CrunkChipmunk's Diary: Do or do not there is no try

"like attracts like"

Very good. That makes so much sense.

It is so good that you are coming open to realization. It is so hard to face these things that we have put away in our minds.

You have me at a loss for words with that last post.
 
HI,
Came to say hi to a fellow Casper's countdown team member!!
We can shed these lbs no doubt!! You will be under 300 before you know it!!
Hoping to get to know you and work towards reaching our goals!!
don't forget to sign on the the Casper's Tread before tomorrow, or early tomorrow.
Hajni
 
Anyone care to explain this to me?

I haven't been exercising as much as I should and yesterday was a bit of a cheat day for me by eating three pieces of pizza yet today my trusty reliable scale said 4lbs down even after repeated weighings.

LOL, I guess the god of weight loss or kick started metabolism has smiled upon me this day my friends.

Anyway...

Hello teamates!

I'm looking forward to working with you all and since Nia has awarded us the most ridiculously named team its only right that we go on to victory or at least take care to make sure that if we are to lose and it is to be our end that we make such an end as to be worthy of remembrance!!!
 
Howdy Crunk,
Sorry about your bad times I have had my share to and keep saying it can only get better like 100 x's a day lol.Anyway I wanted to wish ya luck on the challange and goals,Tammy
 
CrunkChipmunk said:
Anyone care to explain this to me?

I haven't been exercising as much as I should and yesterday was a bit of a cheat day for me by eating three pieces of pizza yet today my trusty reliable scale said 4lbs down even after repeated weighings.

LOL, I guess the god of weight loss or kick started metabolism has smiled upon me this day my friends.

It happens!! Just be happy. Sometimes your body reacts differently when it's given a bit of a shock. Congrats on the 4lbs!! Woot!:beerchug:
Anyway...

Hello teamates!

I'm looking forward to working with you all and since Nia has awarded us the most ridiculously named team its only right that we go on to victory or at least take care to make sure that if we are to lose and it is to be our end that we make such an end as to be worthy of remembrance!!!
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:pumpkin::pumpkin::rofl:I don't know, I think my team's name of House on Weightloss Hill is pretty lame...:pumpkin: I like the Texas Scale Massacre best myself. :D Good luck in the challenge!:pumpkin:
 
I've been going through a bit of a spiritual battle lately trying to get my mind right.

You know its one thing to finally put many personal life demons behind you but then another mental issue comes up.

The mental battle I'm having now is my mind telling me I don't deserve to lose all this weight and a lighter more faint voice in my mind telling me I can't do this.

All of the struggles I've been going through mentally have caused me to stop moving forward with exercise (which I personally need to lose weight or I remain at my current weight no matter what I eat) but at least I have not fought my mental demons by medicating with food so one battle against my mind has been won.

I'm going to attack my bad mindset tomorrow morning with an hour of cardio as well lifting some free weights and then have an even greater diet than I've been on since I've recently bought a ton of good fruit like apples and such to help move myself out of this stagnation period and if I have any energy left from my workout I'm going to post in a bunch of diaries here and in so doing hopefully continue barrelling through this mental hurdle.

Its so important for my mind to be right for this weightloss battle.

Without it 100% focused on weight loss and doing what needs to be done with no distractions I can't do anything and find myself here doing nothing.

Tomorrow I will attempt to break on through to the other side once again and tell you all how it goes.
 
CrunkChipmunk said:
Tomorrow I will attempt to break on through to the other side once again and tell you all how it goes.
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Nice Doors lyrics/quote...:D

Ok, Steve--you deserve to be happy and healthy. Why don't you feel that you do? I think you need to spend more time here, reading other people's diaries. You'll find that you're not alone in this, and that there are tons of other people out there in similar situations who are doing it--you can, too.

I spent years half heartedly dieting--and then gave up b/c i didn't think i could do it. I got heavier and heavier and more and more miserable. Then one day I just decided I'd had enough, and that i had to take charge of my life and stop making excuses and waiting for happiness to find me. We have to make our own happiness. I tell myself that exercise is not an option--it is a necessity, I must do it--and I do. Eating is no exception. I'm no saint, but I eat well 95% of the time. I've never had this much determination or will power in my life.

Life is short. And it is also a gift. We owe life our very best--and that is why I'm doing this. I don't want to be 40 and overweight and riddled with low self-esteem and weight-related health problems.

I think your dad would agree with me--and would want you to be happy and to "break on through to the other side." I hope you do. Ala Nike--just do it! It really is that simple. Just do it. No ifs ands or buts or excuses. :hug2::hug2:
 
Hi there CrunkChipMunk (can I call you CCM in short?)

I was skimming through some of your posts and I came across the last one, i.e. the most recent entry talking about your mind telling you that you can't do this. I'm going to be blunt: If that little voice in your head tells you you CAN'T do this anymore and that you don't deserve to lose the weight TURN RIGHT BACK AROUND AND TELL THAT VOICE IT'S DEAD WRONG!

You can lose the weight, you have it in you, you've gotten so far- and you WILL reach your end goal. The mind is a powerful thing, and you have to train that voice inside your head to think positive thoughts. Also, as far as feeling that you don't deserve to feel happy- you know that's not true. You have the right to lose the weight. You owe it to yourself to lead a happy and healthy life. It's easy to let the negative thoughts slip in and get discouraged, but that's why you have the support of people here- get right back up on that bandwagon and make us proud!! :D

I hope you're feeling better about things tomorrow, and good luck with the weight loss!
 
You are facing your demons and beating the hell out of them in your last update.

We all need to accept the fact that we have a weakness. Some may not like that word, but we wouldn't be posting here if we were all perfect and disciplined. We like food, and we don't like to exercise. I actually hate it bro. I can't stand it. But I force myself to do this. I force myself to trudge through this day by motherfluckin' day.

Last night for example. I woke up about 2 in the morning, with my bladder wanting to explode. I relieved myself, walked into the kitchen and opened the refrigerator.

I put some jelly on a piece of bread for a midnight snack.

I put the half sandwich to my mouth.

I stopped.

The smell was good. I never thought in my life that Some Polaner Strawberry Spread on a piece of wheat bread would smell so good.

I stood there for a good 30 seconds deciding whether to eat it or not.

I threw it in the trash.

It was one of the hardest things to do ever since I started this.

Small victories add up to the winning of the battle. Battles end up winning the war. Some we will lose. We need to accept that. I can't guarantee that next time I won't eat that little half sandwich. But this one time, I can say that I was strong.

It's day by day, bro. We are all here for you. I check in everyday here, although I may not post here daily.

You deserve this Steve. You deserve a life where you can live comfortably and healthy. I have seen my death and the way it would effect everyone in my life. I love to live. I want to live a comfortable life. I don't want to be buried. Today is my 32nd birthday, and I hope that when I turn 33, that I will be close to my goal. I want to live my life the way we deserve to. You deserve this, and you can do it.

The part about having no distractions is right.

I have been playing in bands since I was 17 years old. I recently quit my semi-successful band and decided that I needed to focus. I don't need anything getting in the way or sharing determination or inspiration. It isn't easy, but we are going to win.

I have faith in you.

We all do.

Peace to you brother.
 
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So the report for tonight...

I got my cardio in and my weight lifting. I am dead now lol but it was worth it.

I always feel great the next morning after doing a ton of exercise but like crap the whole day after I've done it haha.

Also today I was reminded of one of my all time favorite movies Gattaca.

Two of my favorite quotes from it are these...

Anton: How are you doing this, Vincent? How have you done any of this?
Vincent: You want to know how I did it? This is how I did it, Anton: I never saved anything for the swim back.

Vincent: I was never more certain of how far away I was from my goal than when I was standing right beside it.

The character Vincent in that movie wanted his dream of going on a space mission so badly he was willing to have painful surgery on his legs to make them longer, do ungodly amounts of grooming each day, push his body over the limit in exercise just to keep up the illusion that he had superior genetics like everyone else and read complex books every single day all while trying to maintain a social life and keep his true identity secret so as not to be fired from his job and imprisoned.

The character may be fictional but he was still inspiring because he was willing to do absolutely anything to acheive his dreams and he did what he needed to do day in and day out no matter how tedious and I think thats a great lesson for all of us especially me.

"Ok, Steve--you deserve to be happy and healthy. Why don't you feel that you do? I think you need to spend more time here, reading other people's diaries. You'll find that you're not alone in this, and that there are tons of other people out there in similar situations who are doing it--you can, too."

The diary reading is a good idea Kim. I've read yours and Dan's and still.hurtings but I definitely need to read some more of em and post in some more of em. Get to know more of the members and suck up some more of that positive energy and hopefully give some back. BTW you definitely deserve my charm gracing your diary more lmao so I will post when I think of something good to add lol.

Speaking of diaries a post from T2Trucker's diary I read last night was really awesome and just the kick that I needed.

He basically conveyed we just have to keep pushing forward and avoid complacency like the plague. Thats definitely the realm of yo-yo dieting which is where none of us wants to be.

"Hi there CrunkChipMunk (can I call you CCM in short?)

I was skimming through some of your posts and I came across the last one, i.e. the most recent entry talking about your mind telling you that you can't do this. I'm going to be blunt: If that little voice in your head tells you you CAN'T do this anymore and that you don't deserve to lose the weight TURN RIGHT BACK AROUND AND TELL THAT VOICE IT'S DEAD WRONG!"

Hi Misty. Sure you can call me CCM lol and thanks I feel a lot better today.

That little voice is not who I am anymore. I don't even agree with it but it comes up at times and wears on my resolve to fight this battle but you all are right. Just keep telling it, its wrong and prove it wrong with every little bit of exercise I can get in each day.

"I have faith in you.

We all do.

Peace to you brother."

Thank you my friend. Your words always mean so much to me. Hey best case scenario we both barrel through our weight problems from here on out, you'll get to goal before me but be sure to keep another spot reserved for me next to you and T2Trucker.
 
I think it's great to get more involved with other people's diaries. I read and post daily or near daily in about 10 or more diaries. And I do more than drive by postings--I try to add to or give support beyond the "great job, keep it up" line. As you know, if you've read it, my diary is crazy--not for the faint of heart..lol. I have so much fun with it, and yet learn so much, and get so much from it. My WLF friends make me laugh, cheer me up on down days, and keep me super motivated. I try to do the same for them. That's what this place is for. :beerchug: There are a few people who post pretty much only in their diaries, and I wonder why they bother to keep one here in that case. I'm not saying you're like that, b/c I know you post in other diaries--just saying a few people do that. I'm not saying you have to post as much as I do (I have a lot of free time on my hands..lol), b/c not everyone can spare the time to do that. But try to read and post in other diaries as much as you can.:)
 
Added some weight lifting to the old routine.

I've got to say it feels good to lift again the only problem is my chest and arms are in great pain now lol but I guess that means its working.

"As you know, if you've read it, my diary is crazy--not for the faint of heart..lol."

LOL, it really is Kim. Your diary is a madhouse a funhouse and a circus all rolled into one.

I need to find my niche to post in there and energy to post in more diaries so I can attract more clowns for my circus tent here as well haha.
 
CrunkChipmunk said:
Added some weight lifting to the old routine.

I've got to say it feels good to lift again the only problem is my chest and arms are in great pain now lol but I guess that means its working.

"As you know, if you've read it, my diary is crazy--not for the faint of heart..lol."

LOL, it really is Kim. Your diary is a madhouse a funhouse and a circus all rolled into one.

I need to find my niche to post in there and energy to post in more diaries so I can attract more clowns for my circus tent here as well haha.
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My fellow pervettes and I are very good at bringing out the inner perv in just about everyone. So feel free to post all you like..lol I look at it this way, I'm here to have a good time while I lose weight. And my friends here make me laugh so much, I rarely feel depressed anymore.;)
 
One more pound down this week ya'll.

I'll have to get around to updating my ticker haha.

All hail small victories.

Lets see if I can keep it going or better for next week.
 
Thank for the post Crunk, heart break and emotional set backs happen to everyone, but how we handle them is what makes us who we are today. At the time of my break up, I felt lost and alone but now I would not trade those feelings for anything because they have made me start this journey to change my life.
 
So true Mervinman. Its all about looking ahead.

Anyway down another pound this week ya'll.

344lbs it is and my scale is pretty accurate and I weigh myself first thing in the morning which makes it even moreso.

I've discovered I really hate cardio so I'm just currently eating right and trying to be more active in general. The plan is to keep doing this and if I get tired of the slow rate of loss then I will do my hated cardio and lose quicker.

Thanks Dan, Kim, Mervinman and everyone whose supported me even a little bit in this here diary.

Without finding all of you here I'm sure I'd of gorged myself and been weighing 490 by now.

No kidding.

So I'll gladly take a slow regular rate of loss over that fate any day my friends.

To 343 next week!
 
CrunkChipmunk said:
So true Mervinman. Its all about looking ahead.

Anyway down another pound this week ya'll.

344lbs it is and my scale is pretty accurate and I weigh myself first thing in the morning which makes it even moreso.

I've discovered I really hate cardio so I'm just currently eating right and trying to be more active in general. The plan is to keep doing this and if I get tired of the slow rate of loss then I will do my hated cardio and lose quicker.

Thanks Dan, Kim, Mervinman and everyone whose supported me even a little bit in this here diary.

Without finding all of you here I'm sure I'd of gorged myself and been weighing 490 by now.

No kidding.

So I'll gladly take a slow regular rate of loss over that fate any day my friends.

To 343 next week!
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Congrats on the pound loss!:beerchug:

Are you doing any weight training? That is really something you shouldn't skip on b/c it will ensure that you lose fat and not muscle. Also, cardio is necessary for a healthy heart and health in general. Even if you hate it. I would try to find some kind of cardio that you enjoy. I love to go for brisk walks, and I love circuit training at my gym. Prior to that, I always hated exercise and made excuses not to do it. Now I love it. I feel soooo much better after having done some--not only does my body feel better, but those endorphins are great for easing stress and depression. Plus I just feel better mentally b/c I know I got off my butt and did something good. It's a self esteem boost. The thing to keep in mind is to exercise within your ability. Push yourself--but don't push yourself so hard that you hurt yourself, or grow to hate it. Remember--no excuses.:D
 
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