Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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Wow, congrats on the race and I'm glad to hear you get along well with your family. Its wonderful to be surrounded by health-conscious individuals.

I don't live near my family (I'm the only one on the west coast) and most of my friends like to do a lot of sedentary activities like eat, drink, and play video games. It makes it tough when I say "Guys, I can't sit here anymore. I'm ancy. I have to move or I'm going to go crazy," and they look at me like I'm already crazy.

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- Sunny
 
Healthyhabit said:
most of my friends like to do a lot of sedentary activities like eat, drink, and play video games. It makes it tough when I say "Guys, I can't sit here anymore. I'm ancy. I have to move or I'm going to go crazy," and they look at me like I'm already crazy.
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Sunny:
My housemates = BF and 2 males. One housmate is an alcoholic who drinks wiskey all day--sweetest thing, though, love him. Other housemate is a good friend of 2+years--apparently can't live a day without smoking herb. BF smokes, but less, and is borderline alcoholic. So he's in the middle.

My family is an hour away. I can't hang out with them very much, and I HATE going to the East bay in the summer--100 degree weather! UGH!

I like to drink, but I HATE being drunk, and as a runner, I am naturally adverse to putting smoke in my lungs. But on a given evening, I'll be sitting there, they will be watching TV, on the internet, playing guitar, or playing dominos or poker, smoking and drinking. B-O-R-I-N-G!!! They seldom if evver go out because they don't want to spend $$$--I can understand that. but on a beuatiful weekend day, they don't ever initiate going OUTSIDE. And the BF sleeps until 3-6pm on weekends. So I'm basically a loner if I want to do anything I want to do. STORY OF MY LIFE! ;)
 
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So I mentioned my body image was better than ever. Well I had a bunch of pics taken of me yesteday and I thought my face and upper arms looked chubby. I was actually disappointed. My weight goes up to 147 and down to 141 for the past month depending on my cycle and salt intake. I really am anxious about how I cannot eat to deficit lately and wonder if my activity is sabatoging it. I figure I need to get a better grip and not sacrifice the good exercise--also the depression about my dissolving relationship with the BF (BTW yesterday was pure heaven and he was an angel, but that's one day ya know) caused to eat--and realize I AM or have become an emotional eater. I don't look like my pics at 137 anymore.

Well, during yesterday's announcements of the top female runners I noticed the top runners in general have very skinny legs. I became self-concious of my own, which are bigger, a bit fatter, and muscular. Also, they have small upper bodies. My arms are bigger now and when I gain weight, fat immediately goes to the upper part. And I have breasts.

Still, I realize that I am among these women in ability, if not 1-2 minutes behind them, which I could change with training. My first mile, actually, was 6:15 but I was too tired to keep up that pace. IF I trained and was not sleepy (for some reason I can never sleep before a race--I can't say it's anxiety so much as it's excitement) maybe I could pull off a 19-20 minute 5K. Next year.

My point is, don't bother assuring me, I know my body is fine, but I was very intimidated by the skinny legs--of which my male family members also have. Also, I'm almost in despair of my inability to lose the last 10-5 lbs (depending on a number of factors) and don't see me getting to 138 by my birthday. I promise to still be happy and I'm not going to stop my active lifestyle--it feels too good.
 
That IS annoying and boring about the BF sleeping all day and partying nonstop. Definitely time to move on. Believe me, sometimes I wish it was so simple for me.

Dont worry about your legs. They may not be "runners legs" but juicy thick legs are liked by many men. If we all looked the same we'd be boring!
 
Claud and Tom: Thank you, but honestly I love my legs but I was more concerned about how the make-up effects my running.

Yesterday: I forgot to mention I ran on the beach/through the harbor/around the meadow at 6:30am and at 5:30pm, did Kickboe and Psycho Michael was making us do interval training. I was surprised I kept up!

Food: b-fast was cereal, agave nectar, berries. Snack was full fat cheese slices (2) and crackers, and cashews. Lunch was leftover Thai food with no rice, Mejool dates and fake chickn' nuggets. It was a co-worker's b-day, so we had small piece cake and small glass champagne. About 4pm I had soy bar and an apple. Dinner was 2 Newcastles, salmon, and piece yam at a restaurant I went out to. Amazingly all this only came to 2550 calories. I burned about 800 with exercise, and my NARM is probably 1800 or so. So the deficit was only 50 calories, unless my metabolism is fast enough to create more of a burn.

Plans for the weekend: Tomorrow morning I'm going to SLV High's track (mushy red stuff) and practive interval sprinting to increase my speed. I also have a facial at 12:45 and a haircut at 4pm. In the interim I may ride my bike around. I plan on visiting the brewery as well. Sunday I work 5pm-9pm as hostess, but Sunday morning I may ride my bike to Davenport early, before the wind picks up.

Today: Woke at 6:15am, Weight trained very slowly from 6:50-7:45am. I was pretty tired from yesterday!
Weight is 144 lbs.
 
I've seen a lot of runners. "skinny" legs are usually NOT a trait. The fastest runners usually have long legs that are more muscular than average. Also, chicken legs are not attractive at all imo.
 
Good Morning! I'm sorry but I'll have to agree with the gentlemen on this one. I was a runner in high school and my legs were long and muscular, but they looked great! I was FAST! I also got compliments on my legs for YEARS afterwords. Long, Muscular legs are SEXY & FAST! Don't think otherwise. Chicken legs, well they speak for themselves, I'm happy to say my legs are making a come back, and it's about damn time!!! LOL :) Your fast sister, there is no denying that. But, even the best of competitors need to improve, there will always be someone that will be better and faster, so those other girls also have to work out all time and try to increase their speeds too, your not alone in that at all! Nobody, and I mean NOBODY is born gifted enough to never have to try at something to succeed, everyone has to work at it. Your awesome, let's face it you make it up in the top 5 every time you race, damn that's good! You look fantastic, and your body is smoking, and well I'm a girl and I'll tell you that. Keep up the good work, as I know you will and don't worry about your legs, I've seen the pictures and they are just fine!! SPEEDY GONZALES!! that's your new name now. HAHAHAHAH LOL Later
VBF
 
Hmm, I'm thinking your "NARM" may be higher than 1800. Mine is a range of 1900-2000. I believe we weigh the same but I'm a lot shorter than you and you're a lot younger than me. :rotflmao: I may have a bit more muscle mass, if not the same, as over the years I have just tried maintaining the muscle mass I grew in the first several years (rather than continuously trying to get them ever-larger). And with all the exercise and healthy food you eat, you probably have a high metabolism. It is a tricky guess though, eh?
 
VBF: I really apprciate the praise! I think I'm over it! :rotflmao: BUT you bet your booty that I'll be getting faster. I work hard, but apparently I'm gifted in this department. It feels great to be good at something, somthing a lot of people can't do. I always appreciate people who are good at something hard, like biking for hours, or swimming for hours, or breakdancing and doing headspins! LOL! Thanks again, love ya! :hug2:
 
Blancita said:
Hmm, I'm thinking your "NARM" may be higher than 1800. Mine is a range of 1900-2000. I believe we weigh the same but I'm a lot shorter than you and you're a lot younger than me. :rotflmao: I may have a bit more muscle mass, if not the same, as over the years I have just tried maintaining the muscle mass I grew in the first several years (rather than continuously trying to get them ever-larger). And with all the exercise and healthy food you eat, you probably have a high metabolism. It is a tricky guess though, eh?
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Hi Darhling!
I don't know, I was told at 140 lbs (4 lbs ago) from my body composition test, that my resting metabolic rate is 1400 calories (just breathing). And actually, I don't know what my NARM is. My body fat was supposedly 20.1% then, too. I always have trouble with calories. I know one thing: if I go to bed hungry, I wake up lighter. That's a fact!
 
Oh yes, if you're a runner OR want to be OR like hearing about those who are, chekc out the thread started by "Nicole". She ain't visit it back, but the thread won't die, darn it!! I'll keep it alive whether I'm the only one on there! :jump:
 
how's your day today val? i wish i can come there now and we go out and just dance the whole damn night hehe.

love ya
 
lena410 said:
how's your day today val? i wish i can come there now and we go out and just dance the whole damn night hehe.

love ya
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It's good, Lena! Weight training, working 2 jobs....looking forward to interval training/sprinting tomorrow.......dancing would be nice, do you like Too Short? :rotflmao:
Loves back! :hug2:
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Weight training, working 2 jobs....looking forward to interval training/sprinting tomorrow.......dancing would be nice
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You must have amazing amounts of energy to keep that busy and want to dance after. I remember doing about the same thing in college and it was the best weight loss technique I ever had. Too much to do and never enough time to eat! :rotflmao:
 
stuco said:
Seriously, and that's the hardest time not to eat! But it's such a waste to eat right and exercise all day and then ruin it by eating late.
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You're right, and last night I could have saved 150 calories because while I planned on only ONE NEWCASTLE, the bartender asked if I wanted another and I said, "Nah, only if you're paying for it!" and then 10 contemplative minutes later, he poured me another! So he DID pay for it! Damn it and I can't say no to THAT! :rolleyes: In fact, I just can't say "no" very often. :mad:

"Hey Valerie, you want to go out for dinner and drinks tonight?"
"Uhhh....OK yeah."

"Hey Valerie, I'll buy you a drink!"
"Nah."
"Oh come on!"
"Uhhh....ok fine!"

"Hey Valerie, have a piece of cake!"
"Nah....well....just a tiny slice."
 
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