JeremyRice
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waddup crunk
u have a good start to this all, just never give up bro
u can do it!
u have a good start to this all, just never give up bro
u can do it!
CrunkChipmunk's Diary: Do or do not there is no try
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CrunkChipmunk
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Many thanks bikinibound.
I am never without a supportive friend as long as you are around.
MasterofJune my Zen Mastery these days simply knows no bounds.
*Hugs Central Air house cooling unit*
We will fight this battle to the finish line no surrender.
Jeremy you are so inspirational.
Hopefully you never stop posting here even when you reach your goal.
I know I won't once I reach mine.
I am never without a supportive friend as long as you are around.
MasterofJune my Zen Mastery these days simply knows no bounds.
*Hugs Central Air house cooling unit*
We will fight this battle to the finish line no surrender.
Jeremy you are so inspirational.
Hopefully you never stop posting here even when you reach your goal.
I know I won't once I reach mine.
bikinibound
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That's what we're here for!
Hey, have you had nasty storms up your way? Our power was out for almost 2 days!
Have a great weekend!
CrunkChipmunk
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Thank you Imperial.
As far as I am concerned you are now a part of my little group The Fellowship of the Weight loss lol. With myself, Kim (bikinibound) and Dan (MasterOfJune) and now you that brings our numbers up to 4. Five more and we'll equal the movies 9 haha.
"That's what we're here for!
Hey, have you had nasty storms up your way? Our power was out for almost 2 days!
Have a great weekend!"
Other than some light rain and heat and humidity before it my area has been storm free thankfully Kim.
Glad your power is back on now and hey you have a good weekend too and stay safe.
Anyway day 5 has been a day of reflection.
I followed my diet but decided not to exercise to give my legs a complete day of rest.
During this time I checked out Dan's Myspace page and immediately went to his playlist since I wanted to compare our taste in music as well in general I am always looking for new good songs to listen to and almost immediately I found a song that spoke to my soul and all that I'd been dealing with emotionally before his post finally got me started on my weight loss journey.
The title of the song is Never Too Late by Three Days Grace and its title is really something to me as before reading Dan's post I actually thought at 27 years old over and over again I had the thought its simply too late for me to completely change my life.
In my mind I was simply too old of a man to turn my life around and get all of the things that I want out of it.
The phrase in my mind that had been the spiritual weight Dan talked about that we need to lose as well as the physical weight was that its simply too late for me to accomplish what I need to accomplish to be happy and fulfilled in life and as that song played its lyrics disagreed powerfully with those old poisonous self doubt thoughts in my head.
The lyrics went "maybe we'll turn it around cuz its not too late, its never too late"
Listening to the song caused me to break down in tears.
That song was so spiritually healing to me its unbelievable like I was meant to listen to it today and I don't even believe in fate lol.
Anyway though every new update post I make in this diary recording a succesful day makes me feel stronger as though I am spiritually healing from self doubt every day.
Today I can safely say not only did I lose 2 physical pounds but 2 spiritual pounds as well.
So thanks again Dan haha.
Hey you might get sick of me saying that like you thought we'd all get sick of you saying how instrumental all of our support is to your success.
As far as I am concerned you are now a part of my little group The Fellowship of the Weight loss lol. With myself, Kim (bikinibound) and Dan (MasterOfJune) and now you that brings our numbers up to 4. Five more and we'll equal the movies 9 haha.
"That's what we're here for!
Hey, have you had nasty storms up your way? Our power was out for almost 2 days!
Have a great weekend!"
Other than some light rain and heat and humidity before it my area has been storm free thankfully Kim.
Glad your power is back on now and hey you have a good weekend too and stay safe.
Anyway day 5 has been a day of reflection.
I followed my diet but decided not to exercise to give my legs a complete day of rest.
During this time I checked out Dan's Myspace page and immediately went to his playlist since I wanted to compare our taste in music as well in general I am always looking for new good songs to listen to and almost immediately I found a song that spoke to my soul and all that I'd been dealing with emotionally before his post finally got me started on my weight loss journey.
The title of the song is Never Too Late by Three Days Grace and its title is really something to me as before reading Dan's post I actually thought at 27 years old over and over again I had the thought its simply too late for me to completely change my life.
In my mind I was simply too old of a man to turn my life around and get all of the things that I want out of it.
The phrase in my mind that had been the spiritual weight Dan talked about that we need to lose as well as the physical weight was that its simply too late for me to accomplish what I need to accomplish to be happy and fulfilled in life and as that song played its lyrics disagreed powerfully with those old poisonous self doubt thoughts in my head.
The lyrics went "maybe we'll turn it around cuz its not too late, its never too late"
Listening to the song caused me to break down in tears.
That song was so spiritually healing to me its unbelievable like I was meant to listen to it today and I don't even believe in fate lol.
Anyway though every new update post I make in this diary recording a succesful day makes me feel stronger as though I am spiritually healing from self doubt every day.
Today I can safely say not only did I lose 2 physical pounds but 2 spiritual pounds as well.
So thanks again Dan haha.
Hey you might get sick of me saying that like you thought we'd all get sick of you saying how instrumental all of our support is to your success.
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bikinibound
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I know how you feel about making changes before it's too late. And what's this talk about you being an old man??? You're only 27, aren't you? Tha'ts young. I'm 35, and I'm making changes before it's too late, myself..lol
I've been in a big rut the last 6yrs, and I'm slowly digging myself out--not easy, but it has to be done if I want to be happy. Life is too short not to give it all you've got, I say. I don't want to end up a bitter old woman b/c I am full of regrets over things I wanted to do and didn't.
So we have some similar goals here. Anyway, Ithink you and Dan are two great guys--and I'm thrilled to be in this little club. Of course, you're both welcome to join my harem of hotties, too..lol
I've been in a big rut the last 6yrs, and I'm slowly digging myself out--not easy, but it has to be done if I want to be happy. Life is too short not to give it all you've got, I say. I don't want to end up a bitter old woman b/c I am full of regrets over things I wanted to do and didn't.
So we have some similar goals here. Anyway, Ithink you and Dan are two great guys--and I'm thrilled to be in this little club. Of course, you're both welcome to join my harem of hotties, too..lol
MasterofJune
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Steve...I swear to God, that is the only song I have listened to in four days now. That song is my journey song. Sounds like it's yours too. I broke down when I heard it as well...That's why I had to add it to my little playlist. I saw your signature before I read your post and I was like..."This is creepy". I'm glad I put that link to my myspace page.
Congrats on the 2 lbs!!! You are going to be taking the poundage down!!!
Congrats on the 2 lbs!!! You are going to be taking the poundage down!!!
CrunkChipmunk
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I don't know about you Dan but I listen to that song over and over again after every successful workout. Its like a reward for all the work I'm doing to make the dream a reality ya know?
LOL, Kim shouldn't I lose some more weight before being allowed entrance into your harem?
Seriously though thanks for the welcome to your club. I've been working through so many bad and good emotions lately as well as fighting this weight loss battle and updating my journal here that I forget I should drop some support in the journals of all my friends of which you most certainly are at the top of the list.
Well then onto my daily report...
Today was excellent.
45 minutes of cardio on the old exercise bike and I may do 15 more minutes to make it a full hour and the diet was followed as strictly as I followed it back when I was losing 20lbs a month and the best thing of all is I'm not hungry.
I had a really magical moment while on the exercise bike.
It seems silly but as the counter hit 6 minutes I heard a voice in my mind say "this is how you're going to change your life".
Its so true.
Exercise, diet and committment to make my dreams come true will make them a reality.
I felt your positive energy Dan and Kim as I was doing my exercise today which is probably why I didn't stop at a pathetic 15 minutes today but did the fat burning 45. The war is not over my friends I'll be up to a full hour tonight, tomorrow and every day after until I finally hit my goal weight.
Thats the only way to do it the way I want to do it and as quickly as I want to do it.
The great thing about my diet plan is I can have one candy bar a day in the morning with my healthy breakfast and still lose weight.
It worked on the plan where I was losing 20lbs a month and ya know its kind of funny to think about this now but like many on the forum I used to be slowly killing myself with candy bars but now I've found with moderation of just one a day I get a great energy boost for my workouts from em and with that it becomes clear that what once was killing me now serves to save me.
LOL, Kim shouldn't I lose some more weight before being allowed entrance into your harem?
Seriously though thanks for the welcome to your club. I've been working through so many bad and good emotions lately as well as fighting this weight loss battle and updating my journal here that I forget I should drop some support in the journals of all my friends of which you most certainly are at the top of the list.
Well then onto my daily report...
Today was excellent.
45 minutes of cardio on the old exercise bike and I may do 15 more minutes to make it a full hour and the diet was followed as strictly as I followed it back when I was losing 20lbs a month and the best thing of all is I'm not hungry.
I had a really magical moment while on the exercise bike.
It seems silly but as the counter hit 6 minutes I heard a voice in my mind say "this is how you're going to change your life".
Its so true.
Exercise, diet and committment to make my dreams come true will make them a reality.
I felt your positive energy Dan and Kim as I was doing my exercise today which is probably why I didn't stop at a pathetic 15 minutes today but did the fat burning 45. The war is not over my friends I'll be up to a full hour tonight, tomorrow and every day after until I finally hit my goal weight.
Thats the only way to do it the way I want to do it and as quickly as I want to do it.
The great thing about my diet plan is I can have one candy bar a day in the morning with my healthy breakfast and still lose weight.
It worked on the plan where I was losing 20lbs a month and ya know its kind of funny to think about this now but like many on the forum I used to be slowly killing myself with candy bars but now I've found with moderation of just one a day I get a great energy boost for my workouts from em and with that it becomes clear that what once was killing me now serves to save me.
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Nice work Crunk. You've actually inspired me with that post. I did 26 min on my bike and after reading your post, I went back and did another 20 min to hit that 45 min mark you mentioned. I wasn't pushing myself because I felt like I wanted it to be easier to improve the next day. So self defeating. Anyway, another mental hurdle cleared.
MasterofJune
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Wow Steve...You are piped in my friend. Sounds like in a few months we will finally feel like we can accept membership into Kim's Harem!
Keep up the positive energy man. Your vibes are inspiring us all.
The war may not be over, but the battles are won daily.
Keep up the positive energy man. Your vibes are inspiring us all.
The war may not be over, but the battles are won daily.
Boam46
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You are doing really great here. Your diet and exercise look wonderful and you are going strong!
I often have a moment like this while doing cardio at the gym. The do or die moment... where part of me wants to stop but I really have to mentally push forward. It feels soo great when I finish. You can do that full hour. Its really as much a mental battle as a physical battle. Keep going strong!
~Jenna
I often have a moment like this while doing cardio at the gym. The do or die moment... where part of me wants to stop but I really have to mentally push forward. It feels soo great when I finish. You can do that full hour. Its really as much a mental battle as a physical battle. Keep going strong!
~Jenna
bikinibound
New member
LOL, Kim shouldn't I lose some more weight before being allowed entrance into your harem? Not at all! Being in the harem will keep you motivated to keep losing..
Seriously though thanks for the welcome to your club. I've been working through so many bad and good emotions lately as well as fighting this weight loss battle and updating my journal here that I forget I should drop some support in the journals of all my friends of which you most certainly are at the top of the list. Aww...shucks. Thanks!
Well then onto my daily report...
Today was excellent.
45 minutes of cardio on the old exercise bike and I may do 15 more minutes to make it a full hour and the diet was followed as strictly as I followed it back when I was losing 20lbs a month and the best thing of all is I'm not hungry.
I had a really magical moment while on the exercise bike.
It seems silly but as the counter hit 6 minutes I heard a voice in my mind say "this is how you're going to change your life".
Its so true.
Exercise, diet and committment to make my dreams come true will make them a reality.
I felt your positive energy Dan and Kim as I was doing my exercise today which is probably why I didn't stop at a pathetic 15 minutes today but did the fat burning 45. The war is not over my friends I'll be up to a full hour tonight, tomorrow and every day after until I finally hit my goal weight.
Thats the only way to do it the way I want to do it and as quickly as I want to do it.
The great thing about my diet plan is I can have one candy bar a day in the morning with my healthy breakfast and still lose weight.
It worked on the plan where I was losing 20lbs a month and ya know its kind of funny to think about this now but like many on the forum I used to be slowly killing myself with candy bars but now I've found with moderation of just one a day I get a great energy boost for my workouts from em and with that it becomes clear that what once was killing me now serves to save me.
This is all really great, Steve. You are doing so well! Moderation in eating is the key. And it's great that you're learning it now. It will serve you well when you're done losing the weight and maintaning. And wtg on the exercise! Keep pushing it.
CrunkChipmunk
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It was really freaky for me Boam. First time it ever happened. Like it wasn't even my voice telling me this in my head but the voice of destiny lol.
True thing on moderation thats all it takes, a lifestyle we can live with in eating bikinibound and sweet Jesus my report!!!
Well I was so tired yesterday I didn't do any exercise and ate a bit too much I would say but this morning the weight loss god rewarded me regardless 3lbs down friends 3lbs down!!!
JeremyRice I'm coming, I'm on your tail, I'm ah beat you to under 300lbs!!!
LMAO.
True thing on moderation thats all it takes, a lifestyle we can live with in eating bikinibound and sweet Jesus my report!!!
Well I was so tired yesterday I didn't do any exercise and ate a bit too much I would say but this morning the weight loss god rewarded me regardless 3lbs down friends 3lbs down!!!
JeremyRice I'm coming, I'm on your tail, I'm ah beat you to under 300lbs!!!
LMAO.
2B135AGAIN
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Hi Steve,
I love your screen name and title. Your honesty and determination are inspiring. I'm sorry to hear about your breakup. You talked about protecting ourselves and hiding from past pains by staying overweight and was that an "a ha!" moment for me. My husband passed away in 1999 and before that I was very athletic and healthy. I stopped cooking and exercising after he died and gained about 50 lbs during the 1st 18 months after. Then put on another 20 when I quit smoking. Here I am 7 years later, still hiding, but working on poking my nose out a bit.
You've adopted some great mentors on the site and I'm sure you'll do great. I'm looking forward to following your progress. Check out the Challenges on the site, too. They add a little friendly competition and make this journey a little more fun.
I love your screen name and title. Your honesty and determination are inspiring. I'm sorry to hear about your breakup. You talked about protecting ourselves and hiding from past pains by staying overweight and was that an "a ha!" moment for me. My husband passed away in 1999 and before that I was very athletic and healthy. I stopped cooking and exercising after he died and gained about 50 lbs during the 1st 18 months after. Then put on another 20 when I quit smoking. Here I am 7 years later, still hiding, but working on poking my nose out a bit.
You've adopted some great mentors on the site and I'm sure you'll do great. I'm looking forward to following your progress. Check out the Challenges on the site, too. They add a little friendly competition and make this journey a little more fun.
MasterofJune
New member
Right on my brother!!! We are going to be in the under 300 club soon enough.
JeremyRice
New member
yo crunkchippy
congrats on the 3 down
keep it up, i started slow when i was beginning but then went to TOWN
u'll get to the point where ur like man i gotta be in the gym right now
its a good feeling,
i'll be waiting for ya on the other side of that 3 in the front of the weight and i will route u on until ur there!
congrats on the 3 down
keep it up, i started slow when i was beginning but then went to TOWN
u'll get to the point where ur like man i gotta be in the gym right now
its a good feeling,
i'll be waiting for ya on the other side of that 3 in the front of the weight and i will route u on until ur there!
ChubbyNatalie
New member
Good Luck with your weightloss, I am also new here and I am finding this very helpful! I believe with you hard work you WILL lose the weight and I believe your goal is VERY realistic!
CrunkChipmunk
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2B135AGAIN- Thank you for sharing that I have inspired you in a way.
I never really expected to be able to do this for anyone and it is a real honor even if it was just a little bit of inspiration.
No need to be sorry about my breakup.
It is said that "like attracts like" and for so long my internal world was filled with darkness and despair and many unresolved issues that I attracted a lying cheating awful chaotic girl into my life who covered up her chaotic darkness with a mask of sweetness and false kindness and she was unfortunately not the first of her kind that I have been involved with.
I attracted this darkness to myself repeatedly in different girls as I myself was in spiritual darkness you could say.
Again "like attracts like" goes the phrase.
Dan said we must face our pain instead of burying it with food and then our existances can be lean and our minds can be sharp and we can be healthy human beings in mind and body.
He was right and once I become healthy in both ways perhaps I can finally attract a girl that would bring light into my life instead of darkness.
Misery loves company but perhaps the joyful love the company of the joyful.
I will be the latter instead of the former.
As for your husband dying I know how it is to lose a loved one.
My father died of skin cancer in 2004 and for a long time I took care of him with some minor things that he needed as surprisingly up until the end he was very much self sufficient and not in a whole lot of pain.
The grief and a loss of direction were hard to get through the year he died but what pulled me through is remembering how much he loved me and how he absolutely would not of wanted me to self destruct and join him in death so I pulled myself together and carried on as for a long time after his death I was gripped by depression and not being able to leave my room the sadness was so thick but I got myself out of that by remembering his love and beginning to busy myself with many tasks and surprisingly now that I remember it I never medicated with food to fill the grief which is odd but I'm happy about that.
Anyway the point I'm trying to make I guess is eventually understanding that my father deeply loved me somehow made it easier to let the pain of my grief go.
My relationships with women have always been destructive and gone unresolved for me and have brought me a ton of pain during and after they inevitably end. Pain that lingers on for a great long while. In short I don't believe I've ever been truly loved by a girl I've been involved with.
As I get healthier in many ways I believe that can change but if you ever have hard times with your husband's death 2B135AGAIN as I know how the grief can linger on even when you think its gone for good please remember that like my father loved me your husband loved you and would not want you to be unhappy in life so let us always look forward to the day we reach our goal weight and make their spirits proud.
MasterofJune- We will join JeremyRice in the under 300lb club in a matter of months. There is no doubt about it or turning back. In 8 months I will be to my goal weight and likely less for you. Like the conqueror Hannibal said "We will find a way or make one".
JeremyRice- Thanks so much pal. Working out really becomes second nature after you do it for a while.
ChubbyNatalie- Thank you. I think it is too. Like Ironman has said the key is switching up your program over time so as not to stagnate and get bored with it. That is why I am looking in to getting bags of healthy already cooked meat like chicken and turkey and possibly fish to freeze and put in my refrigerator so I will have about 6oz's of that good protein for either lunch and dinner each day and thus prevent hunger pangs and muscle loss and tiredness that have sabotaged my weight loss efforts before. I'm upping my program to probably 17 or 1800 calories as well since when I exercise the bike reports I burn over 800 calories an hour.
I never really expected to be able to do this for anyone and it is a real honor even if it was just a little bit of inspiration.
No need to be sorry about my breakup.
It is said that "like attracts like" and for so long my internal world was filled with darkness and despair and many unresolved issues that I attracted a lying cheating awful chaotic girl into my life who covered up her chaotic darkness with a mask of sweetness and false kindness and she was unfortunately not the first of her kind that I have been involved with.
I attracted this darkness to myself repeatedly in different girls as I myself was in spiritual darkness you could say.
Again "like attracts like" goes the phrase.
Dan said we must face our pain instead of burying it with food and then our existances can be lean and our minds can be sharp and we can be healthy human beings in mind and body.
He was right and once I become healthy in both ways perhaps I can finally attract a girl that would bring light into my life instead of darkness.
Misery loves company but perhaps the joyful love the company of the joyful.
I will be the latter instead of the former.
As for your husband dying I know how it is to lose a loved one.
My father died of skin cancer in 2004 and for a long time I took care of him with some minor things that he needed as surprisingly up until the end he was very much self sufficient and not in a whole lot of pain.
The grief and a loss of direction were hard to get through the year he died but what pulled me through is remembering how much he loved me and how he absolutely would not of wanted me to self destruct and join him in death so I pulled myself together and carried on as for a long time after his death I was gripped by depression and not being able to leave my room the sadness was so thick but I got myself out of that by remembering his love and beginning to busy myself with many tasks and surprisingly now that I remember it I never medicated with food to fill the grief which is odd but I'm happy about that.
Anyway the point I'm trying to make I guess is eventually understanding that my father deeply loved me somehow made it easier to let the pain of my grief go.
My relationships with women have always been destructive and gone unresolved for me and have brought me a ton of pain during and after they inevitably end. Pain that lingers on for a great long while. In short I don't believe I've ever been truly loved by a girl I've been involved with.
As I get healthier in many ways I believe that can change but if you ever have hard times with your husband's death 2B135AGAIN as I know how the grief can linger on even when you think its gone for good please remember that like my father loved me your husband loved you and would not want you to be unhappy in life so let us always look forward to the day we reach our goal weight and make their spirits proud.
MasterofJune- We will join JeremyRice in the under 300lb club in a matter of months. There is no doubt about it or turning back. In 8 months I will be to my goal weight and likely less for you. Like the conqueror Hannibal said "We will find a way or make one".
JeremyRice- Thanks so much pal. Working out really becomes second nature after you do it for a while.
ChubbyNatalie- Thank you. I think it is too. Like Ironman has said the key is switching up your program over time so as not to stagnate and get bored with it. That is why I am looking in to getting bags of healthy already cooked meat like chicken and turkey and possibly fish to freeze and put in my refrigerator so I will have about 6oz's of that good protein for either lunch and dinner each day and thus prevent hunger pangs and muscle loss and tiredness that have sabotaged my weight loss efforts before. I'm upping my program to probably 17 or 1800 calories as well since when I exercise the bike reports I burn over 800 calories an hour.
bikinibound
New member
I'm sorry to hear about your unhappy love life. I think it's true that people definitely pick up on our feelings about ourselves, and so we tend to attract the wrong kind of people when we don't feel good about ourselves. When I was in my early 20s it seemed like the only guys attracted to me were assholes. I think that subconciously I didn't feel that I deserved any better. Even though I was about 60lbs lighter than I am now, I had low self-esteem and lacked confidence. I know people can pick up on that. It's hard to find someone to love you when you don't love yourself. Now, I'm older and wiser (and fatter! lol). I feel good about myself these days, and I don't let people get away with treating me badly.
Crunk, you're self observations are really helpful. Many of your posts have really helped me to better understand where I'm coming from and where I'm going. "Like attracts like", is so true.
Hang in there bro, you're doing great, on the fast track to a healthy mind and body.
Hang in there bro, you're doing great, on the fast track to a healthy mind and body.