Triathalon time!!!!
Thanks guys!!!
!! After that one weigh in my weight has been
ALL OVER THE SCALE!! I got my T.O.M. and drinks last week, and BAM 169!!! Ugg...this morning though, I was back to 166.8!
AGAIN!! I laid off the drinks this past weekend, and am laying off them completely for a while!
...Reason being...
I'm in TRIATHALON TRAINING!!! WOOOP WOOOOP!!!! I can't WAIT!! 6-26-11
YOU ARE MINE! OLYPMIC DISTANCE RELAY!!! I'm so excited!!

!! I had a breakdown last week and started crying after our training session with the trainer last week. Mainly because the scale was
fucking with my mind! I went from 166.8 for 4 weeks, and then to 162.8 on Friday, to six days later 169!!! WTF!!! I started crying. I was telling him of how this has been a lifelong struggle. That though I am not morbidly obese, it sure as fuck feels like it sometimes! I went on with a rant of how I am goal orientated that has
BIGGER MEANING in life than weight loss! The 26.2 Mile Marathon I ran in Oct 2009 was for
HEALTH & APPRECIATION!! And that now, since all this p90x and his bootcamp...that the only evident goal has been WEIGHT LOSS & it SUCKS!!
It sucks because I love to workout! When I think about working out in a weight loss fashion, I begin to resent it if I do it without any significant results. (though I do see some). Still. Not enough. It's not the 120 pounds that my mind would love to see. I told him that my dream would be to do a
TRIATHALON!!! That training for a marathon was ok, because it's a solo sport, yet the world of TRIATHLETES is
very intimidating!
I don't really know shit about riding a bike. I don't know much about swimming in the ocean. I swim in pools. I've had crazy ocean wipe outs before where I almost died I felt. The ocean is crazy. It's attainable though! I'm going to do it!! Fuck yea I am!! I feel that I'm ready! I need a BIGGER CHALLENGE!! It's intimidating. I still don't know how my body will shift to transition of water, to running, to biking. So the race is
26 mile or something bike, 1 mile swim, and 6 mile run I believe. Damn!
I asked my boyfriend (also, so he won't feel left out of my fitness area of life) if since he had 2 mountain bikes, that we could start training on Sundays together and bike crazy hills!~ He said..:
Sure, babe! I told him he could also, tan his sexy ass body too. Cause he is SCARRY white right now on some parts of the body. hahah! Casper! We had a great weekend together too! Did tons of new stuff, and am really feeling the love.
On another note, so the trainer was being
VERY SUPPORTIVE of me, and said, "FUCK IT! LET'S DO IT! TRIATHALON TIME!!" So we are. Me, him, his brother (he does traithalons and the trainer has done one). I'm
really excited because like I said, the traithalon world is intimidating for a single girl to wedge her way in. If you feel me!? But with two men backing me, even just in spirit & training, = THAT IS ALL I NEED!!!
This time around though, I feel
competitive!! I want to be GREAT! The trainer told me to start
Spinning at the gym 2 times a week before our morning workouts! FUCK! That means be up at 5:45 to spin for an hour, then get my ass beat by him for an hour, then somehow find time to do p90x for an hour at night, and my NEW SLIM IN 6 WEEKS program for an hour at night too!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW!
Can she do it!???? I
have no idea. Can my mind do it?!
HELL YES!!! I am STRONGER, AND MORE DRIVEN than MOST PEOPLE I KNOW WHEN I SHIFT INTO THAT MODE. See, what I have noticed that is my edge, is that other people have SPEED, AGILITY, TALENT, STRENGTH, THIS AND THAT....but what I have is POWERFUL TOO,....I have HEART!!!
I have HEART FOR LIFETIMES!!! I PUT MY HEART INTO KNOWING I CAN DO IT!!! THAT'S ALL! ..that's the difference.
I have a Lance Armstrong in me. Because I
choose to have him there and see it there, and feel it in my blood, and TAKE IT FOR MY REALITY! He is I, and I am him!! HIM IS GOD! And we all have LANCE ARMSTRONGS in us, because WE CAN!!!
Even when I ran the marathon, there are people with NO LEGS running it. Now, you tell me, that we don't all have Lance Armstrong in us..... That's GOD! No other.
My eating this week and from now on will be SPOT ON. Alcohol will be a distant memory, if not maybe only for ONE MEAL of the week. The trainer now wants to start KILLING me for training, and I need to be READY for him and ready for MY OWN KILLING TRAINING! I feel
FOCUSED!!! EXCITED & INVIGORATED!!! Something I never ever would have thought I would be doing. Dreamt of it. But doing it? Wow. I've come a long way....
That's me now, Bitches!
! Taking CONTROL!
Also, have been doing video web blog logs, but just keeping them on my computer. We'll see how I transform....
Teaching a 2 hour SELF HYPNOSIS class tonight, and now I really want to focus on attracting TONS of WEIGHT LOSS clients!! They help me focus more, because I start leading by example. Just do!