Day Dreaming For Thinner Days

hey sweetie!

temptation sucks. I know going out with people who eat ''regularly'' is tough on us who are dieting. but good for you I am really proud! I can't resist sweets and that chocolate fudge cake sounds delicious but.. not needed. I bet you could stare it in the eye and say: no mr. you are not getting nowhere near my hips!
carbs are tricky but I think as long as you stick to healthy, whole grain carbs- not in excess but still- you are safe. I still need the fiber oh boy do I need it.

and count on it. not now because I don't have the money but I so want to go back to England!
 
Stupinf friggin forum log me out after typed a big post :banghead::banghead::banghead::banghead::banghead:

So sunday i had cheat meal which made my cals 1600 for the day

Yesterday i had about 1000 ish cals

Today - Had a crispy chicken salad, then had a street session at work and walked briskly for 2 hours, then Aqua aerobics for an hour.
I've just got some really bad news and want to stuff myself silly. Dan called saying he has been sacked from work. He was not wearing a harness when he was working at a height but should have been given a verbal warning then written and then dismissed but saftey guy went over and told him and his squad to get off site they were all sacked, there some stupid condition for wearing a harness at that height but they werent working in that way that would need one. So they thought they were fine. Apparantly not. The safety guy and Dannys foreman have had several massive disputes and they think the saftey guy is trying to make a point. Danny is going to the union and everyone will be on strike for an unlawfull dismisal. Danny and I have had a really bad 6 months prior to this job, he kinda of works seasonal on shutdowns which stops usually for a 3/4 month break over xmas but because the economy is so bad it ended up been 6 months and my area industry in particular has had alot of jobs given to places like singapore. So if this strike thing doesnt work out, there is no chance he will get another job at home and be lucky if he finds on now as the season has started back up and will be fully manned! I feel so down, i feel physically sick. Been a very emotional eater i just want to eat. Fighting the urge not to eat is making me feel sick too :cry::cry::cry::cry:
 
sweetie im sorry for all the It's hard to resist food on a daily basis and even harder when you are feeling emotionally drained. just remember you have a forum full of new friends that will always be here when you need motivation or just a caring shoulder to lean on. Keep your chin up and things will find a way of working out.
 
Day 10!!!

So, Today is another DAY!

Last night i had a chocolate bar and rather than bar a humungous one, with a bag of jellies, sweets and crisps. I got just a ripple ate it and felt better!
Today hasnt been too bad things with dan and work look good as union has got involved and istead it been a dismisal its suspension with pay until the investigate whats gone on but the union guy feels super positive because safety guy should of told Danny and squad to get down from where they were abut he never he just kept taking photos for evidence which has now been thrown out. Basically if they see danny as a justifiable sacking half of the employees including foremans should be sacked to and SAFETY men!
Well it was kinda good today we have had some beautiful weather here 16oC ish and well for middlesbrough that great so me and dan took Koda to Whitby and its a lovely little place! We had a good day. Food wise ive done okay!

I had an eat natural bar, Chicken and stuffing wholemeal sandwhich, Ham and cottage cheese sandwhich and portion of raw carrots with my left over cottage cheese. Thats me done for today with food. Ive swapped from fitday to myfitnesspal i like it and super friendly and layed out well.

Total Cals: 824 Carbs: 106 Fat: 20 Protein: 52
Your Daily Goal: 1,467 110 32 183
Remaining: 643 4 12 131
*You've earned 467 extra calories from exercise today
 
hey sweetie!

hope everything turns out ok.. I know the urge to eat, but you are bigger than that. we try to look for comfort in food but it can bring little to nothing for ourselves. I am here for you if you need anything and remember there are people even overseas supporting you!
my dad had a very rough period unemployed lasted two years. we lived through credit cards and it was driving me insane, all the pressure and the possibility to have to quit school and find a job because we literally didn't have any money. there always will be rough patches to test our strength but remember, everything shall pass. the storm clears in a point or another. xoxo!
 
Day 11

Got weighed today and dropped 5.5lbs this week, which is great but think it must be some water weight or something.
Had a SW bar, apple, banana, and orange. Decided to have my cheat meal today as it means i have a full week to be good before my weigh in and me and dan got a Mcdonalds i got a small kids burger, had 1 of dans mozarellas dip and a chocolate brownie. Im done with food for the day!! In bed about to watch some TV with dan before sleepy poops. Got my treadmill a couple of days ago and it soo shexshie!! May even take a pic and show it off lol. Once i get my sports bra (in the mail winging its way to me) i will be on it as much as i can rotating brisk walking with running and uphill walking.
Im really struggling to eat my calories and hit my carbs, protein, and fats %
Typically i eat about 800 cals a day which is way too low but im eating like a horse. My aim is to lose weight but with a well balanced nutritional diet and i dont feel its happening. Im definately eating alot of fruit and veg. Also eating thing s i would never eat before celery, peppers, salad, wholemeal an whole grain products too. Lean cuts of meat. Ive cut out pretty much everything processed unless its a treat and always check for additives preservative etc. as i feel our bodies dont need them and im still falling short on my food diary. I wonder if i can find some weekly food plans for 1200 cals online. I also measure everything and got slightly anal and obsessive about counting, weighing, measuring my mum was abit worried on sunday when i weighed all my food at the sunday carvery in the pub. I dont think im too obsessive i just feel if i can control my food as much as possible i can control myself. I obviously dont have an unnatural issue because i wouldnt be able to eat a macdonalds burger or a chocolate bar. I think about food all day not in i want to eat this or that in a way to think what will work together and whats nutritional. Before i decide to eat anything i check packaging and read throughly as possible. Also take photos of most things i eat but as a memory jogger, you know incase in a month or so time i feel really down and wanna raid my cupboards and read through my dairy and see what ive made previously and i might remember how lovely something was and end up cooking that instead of the frozen fries in the freezer!!!
Any way im guna stop mini-ranting ::gnorsi:

Mike - i had a couple of Dans fries today :drool5: but never had more than like 6 of them!! I'm potato freeeeee!!!
 
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Mike - i had a couple of Dans fries today :drool5: but never had more than like 6 of them!! I'm potato freeeeee!!!
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well hell yeah. mr potato head adores you. yeah sometimes ill take like one chip from a guy at work, and just chew the hell out of it, makes me think i ate a few of em haha.

good job tho!
 
Thats totally the same as me. I'll take like a couple and think mmmm chips and that my craving pang over and done with lol
 
Hey ashley,

Just thought I'd stop by in your diary, I've just read the whole thing and man do I identify with just about everything you've written! Sometimes its a bit hard not to spend the whole day thinking about food, not in a bad way, just in a way where your trying to plan the best thing! Anyway, I'l be following your progress and its good to see Dan sorted the job stuff out, hopefully it all works out:)

Mel
 
hey sweetie I am so happy you dropped some weight!
feeling great is better than everything. cool that you are trying new foods, too. it also adds vitamins. I know what you mean about being in control- at first it is necessary to seem a bit too ''crazy' 'about it. but with time you get used to calculating the amount of calories you take. for weight loss it is important to not go over the top.

I hid the scale because I am currently stuck. haha
 
Heyy Meebs :D
Im actually dreading when i plateau for abit. I seem to lose weight in a 4 week cycle i have one really good week like this week then i will drop like half a pound the next, and then the week after i'll drop a pound. Dont worry about it if you fret about it you will just get a build up of hormones and well we know what hormones do to us ladies lol I'm not really strict but i like to know exactly whats in what im eating but everything that you read on the net seems to contridict each other and its hard to tell whats the best route!! I bought some English breakfast tea today, when id been reading it in your diary i thought you just meant normal english tea but that was the name of it in mexico (im a bimbo i know) and browsing through the aisle i seen it and was like thats what Amiba drinks i get some lol!!

Hey Mel,
See i relate too with you Dan has an extremely strenuous job and eats like crazy and i just cant do it as im not a heavily active person. I think thats where my extra 4/5 stone came from. Matching what he was eating to me!
He has had a meeting today actually and his company is backing him and the union so it looks good!! So im not stressing too much now!! Thanks for popping in. I'll follow yours too!
 
thanks sweetie!
I know weight loss takes time. hopefully my body will catch up with me soon!

haha I forgot to put the brand :p but yeah I guess it is cute, especially for you because well you are in England haha. but I love english tea with milk, I became addicted when I went there- I never before tried tea with milk so now I am devoted to it!

and have a good night! read you soon xoxo :D
 
Been to TGI's today and got a salad with no dressing and a grilled chicken fillet. Was okay but order got mixed up and all i ended up getting was lettuce and grilled chicken and was boring while everyone was tucking in to BBQ Ribs and Burgers!! For tea i had a spinach and cottage cheese sarnie. Had a small packet of snack a jacks salt and vinegar popcorn was lovely. Im super knackered only had about 3 hours sleep so this is me for tonight.
Good dairy and anyone thats reading!!
 
Hey all,

Can't really catch the diary upto date. I have been treadmilling it alot and went for a 10 mile hike with the dog on sunday. Put on half a pound this week but there was a party and stuff at the weekend. Dan is back at work all well and fine. Slimming world is good, although tonight i have really wanted some comfort food! I'm in bed and about to get some sleep and avoid food as im not even hungry.

Well Cheerio for tonight!! x
 
Need to change!! Warning Sonic Whinge!

I think I've got myself back in that bad place were salads seem dull and everything else extremely nice. I think I definately have shin splints in my left leg its been agony and I'm starting to limp a little which has caused me to get a blister on my right foot which is very sore!!! From going on treadmill i think i may have whiplash as sports bra i bought for £40 is crap and cant afford to buy a differant one just yet, boobs feel likes they have gone 10 rounds!! I've ate really bad today like realllllllly BAD!
I'm due on my periods any day and feel so crappy. Feel like, emotionally im having a bad week. Once my period starts i think i will feel ten times better i hate waiting for it. Like ive been having the back, ovary,womb and boobs like rocks aches for close to 7 days already and once i start the sooner it will be over!
Got my Turbo Jam Ultimate Collection yesterday and cant wait to start it.
Dan saying i need to rest my leg but im just lacking on all healthy fronts at the moment.
Got my new Blackberry today too. Sorry to whinge :)
Chow for now!
 
Maybe a turning point back on track!!

Well, today ive been for 5 mile walk with Koda, upto where our new house is getting built i've added a pic too :) Got Koda in it :D

Ive taken my pics for the 18.5lb into my journey, I didnt have any pics before now so these pics are disgusting! I know I've lost nearly a stone and a half but i would hate to have seen a pic of me at 16st!!!!! I think i would have been put down if i was any other species!!! Well I suppose these pics are just going to push me to lose more weight because i hate the way im looking at the minute. Ive took pics with my clothes on and i dont look to shabby but in just my underwear :O:O:O :willy_nilly: I'm not going to let it get to me just gotta work hard. My shin hasnt been too bad today thats why i did the walk im gunna try the treadmill tonight and my TURBO JAM!!!!!!
Periods are still a no show :rant:

Ive had a spicy chicken pitta bread today with low fat cottage cheese all healthy par the pitta but i only had 1 medium one so.....
I'll have my all bran now too :)
 
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