Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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bethann1156 said:
Perhaps this will help you either realize that you ARE right for each other or you will find someone who is more compatible with your personality and discover something more satisfying and loving than what you (believe you) have now. It really IS about YOU right now....
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See you're right, AND that's what HE said! I think he wants to be alone, he's used to it--I want things to be exciting, novel, passionate--I want a PARTNER. If I'm co-dependent, I apologize. But sometimes he's too neutral for me--he grew up isolated in the woods. I grew up in the burbs with kids to play with all the time. His job is solitary engineering. Mine is to charm people into buying more wine! We're very different, but our love is SUPER strong, withstanding all types of turmoil.

Other guys are just stupid in comparison. And bad in bed. Ugh, what a disappointment! Drunk men in their early twenties are just horrible in bed, I swear! :rolleyes:
 
sunnydee said:
I agree. Sometimes time apart can be very healing, even though it hurts like HELL. Matt and I broke up for a couple of months back in 2005 when things were getting kind of blah between us and it turned out to be a great thing. It made me realize that I couldn't feel the way about anyone else that I felt about him. Things have been amazing ever since. I love him more than ever. :)
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This is what we're probably going to do. My only fear is that he'll write me off if I start dating someone else. But in reality, I probably shouldn't date anyone and just try to ground myself. I just get so lonely :(
 
LMAO!! Hey I love the fact that your straight up and honest, you don't hold back on what you want and how you feel about it. There is nothing wrong with wanting someone to snuggle up with or share affection with. We all long for that at one time or another, it's NORMAL! Maybe, and just maybe it's time for you to be set apart from one another and check out either being by yourself or with others. Could you stand to see him with someone else? That's the hard part, but if your not living in the same area, it might be a little easier to handle. Your strong, mentally and physically, you can handle it, I know it. Just do what feels right, and don't second guess anything, that's when things get screwed up! Your an awesome lady, with a lot to offer anybody. Take it as it comes, and don't dwell on it, if it's going to happen then it's going to happen. I can't see you doing anything else but being with people and doing jobs that are satisfying to your soul. You are the type of person and needs the interaction with others, so continue on your path, you will succeed in whatever you do, this I know! I wish you the comfort of a smooth transition, whichever way it ends up going. Keep your chin up, keep your spirits up and don't cave to anything that doesn't feel right or forced. It all works out in the long run, this we know!! Take care of yourself, and keep running, you need to release the energy and stress. I'll check in on you later! :jump:
Kim
 
Yesterday

Yesterday I ate plain erotic rice and had a glass of Gris de Pinot Noir, and that's it. It was easy, the BF and I had a L-O-N-G tearfest. :cry:

In fact, here's a picture I drew of me--Chubby Bunny crying.
 
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Today's foods: cereal, soymilk and soy yogurt, strawberries and blueberries, 2 Mejool dates.

Snack was full fat cheese, 2 slices at 110 calories, and 2 crackerasscrackers, and 1 plum.

Weight is 143.5 due to period.
 
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AHHHHH, *Kim reaches out to give hug to virtual bf* been there a few times myself, I understand what your going through, but I did make it through, it's so hard and you will have many more tears to lose before it's all done, but don't worry those tears will change! :) stay around positive friends and keep yourself busy doing stuff you love and it will help ease the pain. I love the bunny, I can see that on a greeting card right now. LOVE IT!!! I had some Pinot Nior the other night with a friend, we went out for drinks and ended up eating a nice meal at this italian place, it was the best time ever, FRIENDS lift up our souls, spend as much time with them as possible. And I will be here, if you need me!
 
Miss Ladybug said:
stay around positive friends and keep yourself busy doing stuff you love and it will help ease the pain....FRIENDS lift up our souls, spend as much time with them as possible. And I will be here, if you need me!
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Thank you! I WILL! I plan on getting out more and staying home less. I need to get back into volunteering for charity again. We're living together until the end of August. How painful....
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Thank you! I WILL! I plan on getting out more and staying home less. I need to get back into volunteering for charity again. We're living together until the end of August. How painful....
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Yes it will be, but a lot can change between then and now. Just try to remain friendly and caring with each other, that way the remainder of the time will end on a positive note and not an ugly one. Make sense? Never end anything in a negative, it stays with you for a long time. :)
 
Curvie Girlie said:
This is what we're probably going to do. My only fear is that he'll write me off if I start dating someone else. But in reality, I probably shouldn't date anyone and just try to ground myself. I just get so lonely :(
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You can't just "write off" someone you love...so if that happens, it was not something genuine....Val, You cannot operate your life from a position of fear! You are fearless, girl! :)
 
Thank you Bethann, but understand that while I will hang out with anyone from my past, the BF chooses to NOT see people ever again. Even if he still loves them. It's odd to me.
 
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