DCarr10760's Weight loss diary

Hey there - I wanted to drop by and tell you I love your av:D:D:D!!!

I read your intro page and ya know weight is funny and tricky but I think once oyu fit that mind frame of healthy eating and life style change and then get tons of exercise in you are really well on your way to obtaining that healthy weight loss and creating a better and new life style for yourself/family and kids:):):)

Im a single mom of 2 and my life turned upside down when my x walked out on me 3 yrs ago and left me with 2 kids to raise - after dealing with health issues for a year and gettin on a pretty bad unhealthy and safe path and another year of trying to get my shit together - I decided to get serious and focus myself and do this for me and most importantly for my girls...I want them to ahve happy and healthy and secure feelings of themselves and their body images and so on...so were better to start than havin a healthy strong mommy to follow behond:D:D:D

I wish you well on your journey:)
 
Hi Cinderelly!

Glad to meet you! I've enjoyed reading your posts around the forum. I can't imagine how hard it must be to raise two kids on your own. Actually I can, sort of. My Dad left home when I was 5 years old, never to be seen again. So I have some sense of it from the child's perspective.

While I am divorced from the Mother of my older boys, we have joint custody and though she is the custodial parent, I was very involved in their lives since the divorce. Now one's going into College and the other is just about driving, so I don't see them as much as I'd like, but they're doing great. We all had a nice time yesterday at my youngest Son's 2nd birthday party.

I hear you about trying to model a healthy lifestyle so your kids can have healthy self images about their bodies. All three of my Sons are built exactly like me and will have to watch their weight. The two older boys are couch/computer game potatoes and can put on weight in a flash.

Part of the reason that I'm trying to lose weight is to show both older boys that it can be done.

Again, nice to meet you and thanks for stopping by!

David
 
So this week I managed to chip off another pound putting me officially in the 240's!

I was better at yesterday's party than the one on Saturday, but I'm glad the birthday celebrations are behind me. Now it's clear sailing until Friday, when we have our company picnic. I'll be developing a strategy all week for that one.

David C
 
Gina in NY said:
You know, we have to balance the rigid, work out every day, eat perfectly "rule"- which is a goal - with the reality of - Wedding to go to today! You know what I mean?
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Hi Gina,

I know just what you mean and you're right. I do tend to be very rigid, especially at the beginning. I suppose it it fear that if I allow even the smallest cheat that I'll wake up three days later in a gutter covered in Mars bar wrappers and empty Haagen-Daz containers...

My hope is that as I internalize the changes into a lifestyle, I'll be able to ease out of the strict regimen and into a bit more of what you describe. Unfortunately, in my past experience losing much or all of my weight, I never was able to relax, once I did, the relaxed attitude regarding eating turned quickly into abandonment of the principles that allowed me to lose weight and it all came back.

So it is a subject that I have been thinking a great deal about. Thanks for your perspective on it and It's good to meet you.

Thanks for stopping by!

David C
 
Wow David,
I stuck my head in here to see how Monday was treating you.
And here you took off another pound!
Good job, V for victory! ((sona grins))

I have 2 kids still at home, 3 are grown and gone.
My 17 year old just got his licence this summer, he's a senior.
I don't think my nervous system is gonna live through this.
Yes I've done it before, and NO it doesn't get any easier..lol

Gina wrote:
Two concepts jumped out at me. The first one was that non-strugglers don't see hunger as an emergency. What a concept? I always thought that a few minutes after hunger came fainting and death! Now that what I can eat is so limited, I'll feel hungry, think - hey, I should eat, but if I can't find the right thing - I'll wait. VERY new idea. The second one is that non-strugglers are flexible. If they eat dessert one day, fine, but they won't have two and won't have it every day. They just eat things in moderation.
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I really liked that Gina.
Being ok with a little hunger is tough, but it won't kill me.
I have to remind myself of that,
I try not to eat after 7 at nite,
so I get some hunger before bedtime.....
ah some days work out better than others!

You also point out that non-strugglers are flexible..well amen to that!
It's consistency that makes or breaks my program.
If I eat well and exercise MOST days
then an occasional treat won't derail me.

I am also trying to identify a binge when I see it and try to stop myself.
Rather than calling the whole day a failure
and then dumping the refrigerator into my mouth.
That trick never works.

sona
what tends to eat for emotional reasons.
 
Hey Everbody!

Today is my rest day. So no morning march. Slept late (6:30).
Yesterday was good, food wise and managed 5 miles of walking. A short stroll by Mal's standard's but a lot for me :)

I did resist the goodies that people brought in yesterday (and today).

This AM my weight flickered from 249 to 248! So I'm a half a pound down! I do need to get a better scale. Anybody have any recommendations?

It would be great to be under 240 by my birthday (Oct 7) so I guess that'll be a mini goal. At 235 I usually look better and folks start to notice. I guess I'll post a before and during pic then (sans beer cans, big screen TV's and oscillating fans).

David C
 
Well yesterday was not a good day on the diet front. We're having work done around the house and my morning was consumed dealing with the painter, so I was late for work and didn't do a good job packing snacks.

Busy day at work and I didn't go to the store to supplement my feedbag so got real hungry. After work we went to the in-laws house my best friend, who is a Lawyer came over to do some estate planning. We got pizza and he brought over a bottle of single malt and...and....one thing led to another and...

1/2 pizza and two scotches...I'm so ashamed! :eek:

I just entered it all into FitDay and miraculously I was still within my range, scraping at the ceiling, but within. Because I was short for the morning it compensated. I feel sh*tty this AM so I'll not be doing that again anytime soon!

I have the day off today (the actual Birthday of my Son, and Wifey's is tomorrow) So we are taking the boy to the zoo. I'll get my walk in this afternoon.

Here's to a better day today!

David C
 
DCarr10760 said:
Hi Cinderelly!

Glad to meet you! I've enjoyed reading your posts around the forum. I can't imagine how hard it must be to raise two kids on your own. Actually I can, sort of. My Dad left home when I was 5 years old, never to be seen again. So I have some sense of it from the child's perspective.

While I am divorced from the Mother of my older boys, we have joint custody and though she is the custodial parent, I was very involved in their lives since the divorce. Now one's going into College and the other is just about driving, so I don't see them as much as I'd like, but they're doing great. We all had a nice time yesterday at my youngest Son's 2nd birthday party.

I hear you about trying to model a healthy lifestyle so your kids can have healthy self images about their bodies. All three of my Sons are built exactly like me and will have to watch their weight. The two older boys are couch/computer game potatoes and can put on weight in a flash.

Part of the reason that I'm trying to lose weight is to show both older boys that it can be done.

Again, nice to meet you and thanks for stopping by!

David
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aaawww shucks thanx:)Once kids get to that teenage stage and then grow up abit that is that...Im glad your changing your ways for your son - there is no better reason than to do it for your family!!!

DCarr10760 said:
So this week I managed to chip off another pound putting me officially in the 240's!
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Woohoo excellent!!!

DCarr10760 said:
This AM my weight flickered from 249 to 248! So I'm a half a pound down! I do need to get a better scale. Anybody have any recommendations?

It would be great to be under 240 by my birthday (Oct 7) so I guess that'll be a mini goal. At 235 I usually look better and folks start to notice. I guess I'll post a before and during pic then (sans beer cans, big screen TV's and oscillating fans).

David C
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You can totally do that if not more by your bday!!!Congrats on another 1/2 lb!!!

DCarr10760 said:
Well yesterday was not a good day on the diet front. We're having work done around the house and my morning was consumed dealing with the painter, so I was late for work and didn't do a good job packing snacks.

Busy day at work and I didn't go to the store to supplement my feedbag so got real hungry. After work we went to the in-laws house my best friend, who is a Lawyer came over to do some estate planning. We got pizza and he brought over a bottle of single malt and...and....one thing led to another and...

1/2 pizza and two scotches...I'm so ashamed! :eek:

I just entered it all into FitDay and miraculously I was still within my range, scraping at the ceiling, but within. Because I was short for the morning it compensated. I feel sh*tty this AM so I'll not be doing that again anytime soon!

I have the day off today (the actual Birthday of my Son, and Wifey's is tomorrow) So we are taking the boy to the zoo. I'll get my walk in this afternoon.

Here's to a better day today!

David C
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Well the great thing abt doing stuff like that which ashames you and makew you feel like crap - you usually choose to not repeat it anytime soon...heeheehee

I hope you had a great day at the zoo and your son's birthday was fun...Im glad Im past the 2 yr old stage but now Im in the horrible monster 3 stage - it is kinda cool that your sons age is so close to my daughters:)

Hope wifey has or had a great bday as well
 
DCarr10760 said:
Hey Everbody!It would be great to be under 240 by my birthday (Oct 7) so I guess that'll be a mini goal. At 235 I usually look better and folks start to notice. I guess I'll post a before and during pic then (sans beer cans, big screen TV's and oscillating fans).
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Congratulations on getting towards your goals David! :) It's nice that you have a mini-goal to reach towards. Suppose I need to start setting some of those but am terrible at setting mini-goals. I just take each day as it comes pretty much and then hardly get anything done. :doh: I admire you! :)

With the company picnic coming up... my strategy could work. Distraction rather than nibbling. ;) How about a nice game of company rounders? Or.. Sit with a notepad being "artistic" and draw your workmates in various pretty positions slumped against trees/fountains/park scenery? Failing that... you could just BBQ your boss and sell his chunks to passers by. I mean, you're not gonna want to be nibbling on him/her, are ya? :p
 
Gina in NY said:
I just wanted to respond to this one thing - I read an article on how people who are overweight are different from people who never struggle. Two concepts jumped out at me. The first one was that non-strugglers don't see hunger as an emergency. What a concept? I always thought that a few minutes after hunger came fainting and death! Now that what I can eat is so limited, I'll feel hungry, think - hey, I should eat, but if I can't find the right thing - I'll wait. VERY new idea. The second one is that non-strugglers are flexible. If they eat dessert one day, fine, but they won't have two and won't have it every day. They just eat things in moderation. I think those of us that have struggled through countless diets have the all or nothing mentality. Food is good or bad. Well that isn't right! So now, I can allow myself a bite of something sinful and feel satisfied. Or once in a great while, I'll eat a whole something that I'd have called "bad" before. But as long as I don't do it often - and I mean once a month - it isn't going to affect my weight and will keep me from getting weird and twitchy.

Just an idea. You know, we have to balance the rigid, work out every day, eat perfectly "rule"- which is a goal - with the reality of - Wedding to go to today! You know what I mean. I'm not trying to lead you into temptation, just pointing out that there is no need to get down on yourself for one day of something less than perfect. That is what people who don't struggle do and it seems to work for them.

Am I making sense? I haven't had any coffee...:rolleyes:
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To me, the things you mentioned, like eating desert just once or twice a week or eating certain things only in moderation are all elements of "the struggle". Unfortunately people like us, who easily gain weight or have a certain "affinity" for food are in this struggle for life. I've noticed from some of the forums online that some people have this view of slimmer people as being able to eat whatever they want and being lucky to be "naturally slim". But then you see these "lucky" thin people eating salads and working their asses off in the gym. Sheesh, its a damn never ending battle!
 
Cinderelly

We all had a nice day at the Zoo. Davy had more fun running up and down the handicapped access ramps than looking at the animals, though he did like the "biggggg kitty" (Tiger) and the "Uffablo" (Buffalo/Bison). Not much good to eat there, though we managed to find a grilled chicken sandwich that was made to order so it wasn't too bad.

Milady

I have volunteered to help with cooking (grilling) so that should keep me away from the Guinness tap (yes, they bring in a Keg of Guinness complete with Nitrogen and all the trimmings). Maybe I'll just do a brain-cell sparing, modified beer fast that day. 12 pints oughtta bring me to my calorie total...

Blancita

I've resolved myself to a lifelong battle. My very good friend was one of those maddening people who ate like a horse and was thin and fit throughout his whole life. People who knew him intimately knew that his eating habits and his fitness level, hard won through a lifetime of exercise and hard work were responsible. Rode a bike 15 miles a day round trip to work and he didn't even count that as exercise! Sadly he was killed by a drunk driver while riding his bike home one night. Sigh... Ten years ago now.

So I agree with you, behind everyone who is thin and fit like that is a reasonable partnership with food and a lot of work. That's my goal. A reasonable partnership with food (only what I need) and regular exercise.

David C
 
Morning David,

It sounds like your family had a fun time at he zoo.
"Uffablo" (Buffalo/Bison)..lol..I love that!
Send birthday greetings for me ok?

I agree that a healthy relationship with exercise and food is
a lifetime commitment,
I get all overwhelmed when I look at it that way though.
I pretty much have to stay in today.
If I take care of today, tomorrow is likely to take care of itself.
But I know what you are saying.

Take care
sona
 
Sona said:
I agree that a healthy relationship with exercise and food is a lifetime commitment, I get all overwhelmed when I look at it that way though. I pretty much have to stay in today.
If I take care of today, tomorrow is likely to take care of itself.
But I know what you are saying.
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Hi Sona,

I know what you mean. It can be overwhelming, and to deal with that you do need first to take care of today. It is the same thing- every new day is today!

I'm resolved to changing the way I live so that taking care of each new day doesn't require all of my energy. My hope is that eventually good habits will be so deeply ingrained that I don't need to continually exert the present level of conscious focus on what I eat and making time for exercise.

I'm hoping that the reward for being fit will be the enjoyment that I get in using my body and that the feeling I get from eating right will trump the momentary pleasures of overeating.

But I don't know if either of those things will be true. Maybe I'll have to live my entire life on high alert. My lingering concern is how to manage stress, depression and unhappiness in ways that are more constructive than raids on the Frigidaire.

But I have to get through today first! :)

David C
 
DCarr10760 said:
Hi Sona,

I know what you mean. It can be overwhelming, and to deal with that you do need first to take care of today. It is the same thing- every new day is today!

I'm resolved to changing the way I live so that taking care of each new day doesn't require all of my energy. My hope is that eventually good habits will be so deeply ingrained that I don't need to continually exert the present level of conscious focus on what I eat and making time for exercise.

I'm hoping that the reward for being fit will be the enjoyment that I get in using my body and that the feeling I get from eating right will trump the momentary pleasures of overeating.

But I don't know if either of those things will be true. Maybe I'll have to live my entire life on high alert. My lingering concern is how to manage stress, depression and unhappiness in ways that are more constructive than raids on the Frigidaire.

But I have to get through today first! :)

David C
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Hate to say it but we'll probably all have to stay vigilant forever. Most important thing is to nip changing (bad) habits in the bud. Best thing is to keep weighing regularly so we cant deny any gains, and never get over-confident that we wont blow up again cuz unfortunately its a lot easier to gain than to get, or keep, it off.
 
It is sad. He left a wife and two boys about the same ages as my two older sons. After the accident, he lived for a month or more in a semi-vegetative state.

Doctors said the crash would've killed most others- a testament to how strong he was. Once the prognosis came that he would never improve, the next day or so later, he just died. Almost like he knew.

The best man I ever knew.

David C.
 
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