Hey,
Welcome aboard. I am new here too.
Please try this exercise. You will probably find it silly at first but I think you will really like the results.
Look up. Look at ridge that your eyebrows form. Use your periphal vision, don't strain. Follow this ridge to the point that it meets above your nose. Relax and focus on this point.
Relax and breathe deeply, slowly through your nose, for a count of five, continue to focus on the point where your eyebrows meet. Feel the air as it rushes into your nose; continue to focus on the point where your brows meet above your nose. Notice how the air feels as rushes down the back of your throat and into your lungs as you continue to focus on the point where your eyebrows meet. Feel you lungs expand fully.
Exhale slowly through your mouth. Again, for a count of five. Feel how it feels as the air rushes up your throat and out your mouth as you continue to focus on the point where your eyebrows meet. Feel the warmth and moistness of the air as it escapes out your mouth.
Continue to do this for 10 more breaths as you keep focusing on the point where your eyebrows come together and the air rushing in your nose and out your mouth. It’s very important that you focus on all three. With each breath try to feel more sensations, see more details of your brows.
When you have done 10 breaths, notice your mind has quieted down.
The first time I did this, I found it very hard to focus on two things at once. I had to do the exercise 20 times before I could calm down. I was a mess. This is a great stress buster. The more you do this the easier it will get. I do it all day now. Anytime I feel stress. It takes just seconds to do now. Before a big meeting, after being assigned an overwhelming task, during a confrontation or a situation where I feel out of control.
It sounds like you are trying to take an accurate assessment of your situation and there probably is some physical issues you would like to change. Your body is amazingly resilient, I am always surprised at how the human body can recover.
Your situation has some advantages you might not have thought of. You are young. Your body will naturally change faster than someone older. You have a clear picture of where you want to go.
If I could suggest that your mind is trying to assign emotion to some of the physical areas you would like to improve. Your mind is only trying to help you accomplish your physical goal by tying negative emotions to it, thinking it will motivate you to solve it.
Instead be kind and caring to yourself. Talk to yourself as you would to your best friend. Encourage yourself as you would your best friend. You are going to need yourself as your best friend as you stumble on weight loss adventure.
Your mind wraps emotions around a physical area. You will find it wrapping negative emotion on top of negative emotion until it becomes ball of raw nerves and emotions that there is no unraveling. For some stupid reason humans do this, maybe a DNA thing, who knows. But beat your mind at it's own game. Start wrapping positive emotions around these negative emotions that you feel. You don't have to unravel the negative emotions. Just keep wrapping positive emotions around it and pretty soon your mind will take over.
Wrap your negative emotions with the relief you feel that you caught this situation now before it got worse. Then the pride for the courage you have to face this head on. The gratitude you have that you found this site to help you. then how lucky you are that you are so young and your body is so resilient. You will find you mind taking over these emotions soon. Their your emotions make them help with your new goal.
The truth about your situation without the emotions is that you have some routines and habits that is not serving you well. You will need to find these, root them out and install new habits and routines that benefit you. That's it. But it will take some time.
Be your own best friend, do the things that others have posted for you on this site, one step at a time. Get excited you are going to change things quickly.
Congratulations on the decision to care for your self. I am impressed with the courage you have to get on this site and say what you did. Missy, you have alot of guts!! You are a champ.
Let me know if there is anything I can do. I have some exercises to help you center yourself and start from a position of strength if you think it would help.
Good Luck, I will be watching your success.
Richie
but you know what im sayinn. just dont be hard on yourself it can screw up older people too 
