Changing the Way I Feel and Eat!!!

So happy for you Jess! Exercise I think is the key to feeling better about life in general. You sound so happy sweetie & I LOVE it! Your post has made me smile. Lots of love xoxo Cate
 
DAY 2



Food

2 coffees

2 homemade burgers(meat) in oven with some potaoes.

4 mini toasts

low fat white cheese

greek salad


Got up but not like day 1.There was a little bit of moaning ! went to get my MIL after leanng mario at nursery and we went to the center of Athens for some things she wanted to do.i helped her then wewent back to her place.and thentime just flew went got mario from school , back home , cooking cleaning up.in the evening when G came back we had lots of things done in Marios room so i didnt go run in evening cause i had no time.We fixed his shelves and dvd player and hanged the tv onthe wall , also i cleaned all his shelves the walls and his door .Was beat






Day 3



Food

veggies in oven

low fat white cheese

4 mini toasts

2 coffees

yoghurt low fat with half a nectarine





Exercise



25 minutes jog on 7,5speed and 2% incline!

lifting weights for Back and Biceps

25 minutes jog at stadium




I have had another tiring day.I woke up at 7"45 ...45 minutes late so iwas in such a rush.I made a mess of the house...........................After nursery i had to go clean that building in Athens and then i went to the gym.I found it much esier to run on lowerspeed and upping the level of incline gave it a little boost.Then after eating too many baked veggies (i think the eggplant is to blame)i felt my tummy bloated and had no soda.......so i waited 3 hours and went for a jog hoping i felt better and the bloatness left.I did feel a little better but ifelt soooo tired and my legs where killing me this time.I think i over did it a bit.

I am notgoing to work out tommorow and i'll just stay home and clean up.Feeling SO TIRED.AGAIN.


Cate im glad you like that mesage~!!!~~~~~!!!!I am feeling so much better than i did nearlly a month ago.It was the combination of NOT working out AND my friends wedding i couldnt (wasnt allowed to) go to aswell that made me feel so terrible........i will try my best to never let myself get that way for anything or better ANYBODY again.
 
Good for you Jess! Glad to see you feeling better about yourself again. Sending you a very energetic, but not too mushy hug (as I know that you're not big on the hugs) :hug2:Don't ever forget to love yourself sweetie & to take time just for you, xoxo Cate
 
Its been a month and some days that i last posted.It started cause we didnt pay our internet/phone bill and where cut off for more that 2 weeks.Then i was just plain awfull.not thinking about anything healthy eating what ever i wanted,i only managed to stay away from cakes and chocs but i did mange to get all the etra cals in anyway....I dont weigh i dont want to know i think i must be 87 or 86 kilos.I cryied today while i tried on a stripped paid of trousers i have.They were LOOSE last year and now so tight.O cried. and just thought how anfair life is for me....yeees...awfull thinking this when i have so many good things and my lovely angel in my life...guilty for feeling like that.

I have been working out.going to the gym or the stadium or just the seaside for runs.I havent been lazy at all.working out 4 times a weekit helps me feel a little better,


my legs are really strong so are my arms.i have started my situps again.The instructor at the gym told me that stomach is what holds your back,that a strong stomach help back pain.And i have back pain a lot so i ve started them again.\

I am going to buy a food scale again since my old ones broke.Will do that with the first cash i get.And i will start weighing and counting again i want to go to 79 kilos or 78 and just stay there,.Thats the weight i feel good at.

I got a shockfrom those trouseres.i really did.

things in life are a bit crazy ,money is still a huge problem.I so want to goback to move to the states....but i dont think G is very interested.I have mentioned it to him a couple of times to see his reaction and he doesnt really seem interested.We dont have family there just 1 person G knows.I told him to speak to him on FB and ask him if stuff is good there what he thinks of a family moving there ,what the pay is ect.He lives in Virginia Beach this man and he is a restaurant manager.But G says he will do it but never does.

So now again about food i am hoping to take things incontrol again.Tommorow a new day a newweek.


I have been eating a breakfast every morning AFTER i come hom,e from my workout but i think its also to blaim for my weight gain.no loss

it 6 tbs og oats in low fat milk with som raisins cinamon a chopped banana and a teaspoon honey.I orked it up to about 500 cals.How can something so healthy be so calorie filled>?I am adictedto it i even have it sometimes for dinner,i should not do that anymore and just have the oats with milk.Plain and untasty!!!

need to go to bed i have a full day tommorow.

i m not going to say im sorry for disappearing....i feel so ashamed i am pretending it hasnt happened.not mentioning that.just put my head down with shame.
 
My new week is here.ITs so hard again...all fron start....oh well////

I logged on my fitness pal after ages and changed my info ....................seems like i can have 1410 cals a day to llose 1 and half pounds a week.

i also changed my goal weight from 65 to 78 kilos.

i have been trying so very hard to manage this day well food wise.

up till now its like this


Breakfast 1 coffee( 70) cals , 1 cereal bar (108) cals

Lunch plate of orzo with coloured pepers in cooked in tomatoe and onion (650) , 3 mini toasts (90) tiny salad lettuce and half cucumber (80)

Snack 1 coffee (70) 1 cereal bar (108) 1 pack sweeites maoam (89) 1 slice bread 150 cals

'Total 1416


i got this at MFP

If every day were like today... You'd weigh 82.3 kg in 5 weeks


oh so encouriging!Will i really?
 
Well done sweetie on getting back on the wagon & welcome back. I have missed you!! xoxo Cate
 
Thank you Cate!I have missed you aswell , i have missed this place and i have missed making some effort to eat better.

Today is my second day, i feel very positive and very hungry!

I just came back from the gym and after a long talk with one of the fit instructors i am not going to lift weights for 1 month.Only cardiovascular training for 30 kminutes plus 200 sit ups.I must go 3 or 4 times a week.I have this month to loose 4 kilos.He said to NOT eat my exercise calories and i will see the difference.After i have lost the 4 kilos i will start liffting weights again.,

So i am going to log my cal in MFP and add the exercise only late at night after eating is over.Not to get confused.


Its a bit chilly here today , seems like winter had FINALLY arrived for us , its about time isnt it?October is nearlly over and we where wearing all our summer clothes till last week.


Aw i hope i manage it well through the day.....
 
Hi Jess, sorry I've been such a slackie! It's good to see you back sweetie. You deserve to feel good about yourself & you know that healthy eating helps you do that. Eating rubbish makes most of us feel like rubbish. Exercise, combined with healthy eating & a good night's sleep, is the key to making me feel good about myself & life in general. It is absolutely essential to my mental well-being. Hang in there sweets & do what you can to feel good about yourself. Finding the right balance in life will always be a juggling act but do the best you can. sending you lots of love xoxo Cate.
 
Thank you Cate!Your words are wise and very very correc.Finding the right balance!?Not so easy to do though....I know i can do this its feels like i have lost my motivation though cause i dont hate myself like i used to do.I know thats a good thing but i now just think well this is me and i am this size cant force my body to be something else.Its cray.GOing from hating myself to loving myself then putting weight on ,wanting to loose it but also not really trying so much cause i have acepted myself..............making any sense>???

HAd a good week now its a new one hope to do better.

I had a bit of a bad day yesterday only cause we went to my sisters and she had lots offood but im ok it wasnt sooo bad
 
br 2 coffees 1 koulouri

lunch pasta with some tomatoe basil

179 cals of dorito snack

bowl of oats w/raisins and low fat milk


still hungry...................................
 
i have been really good theese days cause i have been unreal buisy non stop all day i am totally beat right now again

i think i am actually under my cals.Feeling it already.....the weight leaving me that is!
 
AHiya girly, Hope all is good with you x

I know where you are coming from about not hating yourself enough to diet. I have had to regain ALL my weight, to finally feel like doing something about it again. Arggghhhh. You absolutely have to do it now though, please don't end up where I have! x
 
thank you Cate,there are so many awful things that happen in this world.Things i didnt even know till i find out by FB....i nearlly erased my profile cause things i read get me so depressed about animals and children....but i didnt i think it would be selfish to do so...like im turning away from reality just to live in my own happy world...


Things arent well eating wisae that is...no no no ...i have slipped real bad....didnt have the courage to even come on here and tell you all about it.Feel like a looser to you guys.I know you will say i shouildny bt i do .i even feel embaressed i have slipped like this.I have given up on exersice and eating.I have gained.I have been trying to keep things under control a bit and have made better choices.I even told my family and friends i am on a strict diet now so i cant go eat like a pig infront of them now...after saying this.

Have had peas with potatoes and carrots in lemon sause today 2 slicves bread.and boiled broccol for dinner....i am REALLY hanging in there,i mustm ake it throuhg at least a week and i will get used to it.I know i will....
 
Oh sweetie, I don't look at awful things on FB. I sign squillions of petitions etc & email politicians but I try not to dwell on the bad & focus on the good. That doesn't mean I hide my head in the sand. Get yourself back into that happy place my lovely young friend. Your life is to be enjoyed. I am sending you a great big hug but also am imploring you to get back on track with your eating & exercise.

Happy thoughts :biggrin:, self-love :hug2:, healthy eating:Angel_anim: plus exercise :hurray:(nothing appropriate!) and no self-beating-up :banghead: are what's needed sweets xoxo 'Auntie' Cate
 
AI stopped reading the newspapers for about a month after a 5 year old girl (April Jones) went missing here, because it upset me so much. There is a lot of bad in this world, but there is also good.

How much weight have you regained? x
 
you are right cate i know you are!

i am really proud of my eating these last days nearlly a week now and i have lost 1 ,5 kg...

i weighed in at 88 kg this morning..so ruth i have gained loads..i was at my lowest 77 kg and then i went to 80 feeling really ok though.78-80 kg i felt good ...crap...nothing to blame just myself and my big mouth

Its more because i forgot to be absolute about my NO;s,I used to say NO and that was it finished,i was ok about it.Now i dwell on the thought of what i am not eating.I have emergency carots here at home, something that i had stopped doing.also i have started again to understand the difference between hunger and just eating for nothing...i am a bit miserable but its something i must do.i said i am never going to be 100 kilos again...and thats a promise to myself.


also i have developed some acne..yeap!at 31 years old i get acne.on my chin....i have these spots that are really bad somedays/weeks and then just calm down but still are there never go away.

i went to the pharmacy and the lady said it is acne........hate it.....i am taking lots of care to try get rid of it but its just not happening.....
 
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