Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me

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Curvie Girlie said:
Thanks! It was great--I realized I don't really like Lisa as a teacher, so I probably won't be taking her class on Wed--I think I'll start rock climbing instead, then go to Mangala's class at 7:30 on Wednesdays. That seems like a good workout plan! :D
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Indoor rock climbing? I did that at Planet Granite a few years back and really loved it. The only problem was that I had to cut all my nails off super short so I could climb. LOL I don't feel girlie w/out my nails...they are short and neat as a good accountant should have them. :)
Curvie Girlie said:
My skin is mottled because where it peeled, it's bright pink. I look terrible, BUT it'll heel soon and THEN it'll be better. My skin is oily and my pores are large, and they get congested easily. However, I noticed if I eat lots of sugar for long periods of time (like holiday seasons :p), I break out in areas where it's known to break out if your hormones are imbalanced. Sugar fucks with insulin, and that is DEFINITELY a hormone....so even though I know I shouldn't eat a lot of sugar, I overdid it anyway last month and I'm paying for it, now--but it'll get better since I started staying away from sugar, more. Besides, Photoshop is GREAT for breakouts in pictures :D
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My skin has been irritated lately. Usually in the winter I ezcema patches on my face and arms. It's super annoying!! I just went off the pill to and I'm noticing a little more acne. My skin is not too bad but I always fuss with it. I would love to get a peel someday. I want to get together with you in person soon and talk nitty gritty details...pros and cons.
 
Beautiful! Beautiful!!! What would I do without you!!?!?!! You add so much to my life, and ARE ALWAYS there to inspire me and others!! I guess it's one of those mushy days ;)....hehe.....cause I just wanted to tell you that!!! :beating:

...I adore how you are with Chris, and MOST OF ALL, I adoreeee how you are with YOURSELF!!! :drool5: You are the perfect example of how living life for you and only you can bring you CONSTANT HAPPINESS...without expectations...

...I've noticed that's one main key about you...you don't expect anything from anyone or anything & when you receive it makes it that much better..!!! Amazing....how such a simple concept can be so difficult to really MASTER!! :smash:....if we all did this like you...putting out or love in the world with no expectation of RETURN....man...would we all be HAPPY MOFOS!!!

I love ya girl!! I'm glad you are having a blast at yoga and I'm excited for you and your FUC(*N*^%T$*^ SIX PACK you little WITCH!!! :reddevil:!!! Grrrrr.....GET EM GIRL!!! GET EM!!! ;)

.....did you ever find more of your bigger b4 pics?......
 
LovelyLadyHumps said:
Indoor rock climbing? I did that at Planet Granite a few years back and really loved it.

My skin has been irritated lately. Usually in the winter I ezcema patches on my face and arms.
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I'm looking forward to indoor rock climbing--I think by now you may have noticed while I love people and I want everyone to succeed, I ALSO like to keep badass status on my physical activities :cool: So when I get into climbing, I intend to be GOOD after a while--doing the hard shit. It's always the Hard Shit with me, except alcohol ;)

You have some of the nicest skin I've ever seen :eek2:

I get eczema, too--it's so weird. It's lifelong and chronic, but goes dormant for months at a time. Last winter I had it in between my fingers and it cracked and oozed and I had to wear surgical gloves while showering. It was TERRIBLE. I ALWAYS use Swiss Formula non scented hand cream every day and every night because it's like a less greasy Vaseline for hands, and dermatologists give it the thumbs up.
 
Alta818 said:
You add so much to my life, and ARE ALWAYS there to inspire me and others!!
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:eek2: REALLY? That is probably one of the nicest things I've ever been told....you are the same way, you know! You have quite a following on here!! :grouphug: Hey, I'm STOKED that you feel inspired by anything I say, I truly want to help people in SOME way!

Alta818 said:
I adore how you are with Chris, and MOST OF ALL, I adoreeee how you are with YOURSELF!!! :drool5: You are the perfect example of how living life for you and only you can bring you CONSTANT HAPPINESS...without expectations...
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Awwww shucks :eek: Giving is the gift that keeps on giving--and you know what? If it weren't for my wise decision to take time to exercise and do Yoga, I would be overwhelmed by Chris's situation and depressed. Yoga helps center me and repair my emotions after dealing with him--he is in a very very sad place. He is dying. :cry: But I feel similar to the way my hero, Kelly Blaser (one of my Yoga teachers and the one who led the retreat in November), feel about HER line of work: it's draining and frustrating (dealing with his depression, low self esteem, despair, pain, etc.) but I feel privileged to know him and experience this. It gives me a greater appreciation for life and health, LET ME TELL YOU!!!! Here, Kelly's account on her volunteering at a woman's prison:

"I wanted to share some reflections. This facility is maximum security, according to the guard I spoke with today. The feel of the place is pretty dismal- cold and sterile, fluorescent, and stark. Students recount that the place is chronically overcrowded, and there is no personal space whatsoever in the cell block. Evidently the cells are quite large, and many women share each cell. Because all the beds are full, plastic "things that look like boats" have been brought in, and mattresses are lain there. The women have been really pleased that Yoga is offered- they claim that it is completely chaotic there and there is no respite from the echoey din of constant conversation and doors slamming shut. One woman was literally jumping up and down and cheering as she entered class today. She'd just come into the jail and was thrilled to do some Yoga- even though her knee was still very fragile after a series of surgeries. She'd had a car accident that put her 200,000 in debt. She recounted that the vast majority of the women there were in for drug related offenses. In the few cases where there was violence involved in their offense, drugs or alcohol were also involved. This was not the least bit surprising to me, considering the women I've worked with at other facilities. Addiction, as we all know, runs rampant in this culture. While I've known all this intellectually, this work is again putting me in touch with how precious the practice of Yoga is- the way that it brings me into the core of my body, my visceral experience of the world, and gives me access to a peace that the mind cannot usually conceive of when left to its own devices. I feel very grateful to be able to share this practice with people who clearly are really needing support."

See why I look up to this woman???

Alta818 said:
I've noticed that's one main key about you...you don't expect anything from anyone or anything & when you receive it makes it that much better..!!! Amazing....how such a simple concept can be so difficult to really MASTER!! :smash:....if we all did this like you...putting out or love in the world with no expectation of RETURN....man...would we all be HAPPY MOFOS!!!

I love ya girl!! I'm glad you are having a blast at yoga and I'm excited for you and your FUC(*N*^%T$*^ SIX PACK you little WITCH!!! :reddevil:!!! Grrrrr.....GET EM GIRL!!! GET EM!!! ;)
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I am a happy MOFO! LOL! And I wasn't always this way ;) The selfish, self-centered ex boyfriend taught me A LOT about having zero expectations, heh.

Love you too!!! You keep working on you, and get a six pack, too!!

Alta818 said:
did you ever find more of your bigger b4 pics?......
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Only the ones in my thread on the before and after: http://weight-loss.fitness.com/before-after-between/10851-curvie-girlie-158-138-lbs-8.html#post543914
 
Hey Val :)

Sounds like your doing well, really well on your diet and yoga, and running lately. PZ definitely sounds like a gem and I bet your a really cute couple.

I'm very sorry to hear about Chris. That really sucks and your doing a great thing by being around him and comforting him (or trying to) in his great time of need. I don't know exactly what to say and I don't want to say anything stupid but I do send you and him my love. It has got to be very tough.

Red wine red wine. I had a nice glass of Shiraz the other night before bed and fell asleep to an episode of Golden Girls lol.... Take a look at this, it's pretty funny, at least to me:


Cool Deals! Thats awesome you have your uncle in your life and he likes to help you out. I have an aunt like that who is really sweet and like so help me when she can because she knows I sometimes "struggle", especially getting ready for school.

Your doing amazing, as usual, and I completely agree with Alta on how inspiring you are ;)

Take Care,
Sam
 
sammyboy24 said:
I don't know exactly what to say and I don't want to say anything stupid but I do send you and him my love. It has got to be very tough.
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Awww nothing really is stupid in this kind of situation, it's impossible to solve and it's especially hard because he keeps vacillating on whether or not to get the transplant, and I never know if he's working on the logistics or not. Thanks for the well wishing!

sammyboy24 said:
I had a nice glass of Shiraz the other night before bed and fell asleep to an episode of Golden Girls lol.... Take a look at this, it's pretty funny, at least to me:
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HAHA! Classic Sammy! ;) Those phone calls were pretty funny, I liked the crazy lady with the dogs.

sammyboy24 said:
Your doing amazing, as usual, and I completely agree with Alta on how inspiring you are
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Thank you Sam, and you too! You make me "miss school"--LOL! Kinda, really....

HUGS!
 
Word up!

I ran for 47 minutes on the beach today! :biggrinjester: It was fun and it felt great; there were stupid surfers out--the weather was lovely but there wasn't no fuckin WAVES, Stoners! :sifone: :rolleyes: Anyway, I plan on Yoga at 7:30 but for once there is a gap from 5 to 7:30 where I can run a bunch of errands I haven't made time for all week--YES! SO far I'm only at 1100 calories and I feel fine about that, so I can have a big dinner if I want to and still be in my range! :party:

I stopped getting pedicures for the time being. To save money and to give my toenails a rest--the left big toenail is discolored, yuck! :ack2:

My cat was cuddly again yesterday :beating: I'd left the window open for him to go outside, and when I came home last night I made sure to hug him and talk to him first thing. I'm glad I wasn't shunned again! That was wack :p

Great news, Jade (local choreographer, younger than me!) got back to me on the dance workshops--THIS SUNDAY I'LL BE A HIP-HOPPING BUNNY! :D

Put in the work to make your body jerk!

{HIP-HOP TECH/THE BASICS OF BREAK}
4pm-5pm [1/18/09] Dress: Comfortable

In this class - we will cover the fundamentals of Hip-Hop Dance! Learn the skills needed to properly execute popping and waving. Learn basic break theory and string together these elements to create a short piece of technical choreography featuring freezes, footwork and much much more! Class will include a dynamic stretch, body sculpting/aerobic workout, isolatory movement training and choreographic breakdown. Sure to leave you with strong foundational skills needed to build your own routines AND the confidence to explore your breaker steez! Get on the floor!​

I'm so thrilled :party: ALSO on Sunday is belly dancing during dinner at the Cypress and my teacher's performing! :party: Ah, combine that with the dance/circus event Fused on Friday, and this is going to be a great weekend..........

cept I can't drink and that's fine, but Saturday is the giant party all day at the winery and I'm working 6.5 to 7 hours instead of 5 as usual.....UGH! I'll be Ok though!
 
I'm tired just reading about your schedule, Val :D

It's just non-stop with you!

I used to get eczema as a kid, and the only time I've had it since was during a really cold, dry winter. I had low grade eczema all over my freaking body. I had to go on prednisone for a week in order to settle it down :p

I've got shit skin on my face, but since I started using the Arbonne skin line for zits, it's really settled down.

I can't do peels because my skin is just too sensitive. I'm hoping that once I've finished menopause, my skin will go back to the way it was before I became an adult -- perfect ;)

Val, a few of your posts have talked about Chris, but I don't know the whole story here ... but I really feel for the situation here. Would you mind pointing me in the right direction so I can figure out the dynamics of the situation so I don't sound like a moron?
 
I_love_muscle said:
Val, a few of your posts have talked about Chris, but I don't know the whole story here ... but I really feel for the situation here. Would you mind pointing me in the right direction so I can figure out the dynamics of the situation so I don't sound like a moron?
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Yes, I'll get you the whole story--I have it somewhere *rummaging* It might take a while!
 
Curvie Girlie said:
WHEW! That took a while, and I was actually on the phone with Chris just now--I told him to call me if he needed motivation to get off the couch.

http://weight-loss.fitness.com/weight-loss-diary/18992-curvie-girlie-diary-mind-playin-tricks-me-146.html#post529562
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OMG, Val ... that story is so tragic :( It really made me cry.

That being said, you've confirmed to me once again that you are, in fact, an angel :Angel_anim:

I just luv you, girl! You are an inspiration to all about what kindness and empathy can achieve.
 
Aww, thank you Maureen! :hug2: I'm pretty emotionally stable, but I have a tendency to get sucked into empathy and compassion for other people when I get to know them or hear their sob stories. Chris and I, though, were casual buddies for a while before we got closer.
 
Ya, Val is good people.

Chris is lucky to have her.

From what I know of Chris though, Val is lucky to have him too.
 
Hiya Steve! :waving:

Fuck yeah, we're lucky to have each other.

I'm not sacrificing much. I'm so glad to have met him and to know him, it's an honor and a privilege. I do what I can to help him through his mental problems. Currently he's adjusting to not having and getting back on Haldol, and that is FUCKING him up--it's heartbreaking (that's an antipsychotic by the way).
 
Glad your run was great! I wish i could go run outside, I really think I would. It's still cold as witch titties here and I'm a wuss... Itll warm up here in a couple months tho.

I've actually been pretty lucky as far as skin goes. My bros have suffered from acne and it's affects much greater than I have. Me being me though I think I take better care of my skin than they do, they are always borrowing my stuff...

Your weekend sounds hella busy and crazy! Fun though. Mine is busy too, just in a different way :) Tomorrow night I'm going out to celebrate my friend finally graduating hairschool... It's at this bar I'm not thrilled about because the last time I was there major drama arose and I got way too drunk... It was embarrassing and I'm just hoping that certain people aren't there because i'm still too embarrassed to see them... Wadaya do? :blush5:

Glad you liked the prank phone calls... For some reason they always make me laugh and cheer me up, lol... I guess it's the juvenile I still have in me, hehe.

Hope everything goes better for Chris. Getting on and off of anti-psychotics has got to be a nightmare. My love to him.

-Sam
 
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