Daisy's diary

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Daisy_chainCHA

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I decided to move my introduction to my diary, cause it sort of fit....

im 24 and Im a food-aholic haha. I have tried to lose, and tried to lose and I dont lose anything, so I get discouraged and figure I might as well eat what I want if Im not going to lose. Recently however I was at my cousins house(easter to be exact) in the bathroom and I looked in the mirror and I was disgusted at what I saw, I just said "no more" and I think for the first time...I meant it. I am taking back my life, I am taking back control of my weight, I am taking back my appearence..I want to do it for me, not so others will like what they see, I want to like what I see. I have been on my own diet for 3 weeks, and Ive lost 8lbs today. most days Im proud of how Im doing, but days like today Im thinking "only 8lbs!?" its hard sometimes, and I know there are weeks when I wont lose weight, but Ill lose inches, I know there will be weeks when I wont lose anything...and I cant get discouraged, I need to stay with it..I need to make it happen this time.

goals: my first goal is 210, and Im 8 lbs away. My second goal is 199(I will cry I think when I break 200) and thats an important goal to me, Im seeing my favorite singer Clay Aiken on August 1st, and I want to get down to 199 before that date....crossing my fingers for that! my eventual goal is 150 which is 80lbs from my starting weight.

Why am I here? I am here to meet people who struggle like I do..you know, its easy for my family and friends to say Im wonderful the way I am, but they dont live my life everyday, I need to be around people that can encourage me, applaud me, let me vent and cry and talk about the weight issue..people that understand.

things I like to do: I am an aspiring writer, lately Ive been really into songs, I love lyrics and I think that they can really tell YOUR story, and thats important to me...I also want to write a little of everything, kids book..novel..magazine articles etc I have ambitions. Im a BIG movie person, and kind of a movie snob...I watch most movies at least once, and know if they are good or bad hehe. I have rarely stopped a movie in the middle, so if I do you know that it is bad. like I said, Im a HUGE HUGE HUGE clay aiken fan, I have seen him 10 times, working on 13 this summer..what can I say...he inspires me.

I guess thats me, if you got through this wordy introduction then I applaud you, and I look forward to getting to know each one of you. If you are discouraged and just need someone to scream to, pm me..Im a good listener.
 
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just keep it up girl! 1lb is still awesome so means that you are still doing things right - the weight loss does gradually slow down as you will see if you check out other peoples diraies here so dont get disheartened. try not to ban foods from your diet - a treat once in a while is good as it means the cravings dont ovvercome you and lead to a binging session. as long as what is coming in is going out then you will see weight loss. try using to track what youre eating and calculate the caloories coming in and out. a loss of 1lb a week is very healthy :)
 
So, I told myself that this week I was going to wait and weigh only once a week, I get so discouraged if I weigh everyday, seeing nothing lost..but I at least see some results if I weigh once a week...but last week was a toughy,
I only lost 1 lb and it frustrated me, I sort of went a little crazy, and yesterday, I ate a cookie!! oh dear, not a cookie lol. I felt so guilty, I know I shouldnt let myself feel guilty for giving myself something that I cut out, but I did..and I was sure I had gained back all 8 lbs I had lost, doesnt make sense I know, but thats my thought process lol. So I weighed this morning, and saw that I had lost 3 more lbs! that is so exciting, cause I was so scared I hadnt lost anything, and to see 11 lbs total, that is just such an amazing feeling. Im not going to get my hopes up, cause I know when I technically weigh on tuesday, it could come back, but every pound makes me feel so good...
Also, a good thing happened to me, I found out that I won a 20 days free at our local gym, so I plan to take opportunity of it, I am going to try to work out every day of my 20 days, I think that will be beneficial to me in my goals of losing weight.
 
Hello Daisy and welcome :)
losing 1-2 lbs a week is healthy. its slower but if you do it right it will get you to your goal. sometimes it will go slower but then it moves. what is your daily eating plan? and definitely exercise. if you can't go to the gym just walk. you will find some great support here, so read around few diaries.
i want to congratulate you for making a decision to change your life and yourself. its a huge step to make. and i hope you're prepared to do it in a healthy way. its a wonderful journey once you start. there are ups and downs, but those ups are an amazing thing :D
welcome,
Lena
 
I have gotten so much inspiration from the pages of this board, you all are HUGE in my weight loss, I know I just started, but seriously..Ive been looking at the before and after pictures, and jaw dropping..I want that to be me...

my daily eating plan:
I make sure that I eat every meal, that was a big deal for me, cause I work so early in the morning that skipping breakfast became the norm. I eat when I get to work usually around 7:30-8 Im a CNA, and pretty busy, so basically when I can fit it in haha.
At about 9 I have a snack, its usually an apple or carrots or something that wont add fat, but will fill me a bit. (it ends up being when I take my first break)
Lunch ends up being pretty early, but I think thats ok since I dont eat anything with many calories for my snack, it ends up being around 10:30-11 cause thats when I get my lunch break at work. Lately I have been eating a lean cuisine for lunch, or a budget gourmet(goin for the portions, since they are small and I cant have seconds) OR Ill order a salad from work, or fruit and cottage cheese, I took my own fat free dressing so I could put that on my salad.
Another snack around 3pm, I get off work at 2 and so that works good for me. Its usually another apple, or grapefruit of egg white or something.
Then Dinner around 6. I try not to eat past 6:30, and when I dont go to the gym I do sit-ups before bed so that works off the little bit I have for dinner. Its usually a boca burger(1 gram of fat) or a baked potatoe with low fat chili, or white beans, or a salad...something with little fat since IM not moving around as much at night.

some helpful things Ive learned:
1. I dont like the taste of water hahaha, I drank a lot of diet coke, but wanted to cut it out and drink water, so I have been drinking these drink mix things, like crystal lite, only not brand name..they have 0 fat 0 calories 0 sugar, so its taking nothing away from the water, but adding a much better taste. I end up carrying a water bottle around with me, and drinking 4-6 20oz bottles a day! that is a HUGE deal, since I drank none before.
2. I have a sugar craving like MAD! what Ive been doing is carrying around sugar free hard candy, the ones with no fat, and sucking on those when I feel like I want something sweet. Its not much, and its not chocolate or anything, but it works for me..to get the sweetness without going backwards.

Ive cut out a lot. Bread, pasta(except a little bit at lunch sometimes) sugar..I know that isnt the ideal way..to just cut things out, but if I dont cut them out completely then I go out of control, I dont have very good will power, the first week was the hardest, but its getting easier. I just had my lunch, it was lentil soup(from a can) 2.5 grams of fat, and very good....

the most important thing Ive learned is not to beat myself up if I fail. I have a diet buddy and we text message eachother whenever we eat anything, that way if I have a cookie, I have to tell her, since I dont want her to see me fail, I dont eat it..that has been the clencher for me, having someone to report to, who can make me feel better.

the hardest part? the slowness of it, I know that its gonna take at least 7 months to reach my goal, BUT my 25th birthday is October 6, and I could be close by then, how amazing will that feel? to be able to hit the town on my birthday, and maybe flirt with the guys a little :)

I have a horrible self esteem, so I am working on that...I am trying to tell myself that Im not doing this because I think that Im ugly, Im doing it cause I want to be healthy, I dont want to stop trying on clothes anymore(I just buy the size I think I am)
 
Its been 6 months since I Posted here, and Im at a standstill. Ive lost 30lbs since April, but I went on vacation in August and cant seem to get myself back on track. Sure, Im doing ok...I may have a cookie here and there, but I feel horrible about it, and Im not losing anymore..not really. I went from 226 down to 200 lbs, and Im just sort of hovering there. Ill be 202 one day, 198 the next..but I never really lose anymore. Its breaking my heart, I dont know what to do to get back on track. I was so proud of myself, and the good that I was doing..but now it just seems like its not worth it anymore. Some days I want to just quit, give up..but then I wake up and say "tomorrow is another day"

I just wish I was still losing, I miss the excitement..and the happiness of seeing the pounds go off. My grandma said that Im doing so good, and everyone reaches plateaus, but It doest feel like that to me...it feels like I just cant lose anymore.

needed to vent :)
 
Hi Daisy. I have been where you are before. I have been on a few diets myself, and of course fallen back and gotten stuck, got bored, gotten lost. It's really hard.

I think you just need to find new motivation. Find something that you want to lose weight for. Make a list of things that you know will happen when you lose weight that can't happen now. Go buy a clothing item that's too small for you, that you really like, and hang it on the wall as a goal. Think about how healthy you can be.

Try new exercise routines and different, healthy foods. Find something that will really get you motivated and refreshed and ready for change. Only you know what that can be.

Good luck! Keep coming back here often. I find these boards highly supportive and motivating, maybe you will too! :) You have done really, really great so far. So you already know that you have it in you to get it, so just go get it!!!

Jennifer
 
thanks for the support guys. Im back on track, after hovering around 200 for weeks, IM finally down to 297...and I havent cracked 299...so im on a downward spiral. Ive been going to the park to walk every other day, and trying to just think positive, I wont give up.
 
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