deanna's journal (:

deannnaa

deannnaa

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Hey guys!

So I've been a member on the boards for like, three years and have made a few journals in the past but I've never stuck with them! This time i WILL BE sticking with this one so I can finally lose the weight and reach my goal :)

I'm really excited to be starting a journal again because I NEED something to keep me accountable and consistant, which are my biggest problems. 2011 has just started and I'm determined to make it the best year yet! And the first step is to be happy with my body and myself.

Some questions:

What's your current weight and height?
5'3"ish and between 159-163

If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?
COMPLETELY ideal, about 125 but right now my goal weight is 135

Why do you want to lose weight?
I feel like my weight definitely holds me back. I'm very outgoing, but there's times when I feel uncomfortable because of my weight. I want to be able to feel like there's nothing stopping me from going after things and making the best life possible. There's also a few health problems in my family and I want to be healthy even when I'm old!

What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?
I often go out to eat with friends and of course, when I go out I don't want to order the healthiest thing on the menu. I also have trouble finding time to workout, mostly because I choose my social life over fitness :/ I procrastinate a lot which definitely affects my weight loss because I always tell myself, "oh it's ok to eat whatever you want today and not workout because you'll be good tomorrow" and then I never do :X

Ok, so that's all for now. Healthy lifestyle starts NOW. :D
 
good luck with keeping on track this time around :)

i will be keeping an eye on your diary :)
 
Trusylver: thank you! I'm so ready for this :)

Today was an excellent day compared to how I've been eating and (not) working out recently! I'm doing this 5 day "jump start" plan that came with my Turbo Fire workouts so calories are low and workouts are intense ahhh.

Day 1-

FOOD:
B: egg & cheese english muffin sandwich
L: chicken caesar salad, orange
S: Balance bar
D: 6" ham & cheese sub
S: 1/2 c. cottage cheese w/ peaches, 1/2 english muffin w/ PB

WORKOUT:
15 min HIIT (Turbo Fire workout) - ?? need to wear a HR monitor
30 min elliptical - 455 calories

I was doing well with eating today, calories were right where they should be then I got a hunger headache or something so I had an english muffin. I'm a bread ADDICT, so to only have half of one is quite a feat. I was seriously dying on the elliptical tonight, which is so unusual for me! I mean, it probably has to do with the HIIT I did before but still ... wah. I LOVE Turbo Fire though, it's crazy hard but I feel so strong afterward haha. At the beginning of the workout it says like, 15 minutes is equivalent to 30 min on the elliptical or treadmill? Something intense like that. LOVE. IT.

OH! ok I don't know how many of you care about what you look like at the gym, but I'm definitely one of those people that makes sure I have at least some makeup on and look relatively put together. So of course the one night I go to the gym in my XXXXL tshirt that makes me looks like wannabe gangsta/MAN, I run into 6 people that I know.... cool.Tomorrow I'm for sure being a little more careful with my outfit choice ;)
 
looks like your doing ok :)

as for me it doesn't make much difference what I look like at the gym and I never wear make-up anywhere.
 
Haha, I wear make-up to the gym! I feel less disgusting looking in the mirror if I don't look so bad!!!! Good luck!
 
Trusylver: LUCKY! I usually never go out in public without at least mascara on :p

Sunflower: I hear ya, girl! Plus there's soo many cute guys at my gym ;) Gotta look good! haha

Sooo eating today is not going as planned, but it's not too bad. We had a special breakfast thing so I had two pieces of french toast which throws me off from my usual 200 calorie breakfast! I thought I'd be full and eat lunch later but NOPE I somehow managed to get hungry. Because eating today is a little out of the norm I'm tempted to cheat and just eat what I want (already snacked on a few Cheese Its-WHOOPS!) But I'm sticking with it and I'm just going to eat a little less tonight and put in some extra cardio. NO SLIPUPS HERE!

I was gonna do part of my workout at home but there's a dining room set in the living room ... ? So uh yep, definitely an all gym day! Whatever, I need to tan anyway :D
 
I. AM. SO. FAT! Seriously.

I know I said I wouldn't have any slipups today but I was NOT counting on the fact that I'd be starving ALLLL DAY. Ok, maybe just hungry but still! Had some BADBADD bedtime snacks (try 4) that shot me up from 1400 calories to like, 2100! I had two PB+Js on an english muffin and two 100 calorie oreo things :( I was "fake" hungry after the first PB+J (still felt hungry even though that didn't even make sense!) so I tried to resist the urge for a second PB+J, but um NOPE! Had another one plus another 100 cal pack. Ughhh. If I had been on the right eating track from the start of today I would've been so much better!

I ate pretty healthy today, except the french toast that I had totally planned for. Had a yogurt when I woke up, salad for lunch, a Luna bar for a pre-workout snack, and grilled chicken with rice and broccoli for dinner. So besides the late night binge I was doing great! If I had known the french toast wouldn't fill me up I'd have only had one! And I really didn't expect to be hungry after dinner, but I was. DARN IT! At least I worked out though. Until recently I had been eating soo bad like I did tonight but I wasn't working out at ALL. So hopefully the 800 calories I burned at the gym tonight will lessen the damage done by the food :X

One last thing - I used to be able to burn 15-16 calories/min on the elliptical and lately it's been 14ish?! WTF. It's not even cause I weigh less- I WEIGH THE SAME! And it's harder for me to do my usual intervals on the elliptical. Hmm. Maybe it's cause I hadn't used it in a while, plus I could probably eat better. But yeah. Tomorrow's a new day and I'll do better then, promise :D
 
Eh. At least you worked out so thats good! And it was healthy and not all junk. Another plus! :D
 
KaeBae: that's right, gotta stay positive!

Soo. Um. Yeah. Let's just say today did not go as planned. It was kind of a day like yesterday, only I didn't eat so many calories (try 1850 rather than 2100...) and I definitely ate when I wasn't hungry. AHHH DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME! I tried hard though and thinking about how I would have to come clean in this journal held me off for a while, but once I start to have a bad eating day, I tend to say EFF IT and give up. Most definitely what I need to work on. Noo gym today either, PF was closed due to this crazy snow storm. But I spent most of the day catching up on work, so I had a hard time fitting in a workout.

I can pretty much tell you where my eating starting to go wrong today - I reheated a piece of Digiorno stuffed crust pizza (SOOO GOOD) which is actually pretty small but had like, 450 calories! Yikes. I probably wouldn've chosen a much better lunch if it weren't for my mental breakdown, which caused me to momentarily stop caring. REASON: I worked on a project for umm, probably 3 HOURS and I went to save it and accidently saved it the wrong way. Annnnd I lost it. Couldn't find it anywhere. Then I ate my pizza. Positive: I probably spent more time crying and waiting on hold with Microsoft Office (yep, I called the hotline) then it actually took me to redo it, which was 45 minutes. 3 hours = 45 min? IDK but I'll take it.

Summary of this post: I need to stop being a heffer (because no one wants to read a journal about failing) AND it probably pays to save your work in the right spot...

xoxo
 
Yes it pays to save your work in the right spot!

Awh. Next time you're breaking down and having cravings maybe think about your goals and how bad you want them.

On a positive note: Only one messed up meal! xD Better than saying screw it all and giving up completely.
 
Thanks for stopping by guys!

So far, so good today. I ran out of english muffins so I had to switch up my usual breakfast. Normally I have Egg Beaters and fat free cheese on a english muffin and it's only like, 180 calories and keeps me pretty full! Anyway, here's my eating so far and my gameplan for the night:

FOOD:
B: 1 egg, lowfat waffle with 1 tbsp PB
L: chicken caesar salad
1st S: lowfat waffle with 1 tbsp PB & jelly
2nd S: 1.3 c. Fiber Plus cinnamon cereal with skim milk

And for dinner I'm going to have a ham & cheese sub from Subway, my FAV! I could seriously eat one everyday haha. For exercise, I'm doing a strength routine (not sure what the moves are exactly yet) and 30 minutes of cardio :) Gotta find my HR monitor so I can see how many calories I'm burning.

JERSEY SHORE tonight, who's watching?! My friends and I get together every Thursday for JShore nights haha, it's addicting ;) Hope you're all doing great today!

xoxo
 
SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME. No really.

I usually have tons of energy when I work out and I go hard (most times) but lately I'm struggling to even get through 10 minutes on the elliptical. I can't even do my regular intervals without feeling like I'm gonna die! :svengo: I only stopped working out for maybe a week an a half or two? But I usually always workout out sporadically if not somewhat consistantly. That's what don't get. Like I mentioned in an earlier post, I used to be able to burn 15-16 calories per minute easily on the elliptical and now I'm struggling to get to 14... And tonight doing a strength workout on DVD I had to stop after 10 minues because I felt so weak. I don't think it's possible to get out of shape in THAT short amount of time. So what's wrong?

The only things I've come up with is maybe the workouts I've been doing effed me over. They are super intense and I probably am not ready for them yet. So possibly it was the HIIT workouts? Afterall, I didn't have this problem until I started with those new DVDs. The other thing is since I just got over a cold, maybe that made me weak? Long shot, but I really can't think of a logical explanation. Maybe I just need to eat different things... UGH

Any ideas?! I'm so upset that I'm having such a hard time working out because now my weight loss will be slower until I get back to my regular fitness level or something. Until then I'm just going to have to push myself as much as possible and eat realllllly clean.
 
My eating so far today has been pretty good. I finally bought more english muffins for my breakfast sandwich (seriously, cinn raisin english muffin with egg and cheese is the poor man's mcgriddle...ok far stretch but it's yum!) and half a clementine. I usually have a salad for lunch but I thought maybe I'd have more energy if I ate more, so I had Subway instead. Tried the honey oat bread (SOO GOOD) but then I found out it had like, 50 more calories than the wheat I normally get. Anyway, it actually didn't keep me really full that I planned. Maybe I was imagining things, but I felt legitamately hungry a few hours after. I didn't want to go crazy so I had the other half of my clementine and half a serving of Cheese Its (for some reason the two taste delish together). Oh! gotta document this to make sure I stick with it: I'll be going out with my friend soon and we're ordering a pizza. My plan is to have one slice (unless they're super tiny) and not snack on anything else. Gotta stay accountable! :)

No workout today, I have no time and I honestly don't want to even see if I'll have no energy today again. I'm going to find some time tomorrow to fit in some workout so I can get over this exercise slump I'm in :(
 
Have you been working out hard almost every day ? your body needs recovery time, have a day rest or just something light in between your hard workouts, your overtraining. After training eat a carb snack within 20 minutes to replenish blood glucose levels and kickstart recovery.
 
Trusylver: No! That's what I don't get. I mean, the HIIT workouts I do are really intense and I need to use my inhalor (which I never do!) But they are only 15 minutes long because that's all I can handle. Maybe even that's too much and I overexerted myself? And I was thinking about the carbs. Usually before I workout I have a Luna bar or sometimes its been a few hours snce I've eaten. I'm going to try getting more carbs before I workout, hopefully that helps!
 
last night = not even going to talk about it.

started off the day well and only got mandarin oranges I went throught the Wendy's drivethru! I had a bagel for lunch to see if the it really WAS that I needed more carbs to fuel my workouts but then....I momentarily forgot that I just ate and had 3 cheesy breadsticks because I am in love with them. Oh, and two mini peppemint patties :X Whooops! So my calories goal is going to be 1500 so I have room for around 300-350 way later tonight. I most likely won't be hungry for a while after 900 calories at lunch!

finally working out today! I think I'm gonna so half my workout at home and half at the gym so I can tan :) But I'm gonna push myself no matter how much I want to stop (hopefully that is not the case though!)

my new GOAL: be under 150 by my birthday February 5th. Soo, like 10ish lbs. I need to stay focused and be disciplined and I know I can do it :D
 
Ups and downs this weekend:
friday = badddd eating, no workout
saturday = good eating, no workout
sunday = badbad eating, workout
monday = bad eating, no workout

Such a busy weekend I had NO time to post! But it's time to start fresh :) I have exactly 6 weeks til March 1st. That's 6 weeks to lose 20 lbs and I'm READY. I really feel like something finally clicked in my brain that I need to start taking care of myself. Yeah, yeah I've said "oh, i'll do better tomorrow" but enough of that. I'm doing it TODAY. I am not longer going to be a fat girl, but instead I'm going to be a skinny girl in progress ;)

Of course on my first day of my personal 6 week "challenge" my friend asks me to go to breakfast. UMMM breakfast is my favorite meal ever and I lovelovelove going out to breakfast. I could seriously eat breakfast foods for every meal. As much as my fat self was telling me, "ohh just get what you want and don't eat anything else all day!" my skinny self was saying, "who are you kidding, that's almost never works for you GET SOMETHING HEALTHY!" So I had half an omlette made with Egg Beaters with a little bit of cheese and ham, an English muffin with jam, and a hot chocolate. Obviously still pretty high on the calories than my normal breakfast, but considering the circumstances I'm pretty proud! Especially since the french toast sound so yummmy :D Now I'll just have to have a later lunch and not snack like usual and workout! I CAN DO THIS.

PS. ever heard of piloxing? Pilates and boxing mixed together! The workout I did was definitely a little awkward but my arms and abs are sore so I'm guessing it helped a bit :)
 
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