cnolan7263
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Well, here I am, once again at the beginning of a weight loss journey. It's a journey I know all too well - the beginning is well travelled, the end had never been reached. I've been overweight my entire life. I'm tired, I get winded doing steps, I eat like an absolute glutton. I've gained about 25 lbs working the night shift, and will thankfully be starting a 9-5 position on Friday, therefore leading to a normal sleeping/eating pattern. I'll also be in my car most of the day, which means I won't be snacking.
Maybe this next part will lead to flares...whatever. This is my journal and I'd like to (FINALLY!) feel free to tell the truth.
I've been dating this great man for a month now - and last night he told me the reason he wanted to end things was because I wasn't active enough. He's a runner, and I always lied and said that I was lifting weights after work. He told me that if I can change my lifestyle to be more healthy and active, then we can start over. Maybe it's not a good motivator - but something about the look in his eyes showed he genuinly was worried about me. I guess it was more of an eye opener than anything. I DO need to lose weight. I need to lose 100 lbs, but my initial goal is 20.
You would think that because I'm a nurse, I'd know the dangers of being obese. I do. And you would think that having bad blood work back in Janary would cause me to be alarmed, or that many of my family members are having heart attacks and issues with HBP and Type II Diabetes, but that never succeeded in getting me to follow a healthier diet and start exercising. Maybe the fact that I'm losing someone special to me did it.
At any rate. Here I am - back at the beginning. I'm changing jobs, just moved to a new apartment, and I'm DETERMINED to do it this time.
Maybe this next part will lead to flares...whatever. This is my journal and I'd like to (FINALLY!) feel free to tell the truth.
I've been dating this great man for a month now - and last night he told me the reason he wanted to end things was because I wasn't active enough. He's a runner, and I always lied and said that I was lifting weights after work. He told me that if I can change my lifestyle to be more healthy and active, then we can start over. Maybe it's not a good motivator - but something about the look in his eyes showed he genuinly was worried about me. I guess it was more of an eye opener than anything. I DO need to lose weight. I need to lose 100 lbs, but my initial goal is 20.
You would think that because I'm a nurse, I'd know the dangers of being obese. I do. And you would think that having bad blood work back in Janary would cause me to be alarmed, or that many of my family members are having heart attacks and issues with HBP and Type II Diabetes, but that never succeeded in getting me to follow a healthier diet and start exercising. Maybe the fact that I'm losing someone special to me did it.
At any rate. Here I am - back at the beginning. I'm changing jobs, just moved to a new apartment, and I'm DETERMINED to do it this time.