Clearly the last time did nothing for me.

Secretsof2113

Secretsof2113

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I joined back in May, posted 3 times, and left. >_< Recently, things have been going on with me that have made me really want to take the time to actually lose weight. The staggering 290 I was at is now a thing of the past. However, I still have a hell of a long way to go if I expect to actually get anywhere.

I started at 296 in September.
As of right now, I'm at 272.
My goal weight is 200-210.

I'm a tall person at 6 feet, and a size 18-20, so that gives you an idea of my build. I'll get into these modes where I do well for a couple weeks, and then all of a sudden, I lose the drive and motivation to continue for a while. It's a never ending cycle for me, and I'd like to get to the point where I'm not tired all the time, and have energy to not just sit on my ass in front of the computer screen. I'm hoping to get down to 250 by May, for an anime convention I''m going to. I enjoy cosplaying, and the character I'm going as has some leg showing (actually, both costumes do.) I wore one of them to a convention I went to in January, and was promptly made fun of online when some pictures of me popped up. There were some very hurtful remarks made about me, and I realized then that there is a lot that I need to do to truly become comfortable with myself.

I recently moved into my own place, so I now have a lot more control of the foods I consume. When I lived at home, it was all about what my mom kept in the house.

Looking for that motivation that seems to have left me again.
 
REally? coming here last time apparently taught you something because you did lose a bit of weight, and even better, you didn't put any back on.
Anyway, WELCOME BACK! If you stick around, you'll be reminded of your goal every time you visit.
 
ANIME!! o.m.g. That convention sounds like it would be a blast!!!! I wish I lived near those kinds of things so i could attend it!! Too fun! Did you make your costume!?

I'm sorry to hear about what happened to you...it's not fair when people make fun of others without even knowing them! And people do it all of the time for no reason! Whether someone is big, tall, thin, small, people can be VERY hurtful!

But regardless, what is important is how YOU feel, and that YOU'RE comfortable! It's taken me a long time to learn and actually engage in the idea that if I'm happy with myself- screw everyone else who judges me! When people judge others, it's a reflection on them, and their insecurities! I know that stuff still hurts, but just remember, you're probably a lot more happier and comfortable with yourself than them! Even though you might not feel like it, I bet you are! It's great that you're dressing up and going to the convention! That is PURE fun! But I bet those people who made fun of yuo, would be too stuck on their own inhibitions to do that, and actually enjoy themselves! So good on ya girlie!!!!

AND SHOW THAT LEG!!!! :)

I hope you stick with it here! I have found this site to be great! it's really help me stick to my goals! These peeps give such warm and encouraging advice and motivation, that it's pretty hard for me to fail! And I think that if you stick around, and keep up with your diary, you'll kind that there's a lot of people here that want to help you succeed :)

Here are some tips that I've found helpful! You can take them or leave them!
*Take your initial weight and inches! Weight yourself once a week, and take your inches once a month! Sometimes the inches drop quicker than the pounds! So it's great to see both!
*Record what you eat, how much and when you eat! I would even suggest taking the time to count the calories. I was ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS against counting calories..i thought it was obsessive and actually unhealthy to do so. WHen i started in Jan I thought I would just eat healthy (my idea of healthy) and that would be fine. But then i started not seeing the results I wanted, so I decided to count my calories, and I found that what I thought was healthy, was still a heck load of calories! So i took my BMR (which is the number of calories you burn while resting - you can google it, and calculate your own BMR)..then i started counting calories and made sure I was below my BMR! I have found it so helpful! it keeps me in check, and honestly, it makes me proud when I see that I've eaten a satisfyingly meal, and I'm not taking in a whop load of calories!!
*Record all of your exercise- in a much detail as you can!! I record my cardio and strength training! This way I can see my progress! I can see how faster, and longer I'm running, or how much more in lbs I'm lifting! It's great!!

Also, if you record all this here, and you're not seeing the results, you can go back and check out what you need to change- and you can also ask the community for help!

I know it's a lot of work, and a bit time consuming, but it's worth it! And I really think you can do it! You have the motivation, drive and determination! Look at what you've already lost! That's a fantastic accomplishment!!! You can do this! And we'll be here to help you :)

*hugs*

:) :) :)
 
People say mean things all the time but the things they say are a reflection of them - not you.
That aside, I hate pictures of myself ... I just dont look good in them and I'm tired of going on holiday and not coming back with any steaming hot pics of myself because I'm generally ashamed of how I look.
 
Thanks for the encouragement guys. To answer Tik's question, I do make my own costumes. To me, it's better to do so because it does show an artistic side, and lets people see something unique. Most of the conventions we go to are around a 2 hour trip for us, but we've gone to ones that are 4 hours away, and the one we're planning on attending in May is actually an 8 hour drive. It's expensive, but proper budgeting allows for a large group of us to do it and not have to worry about breaking ourselves.

I have such a long way to go before I'm truly comfortable with myself. My boyfriend tells me he doesn't care, but I know deep down, he'd like me to get in better shape, but he just won't tell me to my face.
 
I have such a long way to go before I'm truly comfortable with myself
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I know how you feel. I can remember back in jan when i started- I was SOOO self-conscious! I went through a phase where I wouldn't wear anything but yoga pants because I felt soooooo gross and uncomfortable! I thought i wouldn't be comfortable with myself until I lost 30, 40 or 50 lbs...

But 13lbs later, I'm like - "yeah, you know it, I'm hot!" ...it's not that I've lost a lot of weight, or that there's a drastic change...but there's something about having a goal, and sticking to it that has made me feel SOOO good about myself!

And you never know, you might start feeling like that too!!

I still have a long ways to go- but I think while part of feeling uncomfortable is how we think we look, I also think part of it is that we don't have confidence in ourselves for being able to lose the weight- and once you start, I think you'll be surprised as how it changes you :)

You're doing great! And you're going to do great!!!!

Happiness is so important! And if you want it, and it'll make you happy, then girlie - you can do it!

Sometimes we're the only road block in our way to happiness :D
 
I agree with what Tik is saying.

Most people that comment about us, are simply trying to deflect attention from themselves because they are worried that they have failings and they are hoping that nobody will notice if the attention is on us and not on them.

We need to start by choosing to love ourselves first - as Oliver Cromwell said "warts and all". We each have so many wonderful qualities, yet we tend to focus on what we see as our failings and ignore the good points. If we compare ourselves to others then we will always find some area where we think we fall short. The only true comparison is self to self. Where are you going, what are you going to achieve now that you have decided to get back on the path through this forum.

We are inclined to mind read others and assume that they are thinking the worst about us. What is actually important though is what we are saying to ourselves in our heads. Perhaps someone means it when they say that they think we are lovely as we are - and yet in our heads we argue with them.

Abraham Lincoln once said that "people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be"
 
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