Debbie's Diary

LuvdBy3Angels

LuvdBy3Angels

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Well, it's the weekend, the hardest part of the week. These are the days where I have a tendency to fall and fall hard.

Saturday started out very well, went to the movies and just had to have cheesy pretzels. That was ok though, I did not have lunch so I counted them as my lunch. Well......DH got hungry at around 7ish... craving pizza. I did compromise with him and got a small instaed of a large. You would have thought that would have made a difference.....NOT!!!! I had way too much, but I did not give in and binge like I would normally do after feeling like I had failed. I put on my headphones, lit a few candles, turned off the lights, an I ran like a crazy women on my treadmill breaking my all time record of a 16 minute mile coming in at just under 14.5. WHOA!!! That felt soooooo good!!!!

So all in all was not too bad. Did eat a little too much, but I do not feel guilty at all about it. WOW, that is such a wonderful feeling. I started to fall and and caught my balance before I went down. What an epiphany!!!!! (sp?)
 
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I am SO happy for you - that seriously is the BEST feeling ever ... to just get control over yourself and instead of letting it all go ... making it better! Good for you! Thats awesome on the tredmill too ... holy wha! You go girl!
 
Started out a good weekend, and went down hill from there. I just really need to find away to stop playing the mind games with myself, "Oh well Deb, you ate this now your whole day is ruined; there's always tomorrow." I am so fed up with that mind set. I just feel like I have lost all control.

I keep telling myself that I am completely worth every bit of good health that losing the rest of this weight would give me, but then that darn little devil on the other shoulder covinces me to just have one more, and then another.......

Whew, that feels better, just getting it out really helps. I am so glad I found this forum.
 
Cant really complain too much about your food with all the excercise you put in. Wow. You did awesome you should be proud of yourself. We all splurge sometime but dont let it get you down. You are doing fantastic.
 
I have the same mindset and it is hard to get out of ... but honestly what I have found that helps is obviosuly comming on here and just reading or replying and getting back in weightloss mode, and remembering to ask myself "Is this worth it?" Is it reallyworth backtracking how far you have come just for some indulgance? Even on nights I KNOW I'm going to going to the fridge for comfort foods I post a POST IT on the handle ... and it sayd "IS IT WORTH IT???" and then whether I decide yes or no, Its up to me but more times that not, i choose no.
 
I have just been so down in the dumps the past couple of days. But, I need to get out of it!!!!! It is hard though, but I just keep saying to myself, "That yes, I am worth it."

I cannot do cardio today, shin pain, but I will be back at it again tomorrow. I still lifted some weights and did about 30 minutes of Pilates and Yoga. God bless Yoga!!! It relieves the mind so much; if you let it. I actually just started it about three weeks ago to relieve stress and God knows it has.

Well, gotta get to school, but I do want to say thanks Skinny and Julie, for the continuing encouragement. I so need it!!!!!!!!

I will post my food later, doing good, really good in fact!
 
Hey there Luv!....
Sometimes I just want to say..... " F - it "and gorge myself with the most greasest and sugar coated foods known to man kind!!!!......But when we do that we arnt really "hungry"...its a coping mechanism....we are either anxious, tired, sad, pissed, worried....add any adjective here.......

Food makes us feel good.....food also makes us fat as hell (Thats only WHEN we abuse it...and in that process we also abuse ourselves.....)

Sometimes I wish I could be stranded on a island...with nothing but coconuts to eat...lol.....oh and maybe have some male company in the form of....brad pitt or something....lol
 
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Kc you are absolutely right. I just need to remind myself that eating that junk when I do get angry, sad, or just plain pissed off that it is only going to make me be pissed off at myself in the end. It really is not woth it. This may sound really very vain, but I am too darn attractive internally and externally to be this big! I give myself props in that area. As well as you deserve to do the same.

Today was not so bad food wise. I did consume more calories than I would have liked, but not so many that I am ashamed of.

Breakfast: Fruit salad 220 (the bananas increased the calories in it)
Diet apple juice 30

Sanck: Cereal 200

Lunch: Grilled Fish 200
Salad 100

Snack: More fruit salad 110

Dinner: Subway Roast beef on wheat 290
Baked Doritos 170

Snack at School: Granola bar 180

96 oz. water, no cardio shin pain, but I did do pilates and yoga

All and all, not too shabby!!! Yay me!!!!!
 
I just gotta say wow to you luv. You should definately NOT be putting yourself down about anything! I am in awe of you, and you are giving me such ispiration to push myself to do what I know I need to do to get healthy. And KC, THANK YOU for being you!! Your words just get me through the day, and I can't wait to be able to get on here to read what else you have written (instead plopping my fat ass on the couch with a bag of chips). Have you ever just looked down at yourself after pigging out on a bag of Lays, zoning out in front of the TV, and noticing all the damn crumbs on your boobs and just think to yourself " I am a F***ing PIG!" well, i have. one two many times. And I am just done with it. So I guess what I am trying to say is thanks.
 
Wow Luv your food looks awesome Yesterday. You ate well and stayed low on calories. Good Job and Pilates and Yoga...thats awesome. Keep up the good work. Hope your shins are feeling better.
 
Today went very well. My shins no longer hurt, so I was able to do my cardio, in fact I ended up doing about an hour on the treadmill. WOW it felt so good. I did some counter pushes and crunches, and lifted weights. I feel like I am really back this time!!!! I just really need to remember that this feeling is so much better than feeling sluggish and full.

Breakfast:
mixed fruit salad 160
FF Vanilla Yogurt 90
Decaf Coffee w/cream 30

Lunch:
Salad 80 (fork dipped ff italian)


Snack:
Banana 110
SF Fudgesicle 40

Dinner:
Chic-fil-a Grilled chicken sandwich 270
4 of my DH waffle fries 100
Fruit salad 60

Snack at school:
Baked Cheetos 120 (not very good, sorta stale tasting)
Peach 60
5 pieces of SF hard candy 40

100 ++++ oz. of water lost count after the 6th bottle!

I am so gosh darned proud of myself!!!!! The strange thing is that I am actually excited about doing it again tomorrow, it sorta gives you a natural high (on life!!!!) If I am not mistaken, tomorrow is weigh in for the 2 week/5 lbs club. Something else to look forward to!
 
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You should be proud of yourself you are doing awesome. Glad you are feeling better as well. Keep it up. Your food, water and excercise look awesome. I have been pretty sluggish so you are good motivation.
 
I thought we were starting the club Friday?
Doesnt it feel GREAT when you excercise? Totally a natural high, you got it babe! Addicting isnt it?
 
Christina: Friday? Thank you for letting me know that, It gives me a couple more days to get addicted to this lifestyle again! It does feel so wonderful to be full of energy. I sorta like this high!!!!

Julie:I do feel much better Thank you! I am very proud of myself even when I fall off the wagon, I have come so far, and to not recognize my accomplisments would be insane. We all have a tenedency to become sluggish at times, and you know what it is okay to relax sometimes and just take a day or two off. I have finally come to that realization. I think it is the bodies way of saying, "Hey you have done great, but I think I need to rest for a while." I did get to the point in the past where I did reach burn out, it can make you really sick.

Ladies thanks so much for the kind words, and you are all so motivating to me!!!!

Breakfast:
Special K w/skim 150

Snack:
2 peaches 120

Lunch:
Grilled Fish 200
Salad 80

Snack:
Fudgesicle 40

Dinner:
Grilled Turkey Sandwich w/tom. & cheese on low carb, low cal bread x2 380
(your run of the mill grilled cheese with lean turkey and tomato on it, sooooo good I could not eat just one!)

Snack:
12 oz. NonFat Mocha Capuccino 120
1 Mallo Cup ( I have not seen these things since I was a kid!) 60

100+ oz. of water

45 minutes of cardio
50 counter pushes
100 crunches
relaxed and cooled down w/15 mins. of Yoga

YAY!!! ME!!!!
 
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You have so much to be proud of :) What an inspiration! And you are still doing so great! .... mmm* I love fudgesicles hehe* love love love =) And grilled fish - good choice! I've been on a salmon kick latley!
 
Skinny: Thank you for the kind words!!! They just keep me motivated, and determined.

I have been on the biggest fish kick lately, I have it atleast 3x a week. It is just so good! I have yet to try Salmon, everyone says I should, but I do really like the look of it. Crazy? I know! As for my fudgesicles, I eat the SF kind; they are sooooo good, and only 40 calories.
 
Just popped in to see how your doing. As usual everything looks fantastic. I too love fish but have never had salmon. Will have to try that as well. Anyway have a good day and I will pop in later to see how your doing.
 
I have had fried salmon patties...which were good.....but of course they were FRIED......fry a cats tail and I am sure that would taste good too.....lol...
I eat the s.f. fudge pops also.....they are only 1 point on weight watchers compared to 4 points for one glass of f.f. choc. milk.....
Its great that you are eating fish 3 x a week......I may just have to start buying me some too!!!!
 
fried pussycat... think I had that in a burrito once by my old high school !LOL
 
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