Colleen's Weighty Musings

Lol, well we didn't PLAY but he's a fun friend. Whew. The festival ended yesterday. I am whooped. Two of our colleagues also had deaths in their family - their mothers died, one on Thursday the other yesterday. It's been so exhausting and emotional.

I'm thinking I can get back to my routine now. In fact I embrace the blisters and sore heels. My weight loss has stalled but I don't think I've gained again, which is good at least. Of course I'm too chicken to look at scales. Just so my clothes fit . . . sigh.

I'll try to update more often, but my life is gonna be pretty dull for awhile. Just work, work, work.
 
Lol, yeah, it's been a bitch at work lately. Season started so I'm overwhelmed. I've not been all that good on my diet. Not gained thank da lawd, but I just can't stick with a routine. It's an aspect of this job and commute I hate. Very hard to leave the desk for any length of time, and I'm exhausted at night. I've been very depressed about it this month. As my birthday approaches I don't know if I'll see any change at all. And that's just disgusting on my part.

The good news is I connected with yet another old friend from high school and college days. He lives just a few miles away and at almost 54 has been running for ten years. He's giving me lots of pointers and being a very supportive friend. It's inspiring me to do better. It's hard to shake the depression though, and the restlessness. I'm a little worried what the holidays will do to me. The idleness may depress me more. I'm a walking contradiction lately. Need a distraction badly. Real badly.

Colleen
 
Hey! Good to see you are still around!

Don't get so down on yourself... it is easy to get depressed when you are feeling overwhelmed like that. I know, been there. I have some breathing room right now, but that's only temporary. Actually making the time to get out there and move around REALLY HELPS!!

Good to see you have reconnected with a fried that sounds supportive and healthy to be around. Fantastic!

Hang in there girlie, you'll get through this. :)
 
Thanks sweetie!

I was sooooo good last week. Walked a lot, and since I was having major car issues I was so stressed I didn't wanna eat bad. I dropped like 6 pounds. I know it was mostly water but it has inspired me to keep going, lol.

It's Halloween week! Gotta be happy on Halloween week!

Colleen
 
Nice job last week. Stay away form the lollies :)
Dont worry about things so much man, put on da Reggie woman and listen to da Marley... :)


Distraction.. I like that term... :)
 
Hi everyone!

Hopefully I'll be able to check in more as the holidays approach and things get slower at work. My home computer is pretty useless, so I haven't had much play time online.

I'm happy to report . . . well, no significant loss HOWEVER I finally got the impetus I've been waiting for. I was just cast in a marvelous part and I have until the beginning of February to make some serious strides towards losing weight and tightening up. I know that's a short time to expect miracles, but I'm gonna work like I do! I'm just excited to have a palatable reason. I couldn't seem to get motivated before - not for me, not for New Year's, which I'll be dateless for anyway and certainly not for no man! Theatre is my GREAT love and I rarely get to perform anymore. And this role is a peach!

Hope everyone is doing well. I know this is a terrible time to try to diet, but I'm gonna dig in. Wheeeee!

Colleen
 
Hi ya'll!

Well this is pretty bizarre. Last week I was losing pretty steadily but I sort of expected that because I was walking like crazy (one day I actually did TWO 9 mile walks. Uh, I regretted that, lol) and though I'm not starving I have cut the breads and crackers, etc. and mostly doing fresh vegs, tuna, one egg a day and those Progressive Lite soups (I miss crackers, sob!) My calories are as low as I can make them and not feel deprived or weak.

So last night I got back from rehearsal. That night I'd eaten some shredded lettuce with hickory smoked tuna and carrot sticks. I was surprised to find I couldn't eat it all, and it was a small bowl. So I went on to rehearsal, got home about four hours later and weighed in, not really expecting much.

I was down, total, including the little bit I'd lost before this started . . . 13 pounds! I'm at 175 now. I was ecstatic.

Of course the weather sucks today and I have rehearsal until almost 10pm so I'm gonna have to double the walking either Thursday or Friday. I'm thinking of taking Friday off if the weather is good, so I can do those marathon walks again. And if I can do one 9 mile walk Saturday morning before rehearsal I won't feel guilty about indulging a little at our departmental Christmas party. This is a really hard time of the year to diet, argh.

So I seem to be on a roll, an obsessive one but I think it's time. If I can get into a size 8 skirt for this play I will be in Heaven.

More later. Best to everyone!

Colleen
 
Ping. Ping. Echo...hello in there.... :)
Happy New Year!
Hope everything has been going great for you!
 
Hey ya'll!

Busy work day but saw where ya'll had checked on me. Thanks! Things are fine. In some sort of holding pattern with the weight. Lose two, gain three, lose two, lol. But I'm feeling a lot better, less bloaty.

Show is so great. My favorite role ever, and largest in some time. Now that things are heating up (we open in 2.5 weeks) I find I'm able to stay on the diet much better because I have no time to cheat, lol, but exercise is a real issue. Maybe it will all even out!

More later. Zoom!

Colleen

P.S. Got a new car!
 
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