Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me
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Curvie Girlie
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Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhh Gaaaaaawwwwwwwwwd 
I was minding my own business, owrking, and asking a friend if she wants to go to yoga and my messenger clicked up with an email............
THE EX! "hodwy stranger" as the email title.
My body literally pierced as if I had been stabbed in the chest. Blame it on being a Leo and ruling the heart and spine...........
I feel awful and I have NOT even opened it......
what do I do?
I think I'll finish what I'm working on and do yoga and pranayama THEN maybe open it.....
I was minding my own business, owrking, and asking a friend if she wants to go to yoga and my messenger clicked up with an email............
THE EX! "hodwy stranger" as the email title.
My body literally pierced as if I had been stabbed in the chest. Blame it on being a Leo and ruling the heart and spine...........
I feel awful and I have NOT even opened it......
what do I do?
I think I'll finish what I'm working on and do yoga and pranayama THEN maybe open it.....
Curvie Girlie
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Yeah you are right. I haven't even gone to check mail yet. I have no idea, it could be positive. I WAS interested in being friendly acquaintances with him someday but he's kind of unstable and very changeable (hmm and a smoker and a borderline alcoholic), and I need stable friends in my life.
Hahaha I'm listening to the Bar-Kays "Trippin Out"--wow it's a great song!
Hahaha I'm listening to the Bar-Kays "Trippin Out"--wow it's a great song!
Curvie Girlie
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Thanks my dear sweet Trops 
I opened it. It said "how goes it?"
So I said, "Better than ever!"
and that was that. Oh, here's another one........
"Oh? What's new?"
Hmmmm. I think I'll just tell him whaddup then leave it at that.
I opened it. It said "how goes it?"
So I said, "Better than ever!"
and that was that. Oh, here's another one........
"Oh? What's new?"
Hmmmm. I think I'll just tell him whaddup then leave it at that.
Curvie Girlie
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Well the conversation went fine!
I feel good about answering his questions and being friendly and honest without asking him anything much.
I wrote THIS at the end of my "catch up on my life":
"I reached Enlightenment and am reading a book on the Upanishads to get closer to Nirvana, although pranayama seems to really help with that. Currently I'm working toward levitation."
Which was a joke. I could give two shit about his privacy so here's what he had to say:
"leg is healing, i can walk again thank god. [he had been in a skateboarding accident and cracked his tibia] worried about the country, went out and bought a shitload of silver coins just in case the dollar dies. been doing some off and on programming, going to return to playing polo on sunday. 2 weeks of work got nuked by shitty windows, so im redoing it all. dave came back for a week, but left for vietnam last sunday. he'll be back in october, we're going camping. been watching "Lost" on dvd. had a weird epiphany wherin just thinking that i should go and consult some sort of spiritual guru sent waves of energy and positive confirmation thru my body - it was undeniable that something was trying to tell me something."
Weird comment, but I definitely did not ask him anything about him, actually--he just gave me this. I responded with "I can't figure out if you're doing well or so-so! I'll assume well enough : )" and he answered with "right now, just so-so. more later, busy now. good tlaking to you though, im really glad to hear you're doing well : )" so I thanked him and that was that.
Relief! It's over and I did fine. Haha, and I didn't even ask him anything about himself, not really, which was nice. It saddens me slightly to know he's only so-so, because I want all my friends to be happy and in a great place, but this interaction didn't fuck up my mojo and that was what I was concerned about in the first place. So make that 80%!!!
I feel good about answering his questions and being friendly and honest without asking him anything much.
I wrote THIS at the end of my "catch up on my life":
"I reached Enlightenment and am reading a book on the Upanishads to get closer to Nirvana, although pranayama seems to really help with that. Currently I'm working toward levitation."
Which was a joke. I could give two shit about his privacy so here's what he had to say:
"leg is healing, i can walk again thank god. [he had been in a skateboarding accident and cracked his tibia] worried about the country, went out and bought a shitload of silver coins just in case the dollar dies. been doing some off and on programming, going to return to playing polo on sunday. 2 weeks of work got nuked by shitty windows, so im redoing it all. dave came back for a week, but left for vietnam last sunday. he'll be back in october, we're going camping. been watching "Lost" on dvd. had a weird epiphany wherin just thinking that i should go and consult some sort of spiritual guru sent waves of energy and positive confirmation thru my body - it was undeniable that something was trying to tell me something."
Weird comment, but I definitely did not ask him anything about him, actually--he just gave me this. I responded with "I can't figure out if you're doing well or so-so! I'll assume well enough : )" and he answered with "right now, just so-so. more later, busy now. good tlaking to you though, im really glad to hear you're doing well : )" so I thanked him and that was that.
Relief! It's over and I did fine. Haha, and I didn't even ask him anything about himself, not really, which was nice. It saddens me slightly to know he's only so-so, because I want all my friends to be happy and in a great place, but this interaction didn't fuck up my mojo and that was what I was concerned about in the first place. So make that 80%!!!
bikinibound
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LOL! I'm not a very coordinated dancer. I'm sure I was not nearly as hot as you think.
But I usually managed to pick up guys though, soo it was hot enough. 
Glad to hear you dealt well with the ex, and are very happy with how you are handling life right now. I'm proud of you.
Curvie Girlie
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Common, at least 87 and a half percent.
Sounds good. Like he wanted to get something out of his system, and he did, and didn't suck you back in. Good for you.
Thanks, Trops--yes I'm more confident today that any interaction will be free of bullshit drama on MY part
LOL! I'm not a very coordinated dancer. I'm sure I was not nearly as hot as you think.
Glad to hear you dealt well with the ex, and are very happy with how you are handling life right now. I'm proud of you.
I likewise have bouts of coordination and then lack thereof on the dancefloor. I love to dance, and in the past years have got less concerned about what I look like, and actually everytime I go out dancing at least ONE person remarks on me being "a good dancer"--probably because I let loose and GET LOW. Belly Dancing is definitely going to help my coordination and seductive qualities on the floor. YAY!
Thanks Lady! I'm pleased for the compliment and happy for myself as well!
Curvie Girlie
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Karma is a BITCH
Oh dear--the ex emailed me this morning and I was fairly groaning because I thought--man it's too early for this!!
This is what he had to say:
wonderful. just wrecked my car. things just keep getting better and better : \
Well, I had mixed feelings. In the past he had senselessly and brutally ridiculed my own driving mishaps, as if it couldn't happen to HIM. Also a part of me hasn't completely forgiven him for ruining my 24th and 25th birthdays, and being a total cheapskate and not getting me any gifts for my 25th and 26th (24th he wrote me a really nice poem) whereas I had given him 1. Hang-gliding lesson for his 22rd; 2. "Slave for the day" complete with a home-cooked gourmet meal complete with my first successful attempt at crème brulée and a bottle of Rombauer Chardonnay for his 23rd; 3. and an all-expense paid two day trip to San Luis Obispo for the California Festival of beers for his 24th while we were broken up, and a week before he dumped me for good for a 19 year old girl in MI whom he met online.
So I couldn't help but guffaw for the absolute justice that is actually inherent in the universe, at the same time feeling bad because I certainly don't want any of those things (wrecking car, breaking foot, being in a slump) to happen to anyone I care about, if I do indeed still care about him. Regarding that, it's been a while and I have a selective memory, plus I've been far too busy putting my attention to myself and those people around me whom I truly care about for non-ego related reasons, and who have never done me any harm.
Enough about that.
This morning I weighed in at 144.5 lbs!
I managed a 400 calorie deficit yesterday and Chris took me out for sushi (I actually had Hamachi Kama: Hamachi Kama is the Scooby snack of sushi bars and seafood restaurants. When the chefs need a pick-me-up to sustain them through a long night of endless slicing and nodding to ignorant orderers, they know that the best part of the fish is waiting for them in back. Hamachi kama even appears on many menus and specials lists now that people have learned its secret.
The kama is the collar, or the area of the fish surrounding the first fins near the face of the fish. Unlike halibut cheeks though (halibuts are a flat fish, and the hamachi are round, or more accurately, fish shaped), this facial area of the hamachi is served with some skin and bone, especially bone.
It takes a dexterous hand with the chopsticks to pick out all of the morsels of meat nestled in the spider's web of bone, fin and flesh. But what you dig out is especially rewarding and worth all of the extra effort. Rather than being homogenous, the meat of the hamachi (also called yellowtail) collar varies tremendously from bite to bite; it can be firm or meltingly tender, a dullish gray or a dusky rose.
Regardless of texture or color, the flavor is incomparable. Up there with toro for its juiciness, the collar has a high component of fish oil, making it incredibly moist, both fattier and more flavorful than the fillets. Most often broiled and served with only the lightest brushing of glaze, the hamachi kama shines in its simplicity. The strong flavors of the fish come through, and the heat melts the natural fats of the flesh, which contributes to the high-impact richness of the dish.
"Yellowtail [hamachi] cheeks are very popular. It is a meaty area of the fish and it has a lot of flavor," says Keiko Sakuma, owner of Kaygetsu, a Japanese restaurant in Menlo Park. "We don't have a lot of it, but customers love it."
Sushi restaurants might buy three or four whole hamachi to break down into sushi and sashimi, and each one will yield only two collars. It is the lucky customer who gets to feast on this specialty portion.) and afterward I helped him clean his room a little, for which he was extremely grateful. I reminded him that his chi will become stagnant if it's not able to flow around the room. Boy, was I right! It was much better, afterward.
Today I plan to kickbox and go to yoga class afterward. This morning I had a particularly strong yoga session at 6am and managed !!! I can't stay in for more than 3 breaths and I end up falling out of it, BUT the point is I can do it and in its entirety!!!
Oh dear--the ex emailed me this morning and I was fairly groaning because I thought--man it's too early for this!!
This is what he had to say:
wonderful. just wrecked my car. things just keep getting better and better : \
Well, I had mixed feelings. In the past he had senselessly and brutally ridiculed my own driving mishaps, as if it couldn't happen to HIM. Also a part of me hasn't completely forgiven him for ruining my 24th and 25th birthdays, and being a total cheapskate and not getting me any gifts for my 25th and 26th (24th he wrote me a really nice poem) whereas I had given him 1. Hang-gliding lesson for his 22rd; 2. "Slave for the day" complete with a home-cooked gourmet meal complete with my first successful attempt at crème brulée and a bottle of Rombauer Chardonnay for his 23rd; 3. and an all-expense paid two day trip to San Luis Obispo for the California Festival of beers for his 24th while we were broken up, and a week before he dumped me for good for a 19 year old girl in MI whom he met online.
So I couldn't help but guffaw for the absolute justice that is actually inherent in the universe, at the same time feeling bad because I certainly don't want any of those things (wrecking car, breaking foot, being in a slump) to happen to anyone I care about, if I do indeed still care about him. Regarding that, it's been a while and I have a selective memory, plus I've been far too busy putting my attention to myself and those people around me whom I truly care about for non-ego related reasons, and who have never done me any harm.
Enough about that.
This morning I weighed in at 144.5 lbs!
I managed a 400 calorie deficit yesterday
and Chris took me out for sushi (I actually had Hamachi Kama: Hamachi Kama is the Scooby snack of sushi bars and seafood restaurants. When the chefs need a pick-me-up to sustain them through a long night of endless slicing and nodding to ignorant orderers, they know that the best part of the fish is waiting for them in back. Hamachi kama even appears on many menus and specials lists now that people have learned its secret.The kama is the collar, or the area of the fish surrounding the first fins near the face of the fish. Unlike halibut cheeks though (halibuts are a flat fish, and the hamachi are round, or more accurately, fish shaped), this facial area of the hamachi is served with some skin and bone, especially bone.
It takes a dexterous hand with the chopsticks to pick out all of the morsels of meat nestled in the spider's web of bone, fin and flesh. But what you dig out is especially rewarding and worth all of the extra effort. Rather than being homogenous, the meat of the hamachi (also called yellowtail) collar varies tremendously from bite to bite; it can be firm or meltingly tender, a dullish gray or a dusky rose.
Regardless of texture or color, the flavor is incomparable. Up there with toro for its juiciness, the collar has a high component of fish oil, making it incredibly moist, both fattier and more flavorful than the fillets. Most often broiled and served with only the lightest brushing of glaze, the hamachi kama shines in its simplicity. The strong flavors of the fish come through, and the heat melts the natural fats of the flesh, which contributes to the high-impact richness of the dish.
"Yellowtail [hamachi] cheeks are very popular. It is a meaty area of the fish and it has a lot of flavor," says Keiko Sakuma, owner of Kaygetsu, a Japanese restaurant in Menlo Park. "We don't have a lot of it, but customers love it."
Sushi restaurants might buy three or four whole hamachi to break down into sushi and sashimi, and each one will yield only two collars. It is the lucky customer who gets to feast on this specialty portion.) and afterward I helped him clean his room a little, for which he was extremely grateful. I reminded him that his chi will become stagnant if it's not able to flow around the room. Boy, was I right! It was much better, afterward.
Today I plan to kickbox and go to yoga class afterward. This morning I had a particularly strong yoga session at 6am and managed !!!
I can't stay in for more than 3 breaths and I end up falling out of it, BUT the point is I can do it and in its entirety!!!
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Curvie Girlie
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Oh I know--I'll eventually get someone to film me. I feel uncomfortable letting someone film me because I'm almost certain they'll do a bad job. There is ONE guy who I trust to film me, he's a pro, but he's also my girl friend's boyfriend and I know a little too much about their relationship so it would be awkward for me to ask him, plus I bet he's probably too busy to do that.....
Curvie Girlie
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Oh totally--it's also a magnificent and generous goddess at times! Depending on what you put out there, of course
sammyboy24
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I agree Karma is definitely a bitch. I like to believe I really try to watch what I put out there... Sounds like you got that asshole some awesome BD gifts while you were with him, and he didn't really give two shits when it came to your BD... I would have a really really hard time with that. This guy kinda sounds like he's surrounded with unhealthy drama. I know I don't know you too well but, from what I read on here you sound pretty put together and with it. You sound really balanced and seem like you make a concious effort to keep the positve flowing in your life. You really deserve someone that does that, or at least tries to do that, imo.
Great job on all that yoga
-Sam
Great job on all that yoga
-Sam
edco76
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Todays lesson:
Sometimes when fighting a bigger opponent. Fatigue will set in. Your training will abandon you. Your technique will be forgotten. But one thing will always be there for you. It will give you courage against your enemies. Energy for your body and strength to your muscles. That one thing is:
The porn star mustache
Best fight ever.
Sometimes when fighting a bigger opponent. Fatigue will set in. Your training will abandon you. Your technique will be forgotten. But one thing will always be there for you. It will give you courage against your enemies. Energy for your body and strength to your muscles. That one thing is:
The porn star mustache
Best fight ever.
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