BellaBeam1291
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I live in Memphis, TN. I just turned 47 in February. I have been married for 25 years in April and have no children. I have always had to watch my food intake to keep my weight around 110 to 115 pounds my entire adult life. The last year I have just given up on it. I am 5' 3" and currently weigh around 135 to 140 pounds. I haven't weighed myself in 5 months. I forgot to weigh myself this morning. I plan on doing it tomorrow morning. I really miss wearing my clothes that made me feel better about myself. I keep telling myself that eating junk food only makes me feel good for a few minutes. Being fit makes me feel good all the time. Today is day one. I really need to get through the day with control. I will be doing what I have always done which is keeping my calories at 1200 per day. I do not smoke or drink. My weakness is late night binging. Here is to hoping that the next post doesn't contain a binging session. My other big issue is that I stay up late because I have always been a night owl. I woke up at 6 a.m. this morning. I am going to give it a real go at becoming an early bird. I have never had a job, so I have been living a life of bad habits forever. My "easy life" has actually allowed me to be an undisciplined woman. I was so disciplined and led an active life before I married at the age of 22. I went to college and had actually planned on having a career, but since I didn't need to earn an income this is what I have become. Having no structure is just becoming unbearable.