Curvie Girlie
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My weight story begins in (gulp) FIRST GRADE : ( We had a health check in class and I was 6 years old. I stepped on the scale and they said I weighed 55lbs. The boy before me weighed 50 lbs. I asked a few other kids what they weighed, and they all were around 50lbs. I thought, “Wow, I weigh more than a BOY?” I suddenly felt heavy, although being “fat” was still unfathomable to me at that point. Fast forward to puberty, where the weight issues really began. I began menstruating a little early, about 2 months after my twelfth birthday in October. I began packing on weight and getting lazier, spending more time munching excess amounts of Cheese-its after school and doing homework than running around the neighborhood like I had all my childhood. By the late spring of 7th grade, 1995, I weighed a staggering 145 lbs at the height of 5’4”. Well, I still had a fast, youthful metabolism and began jogging a little around my neighborhood. My mom and her dad were runners, so that’s where the influence came from. I managed to get to 140 pretty quickly, but food was too tempting and I think I began my “carbohydrate addiction”. Cookies, candy, chips, etc., were my most preferred foods.
I managed to get to 135 by eighth grade, and stayed there for a while, until the summer before freshmen year where I dieted for the first time (crash dieted) and got to 130 lbs. Freshmen year in the beginning saw me in my new addiction—smoking herb. That made me eat my way to 140 again pretty quickly, but I was growing still and was about 5’5” at that point. Then, a newfound addiction, although short-lived—meth. Methamphetamine made me lose weight rapidly and eat lightly for the first time since pre-puberty. I never did a whole lot at once (never more than ¼ gram at a time) but I was on it for most of that year since December. I got to a wonderful 118lbs, although I stayed mostly at 120 lbs by early spring. My body image was shaky—I thought I looked great (I did!) but I was terrified about gaining weight. I had “disordered eating,” to be sure. This lasted until summer, where I put on another 5 lbs from poor eating habits and lots of 40 oz. By the time I started sophomore year at 15, I was 5’5” and 127-130 lbs. That was a really nice time! I wasn’t doing too many drugs—I certainly wasn’t doing as much meth as when I was 14—and I still considered myself pretty slim, as my body image was improving. Unfortunately, since most teenage girls were toothpicks (except the “fat” ones), I didn’t think I was thin enough at times. Also, I have a round face, and my face had baby fat that didn’t go away until about age 20, so I felt chubby all the time. My eating habits, though, were terrible—fasting, binging, drinking excessively! Actually I drank excessively from age 14 to 24! Anyway, I’d occasionally use meth if my weight began to creep up. By junior year I was “living large like a fat bitch” and it caused a steady increase of weight from 130 to 140, although I was still getting taller. By senior year, I was exercising to “Buns of Steel” and eating a bit better (although to excess), and about 145 lbs, 5’6”, and a decent body image. Every now and then my best friends (who were very slim) made me feel terrible by just being thin, but I liked my body when they weren’t around. However, eating, drinking, and partying cause me to be about 150 lbs at graduation.
Ages 17-18 I stayed at around 145-155 lbs, mainly being 150 lbs. I kept growing, getting to my final height of 5’7”. When I was 18 I was really interested in losing fat. My grandpa gave me a year’s gym membership for my birthday (at my request) and I got down to 145lbs from 150 in 2 months. I began eating much better and got more and more fit, and even though I was still drinking and smoking, I was weight-training like crazy. By age 19 and ½, I was to 135 lbs and looking almost perfect. I was 18% body fat, in excellent cardiovascular shape, and had so much muscle, that when I flexed my arms, my then-boyfriend told me, “Hey—do me a favor…don’t work out your shoulders anymore.” I became vegan July 26th, 2002. I was 135lbs, 5’7”, and in great shape. I moved to Santa Cruz that September to attend UCSC. No more gym, a bus took my up the big hill, and I had a plethora of delicious vegan junk-food to choose from and a WHOLE LOT of reading. Even though I rode my bike everywhere (no car until I was 23), I probably ate 2,500-3,000 calories a day, I bet. I weighed 140 by Thanksgiving, 145 by Christmas, and 150 by Spring 2003. I got a gym membership in spring but that only kept me vacillating between 145 and 150 all junior year, because I ate like a horse and drank like a fish. Senior year, I stepped it up further and vacillated from 150-155, and then in 2004 from winter on to spring I kept packing on pounds (perhaps stress-induced) until I graduated from UCSC at 160lbs. I moved to Felton in September and an incident I’m not mentioning caused me to pack on another 10 lbs, leaving me 170lbs by Thanksgiving, with a lymphatic infection. To cure myself I went on a liquid detox flush that got me well in 3 days. Figuring I had a lot of built-up stress/toxins/emotions/fat, I went on a raw-foods diet that included raw fish (goodbye veganism) for 3 months. By Valentine’s Day I dropped to 145 lbs. Miraculously, I was able to stay at 145 lbs until summertime, when I met my current boyfriend, who is very slim (6’, 150 lbs). I was in really good shape, still, toned and tanned, curvy and sexy. By Halloween 2005, I was a Catholic School Girl to my boyfriend’s pimp costume, and 148 lbs, still quite hot. My body type is curvy (although I don’t have a very tapered waist like the traditional hour-glass figure, my stomach stays flat with minimal effort on my part save for a bit of chub). My weight then went up to 150 in the winter, 155 by January 2006 due to another incident I won’t mention, then to 145 by February thanks to some new All-Natural diet pills I started taking. Well, that didn’t last…by Easter I partied my way to 154 lbs. 2006 was an awful struggle. I started dieting in July, when I was 158 lbs. I did it all wrong and fucked up too much, my carb-cravings out of control after I tried a low-carb diet. I struggled between 159 and 152 lbs all through 2006 until December 26th, 2006, where I weighed 155.5 lbs 7 days after my last period, where I decided,
“This is it. This is where I change my life around. This time, THIS TIME, I promise myself to lose weight and keep it off.”
Here are my very serious responses:
-- How much weight do you want to lose?
I want to be at a BMI of 20 to 21. For my height, 5’7”, that means between 127.5 lbs and 134 lbs. When I started this vow, I was 155.5 lbs, SO I want to lose about 22-28 lbs.
-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?
I want to do this slowly, because my weight fluctuates drastically. I am a carbohydrate-addict, and prone to binge eating and binge drinking. I am a yo-yo dieter. From all this, I set myself at a goal of no more than 4lbs per month. Starting December 26th, 2006, that means my target weight should be reached between May 26th 2007 and June 30th, I’ll say.
-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?
I am going all-out. My first method was putting together the ultimate Food Diary I created from reading Shape, Fitness, Women’s Health, Self, and the like. I am counting calories and recording everything I eat, the time I ate it, caloric content, day of my menstrual cycle, and my mood after eating. I am recording my workouts, the duration, and calories burned, and comparing that number to calories consumed for that day. I am trying my hardest to eat 6 small meals a day, with protein and complex carbs in each one. I am taking vitamins and flax-oil tablets, as well as incorporating wheat germ oil into my diet, and making sure I get enough iron, zinc and calcium since I don’t drink milk. I am already a work-out-a-holic, but I’m stepping up my weight training so I don’t lose much lean muscle mass. I am thinking about training for a 10K race and also joining a Martial Arts studio. I am reading “Food and Mood, 2nd Edition” to learn more about a balanced diet and the cure for my carbohydrate addiction. I am drinking green and black tea daily. I’m limiting my alcohol intake to 1-2 glasses of wine a day. I’m keeping a diary for the first time in my life, about my goals, feelings, thoughts, etc. I weigh myself everyday in the morning, once, and post it on a graph sheet that shows weight in numbers on the left and days on the bottom, so I can see the fluctuations in a scientific manner, and make notes on results (like the weight gain right before periods, and sometimes on weekends, etc.) I have monthly goals in accordance to a 4lb/month weight loss as stars on the graph charts to compare where I’m actually at. And I’m keeping quiet about it, so as not to jinx myself!
-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?
I am supporting myself though diary and inner- reflection, because my best friends and boyfriend are very lean, have always been, and don’t understand my struggles.
-- How realistic is your goal?
I consider it very realistic, due to the slow-and steadiness of it, giving me plenty of time to adjust to new habits. But a BMI of 20-21 is pretty low for a person whose body is naturally inclined to a BMI of about 24.5!
-- When will you start?
December 26th, 2006
I managed to get to 135 by eighth grade, and stayed there for a while, until the summer before freshmen year where I dieted for the first time (crash dieted) and got to 130 lbs. Freshmen year in the beginning saw me in my new addiction—smoking herb. That made me eat my way to 140 again pretty quickly, but I was growing still and was about 5’5” at that point. Then, a newfound addiction, although short-lived—meth. Methamphetamine made me lose weight rapidly and eat lightly for the first time since pre-puberty. I never did a whole lot at once (never more than ¼ gram at a time) but I was on it for most of that year since December. I got to a wonderful 118lbs, although I stayed mostly at 120 lbs by early spring. My body image was shaky—I thought I looked great (I did!) but I was terrified about gaining weight. I had “disordered eating,” to be sure. This lasted until summer, where I put on another 5 lbs from poor eating habits and lots of 40 oz. By the time I started sophomore year at 15, I was 5’5” and 127-130 lbs. That was a really nice time! I wasn’t doing too many drugs—I certainly wasn’t doing as much meth as when I was 14—and I still considered myself pretty slim, as my body image was improving. Unfortunately, since most teenage girls were toothpicks (except the “fat” ones), I didn’t think I was thin enough at times. Also, I have a round face, and my face had baby fat that didn’t go away until about age 20, so I felt chubby all the time. My eating habits, though, were terrible—fasting, binging, drinking excessively! Actually I drank excessively from age 14 to 24! Anyway, I’d occasionally use meth if my weight began to creep up. By junior year I was “living large like a fat bitch” and it caused a steady increase of weight from 130 to 140, although I was still getting taller. By senior year, I was exercising to “Buns of Steel” and eating a bit better (although to excess), and about 145 lbs, 5’6”, and a decent body image. Every now and then my best friends (who were very slim) made me feel terrible by just being thin, but I liked my body when they weren’t around. However, eating, drinking, and partying cause me to be about 150 lbs at graduation.
Ages 17-18 I stayed at around 145-155 lbs, mainly being 150 lbs. I kept growing, getting to my final height of 5’7”. When I was 18 I was really interested in losing fat. My grandpa gave me a year’s gym membership for my birthday (at my request) and I got down to 145lbs from 150 in 2 months. I began eating much better and got more and more fit, and even though I was still drinking and smoking, I was weight-training like crazy. By age 19 and ½, I was to 135 lbs and looking almost perfect. I was 18% body fat, in excellent cardiovascular shape, and had so much muscle, that when I flexed my arms, my then-boyfriend told me, “Hey—do me a favor…don’t work out your shoulders anymore.” I became vegan July 26th, 2002. I was 135lbs, 5’7”, and in great shape. I moved to Santa Cruz that September to attend UCSC. No more gym, a bus took my up the big hill, and I had a plethora of delicious vegan junk-food to choose from and a WHOLE LOT of reading. Even though I rode my bike everywhere (no car until I was 23), I probably ate 2,500-3,000 calories a day, I bet. I weighed 140 by Thanksgiving, 145 by Christmas, and 150 by Spring 2003. I got a gym membership in spring but that only kept me vacillating between 145 and 150 all junior year, because I ate like a horse and drank like a fish. Senior year, I stepped it up further and vacillated from 150-155, and then in 2004 from winter on to spring I kept packing on pounds (perhaps stress-induced) until I graduated from UCSC at 160lbs. I moved to Felton in September and an incident I’m not mentioning caused me to pack on another 10 lbs, leaving me 170lbs by Thanksgiving, with a lymphatic infection. To cure myself I went on a liquid detox flush that got me well in 3 days. Figuring I had a lot of built-up stress/toxins/emotions/fat, I went on a raw-foods diet that included raw fish (goodbye veganism) for 3 months. By Valentine’s Day I dropped to 145 lbs. Miraculously, I was able to stay at 145 lbs until summertime, when I met my current boyfriend, who is very slim (6’, 150 lbs). I was in really good shape, still, toned and tanned, curvy and sexy. By Halloween 2005, I was a Catholic School Girl to my boyfriend’s pimp costume, and 148 lbs, still quite hot. My body type is curvy (although I don’t have a very tapered waist like the traditional hour-glass figure, my stomach stays flat with minimal effort on my part save for a bit of chub). My weight then went up to 150 in the winter, 155 by January 2006 due to another incident I won’t mention, then to 145 by February thanks to some new All-Natural diet pills I started taking. Well, that didn’t last…by Easter I partied my way to 154 lbs. 2006 was an awful struggle. I started dieting in July, when I was 158 lbs. I did it all wrong and fucked up too much, my carb-cravings out of control after I tried a low-carb diet. I struggled between 159 and 152 lbs all through 2006 until December 26th, 2006, where I weighed 155.5 lbs 7 days after my last period, where I decided,
“This is it. This is where I change my life around. This time, THIS TIME, I promise myself to lose weight and keep it off.”
Here are my very serious responses:
-- How much weight do you want to lose?
I want to be at a BMI of 20 to 21. For my height, 5’7”, that means between 127.5 lbs and 134 lbs. When I started this vow, I was 155.5 lbs, SO I want to lose about 22-28 lbs.
-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?
I want to do this slowly, because my weight fluctuates drastically. I am a carbohydrate-addict, and prone to binge eating and binge drinking. I am a yo-yo dieter. From all this, I set myself at a goal of no more than 4lbs per month. Starting December 26th, 2006, that means my target weight should be reached between May 26th 2007 and June 30th, I’ll say.
-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?
I am going all-out. My first method was putting together the ultimate Food Diary I created from reading Shape, Fitness, Women’s Health, Self, and the like. I am counting calories and recording everything I eat, the time I ate it, caloric content, day of my menstrual cycle, and my mood after eating. I am recording my workouts, the duration, and calories burned, and comparing that number to calories consumed for that day. I am trying my hardest to eat 6 small meals a day, with protein and complex carbs in each one. I am taking vitamins and flax-oil tablets, as well as incorporating wheat germ oil into my diet, and making sure I get enough iron, zinc and calcium since I don’t drink milk. I am already a work-out-a-holic, but I’m stepping up my weight training so I don’t lose much lean muscle mass. I am thinking about training for a 10K race and also joining a Martial Arts studio. I am reading “Food and Mood, 2nd Edition” to learn more about a balanced diet and the cure for my carbohydrate addiction. I am drinking green and black tea daily. I’m limiting my alcohol intake to 1-2 glasses of wine a day. I’m keeping a diary for the first time in my life, about my goals, feelings, thoughts, etc. I weigh myself everyday in the morning, once, and post it on a graph sheet that shows weight in numbers on the left and days on the bottom, so I can see the fluctuations in a scientific manner, and make notes on results (like the weight gain right before periods, and sometimes on weekends, etc.) I have monthly goals in accordance to a 4lb/month weight loss as stars on the graph charts to compare where I’m actually at. And I’m keeping quiet about it, so as not to jinx myself!
-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?
I am supporting myself though diary and inner- reflection, because my best friends and boyfriend are very lean, have always been, and don’t understand my struggles.
-- How realistic is your goal?
I consider it very realistic, due to the slow-and steadiness of it, giving me plenty of time to adjust to new habits. But a BMI of 20-21 is pretty low for a person whose body is naturally inclined to a BMI of about 24.5!
-- When will you start?
December 26th, 2006
