Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me

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lena410 said:
hehe lets just say that you and peezey are definitely on the way to completely fall in love :D
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Hmm, a word on this! :dupe: Where I truly like this guy, and we have fun and it feels great to cuddle up, I'm the type that believes that true love come gradually. Sure, we know when we love a friend right from the start and they are a friend for life, of course! But in the past, falling head over heels full force into a relationship was not really such a great idea, and I suppose I have become more guarded in my old age, especially after having my heart broken more than once by the same dude, and needing lots of time to heal and become whole again.

In all honesty, I am truly enjoying my independence with no real "boyfriend" and doing everything and whatever I want without constantly thinking about someone else. This is not selfishness at all; this is pure self-love at its finest! Of course my actions are somewhat governed by my love for friends, family, and intimate partners--but there was a time where Said Boyfriend always came first, and I'd freak out if I didn't likewise come first, for him. My thoughts on this, now? FUCK THAT. :spam:

In addition, a man would truly have to be a damn guru, an athlete and a talented artist all at once to intrigue me to the point of falling in love at this point. So far, P actually told me "sorry to sound too cheesy, but you inspire me."

I blushed and squirmed and thanked him because I know that it is better to accept a compliment even when you think it's laid on rather thick. And I could tell he was speaking from the heart. P is SUPER honest and SUPER real with me, which is pretty much all I will take from someone these days. I don't despise fake people, but rather I feel bad that they obviously have inner pain that's blocking REALness. Being terribly honest is dangerous but if you do it without fear, people actually start to recognize that it's a valuable trait in a person--fuck and I learned my lesson! Honesty is the best policy, sorry to say :D
 
My belly dancing teacher conveniently is having a sub this evening, the same evening I decided to kickbox instead of belly dance because my cardio is in a SAD STATE and I'm feeling hyphy and want 2 days of kickboxing because I have a feeling I won't be getting any running in this weekend. It's kinda COLD around here! :ack2: :santa:

I have not ran in WEEKS :( Seriously though, I can use the excuse "season is over" and take a look: In 2008 I ran a bunch of races:

ING Bay to Breakers 7.4 miles across San Francisco
Aptos Woman's Five Miler
Run San Ramon 4th of July 5K (3.2 miles)
Santa Cruz Mountains trail race 10K (6.2 miles)
San Jose Rock N' Roll half marathon (13.1 miles)
Run to Feed the Hungry Thanksgiving Day Sacramento 10K (6.2)

Not fucking bad, eh? I been ALL OVER the area! :eek: I think that taking some time off running isn't HORRIBLE, and I must say this year I have participated in more races than any other year of my life!

However, despite this, I noticed I have been replacing cardio with YOGA in a MAJOR way, and this needs to stop. I haven't been going on my lunchtime 40 minute runs on the beach like I was all summer--probably because I have been coming to work at 8:30 instead of 8, giving myself a half hour lunch instead and sleeping a bit later. Considering it is winter, this makes sense. And at 5 after work, it is far too cold and dark to trail run. I don't do night running. I have before, but I won't anymore. I don't like it, I can't safely listen to tunes and feel comfy.

So tonight is Kickboxing, Yoga, then meeting Chris (it's been a while since we hung out) at a pizza and wine bar to listen to some local DJs spin--some of the ones who I continually see at all the parties I go to, AND the one I saw on Saturday. By the way, if you want to know what Mala sounds like, I drew the closest representation I could ;):
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Hmm, no I'm not saying that--but I AM saying I certainly won't be "won over" in just 10 days of knowing him, c'mon!!! :rolleyes:
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Haha, good point. So much has happened already with him it seems like much longer than 10 days!! LOL

Sounds like you have some fun plans tonight!! I'm going to meet some friends at a bar for Trivia night. I suck at trivia but am going to go and socialize.
 
Curvie Girlie said:
I'm the type that believes that true love come gradually.
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:iagree: Smart Bunny!!! And I learned that one the hard way too.

I've known my husband since Jr. High... only I didn't really like him then, or through High School. We had an art class together, and once he decided it would be fun to grab my ass when I was bent over at a table talking to a classmate about a project. Since I wasn't overly fond of him at the time, I reacted in the only way that type of manhandling deserves. I punched him. Hard. :boxing: Funny, he got into trouble, I didn't.

It wasn't until several years later when our paths crossed again that I actually became friends with the guy, then we started dating... the rest is history.

and he STILL grabs my ass. But now I grab back. :reddevil:
 
Phoenyx said:
I've known my husband since Jr. High... only I didn't really like him then, or through High School. We had an art class together, and once he decided it would be fun to grab my ass when I was bent over at a table talking to a classmate about a project. Since I wasn't overly fond of him at the time, I reacted in the only way that type of manhandling deserves. I punched him. Hard. :boxing: Funny, he got into trouble, I didn't.
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Funny shit!

I picked up my future wife in the taxi the day I met her. I chatted her up the whole way. Not a word from her...
When I dropped her off she looked at me, paid straight fare and told me that my tip was being allowed to speak to her...

I decided I needed to be with this woman... she didn't take shit from anyone... my kinda girl. That was 1986, I love her more now than ever.


Specially since she talks to me now;)
 
Curvie Girlie said:
I'm the type that believes that true love come gradually.

In all honesty, I am truly enjoying my independence with no real "boyfriend" and doing everything and whatever I want without constantly thinking about someone else. always came first, and I'd freak out if I didn't likewise come first, for him. My thoughts on this, now? FUCK THAT. :spam:

Honesty is the best policy, sorry to say :D
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i do believe the same. first comes infatuation...which can or can't grow into something more meaningful..and if it does it can become incredibly beautiful and then even more and more beautiful :D

and i think the best way to function in or out of a relationship is loving yourself first (even though i sometimes forget it when it comes to food lol). because only then you'll be able to love someone else. i see love as a partnership and i were to draw it it would look like two circles overlapping for about a 1/3. the 2/3 which are not overlapping would represent our own pasdt, our interests, dreams, desires, worlds, friends etc. The overlapping 1/3 is something we have and are building on together. i don't have to know or enter all of his world or he has to do the same with me. hell i don't think i would even want that. once i realized that and applied it to my relationship with my bf it all became great :D however i have to say i sometimes miss my complete independence ( hell i'm ina relationship for the past 8 lol) ...had some very good times :sifone:

as for honesty...i always had great love and appreciation for honest and blunt people :D

Curvie Girlie said:
Hmm, no I'm not saying that--but I AM saying I certainly won't be "won over" in just 10 days of knowing him, c'mon!!! :rolleyes:
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but it's sure fun watching you enjoy it :D
 
reluctantcabbie said:
Funny shit!

I picked up my future wife in the taxi the day I met her. I chatted her up the whole way. Not a word from her...
When I dropped her off she looked at me, paid straight fare and told me that my tip was being allowed to speak to her...

I decided I needed to be with this woman... she didn't take shit from anyone... my kinda girl. That was 1986, I love her more now than ever.


Specially since she talks to me now;)
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hehe that is so cute :beating:
 
I like the sound of the salt scrubs, it's like a natural way of doing micro dermabraison.

Ah the petals, that just makes the whole experience even more fantastic. Cute!
 
M: I'm gonna check and see how trivia went for ya ;)

P: That is fascinating! I sure do love romantic stories :beating:

Alta: Hey baby! :hug2:

Karl: Gawd how did you ever find her again after that first ride with her being so stand-offish?

Lena: Word to the muthafucker! :hurray::iagree:

M2: Totally, I used my salt scrubs on my legs this morning in the shower--my leg skin gets pretty dry sometimes :ack2:
 
Damn!

SO I met up with Chris at the pizza/wine bar where some local DJs were spinning Dubstep, and it turned out HELLA HEADS that I see at every Dubstep event or party I go to were there, with the exception of LB, my girl, but her compadre Rastatronics was there and I chatted it up with a bunch of the people I already knew, AND met some new people. One girl operates a hip hop/breakdancing studio at affordable rates out of this giant, famous party house in Soquel, and
I am STOKED on taking lessons, OH GAWD! :svengo: :party: :biggrinjester: :hurray: :cheers2:​

Seriously I have been wanting to take hip hop dance for YEARS and I always have tried my best to mimic what I see, but alas, I know I need lessons.

I used to NEVER dance. Dancing has recently become really important to me, and I'm excited also about taking Crytal Silmi's () 7 Week Beginner Bellydance Intensive course starting March 2nd, and Cyndi is gonna do it with me. Basically, I'm going to be all over the place with dance and Yoga--Acroyoga and rock climbing as well. I have my gift requests in with my loved ones, it's working!

I also met a funky-fresh kid who goes by Liquid Chicken because he sort of dances in that way. He's got STYLE, y'all! :hurray: I was chatting it up with him (he's really friendly) and he has a girl friend who is a b-girl AND she belly dances, and sometimes they are a street act in downtown Santa Cruz and make $30-40 and hour (he drums, she dances). He asked if I was down for that and I was like HELL YEAH.

Chris also had a good time talking with a few people, and I figure we'll be doing this every Tuesday, no doubt. Basically, last night I networked more with the party kids/musicians/dancers/artists who are all part of that large Burning Man camp to which Cyndi and I will be with next September. Word, my life just gets better and better, AH!!!! :coolgleamA:

However, I ate too much delicious Greek artisan pizza (the pizza is TOP NOTCH there) and drank 2 beers, and my weight is back up to 144.5 this morning. However, I wore myself out with kickboxing, so that in Yoga my legs were trembling and I had a difficult time staying up in some of the standing poses. All in all I enjoyed my practice and my body, I swear, is still looking damn good. I owe it to Yoga, no doubt, it DOES re-comp your body in an excellent way, WOW!
 
Awesome tale Val. :)

Dancing is awesome. It's something I wish I had the time to learn to do better. It's admirable that you're into it and looking to improve.

And that's great that Chris is getting out and about meeting new people.
 
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