Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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#1 Have my (female) photographer friend take sexy, risque pictures of me (in black and white). Then make a calendar for my boyfriend--good for my BF, good for my friend's portfolio, and good for my ego ;)

#2 Get good at the "Private Dance" for my wonderful BF, and for me, of course

there's no reason why youcouldn't do both those now - you are a beautiful woman... :)
 
Talk About Wow!

Love and support from strangers?! I LOVE THIS FORUM! :D

Let me have some time to respond to comments--also I'm thinking about looking for or starting a thread in the "On topic", asking people what there dreams/fantasies/desires are when they rach their goals--that would be fun!!
 
I also do things so I can get what I want!!:D What plan are you following if you don't mind me asking?

Hmmm, my plan is basically recording everything I eat and drink so I can make sure I have a decent deficit, along with cardio for an hour or so 4-5 times a week, with 35 min cardio+weight training 1-3 times a week, plus walking the dog to the beach 5 days a week for 35 minutes. I like to run ion the woods on the weekends for 45 minutes, up and downhill--but if it's raining I need another game plan. Also, I try to do as much housework as possible to keep active when I'm at home. My calories, though....that I'm still deciding. I'm wondering if I should eat 1900 or less than that. :confused:
 
there's no reason why youcouldn't do both those now - you are a beautiful woman... :)

Thanks, Mal! A stripper I was chatting with at a bar in line to go to the bathroom told me once, when I asked how she did it, "It's all mental", and she's right! Most people have trouble getting to the right state of mind--it's all a struggle. Uh, I wouldn't ever want to strip in public but I;m just using that as an example :p
 
March 1st Kick Off

This morning I weighed myself and I'm

145.0

That relieved me, because the burning question was "when is that waterweight I lost two days ago (went from 145.5 to 142.5 in one night) coming back??" :confused:

So moving on, I have decided to attempt to lose the max of 2 lbs per week, for a total of 8 lbs this month of March! :)

Why not? It CAN be done, and I may be able to pull it off-hell, I've been losing 5 lbs a month for the past 2, so either way, I lose! :eek:

This morning I dragged myself out of bed at 6:15 to go to the gym, because I have work and then my wine class afterwards (ends at 8:30pm) so I won't have time today for a nice, long workout. I dislike working out that early but I know that I have plans for tomorrow--after work I'm going to San Francisco for my friend's b-day--she's going to be 23 (I think) and we're going to a Czech restaurant (dunno what it's called but it's supposed to be on 5th st) and then out to the bars Friday night, and I'll be back Saturday. Friends, fun, food and booze=more calories probably, so I might get up early tomorrow, too, to work out. It's supposed to be sunny this weekend, and I'm really looking forward to a nice long run.

This morning after the gym I wolfed down a: brown rice, black bean, salsa and avocado wrap in a spinach tortilla. It was delicious and hit the spot--I was SO HUNGRY after the gym and already being up for 2 hours with no food. If I do it again I'll be sure and eat a Protein Bar or something, before my workout for more energy.

Last night the beer wasn't as good as I thought. So it's nice to know next time I can pass on the beer (especially if I want to lose 8 lbs this month). I had my sushi roll and seaweed salad, and was satiated.

Yes. Satiated is the new "full"
 
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So moving on, I have decided to attempt to lose the max of 2 lbs per week, for a total of 8 lbs this month of March!

That is a very wise decision!

Congrats on waking up so early to go to the gym! That is some willpower!
 
Love and support from strangers?! I LOVE THIS FORUM! :D

Let me have some time to respond to comments--also I'm thinking about looking for or starting a thread in the "On topic", asking people what there dreams/fantasies/desires are when they rach their goals--that would be fun!!

there was a thread like that but i cant find it - it's a fun topic - my answer was and still will be - I'm booking a flight to new york and walking naked (except shoes) down fifth avenue :)
 
hmmm - it could be a whole nekkid party - and we could have tea at the plaza when were done with our naked parade.

::files to get a parade permit:
 
Parden my ignorance, but I'm a California Girl--is it LEGAL to be naked in Time Square?
legality hasn't stopped me from being naked in a lot of places :) (when i was young and much better looking :)

it's only illegal if you get caught :)

but i'll have a naked permit so it's all good
 
All right, naked permit! I can imagine what an uproar it would cause--if you DID manage to get a contingent from this forum to march with you!
 
but first i must get to my goal :)

crap i'll cash in frequent flier miles and get other people there with me -no excuses :)
 
March 2nd

DAMMIT! :mad:

My nice co-worker brought in my weakness--

Cadbury Mini-Eggs!! :p

190 calories per 12 pieces, it says. I guess that's not horrible--it's like drinking a 16 oz beer....but with a lot of fat. And there's a gigantic bag, too!

Actually, I don't really worry about fat--I eat plenty of the good fats and I've still been taking my flax oil gel tabs. Anyway, I'd feel wrong if I didn't have some, the only problem is I won't be able to squeeze in a workout save for the daily 35 min walk to the beach and back. Then I'm going to SF for the birthday dinner and drinks. This is kind of cool--it's going to be really fun, while simultaenously testing my tenacity for this weight loss goal of 8 lbs this month.

FUN. (/sarcastic)

Naw, I'll have a blast--I have great fun every weekend, which is why I have to be careful because I tend to over-do it on the weekends.

I weighed 144 this morning.

I also have a reflection I'm going to write about in a minute...
 
Reflection Time: A dying friend

I have a school chum I've latched onto named Chris. He's got to be one of the most interesting people I know. The reason I'm bringing him up is because he is drastically UNDERWEIGHT. He is terminally ill :(

Chris is 6'4" and told me he recently lost 4 lbs off his rail-thin 120 lb body--so I guess that means he's 116 now. Chris's problem is when he was 8 years old he got diabetes--really bad! He has an immunologist who is only 1 of 3 in the country that does what he does, because I guess Chris's diabetes are worse than most, and the medical world doesn't really know exactly how diabetes works. He also has a disease that he can't even spell, but it's a rare platelet disorder. First, the doctors thought his pancreas was DEAD. Then they told him it was alive, but it sure as hell was incapable of producing insulin. He's got a "Mini Med" insulin pump on him that's worth several thousand dollars. On top of all this, he has something called "leaky gut" which basically means he can't really eat. Hence the underweight. When he tries to eat solid food, he says it feels like he's been gut-kicked.

But there's hope for poor Chris! He's been approved to get a highly experimental transplant of pancreatic cells, but they have to put it on his liver because his pancreas, although not functioning properly, is still alive enough to kill the trasplant since it will assume the cells are foreign invaders. I know I'm probably not describing this right but his condition is rare and the transplant has only been done on about 20 people.

Anyway, Chis is a literal genius, according to IQ tests--last night he was trying to explain to me a little about M Theory, Particle Theory, the Sting Theoies, and quantum physics, and how they can explain God and ghosts. Actually, I worded that wrong, but trust me--it was fascinating! He also is a sommilier, a chef, a welder, a traditional Japanese swordsman, and knows a lot about almost everything. He also races cars and can fly planes.

Anyway, while I was talking to him I had one of those "Preciousness of Life" epiphanies--and the bottom line is this:

"what the hell," I thought to myself, "is my problem--here I am obsessing over the struggle to get a 20.5 BMI and I'm perfectly healthy with NO medical problems, and my friend here is wasting away???"

At least we hope he won't kick the bucket before his transplant--and then, what if it doesn't work? The doctors say max 5 years.

FIVE YEARS. :( He's 22 years old.


Well, this isn't stopping me from my attempt to lose weight, but it sure makes it seem trivial
 
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