~*~ Confessions and Thoughts of a Girl Looking to the Future~*~

SoSel said:
I feel so bad that I was self-absorbed in my own drama.
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Selena thanks so much for stopping by. I'm always glad to hear from you. I understand that you have a lot of hard stuff to deal with right now.

I am sooooooo tired ... I couldn't nap :0/ BUT I am going to the gym. I just had a snack and I'm getting ready to go... I'm gonna do the best I can... at least I havn't started eating crap over this week eventhough the exercise hasn't been so great... that is a major victory for me... I used to be all or nothing.
 
My workout was much shorter than usual because I am so god damn tired... I'm gonna start taking benedryl every night like my boyfriend does... I need some damn sleep!!!

On a very very happy note... I jogged... it may seem little to everyone else... but dammit I got my fat ass moving on that treadmill and jogged I only lasted 7 minutes in a jog ...but I can work on it... it was much more tiring than speedwalking... But I'm proud of ME!!! lol

I also stepped funny while I was speed walking after my jog (yay!) and nwo my left foot hurts I'm icing it down. Its part of the reason I had a shorter workout... but I still feel great about the workout

Lunch: lean cuisine meatloaf and mashed tatoes

I hope everyoen is having a fun humurous happy day:)
 
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Congrats on the jog! i know that was something that you have been wanting to be able to do for a while. I'm proud of you too, great job! I hope your foot is not injured.

Diet tip of the day: A Whole apple pie does not count as Whole Food.
 
Griff said:
Congrats on the jog! i know that was something that you have been wanting to be able to do for a while. I'm proud of you too, great job! I hope your foot is not injured.

Diet tip of the day: A Whole apple pie does not count as Whole Food.
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Thanks for the laugh:rotflmao: Its a good one!

If it is I'm not gonna let it hold me back... I'll use one of those arm machines for a few days... I'm sure some ice will make it feel better:)
 
Instead of Benadryl, have you ever tried melatonin? It works for me, and is easier to wake up from than Benadryl or tylenol pm. If I can't sleep, I take one and I am OUT in about 40 minutes.
 
Great suggestion Amber I forgot all about melatonin... In high school I used to have a huge bottle of melatonin, caffeine tablets, dimetapp, dayquil, and nightquil over my bed for sleeping and waking up (i've always had a sleeping problem):)
 
Its hurting :( It was just a really bad step... I hopeing it feels better tomorrow... I have a tiny (teensy weensy) bruise like in the spot where it hurts...so we'll see

Thanks for asking Griff:)
 
I called my father to tell him I hurt my foot... and of course he said so just got back tomorrow and just do your workout (which I was gonna do anyway).
This is also coming from the person who when i broke my wrist for the first time still made me go to hockey practice and said "stop crying if you wanna play with the boys act like the boys" ... I was the only girl in an all boys hockey league...then that night he shook my wrist around and it wasn't swollen or bruised (I dont' really do that when I break a bone)... and he went see its not broken... the next day he sent me to the orthopedist with my grandmother and it turned out it was broken... to this day he feels bad about that... I mention it and you can tell he's embarassed and feels bad

From that experience though I've learned not to stop when your injured ... thus possibly causing further injury... that's how my arm got so broken with the shot put... i threw once kenw I had a bad throw... but I had two more throws and I wasn't gonna let my team down so I threw two more times... and then I was Fucked!!!

LOL sorry sharing stories from my youth(yea I knwo I'm still young:rolleyes:)

Food today:

Breakfast: yogurt and watermelon
Snack: muenster cheese and kashi tlc 7 grain crackers
Lunch: lean cuisine meatloaf and mashed tatoes ... I used to look at these things int he freezer and say how the hell can anyone eat those for a meal and be full and it filled me up:) )
Snack: apple
Dinner: chicken ceasar wrap
Snack: no sugar added fudge pop (so yummy and only 40 calories and 1 g of fat)

I hope everyone had a bright sun shiny day:jump:
 
Gooooooooooood Mooooooorning World:jump:

My foot doesn't feel so bad this morning.... I kept rubbing it last night and putting heat on it... seems to calmed it down alittle... although a nice workout at the gym may screw around with it again but I'll worry about it later.

Breakfast: yogurt and an apple

Have a great day everyone!
 
Good morning Jenna!

You might want to do the elliptical or bike for a few days to give your foot time to heal a little. Hope you have a great day.

Griff
 
Hey Jenna, sorry it's been so long since I popped in here. you still amaze me with how on track you stay with your eating and determination to go to the gym. and BRAVO for jogging! 7 minutes may not seem like much, but hey it's 7 minutes more than I've done in a year and a half! so you rock in my book!
hope your foot starts feeling better soon
 
airmanwifey819 said:
Hey Jenna, sorry it's been so long since I popped in here. you still amaze me with how on track you stay with your eating and determination to go to the gym. and BRAVO for jogging! 7 minutes may not seem like much, but hey it's 7 minutes more than I've done in a year and a half! so you rock in my book!
hope your foot starts feeling better soon
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Thank you for stopping by:) How are your little ones doing?

So some good news for once:rolleyes: :

I got an e-mail from my professor who I'm doing a directed study with to get some research experience and an old friend of his is writing a book on the topic i'm studying and if i finish my research before I graduate his friend may include it in his book.... this is sooo awesome!!! I thought I was just researching some random topic for fun instead of the depressing, sad, horrific ones I usually do!
Not to mention this would look AWESOME to law schools:jump:

Yay me! HAHAHA :rotflmao:
 
Boam46 said:
Thank you for stopping by:) \

So some good news for once:rolleyes: :

I got an e-mail from my professor who I'm doing a directed study with to get some research experience and an old friend of his is writing a book on the topic i'm studying and if i finish my research before I graduate his friend may include it in his book.... this is sooo awesome!!! I thought I was just researching some random topic for fun instead of the depressing, sad, horrific ones I usually do!
Not to mention this would look AWESOME to law schools:jump:

Yay me! HAHAHA :rotflmao:
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That is sweet! I had a prof (who had been teaching 20+ years) like a paper I wrote so much that he re-set his standards. If you don't write as good a paper as I did, then you don't get the grade. But your news is something way more awesome. :] I haven't been published [since school magazines]! If you need any help writing or revising, let me know. I'm a literary nerd. The chance is too awesome to pass up. Keep me updated!
 
Thanks a lot Selena:) I'm really excited... I'm gonna really gonna get my butt in gear now ;)

Whooo!!! I just got home from the gym and feel great...I'm not back up to my 2+ hours but I'm getting close... not going to the gym for sooo many days has really set me back but I'm working back up to it... I did 7 minutes of jogging, 13 minutes of speed walking, 15 minutes on the bike, then I did about an hour of weight training:) It feels good.

Weigh in in 5 days... really gotta get my butt in gear.
 
Quote of the Day

Happiness does not come from doing easy work but from the afterglow of satisfaction that comes after the achievement of a difficult task that demanded our best.
 
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Okay, sorry that I didnt get to post much when I got home last night! It was really late and I worked at 7am this morning, so my dad banged on my door and demanded that I go to bed because I was so tired and didnt have enough common sense to make myself sleep.. even though I really needed to. I only got 4 hours of sleep so as a matter of fact, as soon as Im done here Im making my new resume, then taking a nap! That means Ill be eating dinner very late tonight, but I dont care because im sooo sleepy! :)

You are doing SO well! I havent even TRIED to jog.. in YEARS! Cause im too embarassed. Im so proud that you arnt too embarassed and are achieving your goals! You are doing so amazing and you keep me going strong. You remind me of what I SHOULD be doing for my health! Thank you. You are so inspirational. I CANT WAIT to see how you're going to do on your weigh-in! You'll do great! :D

xo
 
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No need to apologize I totally understand. You do need some more sleep... I actually just posted in your journal that maybe you need an afternoon nap:)

I am embarassed to jog like I was to go back to the gym... but I basically said FUCK IT... i'm not going to let what I think others think of me stop me from doing what I need to do.

I hope my weigh in goes well... I didn't exercise a lot for quite a few days... it worries me slightly ;0/
 
Boam46 said:
I am embarassed to jog like I was to go back to the gym... but I basically said FUCK IT... i'm not going to let what I think others think of me stop me from doing what I need to do.

I hope my weigh in goes well... I didn't exercise a lot for quite a few days... it worries me slightly ;0/
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Yeah, well, we have to do that. Just screw what everyone thinks and do for ourselves. I love the track I go to. People of all shapes and sizes go out and bike ride, jog, walk, and run. Yeah, I felt a jab of envy when I saw Miss Blonde Barbie-Girl going for a walk yesterday. But I passed her on my bike and vowed to concentrate on me. I'll make some man real happy one day, no doubt. But I can't wait to take pride in myself!
 
Its really hard because I have had people make fun of me when I was much much much thinner than I am now... so now that I am this size I just feel liek everyone is staring and laughing.

I just put on my ipod turn it up and go into my own little world... I have to.. otherwise I would be stuck at the beginning making no progress.

As for pride in myself i can't wait for that either... I've been proud of myself so far... but I don't take pride in myself:rolleyes:
 
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