Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me

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Yeah, midnights till Friday. I got called in for a double last night, so I'm dragging right now. I usually can't get on line at this time, but tonight I can, so I did.
 
Trops: I am sooooo trying to stick my head up my ass so to speak! *batting eyelashes*

no really, I was really practicing Tittibhasana D, and yes, that exists, and YES, it's a hilarious name. I got into moderation C tonight, not bad.

But seriously dude. The Yoga hate just doesn't make sense! You're SO smart, and yet you ignorantly discount Yoga? I found it to be beneficial, you think I'm dumb or something? I'll use Barre's favorite quote: "I may be dumb but I'm not Stupid" and you're supposed to deliver that with your tongue in yo cheek.

:p


Quasimoto The Unseen is such a hilarious album. I love the lyrics and the samples. This is underground hip hop, folks!!! Dope as fuck.

I have been emailing the ex's girlfriend, and she's been responding. :rotflmao: I think she's cute, I like her. She told me (after I'd given her a link to my uploaded photos, she's a photography student and I mentioned I like her shit) "god i wish you were ugly." :D I thanked her for the compliment. She asked to use my photos in a school project and I consented. This is weird but OK with me. She tried to talk about the ex once in the beginning and I told her I wanted to talk about her, not HIM. LOL!!! She truly is a talented photographer/editor. Another Leo. I guess the ex has a thing for Leo girls with long straight hair, bigish tits, an assertive mind, and a curvy body....LOL. Anyway she emailed me some of my own photos with her Photoshop work to them--I like em!


Uh, this is weird :ack2:


WHAT THE FUCK EV-ER :newangel:
 
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:smilielol5: Nothing is ever completely normal in your world is it, Val? The ex's ex girlfriend? What's up with that? That's funny shit.

Umm, Val? I don't think Trops discounts yoga... I think he just enjoys the mileage he can get out of poking you with it!

BTW, did you get any sleep last night, darlin'? 'cuz I think I saw new posts on here like every couple of hours and I'm a night shifter!
 
Making friends with the ex's girlfriend. Hmmm, sounds risky assuming you wanted to distance yourself from him.

If not though, then whatever!

Good morning :)
 
Mornin' Curvie... Your world, as always, looks interesting!! I'm gonna have to side with Steve's wisdom here... Distance Bunny, Distance. :)

Trops - Great line about the yoga/polititians head up their asses!!! :smilielol5: :smilielol5:
 
Karl: I went to bed very late and just woke up--I was celebrating the election by doing Yoga and drinking beer at the same times, and having fun emailing the ex's beezy.

From what I gather they are still together, so either he lied to me, or they made up over the weekend. Good for them! Love wins again! :)

Trops:*shirks away from poking*

Steve: Morning! :)

Not making friends, I was having an artistic conversation with her over our photos because we both appreciate aesthetics--yeah maybe I wanted to show off a little, too--and it turned out cool because I got to see her digitally enhance reality in some of my shots.

I don't have to distance myself from the ex--he doesn't call or email me much at all, and one round of emails with his beezy ain't gonna change that. If anything, (AHAHA!) he'll be on his best behavior and stay true to his promises to her not to talk to me :biggrinjester: You see? I'm brilliant! You know girlfriends and boyfriends tell each other everything, most of the time. She'll probably mention that she and I had a friendly correspondence, and he'll inwardly worry that I might say something to her that would get him in trouble! Then the distance will be STRONGER :reddevil:

I didn't feel comfortable that he lied to her on several occasions about communicating with me or seeing me briefly. It's none of my business, really. Still--liar liar! :smash: As they say in South Africa, "Shame." I doubt she and I will ever be "friends" but I have to admit, she's a good artist. *shrugs*

JZ: "MY world"? :Angel_anim:
 
Good Morning Val! Happy Hump Day!!

I chatted with Step about that python and he said he would make on post on one of the herp forums about it. I would assume it would be cheaper to keep the animal in the same general area rather than trying to ship it somewhere... that would be rather expensive and with colder weather around the corner not exactly safe. I'll keep you posted if he gets any replys!!
 
Shaun: Since I became celibate!

Dee: Thank you sweetheart :)

Feel Awful

I'm probably hung over, I drank too much beer last night and ate too little. I stayed up too late and I feel like I have a fever almost starting right now, and didn't get a chance to eat a decent meal all day (just snacks) because I drove to the funeral and back to work. My work is piled up, I'm oddly emotional, and I can't wait for Yoga tonight!!!!!!!!!!! :chillpill:

I had a strange 3 way conversational email with the ex and his girlfriend this morning before I left for the Bay, when I should have been doing Yoga. I don't want to reiterate, let's just say I made his beezy trust me not to "get up on him" and she knows not to worry. I questioned him about weird things that don't add up, but assured him I don't want an answer, I just wanted to vent to him. His answers were lighthearted but weird. I'm starting to get the feeling he's a compulsive liar or something. OH WELL! Not my problem! :waving:

143.0 this morning. If my weight stays under 144 over the next few days I'm going to have to change my CW.
 
Hey! Woah, all that contact with ex plus girlfriend would freak me the F out... guess everyone has their unique set of circumstances though!

Hope you get a great yoga session in tonight, enjoy!
 
Thanks Anke and Karl :grouphug:

142.5 lbs this morning--I couldn't eat very much yesterday as I became very emotional. The funeral for Barre's dad and driving so much took it out of me, and also I had long, continuous emails with the ex where we discussed Our Side Of The Story to each other. Exhausting. FINALLY I got through to him on a few important issues, either that or he just decided to concede and be done with it. It is difficult arguing with a person who is a genius when it comes to arguing. Good thing I'm pretty smart myself. Thanks, Buddha :)

I got a lot off my chest and it was good to do so, but it took a toll on me. I don't remember the last time I cried so much, but it was out of emotional release and relief, and tiredness and being slightly hungover. However, yeah, eating--wasn't appealing in the past 3 days although I don't think I got lower than 1800 cals, I need to go back and check because I abruptly stopped tracking cals a few days ago. Gonna fill in the blanks and continue on--I should be more excited about being inside my goal range but I need to cheer up, first.

I visited the ex-long-term F.B. last night for the first time in months, and it went well. We caught up and I didn't discuss my crappy day with him, I stayed pleasant--he's a very adorable and light hearted fellow so he cheered me up briefly before I went home and was all sad :rotflmao: The hug was very long as I clung to him, and felt good but I kept my pelvis back away from his body. Sinking into a hug is no good when you're trying to stay celibate--we're obviously still attracted to each other. He unconsciously put his hand on my leg when we were sitting next to each other but I didn't do what I always did in the past, and didn't jump into his lap. Sucks because he is, as always, so cute and nice. Nonetheless, I made it home last night :waving: Tough, because, he has, in the past, given me some of the best orgasms of my life :rolleyes:

But I'm not in love with him, so :auto: Bouncity bounce bounce.

Yoga last night was very healing. Mangala, my Wed teacher, gave me a hug after and thanked me for coming--it's a bit odd, but she told me last time I came that I look almost exactly like her old best friend from the East Coast. So I'm like a familiar face to her, when we're actually strangers. Whatever, I was cool with the hug :hug2: I need more hugs lately!

Today I have lots and lots of work to do. I want to check up on everyone but I don't know if I have time--I might attempt some drive bys. Basically, my weight is IN MY GOAL RANGE (Ok I'm lightening up about that), I'm doing well on dieting, but cardio has been a long time coming. Today I kickbox!!! And have Delana's Yoga 2 class, so I should be thoroughly exhausted tonight. YAY! Give me some endorphins, please!
 
Hey Val :)

Good for you for talking things out with the EX... Even getting a lot of what you wanted to say to him off your chest will do wonders for you I bet. Even if he didn't "get" what you were saying or was trying to argue against it, at least you said it and it's out there.

Props to you for staying celibate last night too. Seeing the F.B. would have sent me over the edge... Perhaps because I'm a 25 year old gay man, lol... Your doing awesome!

Sorry to hear about Barre's dad. My condolences.

-Sam
 
Hey Val, I find those ex discussions good on one hand but not so good on the other ya know.I like it when we can be honest with eachother and have good heart to hearts but they are draining as well.The ex and I argue and communicate through text.No arguing through text I find exhausting in all forms!

Glad to see you enjoy the yoga so much,I was doing it forever and then got outta it due to time and energy and focus.I need to start doing it agian.I miss it and reading you talking about it all the time, makes me miss it more.

Im sorry to hear abt the loss you are dealing with.Your in my thoughts!
 
I'm sorry Val, I was reading your last post and had all these wonderful and encouraging thoughts running through my head, but for some reason by the time I got to the end of it, the word orgasms was the only thing left in my brain...

J/K... I'm really glad that you had a good hash out with the ex. Hopefully that resolves things for ya. I also have to give you props for being able to walk away from the FB situation. I have to say, being around the situation, when the only thing stopping you is your own personal motivation, and sticking to your personal choices, shows strength of character.
 
142.5 lbs again this morning :party:

I feel like a slim bunny! :D

Yesterday I got so much work done it was amazing. Last night I had so much fun kickboxing that the hour went by too fast. Yoga was great but we didn't get to do any fun arm balances.

I watched this video about extreme breakdancing and realized that the dancers utilize virtually all the trickier arm balances I can think of, but in motion and much quicker. But yeah, I definitely saw Bakasana, Tittibhasana, Eka Pada Galavasana, Parsva Bakasana, Eka Pada Koundinyasana, and Mayurasana at some point!


Emotional life is much better today--been emailing the ex with random shit, like real friends, now that his girl friend is at ease--sent each other some songs (he sent me a Venetian Snares song, I sent him Andy Pey's "Celestial Blues," very esoteric shit). I'm pleased that I managed to set a few things right in my life that were previously nagging at the back of my brain.

THIS WEEKEND!!! :party:

My homegirl and I are dancing to Dubstep at Cypress, then from there we're off to a Hay Maze party that seems OFF THE HINGES!!!!!
 
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