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CherryBomb

CherryBomb

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I'm 5'4" and 154 pounds. I'm trying to lose at least 25 pounds.

My diet has been awful for as long as I can remember. I seriously think I remember eating french fries for lunch every day in high school. I also remember times when I was a strict health nut, but I eventually reverted back to crappy foods. I always ate whatever I wanted without gaining weight, but over the past few years I have gained 25 pounds and I need to realize that I can't do it anymore.

So...this past week has been a "health nut" phase that I would like to continue. I haven't been counting calories, but just eating healthy foods and trying to eat more protein. Oh, also I am on a colon cleanse program so I have fiber with chocolate soymilk first thing in the morning. I started on monday and the past 4 days this is what I've been eating:

breakfast: fiber drink first thing in the morning, then fruit at 10:00
lunch: chef salad with low-fat dressing at noon
snack: Fiber One with rice milk at 2:00
dinner: Lean Cuisine frozen meal, or if I cook, some kind of protein and veggies

I try not to eat after that, but if I do I have light yogurt or a Kashi granola bar-they have a good amount of fiber and protein. I drink alot of water, probably 80-100 oz. per day.

I've walked twice this week (3 miles each time) and on the off days I did 30 minutes of pilates.

So, I was doing good until tonight. Stopped at my mom's after work to pick up some homemade chicken soup and ended up eating a big handful of Cheez-Its and some chocolate. My BIG problem is once I screw up, it's like a free-for-all and I keep eating. I brought home the rest of this one pound chocolate bar and my boyfriend and I ate the whole thing. Then he made pizza and these little quiche things and well, you get the point. Now I feel so guilty and I don't even want to exercise. It's amazing how a little screw-up can affect everything :mad:
 
Hang in there!!

Hang in there CherryBomb!! Don't let one little screw up affect how you feel about loosing weight and exercising...Everybody screws up sometimes, we are not perfect, and the worst thing you can feel is guilt. Just learn from this experiance, and move on with your progress. You CAN acheive your goals as long as you put your mind (and body) into it. Good luck to you :)
 
Stay Positive!!!! Keep your head up and your legs moving!! Tomorrow is a new day, Have a Good night and d rink alot of WATER!!!:D
 
Hey there..... things like happened to me once I first started on my diet. Think our body just fights for the sugar and junk food. It takes awhile and for me it never went all the way away but instead of yelling for it now its just a constant whisper lol.... keep it up you can do it.
 
Thank you so much for the encouragement!!!

I didn't exercise tonight, but yes, have been drinking the H20 ;) and I just made my chef salad for tomorrow's lunch. Today the girls at work asked if I wanted to order lunch out tomorrow, as we do every friday, and I actually said no! Weird thing was I felt a little guilty about saying no. Sometimes I feel pressured in those situations, but I know I will feel worse if I give in.

I'm gonna try to get up early and walk before work, but if I had a dollar for every time I said that I'd have enough $$$ to get liposuction and be done with it :D

One thing I know that is crucial for my success is being prepared. Having healthy foods and zero junk in the house and making my lunches at night has helped alot.
 
A not so good day

I'm a sucker. Got to work today and there was a dozen donuts in the kitchen from one of our clients. I'm really not a donut person, but if you dangle one in front of me I will most likely eat it. So I had the coconut coated chocolate one. The sugar made me feel ill about an hour later.

I reluctantly ate my salad for lunch. Oh and since I didn't want to order lunch out, what did they do? Bought me a bowl of soup. Very oily italian wedding soup. They were sweet to do that, but I REALLY didn't want it. I only had a little and I haven't eaten since then. Just drank lots of water.

I just sent my bf out for Subway. I got a footlong veggie on wheat and a diet coke. I should be eating some protein, so if I get hungry later I'll have a turkey burger without the bun.

I didn't walk this morning either. It's pretty chilly outside so I don't know if I will walk(I know, excuses, excuses). I'll do pilates later after I'm not so full from dinner. Doing pilates on a full stomach is painful!

Hope everyone had a happy & healthy day!
 
Hi Cherry Bomb,
Welcome to your diary!

Is this "diet" you're on, something you can live with after you lose the weight? It seems you need to find alternatives for when life throws you something you're not expecting.

I would be concerned with feeling like you "failed" on the diet or dealing with "guilt", not to mention, once the weight comes off, you can't just go back to eating what made you gain the weight in the first place. So you need to find a way to lose the weight, living a normal life and something you can maintain that weight loss with.

You might consider checking out or and just record what you're eating for awhile. You might get a clear picture of how much you're having or not having and from there you can make adjustments that might help you from those 'binge' moments/days.

Remember, each meal is a new opportunity to start fresh :D

Good luck on your journey!
 
Cherry bomb... hang in there! Great advice from M2M and the rest of the gang too. The best thing for long lasting weight loss is to pick a "diet" you can live with for a long time.

If you deny yourself food you enjoy you'll end up feeling deprived all the time and who wants that! That may be why you crash big time when you have a little slip... just a thought.

Good to meet ya!

Susan
 
Fitday.com RULES!

You're both right. I haven't been planning as well as I could be. M2M, I just checked out Fitday and it rocks! That's awesome how you can add foods that aren't on their lists. My Fiber One with rice milk wasn't there, but now it is!
I'm gonna go back there now and plan some meals.

It's raining here so I can't take my walk as planned. I guess it's a pilates day.
 
A better day

When I woke up this morning I was a littled bummed because it was raining and I wanted to go for a walk. Instead I cleaned and mopped our pantry and threw out all the "bad" food.

Nutritionally, I could have had a better day, but I did OK considering I came very close to ordering chinese food!

breakfast: Fiber One w/rice milk

lunch: homemade chicken soup

snack: 2 granola bars (I was starving after the hour of cleaning I did)

dinner: 6" veggie sub from Subway w/diet coke, Baked Lays and a macadamia nut cookie (very bad I know-but chinese would have been far worse!)

Much to my surprise, I went on a 3 mile walk with my dog even though there was a chance of rain. That's alot in chihuahua miles! He's gonna be in better shape than me :p

And I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE the fitday website.
 
Cherry,
Walking is the bomb, it will get you moving towards a happy healthy lifestyle. But I will say, if I hadn't joined a gym and didn't have access to a rain free environment, I'd never have kept going. Got any plans for joining one? In my experience it is a neccessity. Good Luck and keep it up!
 
I would love to join a gym but I'm very picky. The one down the street from me is just not my style. It's like a night club or something when you walk in. I just don't feel comfortable there. Maybe when I lose a little I will gain confidence and be able to zone out all the perfect-bodied college kids.

I was in the best shape of my life when I did have a membership about 8 years ago. I ran on the treadmill and lifted weights. As soon as I got to a point where I liked the way I looked, I stopped going. I'll get there again. On my walk tonight I did a few 30 second bursts of running. I have to be careful though as I always end up with shinsplints. I'm hoping to work my way up to jogging again but I've never done it on pavement-only on a treadmill...in air conditioning...in front of a tv. hehe
 
Homemade chicken soup! I made that today too, for dinner! Sooo yummy. As is Indian food, definitely. I really need to find some awesometastic recipes and start posting them.

Last summer I only jogged on a treadmill since outdoor jogging wasn't really an option. Now I run outside, and the transition to pavement from treadmill isn't really so bad, though it takes a few days to get used to it. It's definitely a bit harder on the joints (or so I've found) but not atrociously so. Hopefully you'll be building up to it in no time!

Sifen
 
I had too much to drink tonight. We went to my boyfriend's parents' house for dinner. They are social drinkers, so as soon as we arrived his dad fixed me a vodka & diet sprite. Then while his mom was cooking I had another vodka & tonic. As for appetizers, I only had a tiny smear of cheese on a cracker and about 6 smoked almonds. His parents make fabulous gourmet meals. Tonight we had pork roast with braised fennel(not really a fan of this), and canneloni beans with tomatoes. We had some red wine with dinner and I had a chocolate eclair for dessert (it wasn't even very good).

We just got back from grocery shopping and I have a raging headache. So bad that I can't even prepare my chef salad for tomorrow's lunch :(
Luckily I bought some Smart Ones frozen meals, so if I don't wake up early enough to make lunch, I can just grab one of those.

The rest of the day:

breakfast: Fiber One with rice milk
lunch: turkey burger (no bun) with 1oz. neufchatel cheese(1/3 less fat) mixed with 1tbsp of my mom's red pepper jelly, and 1/2 green pepper raw
snack: 1 slice deli roast beef, 1 slice deli low-salt ham

I walked 3 miles.

I'm going to go have some tea and pray that I don't have a hangover in the morning!
 
OMG I almost forgot-I weighed myself at his parents' house and it said 150! So I lost 5.4lbs in a week?? :confused: I'm going to weigh myself on the postal scale at work tomorrow just to be sure. That's the one I used when I started last week. Always best to use the same scale :)
 
You have been doing good this week. I belive you lost them 5,4 lbs!! YAY!!!! have a GREAT Day and keep drinking your Water and doing your Exercise:D
 
Today was just awful. I weighed myself at work and it said 156lbs. I know I'm gaining muscle so I'm not gonna let it get to me. What DOES get to me is that I allowed myself to eat something bad because I was stressed out.
Let me explain:
On a normal day, it takes me 5 minutes to get to my mom's house from work. I wasn't even planning on stopping there today, but traffic was so backed up that I figured I'd pop in to say hello and wait it out. Well it took me 45 minutes just to get to her house. It was madness. So needless to say, I was absolutely starving not to mention frustrated by the time I got to her house. :mad:
I preceded to inhale a powdered donut and an entire box of Kraft mac & cheese. Now I've gone 500 calories over what I planned on (1200-1500). Still less than the amount I used to eat on a daily basis, but not good enough if I want to lose weight!

On a positive note, so far I've drank 90oz. of water today and I'm not done yet. I'm going to drink 2 more 24oz. bottles before I go to bed. As for exercise, I still feel a little head-achy from last night so it's a no-go tonight, but I'd like to get to bed early and walk in the morning. I think the peacefulness of early morning will do me some good and give me a chance to reflect on where I went wrong today.

*I'm going to keep healthy snacks in the car from now on, because you never know what's gonna happen. :rolleyes:
 
Car Snacks...What a deliciously evil idea...Thanks!! :p

Oh and about the gym...trust me, when i'm on the eliptical, all I can think about is being bigger, stronger and better looking than all those jackos that only go to the gym to hang out...their day will come..oh yes, their day will come:D
 
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