I ponder what I should do all the time.
First of all, I weighed about 255 starting June of last year (not a muscle man let me tell u) I did something about it and I dropped to 165lbs in 8 months, healthfully for the most part, sometimes i went a little lower calorie than I should have but I was usually by the book (its all that works) When I got there, my goal was alwas 159lbs and then Id build up from there. I have no desire whatsoever to be huge I just want to be lean. At 165, I had family members begin to give me negative compliments, and I had my own mother cry when she saw me. I mentally could not lose weight anymore after seein that. The problem as most people who drop a lot of weight can tell u, is u have a lot of abdominal skin/fat leftover. The loose skin combined with any fat at all makes it look like u have a tiny version of what u once had, just gross and well....it looks aweful. Supposedly if I get to single digit body fat that goes away. I built up for a few months ( ihave a sedentary job in the summer so gaining is quite easy) but WHen I saw my weight go past 170 (im 174 today) something freaked out inside me. I felt like i was failing. Id been losing for so long, I cant see weight gain as forward progress. My ultimate goal in life was always 173 (I weighed 273 2 years before that) but I went above that recently and freaked out.
My question is can I build in small spurts, and cut in small spurts, keeping my weight below 180. I just want to not have scrawny arms and a gut, looking developed.
I know I need to just get over it, but the skin is just depressing. Im healthy now, I can run and lift more than I ever could. I can do pullups, at least 10 in a row, but this skin and these "battlescar" marks on me hold me back. I want to lose stomach fat but i dont want to get skinnier.
Id say if i was ok with my shirt off, id be 100% ok with my fitness life
Any suggestions.
First of all, I weighed about 255 starting June of last year (not a muscle man let me tell u) I did something about it and I dropped to 165lbs in 8 months, healthfully for the most part, sometimes i went a little lower calorie than I should have but I was usually by the book (its all that works) When I got there, my goal was alwas 159lbs and then Id build up from there. I have no desire whatsoever to be huge I just want to be lean. At 165, I had family members begin to give me negative compliments, and I had my own mother cry when she saw me. I mentally could not lose weight anymore after seein that. The problem as most people who drop a lot of weight can tell u, is u have a lot of abdominal skin/fat leftover. The loose skin combined with any fat at all makes it look like u have a tiny version of what u once had, just gross and well....it looks aweful. Supposedly if I get to single digit body fat that goes away. I built up for a few months ( ihave a sedentary job in the summer so gaining is quite easy) but WHen I saw my weight go past 170 (im 174 today) something freaked out inside me. I felt like i was failing. Id been losing for so long, I cant see weight gain as forward progress. My ultimate goal in life was always 173 (I weighed 273 2 years before that) but I went above that recently and freaked out.
My question is can I build in small spurts, and cut in small spurts, keeping my weight below 180. I just want to not have scrawny arms and a gut, looking developed.
I know I need to just get over it, but the skin is just depressing. Im healthy now, I can run and lift more than I ever could. I can do pullups, at least 10 in a row, but this skin and these "battlescar" marks on me hold me back. I want to lose stomach fat but i dont want to get skinnier.
Id say if i was ok with my shirt off, id be 100% ok with my fitness life
Any suggestions.