randomlady
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For a little over a week I laid in bed and cried, feeling horrible, numb, and most of all, lonely. I don't have good self esteem, and I didn't even want to look myself in the mirror. I felt/feel unattractive and wonder how my boyfriend can even stand to look at me. Yesterday, however, was the first good day I'd had, and after he went to work I set out to work my ass off. I did a 30 or 40 minute Tae Bo tape, and then later in the evening I did one of Leslie Sansone's Walk Away The Pounds tapes, but only managed 2 miles.
I have a past history of not eating enough, and over exercising. I don't want to say I starve myself, but I do restrict more than I should. Ordinarily I'm a binge eater, but when I get into my work out modes I'm the exact opposite. I was just wondering if this sounded like a decent, well-intended plan:
I'm not working right now and funds are lowish, so we exist mainly on Hamburger Helper meals and pasta meals, with ground beef and bratwursts, etc. I know it's not that healthy, but that's where we are right now. He works nights, so during the afternoon while he's asleep I make dinner. I have 1 cup exactly of whatever we're having (seems smallish, but that's a lot of carbs, remember), and later on 1/2 cup if I'm still hungry. We don't eat bread, and we don't drink pop. Now I plan to add in at least 3 miles of walking a day, along with the Tae Bo tape. I plan on doing that 4 times a week, with 3 days off (boyfriends work schedule), while listening to these little hypnosis tapes at night. So far, I like them.
Overkill? Good? Could use some work?
EDIT: I should mention, I'm obese by 50lb
I have a past history of not eating enough, and over exercising. I don't want to say I starve myself, but I do restrict more than I should. Ordinarily I'm a binge eater, but when I get into my work out modes I'm the exact opposite. I was just wondering if this sounded like a decent, well-intended plan:
I'm not working right now and funds are lowish, so we exist mainly on Hamburger Helper meals and pasta meals, with ground beef and bratwursts, etc. I know it's not that healthy, but that's where we are right now. He works nights, so during the afternoon while he's asleep I make dinner. I have 1 cup exactly of whatever we're having (seems smallish, but that's a lot of carbs, remember), and later on 1/2 cup if I'm still hungry. We don't eat bread, and we don't drink pop. Now I plan to add in at least 3 miles of walking a day, along with the Tae Bo tape. I plan on doing that 4 times a week, with 3 days off (boyfriends work schedule), while listening to these little hypnosis tapes at night. So far, I like them.
Overkill? Good? Could use some work?
EDIT: I should mention, I'm obese by 50lb
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