Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me
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Anke! Hey girl, how are ya? Guess I'll go check....
Claudia: Yes, Chris was even worse last night. I stopped by and he was slumped over, drenched in sweat. His parents, I guess, have their own problems or something, or they're used to his insulin attacks because they were there but not helping him. I guess there was nothing they could do. I encouraged him to take off his shirt and boots and take his blood sugar (which was low, for him) and eat some glucose to get it back up. He was disoriented and apologizing for "being like this." It's so sad the way he blames himself, won't admit how sick he is (he admitted THAT last night) and gets so cripplingly depressed about it all. Still, all I can do is be there for him. He perked WAY up after a while and we chatted and he fed me dinner, which wasn't healthy but it was low cal--a tilapia fillet and half a personal pizza (frozen food). I know, I know--but it saves me money and Chris acts like he's happy to help me, because I help him, too.
Breaking News:
My poor boyfriend texted me--he's SICK WITH FOOD POISONING!!
Awwww poor thing, that's bloody awful!!! He got it eating out at a Mexican restaurant (or maybe takeout, he didn't clarify). I asked him if he needed anything and he said "no thnx". Poor guy must be miserable! I hope he feels better soon. My face is peeling and I still feel freakish and sheepish about him seeing me like this, but it seems like he doesn't need me over tonight, so that's cool. I plan on going to Chris's AGAIN because I don't like how shitty he's doing lately. I know he's suffering, but I'm selfish and want him in my life! 
A few days ago I emailed my rich Uncle Lou in L.A. to give him pictures, tell him how I'm doing and what I'm up to. He's my mom's sister's boyfriend and I mentioned him a while back in my diary--he's an ARIES and super cool and intelligent. He treats my aunt like solid gold and loves my family. He's a short, stout, with a dark beard and very Spanish looking, Old Money; his family owns land in Mexico and he currently grows agave for tequila production (although he works or manages a credit union). Anyway, he's been VERY generous to me because he likes me a lot and thinks I deserve it or something
Well, I mentioned my climbing membership and he emailed me saying he sent me a significant sum or money to aid me in gear!!! So I can pay Chris back and get myself a pair of shoes! How SWEET of him! 
My Update
Yesterday I stayed in my range, but still at the high end
At this rate, I'll lose weight, but very very slowly--however, last night and this morning I started my period a couple days early. This makes sense because PMS for me usually is only really bad the 2 days before Day 1 and this is all congruent with how I was feeling, heh heh 
The face peel doesn't help....ANYWAY....what this means is my appetite should decrease and it'll be easier to diet until next Luteal Phase.
Last night in belly dancing, I did better than ever and felt really confident about my skills as a beginner!
My teacher even noticed! Zoey Jakes and Tamara Nelson truly inspired me on Sunday. I'll never be as good as them, but I definitely want to LEARN and be as good as I can be!
Dominatrix Delena (my Mon-Tu-Thu Yoga instructor) is out of the country right now, so we had a sub, Melanie. She was good, I liked her series and she taught us a new "dance" that's ancient and mimics Shiva, and one is supposed to do it with oil lamps--it was trippy!
I didn't get good sleep last night for no apparent reason, and my cat SHUNNED me--oddly. The other night he was lovey-dovey. Must be mad at me Hmph!
Ok that's all for now. HUGS!
Claudia: Yes, Chris was even worse last night. I stopped by and he was slumped over, drenched in sweat. His parents, I guess, have their own problems or something, or they're used to his insulin attacks because they were there but not helping him. I guess there was nothing they could do. I encouraged him to take off his shirt and boots and take his blood sugar (which was low, for him) and eat some glucose to get it back up. He was disoriented and apologizing for "being like this." It's so sad the way he blames himself, won't admit how sick he is (he admitted THAT last night) and gets so cripplingly depressed about it all. Still, all I can do is be there for him. He perked WAY up after a while and we chatted and he fed me dinner, which wasn't healthy but it was low cal--a tilapia fillet and half a personal pizza (frozen food). I know, I know--but it saves me money and Chris acts like he's happy to help me, because I help him, too.
Breaking News:
My poor boyfriend texted me--he's SICK WITH FOOD POISONING!!
Awwww poor thing, that's bloody awful!!! He got it eating out at a Mexican restaurant (or maybe takeout, he didn't clarify). I asked him if he needed anything and he said "no thnx". Poor guy must be miserable! I hope he feels better soon. My face is peeling and I still feel freakish and sheepish about him seeing me like this, but it seems like he doesn't need me over tonight, so that's cool. I plan on going to Chris's AGAIN because I don't like how shitty he's doing lately. I know he's suffering, but I'm selfish and want him in my life! A few days ago I emailed my rich Uncle Lou in L.A. to give him pictures, tell him how I'm doing and what I'm up to. He's my mom's sister's boyfriend and I mentioned him a while back in my diary--he's an ARIES and super cool and intelligent. He treats my aunt like solid gold and loves my family. He's a short, stout, with a dark beard and very Spanish looking, Old Money; his family owns land in Mexico and he currently grows agave for tequila production (although he works or manages a credit union). Anyway, he's been VERY generous to me because he likes me a lot and thinks I deserve it or something
Well, I mentioned my climbing membership and he emailed me saying he sent me a significant sum or money to aid me in gear!!! So I can pay Chris back and get myself a pair of shoes! How SWEET of him! My Update
Yesterday I stayed in my range, but still at the high end
At this rate, I'll lose weight, but very very slowly--however, last night and this morning I started my period a couple days early. This makes sense because PMS for me usually is only really bad the 2 days before Day 1 and this is all congruent with how I was feeling, heh heh The face peel doesn't help....ANYWAY....what this means is my appetite should decrease and it'll be easier to diet until next Luteal Phase. Last night in belly dancing, I did better than ever and felt really confident about my skills as a beginner!
My teacher even noticed! Zoey Jakes and Tamara Nelson truly inspired me on Sunday. I'll never be as good as them, but I definitely want to LEARN and be as good as I can be!Dominatrix Delena (my Mon-Tu-Thu Yoga instructor) is out of the country right now, so we had a sub, Melanie. She was good, I liked her series and she taught us a new "dance" that's ancient and mimics Shiva, and one is supposed to do it with oil lamps--it was trippy!
I didn't get good sleep last night for no apparent reason, and my cat SHUNNED me--oddly. The other night he was lovey-dovey. Must be mad at me
Hmph!Ok that's all for now. HUGS!
DCarr10760
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Hi Val,
Don't worry about your cat- they're very fickle in their affection. Mine becomes lovey-dovey on her own schedule and it rarely coincides with my free-time when some focused kitty attention would be most welcome.
Life's just like that.
David
Losing weight verrrrry slowly.
Don't worry about your cat- they're very fickle in their affection. Mine becomes lovey-dovey on her own schedule and it rarely coincides with my free-time when some focused kitty attention would be most welcome.
Life's just like that.
David
Losing weight verrrrry slowly.
Curvie Girlie
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Hey David, how are you????
DCarr10760
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I'm good (at long last) it's been a tough couple of years for me for a lot of reasons but things're looking up. I fell off of the weight barge a bunch of times, did some soul searching (and found I do have one ). Now I'm ready to lose weight and become healthy for the right reasons (so I can really enjoy life).
But I am taking it slowly. I'm so obsessive about things I'm trying to just balance everything and make slow steady progress.
I'll read through your diary, but I'm glad to see you here and doing well!
David
). Now I'm ready to lose weight and become healthy for the right reasons (so I can really enjoy life). But I am taking it slowly. I'm so obsessive about things I'm trying to just balance everything and make slow steady progress.
I'll read through your diary, but I'm glad to see you here and doing well!
David
Curvie Girlie
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I started a 30 days dry challenge for me, Alta and Melissa (at the least)!! It ends the day before Valentine's day, YAY!
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/club-challenges/27462-30-days-dry-support-thread.html#post552086
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/club-challenges/27462-30-days-dry-support-thread.html#post552086
Curvie Girlie
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I spent the latter part of this afternoon fighting the urge to snack. And succeeded! I drank water and green tea instead, I have this organic green tea with toasted rice, so it tastes like the tea they serve at Japanese restaurants--what, Japanese Genmaicha? Anyway I like it, and it's different from my usual (Jasmine green tea).
I have not eaten chocolate today!
I'm still tired and cranky, but cramps don't usually set in until Day 2....so that's tomorrow, heh
Soup for lunch is a good deal for me. I had butternut squash today and it was only 200 calories for the whole damn can, which I had with a cup of lowfat cottage cheese and some crackers--I don't really feel comfortable eating dairy products, but I heard good things about low fat dairy (I buy organic of course) in the ways of vitamin D and calcium, also when it comes to weight loss and satiety. Whatever, it seems to work for me. If I have a 500 calorie dinner, I'll be right around 1800 calories, and THAT is a true diet day for me I estimated that I've been eating about 2400-3200 calories per day, most days of December and the early part of January....and I didn't gain weight. This is astounding! The only thing I can think of is that my workouts are good, and the Yoga is REALLY maintaining lean mass, which apparently needs lots of calories to maintain. This morning, my belly looked very flat and I could see muscles underneath--as I have seen for a while now. In belly dancing class I can see a six-pack peeking through, but mainly on the upper abdominals....I'll have to get Chris to take some shots of me in my costume--it's been TOO LONG, right???
Today I'm not allowed to sweat excessively (2 days after this face peel I can't) so I decided yesterday that I'd take TWO YOGA CLASSES IN A ROW tonight. Lisa's class from 5:45 to 7pm, and Mangala's class from 7:30-8:45 (although it usually runs til 9pm because she lets us stay in Shavasana for a long time). Lisa's classes start you out lying down all comfy, torso bolstered, and her style is slow, and holding poses for a long time. Mangala's style includes Moon Salutations, which are interesting and feel good. Neither of them make you do a rigorous workout like Delena, but I enjoy ALL my teachers at the Institute.
I just talked to Chris and he seems in good spirits today He's taking me out for Thai food tonight at 9 after Yoga What a sweetie! He's also picking me up a battery for my scale because I mentioned it last night. Awwww 
I hope my cat doesn't shun me tonight. That actually hurt my feelings! He almost NEVER acts like that
I drank water and green tea instead, I have this organic green tea with toasted rice, so it tastes like the tea they serve at Japanese restaurants--what, Japanese Genmaicha? Anyway I like it, and it's different from my usual (Jasmine green tea).I have not eaten chocolate today!
I'm still tired and cranky, but cramps don't usually set in until Day 2....so that's tomorrow, heh
Soup for lunch is a good deal for me. I had butternut squash today and it was only 200 calories for the whole damn can, which I had with a cup of lowfat cottage cheese and some crackers--I don't really feel comfortable eating dairy products, but I heard good things about low fat dairy (I buy organic of course) in the ways of vitamin D and calcium, also when it comes to weight loss and satiety. Whatever, it seems to work for me. If I have a 500 calorie dinner, I'll be right around 1800 calories, and THAT is a true diet day for me
I estimated that I've been eating about 2400-3200 calories per day, most days of December and the early part of January....and I didn't gain weight. This is astounding! The only thing I can think of is that my workouts are good, and the Yoga is REALLY maintaining lean mass, which apparently needs lots of calories to maintain. This morning, my belly looked very flat and I could see muscles underneath--as I have seen for a while now. In belly dancing class I can see a six-pack peeking through, but mainly on the upper abdominals....I'll have to get Chris to take some shots of me in my costume--it's been TOO LONG, right???Today I'm not allowed to sweat excessively (2 days after this face peel I can't) so I decided yesterday that I'd take TWO YOGA CLASSES IN A ROW tonight. Lisa's class from 5:45 to 7pm, and Mangala's class from 7:30-8:45 (although it usually runs til 9pm because she lets us stay in Shavasana for a long time). Lisa's classes start you out lying down all comfy, torso bolstered, and her style is slow, and holding poses for a long time. Mangala's style includes Moon Salutations, which are interesting and feel good. Neither of them make you do a rigorous workout like Delena, but I enjoy ALL my teachers at the Institute.
I just talked to Chris and he seems in good spirits today
He's taking me out for Thai food tonight at 9 after Yoga What a sweetie! He's also picking me up a battery for my scale because I mentioned it last night. Awwww I hope my cat doesn't shun me tonight. That actually hurt my feelings! He almost NEVER acts like that
12packAbs
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We need pics! You can't be having abs showing through and not sharing with everyone!
Curvie Girlie
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My dear, there are SO MANY picture attachments in this diary! I think they're sorted alphabetically but I'm pretty sure I stuck a close up of my abs from last summer that is true to life currently--check it!
Curvie Girlie
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It's "Abs.jpg"
Ugh, pink panties!
Ugh, pink panties!
LovelyLadyHumps
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Good job on passing on the snacking!! I'm so proud of ya!! Do you really notice the benefits of the tea drinking? Hum...someday if someone can convince me I might try it.
2 sessions of yoga? You are hard core!! Good job! How did the peel turn out? Are you looking smooth and beautiful as usual?
Thai with Chris sounds delicious. My mouth is already watering thinking about pad thai...yum. I need to think about what I want for dinner tonight. Need to eat well.
2 sessions of yoga? You are hard core!! Good job! How did the peel turn out? Are you looking smooth and beautiful as usual?
Thai with Chris sounds delicious. My mouth is already watering thinking about pad thai...yum. I need to think about what I want for dinner tonight. Need to eat well.
jzthedetermined
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Good to hear Chris is feeling better! Way to avoid the munchies... maybe it would help if you stayed away from the HOOKA!!
Have a good Yoga session, remember...
"Yoga does a Bunny good".
Have a good Yoga session, remember...
"Yoga does a Bunny good".
Happychubette
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Hi Val, I read the entire thread of your 30 day challenge. Good suggestion. Before Christmas I was drinking 1-2 glasses of red wine a day but have decided I can live without it now so once I decide that I don't really miss it but Valentine's Day sounds like a good idea to indulge! Lucky you've got a boyfriend to indulge with...
hey there yoga queen i'm sick but because of you i was still doing yoga and it helped. made me feel waay better.
i also love teas...have bunch of different varieties at home...all herbal ones work for me, green tea, mint tea, some plants i don't know english word for it lol. but they always calm me down and i feel refreshed after having them. coffee does not do that for me lol...although i love coffee
glad to hear Chris is better and more positive today. i hope the good mood stays a bit longer hope you enjoyed the dinner.
a big hug to you
Lena
i'm sick but because of you i was still doing yoga and it helped. made me feel waay better. i also love teas...have bunch of different varieties at home...all herbal ones work for me, green tea, mint tea, some plants i don't know english word for it lol. but they always calm me down and i feel refreshed after having them. coffee does not do that for me lol...although i love coffee
glad to hear Chris is better and more positive today. i hope the good mood stays a bit longer
hope you enjoyed the dinner.a big hug to you
Lena
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I'm sure they are for some people--my abs are different. The lower part is VERY lean and the the muscle of my hips show quite nicely
The upper abs are showing part of my six pack--it's the lower-MIDDLE part where I have bunny chub--I consider myself lucky because that part looks fine when I'm standing up straight Could be worse!Thank you!!!
It was hard for a few hours, then I noticed, hey it's time to leave work, I made it!!! I don't know if tea "speeds my metabolism" or anything, but I DO know it's good for me, low calorie (if I don't overdo it with the agave), and yes it DOES divert my snacking.Thanks! It was great--I realized I don't really like Lisa as a teacher, so I probably won't be taking her class on Wed--I think I'll start rock climbing instead, then go to Mangala's class at 7:30 on Wednesdays. That seems like a good workout plan!
My skin is mottled because where it peeled, it's bright pink. I look terrible, BUT it'll heel soon and THEN it'll be better. My skin is oily and my pores are large, and they get congested easily. However, I noticed if I eat lots of sugar for long periods of time (like holiday seasons ), I break out in areas where it's known to break out if your hormones are imbalanced. Sugar fucks with insulin, and that is DEFINITELY a hormone....so even though I know I shouldn't eat a lot of sugar, I overdid it anyway last month and I'm paying for it, now--but it'll get better since I started staying away from sugar, more. Besides, Photoshop is GREAT for breakouts in pictures LOL, Hookahs tend to have flavored tobacco and I HATE them.
Chris is NOT doing better, last night he was very confused, disoriented, in pain, repeating himself, and telling me that he's getting worse and he thinks he doesn't have a lot of time
I just said what I could, he said I help him more than he can show properly. I almost burst into tears on the drive home thinking about life without him, but you know, that's LIFE, so.......whatever.Curvie Girlie
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Hey thanks!
I've stayed in the "fit" 140s (BMI of 23.2 to 22.7) since about June, now--and am very proud of myself for not yo-yoing much at all. I heard it's really healthy not to gain or lose much more than 5 pounds over long periods of time--better for hormones and to stave off disease, blah blah blah. I'm TRYING!HEY--Drinking 1-2 glasses of red wine a day is VERY healthy for a person--I'm serious! HOWEVER, the glass SIZE should only be 4 oz..and you know you can actually fit AN ENTIRE BOTTLE OF WINE into a proper Pinot Noir glass???? Yeah. And actually there's evidence that red wine aids weight loss.....but it could be a wack study, I dunno. When it comes to dieting, though, it's better to use your calories wisely--and if getting buzzed makes you eat more.... And yes, I'm VERY lucky and glad to have a boyfriend for this V-Day--should be great!
hey there yoga queen
a big hug to you
Lena
Damn, Lena, that's one of the nicest asses I've ever seen!! I'm really glad I can help someone. I try, and you all help me immensely!!! I'd be so bored at work! 
I still luv ya too, Karl! No worries, you keep tearing shit up with your crazy workouts!!!
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