Cord's Quest

Awww, thanks, Kat!

Well, I'm off to head south and do some hiking and shopping and eating.

I probably won't be able to post again until Friday, but I might snag some computer access somewhere and say hi.

Sadly, it is forecast to rain every day of my trip, and clear up again when I return home.

Sigh.

See you all in a few days!
 
Hi.

Just wanted to let you all know that I'm not dead, just been out of town.

And going camping for the weekend so won't post again until Sunday at the earliest.

Hope you all are doing well.
 
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I am so happy for you! That's a ton of inches! :D :D :D Your family must be so proud of you, and you should be too! :Angel_anim: I know we all are!
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Ditto, it is awesome and feels great to see the inches melt off!!!

Cord the Seeker said:
Well, I'm off to head south and do some hiking and shopping and eating.

I probably won't be able to post again until Friday, but I might snag some computer access somewhere and say hi.

Sadly, it is forecast to rain every day of my trip, and clear up again when I return home.

Sigh.

See you all in a few days!
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For curiousity where did ya go, inquiring minds ya know...

Cord the Seeker said:
Hi.

Just wanted to let you all know that I'm not dead, just been out of town.

And going camping for the weekend so won't post again until Sunday at the earliest.

Hope you all are doing well.
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Have fun camping, i have yet taken my girls camping, went once when my 15 yr old was 6 months old, yup needless to say we havent been back yet...

My girls are such city slickers and princesses I cant picture them camping, lol
 
Have a blast camping!!!!!! Have a smore just for the hell of it!!! You certainly deserve it!!!

Have a great weekend cord!!! :hurray:
 
Well, so much for the holiday...

While I was off south, I climbed a couple of mountains - for the first one I went to the first two peaks, one 550m ascent and the other 600m ascent (although you only go partway down again before heading back up), and about 5km total horizontal distance up and down. For those familiar with British Columbia, I climbed the Stawamus Chief. Up and down took about 3.5 hours.

The second climb was the Grouse Grind, popularly known as "nature's stairmaster". The trail is 2.9km long, and pretty much straight up - the vertical ascent is 853m. My time was 1hour 18min, which is apparently quite remarkable for a first-timer, not to mention someone my size. Average time for the grind is 1.5 hours.

On the day in between these two climbs I walked the Stanley Park Seawall, about 8km. You know, as a 'cool-down' day.

Immediately after the Grind I drove home (normally 6 hours, but took 9 due to car trouble. The next day we went off camping with friends. On the second day we went for an hour's easy hike, and I also spent about an hour kayaking around the lake we were at.

So, as holidays go, I think I kept pretty active.

The bad part was that I also ate immoderately and without restraint. And it showed on the scale this morning.

During my holiday I gained 4 pounds. I feel awful.

However, if there is a lesson to be learned here, it is that the lifestyle I have been following up until then was working. As long as I watched my food intake, made good choices, and got regular exercise, I was going the right way. Fall off the programme, and it all goes to hell.

I feel simultaneously triumphant at all the stuff I was able to accomplish, and crushed because of the concomitant weight gain.
 
Oh my gosh! That is so amazing being able to hike as much as you did! Honestly, do not worry about the weight gain! I promise you, check by the end of this week and it will be gone. You probably built some pretty good muscle doing all that. Are you sore at all??
 
Hey cord,

The amount on hiking/kayaking you did on your trip is pretty astounding. Although you may have eaten a lot to cover it, you still need to realize you gave you body a stellar workout. Also, I wouldn't get down on yourself for the weight gain. Unless you really think you ate 14000 calories over what your maintainence level is, its likely a bunch of water retention from your body trying to adapt to the change. Maybe by friday everything will have settled. Obviously you know your body better, but flucuations happen. Good luck with the week!
 
don't sweat it man. i can't tell you how much i gained while in NH. it comes right back off when you hit the routine, don't beat yourself up for living. We say we don't want to be a slave to food anymore, but while we lose we are even more so. we are afraid to eat, which is just as bad. you gained a couple pounds. i can guarantee you it'll happen for the rest of your life. but you know what to do to lose it. live life like you are your goal weight. would you bee this down if you were 180 lbs and gained four? mmost likely not, you'd just workit off. remember this process is PERMANENT. you'll being doing this routine or something similar for the rest of your life. i know we all want to get to that golden number, but lets enjoy life along the way. indulge every now and again and do it conscious free. because its a meal or two, and even if you gain, you now know you have what it takes to get it back off. see my diary, and you see i hade me a good sunday. puuled pork grilled pork beef brisket, brownies, cake, soda. i had it all, and i don't normally eat pork or beef. i was at a filipino BBQ and i didn't want to be rude. lol. so man just keep at it. we got your back here.
 
Holidays do that to all of us! Look at all the super awesome things you got to do though!!! I mean WOW!!!

you really accomplished alot so dont beat yourself up TOOOO badly. its good though that you are being a tiny bit hard on yourself because i can see you are going to be strict with yourself this week as a result and do awesome!!!

keep up the hard work... everyone has some slip ups... but look at the cool things you accomplished this week! :)
 
Ive never done the grind but would like too, lol, Ive nevera actually walked the whole sea wall either...

1.5 is average for the grind hey good to know:)You totally rocked it!!!Im a little scared of it actually...

Only for the last 6 months Id say have I started eating better at mom and dads when I got here, I always used it as an excuse to eat as I want but now Im like hey no more junk food please dont buy it cuz i eat it, lol...

I eat worst there than I do at home but now it isnt as ridiculous as it use to be...

I also think it has to do with having an appetite cuz im not working when im there and my body is actually getting rest from not working nights.

Im a BCER as you know and I love Vancouver, it is so beautiful adn offers ALOT!!!
 
Cord, you did a great job, don't beat yourself up. You worked damn hard *while on vacation...geeeze* when I look back at your activity levels and you food levels a while back, compared to the now, its like night and day. Pat yourself on the back, if you were closer, i would do it for you. **and then I would run, in case you tried to make me descend a mountain with you ;)**
 
Thanks for the posts, everyone, and my apologies to those who read my journal, as I haven't been posting here much.

I also apologise to all of you who I normally interact with here. I just haven't been in a very post-y mood lately. Sorry if I have not been a good friend.
I haven't forgotten about you all, even if I haven't been visiting.

In the main I am just profoundly depressed right now. Life just doesn't seem right, or satisfying, or something. It's not like there is anything truly wrong, it's just that I feel down right now.

Part of it, I know, is that I am having real trouble getting back on track. I don't know why it is so hard right now, but I just don't feel motivated.

It is also hard during summertime holiday to find time to sit at the computer - there is always too much to do.

Tonight I was really depressed and negative, and had to hit the track to burn off some of that stress. I actually tried jogging (sort of), for the first time since they made me do it in school (running to catch a bus/train/boat doesn't count).
I say sort of because what I did is what I call 'Scouts Pace'. You alternate walking and running a set number of paces - in my case, I chose 50, a number that sounded do-able.
I managed to keep it up for a mile and a half, so 3/4 mile actual jogging. I thought that wasn't too terribly bad for starters.
Then a mile and a half walking after that, and finished by going up and down 40 flights of stairs.
I felt better after that.
 
Hey there Cord, nice to see you back. IMO ~ you shouldn't appologize for not posting or feeling like you are not being a good friend to people. We are all here for support and that involves give and take. You are going through a bad time and thats when we need to be your support system... besides..Im not a friend if im only there for the good times. ;)
Good for you in how you handled your stress... Exercising is such a fantastic release and you did some things that were new to your regime as well. The fact that you felt better after was an added bonus.
It is so hard to come on line when the sun is shining or you feel you should be doing stuff.. but just remember its an option for when you are having those bad moments and need to come vent. Or if you want to pop in and brag about something...
Anyways... lol... ill stop babbling, and will end with saying, you are an inspiration, even when you feel you are not, simply because you keep trying.
Michelle
 
Hi everyone.

I'm still having trouble getting back on track, but I go back to work this afternoon and I think that will help. Seems easier to regulate your life when it is partly regulated for you. :)

Last night I started a new swim programme. Heretofore I had just been going back and forth, but I decided that I need an actual training plan.
So here is what I tried last night:
50m swim
50m kick
50m pull
ladder - 25m/50/75/100/75/50/25m
kick set - 50m x6, starting slow and increasing speed until full out at the end of each length
150m swim - smooth and easy
50m sprint - go as fast and hard as I can (which isn't very)
100m swim - smooth and easy for cool down

Total length is still 1000m, which is standard for me, but the different items and pacing made it a lot harder, especially all the kicking, since the vast proportion of my propulsion comes from my arms.

One nice thing that happened last night was that when I finished my set at the pool, the cute lifeguard said that she had noticed that I have lost quite a bit of weight. It's nice when strangers notice the changes in you.
We had a great discussion about what I had been doing, and how she could use that information to help her aunt who is trying to improve her health.

Today my exercise is going to come from swinging a sledgehammer and driving posts.

Peace out, everyone.
 
Have fun with your sledgehammer. Not my idea of fun . The workout however, cannot be denied.

It sounds like you exercise is completely on track my friend. If you are anything like me, the exercise portion has become the solid consistent part of your routine. It's the psychological aspect and periodic relapses into the land of poor food choices that get you sometimes.

I could use a kick in the ass every now and again. I dunno if you are the type who needs a little straight, no b.s. talk to get you on track again, but I'm here if you need an ass kicking, just do the same for me, 'K?

Us big dudes need to hang you know?
 
Thanks, Karl.

I thoroughly enjoyed the sledging (or is it hammering?). I won't say it was a great workout or anything, but it was fun. I didn't get any other exercise at all today, though, so I'm a disgruntled panda.

I don't know if I need an ass-kicking at this point, but I'll let you know if I do. :)

It's all psychological right now. I keep slipping into and out of depression, and it's annoying the hell out of me. And simultaneously making me feel tired all the time. Which is also annoying.

I ate pretty well today. Plenty of fruit and vegetables, leftover whole wheat pasta for supper, and breakfast was my beloved steelcut oats and hemp seeds, which I haven't had in a while.
 
Hey, it's me again.

Yesterday was pretty decent as far as the programme goes, but not so great mentally.

I got my swim in in the late morning, which was good, but otherwise the morning was a wash.

My daughter was not having a good morning, breaking into crying and screaming fits at the slightest provocation. These always set me off and I'm afraid I wasn't very nice or understanding. I have a bad tendency for having zero patience with her when she is like that, and even more unfortunately when I have no patience my response tends to be anger. So of course this just makes her more upset, which makes me more upset, etc etc.
It's not good.
I feel terrible, because it's not her fault, she is genuinely upset even if she doesn't know how to have a measured response yet.
It is my fault because I do know to stop and think before reacting emotionally, and I wasn't.
I'm under a fair bit of stress these days - looming employment uncertainty, family issues, weight loss issues, feelings of inadequacy, and general procrastination which is leading to depression.
But it is no excuse for speaking harshly to my daughter.

Sigh - sorry, I didn't mean to spill my guts like that. This isn't supposed to be my whining, emo journal.

Anyway, after all that I spent the afternoon assembling my new table saw, which I will need later this afternoon to start cutting fence boards. Looking forward to that - using power tools to cut things in half is great therapy. :)

Worked the evening shift and ate homemade pizza - yum.

Got a nice fast 7km walk in this morning, so today has started well and I am feeling better. I want to hang on to that good feeling.

Good feeling, won't you stay with me, just a little longer...
 
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cord, no worries, its your journal post what you want. I hope you'll get yourself sorted out, as far as weight loss goes, you are doing great. no reason to slow down. we all question ourselves on the journey, we are human, but just keep going and all your questions will be answered. Believe me, i know. you doing ti right man, and a 7k walk is nice. so there is no reason why would would want to lay down after my 2.2 mile run... that's not even 5k! keep it man, i'm in your corner!
 
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