CrazedMama's Diary (finally)

No, one meal isn't going to make a huge difference - and there's a float of sodium/water retention, etc anyway - You'll be fine :)

Sorry to hear you're not feeling well, I hope your tummy settles quickly.
 
Well, yesterday I ate really good and drank lots of water and finally started feeling better. I decided to weigh myself again today and I lost another 3 lbs! Even with eating badly on Saturday! So Im very happy about that! So far today I've eaten:

Breakfast: whole wheat english muffin with slice of cheese in the middle
Lunch: Michelina Lean Entree meal (i know these frozen meals arent the greatest but i only eat them once a week usually)...350 cals and an apple
Snack: will be a one serving size bag of baked cheetos!

For dinner Ill be making chicken-burgers, baked french fries and some kind of veggie and fruit

I worked out again today. I have to admit that I actually missed it over the weekend! However, Saturday I was outside while my husband was working on my mothers car and my 3 year old started chasing me around and I just took off running and I ran and ran (just like Forrest Gump!). I never would have ran that long before but I did it just fine this time. Yeah, I was out of breath but it felt GOOD and ofcourse my son thought it was soo funny! It's been almost a month now and I have no intentions of stopping! I feel so much better and I dont feel like im constantly starving or craving bad foods anymore. I know that I can still eat some of the "bad" foods, just in moderation! ....

Oh yeah and i also have one more motivation to add to my list. A good friend of mine's birthday is only a few days before mine, same year and everything. This year we are turning the big 3-0. For his bday he is having a big bash with a bunch of bands playing in Toledo and invited me to come and celebrate turning 30 with him since my bday is only a few days later! It's March 31 and I want to have atleast lost enough that everyone will notice!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
 
WTG Dea!

Congrats on the additional 3 pounds! And for having such a good weekend!

It does feel so good when we're able to start seeing and FEELING the difference, doesn't it?

And FWIW, when I started losing weight, it took about 25 pounds before my DH even NOTICED!

So by the end of March, you'll definitely be able to see some weight loss!
 
Thanks m2m! So far this week is going well. Havent really had any bad days yet..and tomorrow is cheat day, lol! I've noticed that even the past few "cheat" days Ive had, I dont pig out like I used to. It's like I feel as if I dont even want to pig out anymore! Next week Im going to start making my workouts more vigorous. I wish I could do a workout DVD but I dont know what I would do with my kids. I have to go in a separate room to work out because they will constantly be in my way, lol!

Anyway, the weekend is nearing and hopefully I can get through it with no big cheats or problems. Have a pretty busy weekend planned so I wont be sitting around bored wanting to eat..however, TOM is due any day now and I know that always makes me have a never-ending appetite. I hate it! I want to eat everything in sight and then Im still hungry afterwards! Why does that happen during that time?? I dont know if I'll be weighing in this week since it's that time because i know I always retain water and dont want to get discouraged if I have gained anything!

Ive been spending a lot of time on sparkpeople. I dont really go by their meal plans and all of that but I really like the teams there and earning points..even though we really dont get anything for the points, it's still fun!

So far today ive had:

Breakfast: one serving of grape nuts flakes with half a banana and skim milk
Lunch: chicken salad made with light mayo, cottage cheese and sf orange jello with mandarin oranges in it and ff whipped topping.

 
It's Monday and I had another bad weekend, lol. I blame it mostly on T.O.M. Yesterday I just felt like I didnt care and I wanted to eat! I didnt go completely overboard and binge, but I did consume a lot of things that I shouldnt have! Im trying to get back on track today even though I still feel like Im starving, lol. Been kind of a busy day, had a meeting this afternoon and it sort of got us all off of schedule. Friday I ordered the biggest loser workout DVD. I want to start varying my workouts because I feel myself starting to get bored with the workout Im doing on my own. So Im going to try this video out and see how it goes and do the video a few days a week and my own workout the other days. Ive heard good things about the walking away the pounds DVD, too, so I may try to order that soon. I was trying to figure out how I could do a video with the kids because they are always getting in the way and that's why I have to workout in a separate room that doesnt have a TV..but then it dawned on me..DUH! I have a portable DVD player that I could take in the other room with me! I cant believe I didnt even think of that! durrrrrrrr lol!...I should have the DVD by the end of the week..Im excited!..

Im not weighing in until Friday that gives me time to get rid of all of this water retention from my monthly friend and hopefully I'll have lost a little bit more, but Im not counting on it based on how this weekend went, lol! OH YEAH..I did measure myself this weekend and I lost 2 1/2 inches on my waist! Im very happy about that! I have been noticing that some of my jeans I have to constantly pull up. Also, last summer I bought some camo capri's and they came with this really cute camo. belt, but the belt wouldnt fit..and it fits now! WEEEEEEEEE!!!....As long as i keep going like this I will have to buy all new summer clothes this year!
 
woooooooooo
i so hope to do this when i reach my goal
tell me about what you buy
i love shopping/clothes
its exciting stuff :d
 
So, I finally weighed myself this morning. I havent weighed myself in 2 weeks and I've lost one pound! One flippin' pound! Ok, I know I should be happy because atleast I lost, but only one pound in 2 weeks? Yes, I know it could be that Im gaining muscle and I know I could still be retaining a bit of water from TOM but geeez! I'm starting to feel a bit discouraged. I know I had a bad weekend but I didnt cheat one day this week and I worked out every day, drinking lots of water. I guess I was hoping for a bit of a better surprise since I havent weighed in in 2 weeks. *sigh*. I don't want to give up and I dont feel myself wanting to give up, but I guess I've lost some of the excitement about it already. Plus, Im starting to get bored with the foods and snack ideas. I need something new! But, like I said, Im not going to give up! Im actually thinking about starting a blog soon about weight loss and my journey. I just started a blog on blogger yesterday for work at home jobs so Im going to be working on that first before starting a weight loss one.

My Biggest Loser workout DVD should be here any day now. I'm excited about that to give me something different to do exercise wise. Now, I just need some new snack idea's. That's what is getting to me the most, getting bored with the in between meal snacks.

Anyway, hopefully I can keep myself from eating too badly this weekend. I want to lose more than a pound by next weigh in! I just have to keep thinking of all of the awesome new summer clothes I can buy this year if I stick with this! I love clothes shopping and it will be even better if I'm a smaller size!
 
dont get bored huni! keep on going - thres no way you can turn back now not after all this effort. we will all fight with you :)
think about that bikini you will wear in the summer
so erm snack ideas...
at the moment i really like tinned rhubarb, low fat fruit yoghurt, kiwi fruit, low sugar jelly pots (only 8 calories!!), carrots, sultanas
maybe you could try calorie bouncing to get you out of the plateau?
could try here...
 
Yikes! A bikini!? Haha, I dont see myself ever wearing a bikini! Sometimes I get really angry at myself because I feel like i have ruined my body. I feel like even if I do lose weight I will never have a sexy flat stomach. I'll have stretch marks and hangy skin..and I dont have money to have surgery to get skin removed! I know I can work out and try to get rid of it, but I've stretched it so much I dont think it will ever be flat! But, Id be happy just being comfortable wearing a bathing suit in front of other people without being self conscious!

Anyway, it's been another bad weekend. I really need to kick my own butt in gear on the weekends. For some reason, I feel that it's ok to cheat here and there on the weekends and then I end up going overboard. ..My body retalliated again on me and I was sick this morning from eating so much junk yesterday. ..but now it's back to getting on track again. So far, so good. I finally got my biggest loser workout DVD and did it for the first time today. My legs still feel like jello from doing it! I'm going to do that workout every other day and then the walking indoors workout I have on the other days.

Even though I was getting a little bit frustrated about my weight loss slowing down, I did put on a pair of jeans yesterday that used to be snug and now they need a belt!! yay!

I did notice something today. Without going into all of the details, had some bad luck going on this morning and I was upset and crying. Normally I would be crying and stuffing my face, but not this time! Yes, I did cry but after I calmed myself down I worked out instead of going to food for comfort!

..and as if Im not busy enough with everything in my daily life, Ive decided to try the world of blogging. Ive just started one about working from home (i'll post the link at the bottom of this post). ..Right now Im just working on getting the name out there and drawing traffic to it. Then Im going to start a blog about my weight loss journey and things I am learning along the way. That will just help me keep more motivated to keep going! It's just going to be difficult because there just isnt enough hours in the day for everything! Between my kids and my job and trying to stay up with the weight loss boards and spark people to keep me motivated..and now trying to write in a blog and get traffic to it, plus I do a few other things on the side to make some extra money. I know I can do it, but it just might make it harder for me to post here but I will when I can!



 
Ok, so this week went pretty good. I worked out every day. One night we did order pizza for dinner but I still was able to control myself. I had a little but didnt over do it and even though the leftovers were staring at me every time I would open the fridge door I didnt eat them! I was feeling really good about myself and was excited about weighing in this morning. I GAINED a f'n pound! I actually wanted to cry! I felt tears welling up in my eyes! I was upset last week that I only lost 1 lb in 2 weeks and now i gained that pound back! What's going on? Im starting to feel like my hard work is for nothing! Im trying not to think negatively but I cant help it right now! Isnt it too early to be at a plateu? Argh!! Im challenging myself this weekend though. Challenging myself to be GOOD and not over do it this weekend because the weekends are always my biggest problem! It's going to be a bit harder this weekend because Im spending the weekend with my husband and our kids but I will not over eat!! even if I have to take food with me lol! I have to get over this, I dont want to give up already! I was doing so good and am doing so good with working out and eating healthier!

I do have one more thing to add to my motivation! My husband and I are going to NYC at the end of May!! My mom won a trip for 2 plus 2 nights in a Marriot and she gave it to us! I made our reservations this morning and Im sooo flippin excited!! I love NYC! This will be my 3rd time there but my husband has never been there. I have some friends there that I havent seen in years and I want to look good!!!!

Im not ready to give up but if the scale doesnt move pretty soon I might end up there!
 
Ok, I'm feeling a bit better since my last post. I used another site to look up my caloric needs and I'm thinking that maybe I'm not taking in enough calories? So this week Im going to begin keeping track of my calories again every day and if I feel that Im too low I will eat something extra. Maybe this will help get me out of this slump that I've somehow gotten into.

This weekend I did ok. Could have been better but could have been worse. We did eat out a few times but I didnt pig out really badly so Im not too worried about it. I felt good about myself this weekend because I tried on this top that I got a few years ago. I stopped wearing it because it was kind of uncomfortable and now it fits comfortably! It is even a bit flattering on me! I felt really good in it. I cant wait to buy some new clothes haha but I want to wait until I lose some more weight before spending a bunch of money.

I worked out today again to the biggest loser DVD. It's getting easier to do..well the moves are easier but it still kicks my butt..i love it! I'm not ready to give up on this yet!

Oh yeah and Ive started a new blog about my weight loss and giving people some of the advice and tips that I learn along the way. I'm going to add a new post to it tonight.

 
good idea about the blog hun!
and also good for you for getting in that top :)
have you tried calorie cycling? it may get you past the plateau
 
Hey now, look at my weight tracker! It moved! WOOHOO!!! ...I went to the calorie counter last weekend and that said that I was way under what I should be eating calorie wise so this week I started keeping track of everything I was eating. Every day this week after dinner I was only around 1300 calories! So I started eating a few extra things throughout the day. The weird thing is that Ive been so used to eating such low calories that when i would eat extra i felt like I was cheating or messing up. Then I stepped on the scale this morning and I had lost 3 lbs since last Friday! woohoo! Im very happy about that! Only one more pound til Im at 20 lbs lost! I hope that will be the end of my plateu for awhile atleast! Still been working out 5 days a week. I love the Biggest Loser DVD now! It really makes me sweat but it feels sooo good! I'm starting to feel addicted to exercising. I used to always make up excuses NOT to exercise and so far in the past 2 months I havent made any excuses! Even on the weekends when I dont exercise I feel like my day is missing something without it. I never imagined that I could change this much in such a short time. My entire way of thinking has changed. I dont even think about food anymore or crave it. We ordered pizza lastnight and I had 1 slice and was full! Normally I would have ate 3-4 slices until I was sickly stuffed! Im really proud of how far I have come and I dont even think about stopping! All Im thinking about is my GOAL weight!
 
Just wanted to write a real quick update in here since I havent updated all week. It's been a very busy week and yesterday was a very bad day. Had a lot of drama with me and my husband and found out some things that I didnt want to know that happened while we were first separated. Ive only gotten a few hours of sleep because I've been awake thinkin about everything all night long and spent most of yesterday crying. Instead of binging to make myself feel better Ive ended up doing the opposite and not eating anything. I feel that sick empty feeling in the pit of my stomach and dont even have any kind of appetite to eat.

Anyway, I wasnt going to weigh in this morning because I just started that TOM again but I did anyway and I lost another 2 lbs so I've now lost a grand total of 21 lbs!! I still need to update my ticker but dont have the time right now. I'm training for a new job in a few minutes.

I'm hoping next week will be a better week for me mentally
 
Ok, it's Monday and not going too so good so far. Well, my eating hasnt been too bad but Im going through a lot of mental crap right now regarding me and my husband. I've dropped down into depression again and it's making me mad! I was doing so well and starting to feel better about myself, but now I feel like that has all been knocked down and Im right back where I was 6 months ago. I dont want this crap to make me go back to eating how I used to. I have had thoughts today of just..eating and eating, lol..but i have controlled it. I didnt even want to exercise but I made myself do it however I didnt feel like i was really into it. I guess I just have to figure out a way to dig myself out of this and not let this ruin the hard work that I have already done so far!
 
Ok, I'm doing a bit better now than I was earlier in the week. Been doing lots and lots of talking with my husband trying to get through this. There have been many days this week where I wanted to just pig out and eat, but I didnt! I did have a girl scout cookie here and there, but there were days when I would eat an entire box in one day! Alteast I was still able to control myself! Last weekend I took another update pic and I am really starting to see the difference in my body, mostly on my sides..Im actually starting to have a curve! Who know???? So that will keep me motivated, plus my bday is coming up soon and that big show/bday party is March 31 so I want to be as close to 30 lbs lost as possible by then. Tomorrow is weigh in day. Im a bit nervous, even though I really shouldnt be. I still did pretty well this week and Ive been working out every day this week, too. I guess it's just the fear that I'll stop losing again like I did for 3 weeks in February! That wasn't fun! I'm doing the calorie cycling thing now and hoping that will keep it from happening again! I'll update soon!
 
Hmm, ok, so the scales didnt budge Friday, but, I'm ok with it! I know I dont always have to depend on just the scales! I had a bad weekend as far as eating goes, but Im not really worrying about it because I had a good weekend otherwise! I was very busy so thats why I made some bad food choices, not that Im trying to make excuses. I know I ate wrong and I knew it while I was eating it!...Saturday I went and tried on some clothes just to see what size I could squeeze into and Im down two jean sizes! WEE! im so excited! I took two different sizes into the fitting room, I took one that was one size below what I normally am and one that was 2 sizes. I figured the one that was 2 sizes below was a waste of time but I tried that one first and they fit, and they looked good! I wasnt going to buy any new clothes yet until summer but my mom was with me and she bought them for me anyway, lol!...Then Saturday night I went out with some old friends and drank..a lot. A little TOO much but i had so much fun and it really lifted my mood to go out and have some fun because I dont get to do it very often these days!...and things are looking up again for me and my hubby and we are hoping to be living back together sometime next month. Eeeeek! Im excited, but scared, too. We have been separated since July of '06. It's been a long and bumpy ride, but there is some good that came out of the pain. I really had to look deep inside of myself and be the person I want to be and that person is a THIN person!..and I may not even have come here if it hadnt been for the changes I have made in myself..in the inside and out.

Ok, I'm totally rambling, but I'm in a good mood! I hope this is a good week for me! Im eating suuuper good today and drinkin lots of water to flush out all of the bad stuff I put in my body this weekend. Here's to a new week...*cheers*
 
one quick update for the week. I'm down another 2 lbs...YAY for me! I wasn't expecting much this week because I had a few bad days of eating but I've really pushed myself this week during the workouts. I've got to try and stay on track this weekend. Im off in a few hours to spend the weekend with my husband so I'm sure there wont be much healthy food to eat there, lol..but I can still limit myself and I'll probably go to the store and buy a few things for the weekend.

Still in a decent mood and hoping the weekend goes well!!
 
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