaurant.
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Haha! I know how that feels! I've just made a delicious looking salad with eggs and ham to take into work tomorrow. Else I'll be skipping down the road to the nearest deli that serves sandwiches in all-sorts of un-healthy proportions! It's also very bad to skip lunch, isn't it?

Thanks again David. :) Words well heeded!
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So, I’m allowed 19 “points” per day according to the WW “Full Choice” plan. I aim to stick towards the goodness of fruit and veggies and resist the urge to binge snack on rubbish that’s making me sleepy and podgy. The good thing about the WW plan is most vegetables have a 0 points value. Still, must eat them in some sort of moderation or I’ll turn into a brocolli! :D That could be interesting.. *imagines life as a brocolli*
 
MONDAY 6TH AUGUST 07

Breakfast - 2 mandarin oranges (breakfast on the run!) = 2pts
Lunch - Homemade low GI meatballs with pasta and low-fat pasta sauce = 8pts
Snack - A handful of sugar snap peas = 0pts
Dinner - Porridge oats with hazelnuts and raisins = 3pts
Snack - 130g red seedless grapes = 1/half pts


TOTAL = 14 and a half points

Exercise: Walked from work to Liverpool St. bus station (10 mins walk) instead of taking the tube.. which stops directly outside of work!
 
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Mmmm... my lunch looks SO good today that I've actually taken a picture of it, LOL! Would post it by my file transfer is buggered at the moment :(
 
TUESDAY 7TH AUGUST 07

Breakfast - Porridge oats with hazelnuts and raisins and skimmed milk = 3pts
Snack - Pear = 1pt
Lunch - Baby spinach leaves, half a large tomato, chopped red & yellow peppers, cucumber, 2 slices roast chicken & 2 Ryevita crispbreads = 4pts
Snack - Plum = 1/2pt
Dinner - Weight Watchers tomato soup & 2 slices dry granary bread = 4pts
Snack - 1 light digestive biscuit & glass of skimmed milk = 1, 1/2 pts

TOTAL = 14 pts

Exercise: Walked from work to Liverpool St. bus station - 10 mins walk.

I WAS supposed to start jogging tonight... but I had a massive row over the phone with my Mother. :( You'd think at 24 years old, family fueds would cease to be! I don't live with either of my parents. They are seperated... and miles away. I get on with my Father the most because, he's the one who brought me up since I was 3 years old. My Mother didn't step back into my life till I was 13. Just turned up out of the blue. She's a manic depressant and constantly complicates a lot of things. Anyhow, it's a long story for another time....

You know.... I've been so desperate to gorge on biscuits tonight... but instead, I had ONE... and invited my boyfriend over. Hugging rocks much more than biscuits. *nods* I'd settle for hugs over those things any day.
 
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Hi Mandy,

Good for you getting past your craving by "distraction" ;) Whatever works!

Sorry about your troubles with your Mom, Bipolar disease is so hard to deal with. (our good friend's oldest boy has it bad, big time meds and eventually institutionalization. So Tragic). Sounds like a great deal of sadness there in your past.

Doubly good for you for keeping things together and focusing now on your health!!

David C.
 
Milady said:
I WAS supposed to start jogging tonight... but I had a massive row over the phone with my Mother. :( You'd think at 24 years old, family fueds would cease to be! I don't live with either of my parents. They are seperated... and miles away. I get on with my Father the most because, he's the one who brought me up since I was 3 years old. My Mother didn't step back into my life till I was 13. Just turned up out of the blue. She's a manic depressant and constantly complicates a lot of things. Anyhow, it's a long story for another time....

You know.... I've been so desperate to gorge on biscuits tonight... but instead, I had ONE... and invited my boyfriend over. Hugging rocks much more than biscuits. *nods* I'd settle for hugs over those things any day.
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Hey Mandy,

I came to bring some love to your journal. You're off to a great start!

As for screwed up families with manic depressant parents and such I know all to well... if you ever need to talk feel free to pm me or im me on msn, yahoo, or aol:hug2:

Keep up the great work and don't feel bad about not jogging. Tomorrow is a new day... and WTG on resisting those biscuits ... hugs most certainly are better.

~Jenna
 
DCarr10760 said:
Hi Mandy,

Good for you getting past your craving by "distraction" ;) Whatever works!

Sorry about your troubles with your Mom, Bipolar disease is so hard to deal with. (our good friend's oldest boy has it bad, big time meds and eventually institutionalization. So Tragic). Sounds like a great deal of sadness there in your past.

Doubly good for you for keeping things together and focusing now on your health!!

David C.
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David, you’re on the button there alright! Bipolar disease sure is immensely difficult to cope with. Not only for the sufferer, but for all involved. My Mother has a really bad habit of running away from her problems. No matter how hard you try to console, love, help and sympathise with her.. she just ends up like an ostrich – burying her head in the sand. She hung up the phone last night after I tried to confront her about a few things. She’s good at running. All too good. Even though I was FUMING with her last night, I called her back an hour later (after we’d both simmered down) and told her no matter what, I love her. Just can’t sleep on an argument. Especially with someone I love dearly and know is not 100% stable. I always worry she’ll do something stupid. Anyway, today is a bright new day. The sun is shining (even though I’m shacked up at work in an office! GRR!) And it’s only 2 days to go till the weekend – woohoo! :D (PS – David, do you have a diet diary I can come and poke my nose into every now and again? Would be nice to shed some support back!)

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Hey Mandy,

I came to bring some love to your journal. You're off to a great start!

As for screwed up families with manic depressant parents and such I know all to well... if you ever need to talk feel free to pm me or im me on msn, yahoo, or aol:hug2:

Keep up the great work and don't feel bad about not jogging. Tomorrow is a new day... and WTG on resisting those biscuits ... hugs most certainly are better.

~Jenna
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Jenna, my tiny new friend! Thanks for coming over and spreading some love. Always appreciated!! I might just take up your offer of that MSN ping chat. ;) It’s always nice to put some personalities to some posts! :D You’re right. Tomorrow is a new day. Yesterday I’m kinda glad I didn’t go jogging.. it started hammering down with rain! At least today we have a bit of sun! :) Hope you are well! x
 
Hi Mandy,

I do have a weight loss diary. I'm afraid that when I set myself up on this site I charged right in without seeing how everybody did things. So I named the diet "DCarr10760's weight loss journal" (or was it ...diary). Not terribly creative, but there it is.

I envy you your "bright new day!" Today in Connecticut is very hot, (90's f) extremely humid and at the moment raining quite hard. Hasn't dampened my spirits, though they're perhaps a bit wilted. (Missed my walk)

David C.
 
Errch, hate it when the weather is humid! Everything is so sticky and... nasty! How come you missed your walk? Was it because of the weather? Or maybe your shoes got stolen in a freak accident involving a dinosaur and a carrot... well.. you never know! :p It's a crazy world! What are your plans for the day? x
 
Yeah, it was the weather, I went out at 5 am like usual hoping to miss the rain and when I started it was just beginning. By the time I got to the end of the street it was a drenching downpour and I was soaked through.

Light rains I'll walk through, steady rains too, but when it's pounding down in sheets...I turned tail and went home...

At work the owners put in a small gym for us to use, so I'll tread on the mill at lunch today.

David

The Dinosaur and the carrot, that was yesterday!
 
Humid AND raining? Jeez! That does suck! The weather wants to make up it's mind what it's doing. Still sunny here... still working fingers to the bone! Just about to make lunch. Might post a pic if it looks anything as amazing as it did yesterday!!

Hope you have a good day! :)
 
I HAD to take a picture of my lunch today! It looks so good I.. I... I... I WANT TO EAT IT! And damn I will be doing in a few moments time! You'll find me in the corner knawing on baby spinach leaves. I'm getting radically addicted to spinach!!!

*insert mass dribble here*
 
WEDNESDAY 8TH AUGUST 07

Breakfast - Porridge oats with hazelnuts and raisins and skimmed milk and one mandarin orange = 4pts
Snack - Plum = 1/2pt
Lunch - Baby spinach leaves, half a large tomato, chopped red & yellow peppers, cucumber, 2 ryvita crispbreads with Weight Watchers farmhouse pate. 1 apple, 1 small bottle orange juice = 4pts
Dinner - Weight Watchers Tuna pasta bake (which was HORRIBLE.. but we’ll get to the story about that later in the post!) = 4 1/2pts
Snack - 1 mandarin orange & a glass of semi –skimmed milk = 1 ½ points


TOTAL = 14 and a half points

Exercise: Walked from work to London Bridge tube station.. (20 minutes) whilst nattering on the phone. :p I’m learning that distraction is the key to success with me!!

Managed a 20 min jog/brisk walk round the docks where I live () :) I started off jogging along merrily.. but after a mere 2-3 minutes, I found myself feeling uncomfortably out of breath.. so thought best to slow the pace down to a brisk walk. Was a tad disappointed to cop out of the jog after such a small amount of time.. BUT it’s only day 3 of the dazzling new life.. and they do say Rome wasn’t built in a day! ;) If I push too hard, I’ll give in.. and dammed if I’m gonna do that!!

**CAUTION - IF YOU DON'T LIKE TOILET HUMOUR, I ADVISE YOU STOP READIN NOW!!!**
Today has been a good day. Apart from the utterly dreadful dinner I had!!! I opted for one of those stuffed-in-a-box Weight Watchers microwave jobs, just to experiment really – never again! Devoured the rather foul looking monster of a meal *just* before I escaped work.. and on my walk down to London Bridge.. my stomach started feeling like it’d been tossed rapidly into a cement mixer and given the beating from hell! Now.. bear in mind we’re in the land of banks, banks and more banks.. as far as the eye can see.. and I’m absolutely BURSTING for the toilet. And I don’t mean for a tinkle!! Can hardly go and lay a few bricks in HSBC or Abbey National! LMAO! So.. Desperate.. I entered the devils lair – McDonalds. *insert dramatic gasps* And it’s one of those places you HAVE to buy something to be allowed to use the restroom. *groan* So I bought a hamburger.. just so I could deposit myself before the outside of HSBC heard a very loud explosion and had a new paint-job from the outside. :p The funniest thing is.. I walked out of McDonalds and put the burger.. IN THE BIN!! Woo! I’m so proud! *gleams* The moral of this story = stay away from Weight Watchers boxed meals!! And... maybe use the loo before leaving work!!
 
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Milady said:
WEDNESDAY 8TH AUGUST 07

Breakfast - Porridge oats with hazelnuts and raisins and skimmed milk and one mandarin orange = 4pts
Snack - Plum = 1/2pt
Lunch - Baby spinach leaves, half a large tomato, chopped red & yellow peppers, cucumber, 2 ryvita crispbreads with Weight Watchers farmhouse pate. 1 apple, 1 small bottle orange juice = 4pts
Dinner - Weight Watchers Tuna pasta bake (which was HORRIBLE.. but we’ll get to the story about that later in the post!) = 4 1/2pts
Snack - 1 mandarin orange & a glass of semi –skimmed milk = 1 ½ points

TOTAL = 14 and a half points

Exercise: Walked from work to London Bridge tube station.. (20 minutes) whilst nattering on the phone. :p I’m learning that distraction is the key to success with me!!

Managed a 20 min jog/brisk walk round the docks where I live () :) I started off jogging along merrily.. but after a mere 2-3 minutes, I found myself feeling uncomfortably out of breath.. so thought best to slow the pace down to a brisk walk. Was a tad disappointed to cop out of the jog after such a small amount of time.. BUT it’s only day 3 of the dazzling new life.. and they do say Rome wasn’t built in a day! ;) If I push too hard, I’ll give in.. and dammed if I’m gonna do that!!

You're doing a great job with your eating and exercise. 2-3 minutes of jogging is more than you did four days ago... so that's an improvement:) You'll work on it... just don't be disappointed... you said it best yourself... Rome wan't built in a day!

**CAUTION - IF YOU DON'T LIKE TOILET HUMOUR, I ADVISE YOU STOP READIN NOW!!!**
Today has been a good day. Apart from the utterly dreadful dinner I had!!! I opted for one of those stuffed-in-a-box Weight Watchers microwave jobs, just to experiment really – never again! Devoured the rather foul looking monster of a meal *just* before I escaped work.. and on my walk down to London Bridge.. my stomach started feeling like it’d been tossed rapidly into a cement mixer and given the beating from hell! Now.. bear in mind we’re in the land of banks, banks and more banks.. as far as the eye can see.. and I’m absolutely BURSTING for the toilet. And I don’t mean for a tinkle!! Can hardly go and lay a few bricks in HSBC or Abbey National! LMAO! So.. Desperate.. I entered the devils lair – McDonalds. *insert dramatic gasps* And it’s one of those places you HAVE to buy something to be allowed to use the restroom. *groan* So I bought a hamburger.. just so I could deposit myself before the outside of HSBC heard a very loud explosion and had a new paint-job from the outside. :p The funniest thing is.. I walked out of McDonalds and put the burger.. IN THE BIN!! Woo! I’m so proud! *gleams* The moral of this story = stay away from Weight Watchers boxed meals!! And... maybe use the loo before leaving work!!
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As for this story:rotflmao: :rotflmao: I'm not laughing at you... I'm laughing with you... cause I know how it feels to be in this sort of predicament. You handled it really well... and I will totally avoid weight watchers frozen meals if it ever comes up for me to eat one!! O0oooo and WTG tossing that McD's nastiness in the bin... gotta buy something to use the bathroom... what a revolting yet wonderful marketing ploy!
 
Boam46 said:
As for this story:rotflmao: :rotflmao: I'm not laughing at you... I'm laughing with you... cause I know how it feels to be in this sort of predicament. You handled it really well... and I will totally avoid weight watchers frozen meals if it ever comes up for me to eat one!! O0oooo and WTG tossing that McD's nastiness in the bin... gotta buy something to use the bathroom... what a revolting yet wonderful marketing ploy!
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Hahahaha! There does seem to be a niche in the market for that type of thing Jenna! Wanna go into business? ;) Speaking of... have you seen those odd looking "lady tubes" they have invented especially for festivals, so ladies are able to go for a tinkle.. rather like gentlemen?! They are odd.. but a good idea!
 
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