Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me

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Hey Val, Ive been ready but havent been posting, that figures about your ex, we all he is a hhhmmm idiot for lack of better word:DHowever your looking good , feeling good and have a new man of course he is gonna be an ass and try agian!

As for the wine, laws of attraction, karma, however ya wanna look at it, now you can enjoy it when you allow your self the cals to do so, HA!:)
 
Curvie Girlie said:
as Alta would say, the Law of Attraction! :party:
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LOL I saw this in Steve's diary:

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I_love_muscle said:
Every red wine I tried in my 20s gave me migraines so I stopped drinking them (other alcoholic beverages tended to do the same thing); I think it's the sulphites ...

Maybe you got the bottle of wine because of good karma
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Perhaps I got a tolerance to sufites(?)

I hope so! :) I also gave one of my bottles to one of my favorite local DJs and his girlfriend, they were very happy about that :)

Blancita said:
Great news about the tests Valerie.
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Yes, isn't it?? :D Thanks! :hug2:

paulab_5 said:
Hey B checkin' in on ya... how's your journey to 135 going?
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Slow but sure! :sleeping:

cinderelly said:
However you're looking good, feeling good and have a new man of course he is gonna be an ass and try again!
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Relly :) This is inaccurate but ironic; the ex BOYFRIEND is certainly not trying to try again with me, he's trying to make me miserable by being an ass and blaming our breakup for his shitty existence (if I'll listen, which I won't). However, during dinner last night as I sat next to my new boyfriend, my ex Long Term Fuck Buddy drunk-texted me....

Drunk texting, just wanted to say hi

Shocked because my L.T.F.B. always played hard to get and never called or texted me unless I called or texted him first, and even THEN if he was busy he wouldn't answer until the NEXT time I called...so I said hi, he said

Doing good? I hope so!

so yeah I told him I had a great time watching the Oakland DJ Beats Antique at the Cypress the night before, and how I was about to eat dinner to belly dancing performances. Doesn't get much better! Imagine my surprise when he texted back,

Nice, full moon party ha. [Santa Cruz always has full moon parties every month regardless of the weather, although for come reason it almost never rains during a full moon (?)] Just lonely, wanted 2 say hi & wish u well. So, well wishing u, take care.

I kinda smirked to myself although this was rather awkward with my boyfriend right next to me. Luckily PZ is not immature or wack, so he wasn't trying to ask me what I was texting or anything stupid like that. I answered,

Lonely?! You? Weird! Take care too, thanks 4 sayin whaddup.

He answered,

Thanks 4 listening. Love ya.

:rolleyes: Puleaze! But yes, Relly, my L.T.F.B. had texted me before Xmas "If it doesn't work out....I'm down for a loud bunny" and stuff. And on New year's Day, after escaping the giant raving party, I had ELEVEN text messages from friends, but one of them was from HIM. Making it odd that when he realized he fucked up by playing hard to get a little too well. Whatever!
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Relly :) This is inaccurate but ironic; the ex BOYFRIEND is certainly not trying to try again with me, he's trying to make me miserable by being an ass and blaming our breakup for his shitty existence (if I'll listen, which I won't). However, during dinner last night as I sat next to my new boyfriend, my ex Long Term Fuck Buddy drunk-texted me....
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Sorry, LOL, I dunno if I misread or misunderstood or forgot from the last tiem i read till i posted...or if i just assumed it was the ex , maybe cuz you were talking abt emails from the x so i ASSumed...

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jzthedetermined said:
Happy Monday. Hope you had a great "Bunny Weekend"! :)
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I did! :D

Ok so on Friday I hung out with Chris and talked him up because he was feeling more ill than usual, and very very sad. I had a difficult time with it :banghead: It's devastating to see someone you love wither away, physically, mentally, and emotionally :cry: I tried! He said it made him feel better, but his physical state was still awful....I spent the night at PZ's, and on Saturday morning I left his house early to GO RUNNING IN THE FOREST FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MONTHS!!! It was freezing cold, I stupidly wore the same running outfit I would have worn if it were EIGHTY degrees, but in the early morning under the trees away from the sunlight, but the creek it was more like FORTY FIVE DEGREES. :chillpill: Brrrr! 38 minutes, and a lot of fun!!! :party:

Working at the winery was easy, it was slow. My boss let me read, but I only did so after I cleaned the entire place and wiped all the outdoor tables. Saturday night I went to the Cypress Lounge to have dinner--no one was answering their phone so I had it alone, then met a cool older guy who was a locksmith--I chatted it up with him, he showed me his shop (right next door) and made me a spare car key just by looking at my key, isn't that nice? It works, too! Then my friends showed up (PZ was too tired to roll out) and all the same party kids I keep seeing over and over again, and we all danced to Beats Antique , who kinda spins trippy circus music and belly dancing stuff in addition to his own personal electronic flava. If you check out his myspace, there's a video of Zoey Jakes performing to one of his sets. She was there with him, spinning during his set Saturday, and they put on the horse and polar bear masks and got silly with it while us dancers freaked out. A cool girl gave me a peacock feather fan to dance with, which was fantastic :D

Sunday I cleaned my house, and nabbed PZ and Cyndi and we picked up our friend Nick's pitbull, Sunny, and took Sunny for a hike in Big Basin with a bottle of wine :D It was so beautiful, and I guess there's a certain algae in the water because the creek looks light lime-mossy green. We ate sandwiches from the Boulder Creek New Leaf (local natty food store) and had a great old time. That evening, we had reservations for I Love Sushi's belly dancing performances in the back room--it was PACKED and the performances were mind blowing, I will NEVER be that good or that hot--WOW! makes me want to practice more!!!

And that was my great bunny weekend :D
 
Awwww.....:( it must be horrible watching someone you love suffer. I'm so sorry.
On the other hand, I'm glad you were able to get away and be one with nature on your run! I really miss my runs, and I especially do more, when I hear you talk about them....I just have to wake my ass up early to do them...and yup like you said.....THE COLD kills me!...:willy_nilly:.....

....Glad you had a good time this weekend! :hurray:I love how you meet people everywhere you go! That's exactly how I love to be! There are so many interesting people out there in the world, if we would all only open up enough to say hello to each other, who knows what amazing people we would know by now..... let alone amazing conversations we could ALL have. I think a lot of people on here are definitely the outgoing types though, :D:....call it a hunch with all the "CHOPPING IT UP" we do here....LOL....!!!

...soooo when are you going to youtube yourself belly dancing?!!?...i'm waiting! ......:D:
 
Curvie Girlie said:
I kinda smirked to myself although this was rather awkward with my boyfriend right next to me. Luckily PZ is not immature or wack, so he wasn't trying to ask me what I was texting or anything stupid like that.
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Hold up, wait a minute....

Sorry for my absence in your diary Curvie, I have not read back through your diary yet to pick up where i left off, but I just noticed you called PZ your "boyfriend"? Is this so??
 
Alta818 said:
I really miss my runs, and I especially do more, when I hear you talk about them.
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GET UP AND DO IT!!! It's great! It's been really "hot" for winter in Cali lately. I just went for a run and it was 74 degrees out! Full sun! Amazing :)

Alta818 said:
There are so many interesting people out there in the world, if we would all only open up enough to say hello to each other, who knows what amazing people we would know by now
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True, it's all true! I always open up and say hello, and it got me to all sorts of places and events, with new friends and good time, and yes I also learn A LOT :grouphug:

Alta818 said:
...soooo when are you going to youtube yourself belly dancing?!!?...i'm waiting! ......:D:
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Good lord! :ack2: Not for a LONG time, I suck! The belly dancers at dinner last night made everyone DROOL they were so beautiful and talented and sexy--I have a LONG way to go!
 
LovelyLadyHumps said:
Sorry for my absence in your diary Curvie, I have not read back through your diary yet to pick up where i left off, but I just noticed you called PZ your "boyfriend"? Is this so??
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:) Yes, I decided on NYE in the car ride to SF that PZ is my boyfriend. However, the L Bomb has not been dropped and I don't have any desire or need for that, currently. I DO like PZ, we have yet to have a fight or be pissy, or even really disagree on anything. This is great, the relationship is happy, fun, and healthy--with no crazy intense emotions. Exactly what I wanted :)
 
Curvie Girlie said:
:) Yes, I decided on NYE in the car ride to SF that PZ is my boyfriend. However, the L Bomb has not been dropped and I don't have any desire or need for that, currently. I DO like PZ, we have yet to have a fight or be pissy, or even really disagree on anything. This is great, the relationship is happy, fun, and healthy--with no crazy intense emotions. Exactly what I wanted :)
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WOW!! That is so fantastic. I'm seriously so happy for you and PZ!! Why is your relationship so healthy and all of mine are like stories out of the Twilight Zone? LOL I've concluded that I may not be able to find Mr. Right on the internet. It's time to go to plan B. Getting myself out there with real people and mingling. I joined the Silicon Valley Triathlon Club and am hoping to meet some hot triathletes this year. Bow chicka wow wow! Now when I get these last 12lbs off the men will not be able to resist my charm or my hot body...then I will have to beat them off with a stick! haha...at least that is what I am telling myself. :)
 
jzthedetermined said:
Glad the "V" and the "J" got together on NYE and decided to be BF/GF!! ;) :D Just wanted to see what all the abbreviations would look like in one sentence! :)
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LOL you are too cute :)

Melissa: I read--that SUCKS. He's obviously still suffering from his divorce, but yeah, after so many months you did the right thing to step back and continue on with your life.
 
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