Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me
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Thanks!
LOL I got that shit memorized--1/4 cup ice cream is usually anywhere from 200-300 calories, but most often about 240
MotherOf2
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thats awesome... it's one thing to completely avoid bad food, but to straight up stare at it, drool over it, then walk away/ throw it away is just damn good work... the satisfaction from that lingers in your mind much longer then the taste lingers in your mouth. soo worth it...
MotherOf2
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Yup, I got them memorized, too, but reading the label again reminds me of the parts that I don't want.(I can never remember the fat content of Bryers)
Ha Ha Ha I have everything in my damn fridge everything i've eaten in the last month memorized! I'm always going to husband saying go ahead ask me how many calories are in ANYTHING... lol he doesnt like to play along much... but its entertaining to me
Val, way to go in resisting the ice cream aliens You know they keep saying "Resistance is futile, you will be assimilated" ... but for now, I think you're doing a great job!
Seriously, protein is much better ... although ice cream does have protein ... resistance is futile (No subliminal messages here ...)
KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!!!!!
You've got some serious will power going on, Val! I'm proud of you
You know they keep saying "Resistance is futile, you will be assimilated" ... but for now, I think you're doing a great job!Seriously, protein is much better ... although ice cream does have protein ... resistance is futile
(No subliminal messages here ...)KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!!!!!
You've got some serious will power going on, Val! I'm proud of you
douknowjello
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Ditto Good job on walking away from dessert, lol. And I'm sorry you're sick. Being congested sucks. I just got over being sick like that for about a month and its nice to finally not be coughing and hacking. My hubby had it too so neither one of us was getting alot of sleep and the one cat HATES coughing so we hardly saw her last month, lol. She normally sleeps on the bed too but she was at the other end of the house hardly speakin to us. Anyway don't let it get bad...take care of yourself
Good job on walking away from dessert, lol. And I'm sorry you're sick. Being congested sucks. I just got over being sick like that for about a month and its nice to finally not be coughing and hacking. My hubby had it too so neither one of us was getting alot of sleep and the one cat HATES coughing so we hardly saw her last month, lol. She normally sleeps on the bed too but she was at the other end of the house hardly speakin to us. Anyway don't let it get bad...take care of yourself Curvie Girlie
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Trops: Bryers is less decadent than Ben & Jerry's 
Cassy: Thank you, but a BIG part of it was the fact that I wouldn't be able to TASTE it Ice cream is......unless mint of peanut butter, not particularly flavorful when it comes down to it. More about texture........
Maureen: Thanks
I notice my willpower in dieting builds on itself. It has to be on a role. From like, fall to January I was like, "OK, I am going to diet," and I'd screw up and be like "Well, shit!" and it kept not working Finally, Claudia's challenge made me think OF OTHERS, NOT JUST MYSELF and those 10 points were so significant all of a sudden....and team 2....I love the members but for this challenge, SCREW EM, I wanna help Team 1 win!!! 
LOL! Can you tell I have a competitive side? Anyway, the role--there are several serious humps to get over in dieting for me, and after a few weeks it gets less difficult. But those initial humps--REALLY difficult for me. Tonight I did not have "enough calories" or enough time, to have a great, warm meal--I'm just finishing a Kombucha (70 cals) and a Perfect Foods Bar (290 cals; with 18 g of protein, heh heh) and I didn't even feel that hungry. Ordinarily I'd stop and get a 700 calorie Thai meal I'm on a role with this dieting BIATCH! 
Part of it may be the fact that I have not had a large meal in "a long time" or so it seems. To combat hunger I eat small portions of food throughout the day even though I end up with about 2000 calories (normal to a lot of people), that's still pretty low for me; I'm used to about 2500. SO maybe my stomach is like, getting accustomed to not stretching out very much.
Lisa: Awwww glad you two finally got over it! LOL on the poor cat, heh. My cat is weird--I can cough and cough and he doesn't seem to care--but man oh man he sure hates the vacuum cleaner I don't blame him!
Cassy: Thank you, but a BIG part of it was the fact that I wouldn't be able to TASTE it
Ice cream is......unless mint of peanut butter, not particularly flavorful when it comes down to it. More about texture........Maureen: Thanks
I notice my willpower in dieting builds on itself. It has to be on a role. From like, fall to January I was like, "OK, I am going to diet," and I'd screw up and be like "Well, shit!" and it kept not working Finally, Claudia's challenge made me think OF OTHERS, NOT JUST MYSELF and those 10 points were so significant all of a sudden....and team 2....I love the members but for this challenge, SCREW EM, I wanna help Team 1 win!!! LOL! Can you tell I have a competitive side? Anyway, the role--there are several serious humps to get over in dieting for me, and after a few weeks it gets less difficult. But those initial humps--REALLY difficult for me. Tonight I did not have "enough calories" or enough time, to have a great, warm meal--I'm just finishing a Kombucha (70 cals) and a Perfect Foods Bar (290 cals; with 18 g of protein, heh heh) and I didn't even feel that hungry. Ordinarily I'd stop and get a 700 calorie Thai meal I'm on a role with this dieting BIATCH! Part of it may be the fact that I have not had a large meal in "a long time" or so it seems. To combat hunger I eat small portions of food throughout the day even though I end up with about 2000 calories (normal to a lot of people), that's still pretty low for me; I'm used to about 2500. SO maybe my stomach is like, getting accustomed to not stretching out very much.
Lisa: Awwww glad you two finally got over it! LOL on the poor cat, heh. My cat is weird--I can cough and cough and he doesn't seem to care--but man oh man he sure hates the vacuum cleaner
I don't blame him!Val, you're a fucking diet machine!!! And being the unselfish person that you are, you're not only doing this for YOU, you're doing this for the TEAM!!!
You're my hero!!!!
You're my hero!!!!
Curvie Girlie
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Awwwww Maureen, life as a human is all about community 
1967 calories and man oh man I taxed out my body!
If Steve is reading this, he would chastise me for eating too little and stressing my body too much but oh well, one day won't kill me.
I went to the rock climbing gym and met Chris. He was talking to Tom, the owner--when Chris was 15 and not very sick, he used to be able to do ANY route. He was a boss tycoon of climbing. He used to SET ROUTES and I guess being tall and skinny with a 235 IQ helps *shrugs* Anyway, although he is deteriorating, whenever I'M around and take him out, his mind gets off of his pain and he is able to have some fun. Plus, his body is back on and getting used to the Haldol, which also helps. We had a blast tonight!
First thing, Tom let me rent climbing shoes without charging me (I guess it costs $5). Then Chris busted out his mom's old harness (which is top notch) and his own chalk bag for hands (whatever it's called) and I strapped myself in. Being "skinny" helps, man! I was really really relieved to not feel too self conscious in the harness (which makes my thighs bulge a bit because it's right in my leg/body crease). Haha! I joked, "does this harness make me look fat?" He said, "No, you look good." Good old Chris! Well, he's 24.....not old.....He showed me how to tie myself into the rope and proceeded to belay me.
Anyway, right off the bat he made me climb 50 feet up a 5.8 Route that was straight up. I DID NOT FALL, NOT ONCE. I admit it! I was scerred My hands sweat and I trembled like a scared little bunny, but since I'm also a tough bitch with lots of pride when it comes to my physical capabilities, I went up as quickly as possible. Chris said I did very well and surprised him. Chris is not easily impressed. He's never been rude TO ME, his manners are impeccable because he thinks it's beneath him to be rude in the slightest and he overly apologizes too much; but with everything it must be the best: best gear, best guns, best food, best wine, etc.....so to get praise from him is good. Not to mention he is a pro. From YEARS back, but a pro nonetheless.
Next route was a 5.8 too, but it went over the corner of a wall and there was a VERY tricky part where there were "not enough holds" and I gave up in dismay, half way up. I did not see anyone else do that route all night. BUT after bouldering for a while with him, I tried again.....and MADE IT!
However, I had to jump-switch my feet a few times, cling to one hold with my fingertips on both hands and do a FINGER PULLL UP to get past the tricky party, and kind of JUMP up to grab a hold at one part. PANT PANT! My palms, right now as I type this, are actually getting moist just thinking about it. Chris told me he was pleased when a few times I tippy-toe-scuffled up the wall with one leg WITHOUT any holds to get to the next one. He said that was a method he didn't teach me and I figured it out on my own. I said, "No shit, what the fuck else would I do?" Apparently I figured out a few methods that are used without being told. But he straight SCHOOLED me in bouldering....
People in the gym, I noticed, were watching me and him a lot. A few guys, I saw, looked at me and gave a little side-smile (I was in yoga pants and a Victoria's Sercret Sports shirt). People were eavesdropping on Chris's barking orders at me. I mentioned this to him later and he said that "most climbers are....civilians," which in Chris's world is sort of like "cretins," LOL! Basically he said that climbers like any advice, will listen to pro-advice when they can, and it was obvious he knew what he was talking about. Chris was not being arrogant--he DOES know. Fucking A, he used to be a boss tycoon. He's a GREAT teacher by the way. He really pushes me without ever raising his voice or losing his patience and always gives me praise when it's due, but he does it with his even, pleasant voice and intelligently, in an effortless way. He is......a GREAT teacher. With bouldering he'd say, "Now reach over with your right hand....keep your body closer to the rock.....closer......don't waste energy, REST when you get in a comfortable place......use geometry, press into the corners of the wall.....put your legs in crazy positions to wedge in there, use your Yoga.......rotate your knee the other way....closer to the wall......grab that one with your left hand......yeah.....that's good....now GO FOR that one--just jump...." I, being the obedient masochist that I am, LIKE being told what to do, especially in a firm and compassionate way for the greater good of my health.
I fell a lot. It is a little bit freaky to jump down 5 feet but of course the ground was soft padding. I noticed and rejoiced in my brain's ability to create neural pathways on the routes, i.e., after doing a V1 or B1 or whatever it's called in bouldering, once, and failing, the nsecond time around my eyes and hands worked better strategies and I succeeded. Climbing is fun but yes, my forearms and wrists and fingers are a bit sore. And right after the first climb I had to hold my arms in the air to get the blood to pool down out of them.
Yoga: Maria had us in mostly strengthening standing poses. I thought I'd be bad at Chaturanga, but instead, my wrists and arms LIKED me pressing my weight on them. We went though so many Vinyasas
Seriously, guys, I was totally worn out.
I'm home on my laptop and dial up I'm gonna go to bed I just needed to share my story.
CHHHEEEEEEEEEEOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWW!!!! 
1967 calories and man oh man I taxed out my body!
If Steve is reading this, he would chastise me for eating too little and stressing my body too much but oh well, one day won't kill me.I went to the rock climbing gym and met Chris. He was talking to Tom, the owner--when Chris was 15 and not very sick, he used to be able to do ANY route. He was a boss tycoon of climbing. He used to SET ROUTES and I guess being tall and skinny with a 235 IQ helps *shrugs* Anyway, although he is deteriorating, whenever I'M around and take him out, his mind gets off of his pain and he is able to have some fun. Plus, his body is back on and getting used to the Haldol, which also helps. We had a blast tonight!
First thing, Tom let me rent climbing shoes without charging me (I guess it costs $5). Then Chris busted out his mom's old harness (which is top notch) and his own chalk bag for hands (whatever it's called) and I strapped myself in. Being "skinny" helps, man! I was really really relieved to not feel too self conscious in the harness (which makes my thighs bulge a bit because it's right in my leg/body crease). Haha! I joked, "does this harness make me look fat?" He said, "No, you look good." Good old Chris! Well, he's 24.....not old.....He showed me how to tie myself into the rope and proceeded to belay me.
Anyway, right off the bat he made me climb 50 feet up a 5.8 Route that was straight up. I DID NOT FALL, NOT ONCE. I admit it! I was scerred
My hands sweat and I trembled like a scared little bunny, but since I'm also a tough bitch with lots of pride when it comes to my physical capabilities, I went up as quickly as possible. Chris said I did very well and surprised him. Chris is not easily impressed. He's never been rude TO ME, his manners are impeccable because he thinks it's beneath him to be rude in the slightest and he overly apologizes too much; but with everything it must be the best: best gear, best guns, best food, best wine, etc.....so to get praise from him is good. Not to mention he is a pro. From YEARS back, but a pro nonetheless.Next route was a 5.8 too, but it went over the corner of a wall and there was a VERY tricky part where there were "not enough holds" and I gave up in dismay, half way up. I did not see anyone else do that route all night. BUT after bouldering for a while with him, I tried again.....and MADE IT!
However, I had to jump-switch my feet a few times, cling to one hold with my fingertips on both hands and do a FINGER PULLL UP to get past the tricky party, and kind of JUMP up to grab a hold at one part. PANT PANT! My palms, right now as I type this, are actually getting moist just thinking about it. Chris told me he was pleased when a few times I tippy-toe-scuffled up the wall with one leg WITHOUT any holds to get to the next one. He said that was a method he didn't teach me and I figured it out on my own. I said, "No shit, what the fuck else would I do?" Apparently I figured out a few methods that are used without being told. But he straight SCHOOLED me in bouldering....People in the gym, I noticed, were watching me and him a lot. A few guys, I saw, looked at me and gave a little side-smile (I was in yoga pants and a Victoria's Sercret Sports shirt). People were eavesdropping on Chris's barking orders at me. I mentioned this to him later and he said that "most climbers are....civilians," which in Chris's world is sort of like "cretins," LOL! Basically he said that climbers like any advice, will listen to pro-advice when they can, and it was obvious he knew what he was talking about. Chris was not being arrogant--he DOES know. Fucking A, he used to be a boss tycoon. He's a GREAT teacher by the way. He really pushes me without ever raising his voice or losing his patience and always gives me praise when it's due, but he does it with his even, pleasant voice and intelligently, in an effortless way. He is......a GREAT teacher. With bouldering he'd say, "Now reach over with your right hand....keep your body closer to the rock.....closer......don't waste energy, REST when you get in a comfortable place......use geometry, press into the corners of the wall.....put your legs in crazy positions to wedge in there, use your Yoga.......rotate your knee the other way....closer to the wall......grab that one with your left hand......yeah.....that's good....now GO FOR that one--just jump...." I, being the obedient masochist that I am, LIKE being told what to do, especially in a firm and compassionate way for the greater good of my health.
I fell a lot. It is a little bit freaky to jump down 5 feet but of course the ground was soft padding. I noticed and rejoiced in my brain's ability to create neural pathways on the routes, i.e., after doing a V1 or B1 or whatever it's called in bouldering, once, and failing, the nsecond time around my eyes and hands worked better strategies and I succeeded.
Climbing is fun but yes, my forearms and wrists and fingers are a bit sore. And right after the first climb I had to hold my arms in the air to get the blood to pool down out of them.Yoga: Maria had us in mostly strengthening standing poses. I thought I'd be bad at Chaturanga, but instead, my wrists and arms LIKED me pressing my weight on them. We went though so many Vinyasas
Seriously, guys, I was totally worn out. I'm home on my laptop and dial up
I'm gonna go to bed I just needed to share my story. awesome on climbing. i love climbing of any kind. i even finished a school for mounteneers and did several courses of climbing, alpine climbing and free climbing. loved it i did that in those several months i was thin when i was 14 years old lol. as i became heavier i still loved climbing but going down became extremely difficult and i was falling a lot and i wasn't doing it in the gym hehe so i sprained my ankle so many times i stopped counting. so eventually i stopped out of shear fear of falling. maybe one day as i become lighter i'll do it again. i always loved mountains. i kinda miss them
btw did you notice that just yesterday your diary had 6 pages?
damn girl you're a busy bunny everywhere you go hehe
hugs
Lena
Curvie Girlie
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damn girl you're a busy bunny everywhere you go hehe
LENA BY ALL MEANS, GET INTO IT AGAIN IF YOU LOVED IT!!!!!
Yes. I am always a busy bunny. The Boulder Creek church's message for the week says:
BUSYNESS
IS NOT THE SAME
AS PRODUCTIVITY
IS NOT THE SAME
AS PRODUCTIVITY
This is kind of something to keep in mind.
cinderelly
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yes. I am always a busy bunny. The boulder creek church's message for the week says:
busyness
is not the same
as productivity
this is kind of something to keep in mind.
hahaha
:d!!!Curvie Girlie
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Thanks! What I got the kick out of most was Chris and my ability to work perfectly together, although he has taught me SO MUCH it's little wonder. He also said when I brought up the fact that I felt watched and didn't like it (I like attention from my friends but not so much from strangers unless I'm bored) that "climbers rate each others' abilities rather aggressively. You looked good up there, so they were watching." This was a fantastic compliment for a newbie. Being pretty lean, flexible, and quite strong when it comes to holding up, pulling and pushing my own body weight, helps! Oh yeah and I was really tickled by the brain's ability to do something better the second time--I read about that shit in biological psychology 7 years ago and see it time and time again in exercise articles. YAY!
My brain is still "OK"--LOL! 
Curvie Girlie
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Morning, hot sexy skinny girl
I think I will! Chris has a pair of climbing shoes in storage he's going to let me use--our feet aren't TOO much different in size (I have big ol size 9s) and for competition, he'd use shoes 3 sizes too small, so even his other shoes are "too small". Tis better for climbing I heard.
Brat
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hahaha I did pretty much the same thing yesterday. Around this time of the year they start releasing those Cadbury Mini Eggs and Creamy Chocolate eggs for Easter. And I used to overdose on them EVERY year. But of course, over the past year or so I've been a lot more careful with labels.
So this is how it happened, I walked into the corner store, walked past the Cadbury display and then I spotted them. My eyes must have instantly lit up and my jaw dropped. I took a few steps backed and picked a few packs up.. I was SUPER EXCITED "YESS!! The Cadbury eggs are back!!!!!"
And then.... I turned one of the packages around and read the label. My smile literally went straight into a frown and I'm sure I had tears in my eyes.. I pouted, threw the package right back into the bin and walked away. 200 calories for like I swear, 10 small tiny eggs!!! I used to have like 6 of those bags EASILY!!
I couldn't stop thinking about it all night and I was super upset that they were that bad for me. hehe.. I even told my bf about it as we used to share the same love for those goodies.. He was sad too. We will have to visit the Cadbury bin together and say our proper goodbyes.
And holy shit girl.. it's a full time job to read your diary! I came back from reading it yesterday and I see that I have to catch up on like 6 pages!! I need to set aside an hour each day for "Val time"
So this is how it happened, I walked into the corner store, walked past the Cadbury display and then I spotted them. My eyes must have instantly lit up and my jaw dropped. I took a few steps backed and picked a few packs up.. I was SUPER EXCITED "YESS!! The Cadbury eggs are back!!!!!"
And then.... I turned one of the packages around and read the label. My smile literally went straight into a frown and I'm sure I had tears in my eyes.. I pouted, threw the package right back into the bin and walked away. 200 calories for like I swear, 10 small tiny eggs!!! I used to have like 6 of those bags EASILY!!
I couldn't stop thinking about it all night and I was super upset that they were that bad for me. hehe.. I even told my bf about it as we used to share the same love for those goodies.. He was sad too. We will have to visit the Cadbury bin together and say our proper goodbyes.
And holy shit girl.. it's a full time job to read your diary! I came back from reading it yesterday and I see that I have to catch up on like 6 pages!! I need to set aside an hour each day for "Val time"
SO today I really really wanted that ice cream sandwich and I went to the corner store to get a mineral water and stood for a second and looked into the little freezer at the Ben and Jerry's and Häagen-Daz
"Hmm, none of the flavors REALLY appeal to me....and my cold/congestion makes it so I probably won't even TASTE that shit. And it's not even WORTH it and I'll probably end up eating more than one 240 calorie serving, making my dinner small to non-existent. And I really want a tasty, WARM, satisfying meal!"
So I walked away.
I DID have a terrible bout of munchies and ate some PROTEIN RICH tofu to tide me over. My calories are 1415 right now, leaving me with a 685-385 dinner and still be aiight. Not fucking bad, homies.
I'm about to go climbing at the gym!!!!!!!!!!
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