Cat's Meow's Diary

CatsMeow

CatsMeow

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My first post to this diary will be a quick one (Work is crazy today!)
Currently I weigh 180 down from 209. I began really losing weight since April 6th when my fiancé and I broke up. I lost the first 20 pound in the first 3 weeks. I'm 5'4 and my goal weight right now is 130-140. After I get there I'll reevaluate how I feel. I try to walk as often as I can after work and my sister and I just joined Jazzercise. I've been chubby since puberty but never really 'fat' until I moved out of my parents' house and in with my fiancé. He gained weight as well but there's definitely a difference for men and women where weight is concerned. So I'm 60+ pounds heavier and single again and I've decided it's all about me now.
More about me later! :) Thanks!
 
Jazzercise has been kicking my butt. In pain but I guess that's to be expected when you haven't used your muscles in a while. I need some ideas for quick morning breakfasts. I don't always have time to cook but I'd like to include more protein in my mornings. I've been eating a Quaker breakfast cookie and tea most days. I forgot my lunch today and I really don't want to go to the cafe. The chicken fingers and mayo laden sandwiches are too tempting but I know I can't starve myself…
 
Luckily there was sushi at the cafe for lunch so i don't feel like I was ruining my progress. When I eat something I know I shouldn't I feel like why stop now. have that cookie or that piece of cake or whatever. If i'm going to do it I might as well go all the way.
I've joined the June 2lbs a week challenge. Weigh in Tomorrow! :eek:
 
for protein for breakfast, hard boil some eggs, and leave them in the fridge -or soome string cheese, or cottage cheese

I'll also do baggies of cereal that I can grab on my way out the door
 
Progress

Good Morning!
I weighed myself this morning 3 times to make sure. The first 2 times were 176.5. Of course I didn't think that was right. I weighed myself after I got dressed and brushed my teeth and the scale read 179. Breakfast was half a bagel with light cream cheese. I try to avoid heavy carbs in the morning but Fridays are bagel day at the office. I try to keep myself full with water during the day to beat cravings.

Base
Weight: 209lbs
Waist circumference: 39in
Hip circumference: 46in
Thighs: 28in
Upper Arms 17in

Current
Weight: 179lbs
Waist circumference: 35in
Hip circumference: 43in
Thighs: 25in
Upper Arms: 15in
 
Back on Track

It's been a while since my last post here. I just posted to the June Challenge. I lost 11lbs total in June!:jump: I hope to do as well during the July Challenge.

The Ex asked me to go on a cruise with him at the end of July. He says he's starting to realize he really does want to be with me. It's nice to hear but we'll see. I can't really pass up a week in the Caribbean when someone else is paying can I? ;) We went to the local Renaissance faire recently and he bought me a corset which I looked fabulous in!

Otherwise things are going well. I feel great exercising, but I've noticed from my food diary that I'm not sneaking in enough fruits and veggies. An apple a day just does not cut it. I get kind of tired of baby carrots as snacks… Any ideas for getting in more fruits and veggies during the day? I've also started to stock up on frozen fish filets. They last longer and I can cook a single serving at a time which is great because my sister, whom I live with, will not go near anything that comes out of the ocean. Her basics are pasta and microwave meals.

I'm really feeling great about my progress. I've wanted to loose weight for a very long time but never took action. Now that I am taking these steps to get healthy so many other great changes are happening in my life. I'm looking forward to the future.
 
Tea and Crumpets

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I feel a little crummy today. Lack of sleep maybe. I lie in bed sometimes and think too much. Then I think about going to sleep and so I can't sleep. I've been eating too many carbs lately I think. Salmon last night with the Ex though! How much fish is too much I wonder?

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Just a few more weeks until the cruise!:jump: I slipped into my size 14 jeans over the weekend. Went to the mall and it seems all the stores with the 'cute' clothes only go up to a size 10. Damn those Lucky Brand Jeans! I always hated going into plus size clothing stores. I just want the clothes all the skinny girls wear cut a little bigger for me. I don't need a tent to hide myself. All the big girl clothes are cut like a box or make me look matronly. I'm still in my 20's. :mad: I want to be cute too dammit! I was able to buy some nice new bras from Victoria's Secret though!

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Yesterday I had tea and a crumpet for breakfast, Smart Ones pepperoni pizza for lunch and salmon with crab and mixed veggies for dinner. I had a nonfat Chai later that night as well. My diet analyzer still says I need to cut back on fat and carbs and up my protein. I'm staying away from the 4th Of July parties with all of their delicious pasta and potato salads.

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I lost another pound in the past 4 days. I want this weight just gone for the summer. My weight loss averages out to about 3 pounds a week since April. I know 1-2lbs a week is ideal. I don't want to lose weight too fast but now that I'm half way to my goal I want to get there as soon as possible so I can enjoy being slender. Slender is such a great word.

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I've only missed 2 days of Jazzercise so far this month. No night class tomorrow so I'll try to get myself out of bed on a holiday to go to the morning class. I always tell myself I'm going to get up early and go to the Saturday class as well but I never do. 4 days a week is enough I think.

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That's all for now. Everyone have a great Tuesday! :)
 
Chicken and bean quesadilla for lunch. I need a nap but it's so beautiful outside I think I'll take a walk. Does any one else squeeze in exercise during the work day?​
 
I had the rest of my quesadilla for dinner, which was a bad idea right before jazzercise. Now off to the movies to see Transformers!:jump:
 
Hi Emily -- wow, I'm impressed with your progress so far. And how great are your new measurements! I take measurements at the end of every Weight Watchers session -- it is really nice to "see" the changes to my body when I see how the measurements have changed. Especially since I can't see much of a difference when I look in the mirror. Not really.
Great job and woo-hoo on the cruise, going with the ex or not!
 
I know how you feel about the cloths. I'm only in my 20's and I feel like the cloths in plus size stores are just not made for me. For this reason I pretty much stick to t-shirts, hoodies, sweatpants and jeans. Keep going and soon you'll be able to get those cute cloths you want!
 
'Does it look like I borrowed your shirt?'

Tea and crumpets for breakfast again. Salmon for lunch leftover from a few days ago... still so delicious with its crab topping.

We (the Ex and I) spent the 4th on the Riverfront here in Delaware. Avoided all the food vendors except the water ice of course. A lot of walking and 'ice' skating on a rink made of some sort of acrylic plastic Lego snap together looking things. I wish I was still young enough not to fear falling on my ass. :eek: Dinner yesterday was bruschetta and a summer salad - greens, strawberries, walnuts, crumbled blue cheese, char grilled chicken, and raspberry vinaigrette. So delicious. I felt bad leaving most of the salad on the plate but I've learned that when I'm full to stop.

I wore my sister's super cute black blouse, my 'skinny' jeans and black ballet flats. She had no idea when the shirt appeared back in her closet after missing for almost 2 days!:D I felt really good about myself. I've really started taking the time to do the whole hair and makeup thing. I felt like such a schlub before I just didn't bother. Now I realize that if I take the time I feel better about myself and others notice that.
The Ex is starting to notice the change in me. We discussed that fact recently that his number one reason for breaking off the engagement was that I just didn't take care of myself anymore, that he was my number one focus and he couldn't be with someone like that. I can understand wanting to be with someone you find physically attractive, someone that is motivated to get ahead and be successful in life. I'm really considering going back to school to finish my Psychology degree and I absolutely have to get a new job by the end of the year. This job is going nowhere and that’s not healthy for me or my bank account. Beside I need a job that’s going to enable me to buy a cute new wardrobe!:)

I got henna on my left hand at the Ex's suggestion during the Riverfront 4th festival. As we were looking through the design books he pointed out one that he liked that was painted on a girls belly around the bellybutton. I said sure if I had a flat stomach. His response was that I will have a flat stomach soon. Indeed I will!! :jump:
 
Hi Emily -- wow, I'm impressed with your progress so far. And how great are your new measurements! I take measurements at the end of every Weight Watchers session -- it is really nice to "see" the changes to my body when I see how the measurements have changed. Especially since I can't see much of a difference when I look in the mirror. Not really.
Great job and woo-hoo on the cruise, going with the ex or not!
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I did Weight Watchers years ago and it worked pretty well for me. My mother is really into the Weight Watchers thing but she's so tiny anyway. Right now I'm sticking to counting calories via an online tracking system and lots of cardio and weights about 4 times a week. Seeing the scale change is great, but what's even better is seeing my thighs shrink and being able to fit into smaller sizes. I'm going to try to make it a habit to take my measurements once a month. I think it's harder to see a change in oneself. The progress is too slow or subtle (in your mind) or we're just too critical of ourselves. That's why it's great to have honest support. I hated it when people would say "You look great. Are you losing weight?" When I'm sure they knew damn well I hadn't lost a pound. "Are you losing weight" is not a compliment in my book.
 
I know how you feel about the cloths. I'm only in my 20's and I feel like the cloths in plus size stores are just not made for me. For this reason I pretty much stick to t-shirts, hoodies, sweatpants and jeans. Keep going and soon you'll be able to get those cute cloths you want!
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What is it with those stores! Everything is cut really square and hangs off my boobs or is empire waist and makes me look pregnant. I have curves and I want to look like I'm a woman. Yeah maybe I want to hide some of the rolls and wobbles but I don't want to look like wide walking rectangle. It's hard enough going into places and trying on clothes when you're overweight. I've been in the fitting rooms plenty of times determined to find myself a great outfit only to be crushed at how horrible I look. If I looked like some of the 'Plus Size' models in their ads I wouldn't have any issues with my body. I have to keep telling myself they're airbrushed etc… I'm a real woman with fleshy arms, droopy boobs and a healthy belly roll. I think 'What Not To Wear' should have a Fat Girls Show!

I've been trying to wear clothes that really fit me well, not overly baggy pants and tees. I've been sneaking into my sister's closet lately. She weighs a little more than I do but she's got about 3 to 4 inches in height on me. I have gone down from a size 18 to a 14. She squeezes herself into a 12. Not so cute. I tell her so but I think she's in denial. :rolleyes:
 
I've been trying to wear clothes that really fit me well,
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that m akes a big difference in my attitude towards myself... I used to always hide under big baggy clothes now I try to find clothes that have some shape to them - including tshirts that I wear out walking...
 
Happy Friday!

Today is bagel day at work, so I committed myself to just eating half of one with just a scraping of cream cheese. Why do they make bagels the size of a human head these days? Does one really need that much bread in one sitting?:confused:
Yesterday I had macaroni salad and homemade chicken nuggets for dinner. I chop up chicken breast into nugget sized pieces, dredge in nonfat ranch dressing and roll in crushed whole wheat cheddar goldfish crackers and bake. They're quite good.
I joined the July challenge and this week lost 1.5lbs. Not my goal but it's something. I'm really going to have to push myself to meet my goal of 12 lbs total this month. Even if I don't hit that goal I have to remember every pound lost, even one, is a step in the right direction. Maybe no more mayonnaise-y salads would be a good idea. :rolleyes:
I'll take measurements tomorrow to see how far I've come there.
Everyone enjoy their Friday!
 
Those chicken nuggets sound yummy!! You have the right attitude and mentality about losing your weight... every pound lost is a step in the right direction!

Have a good day
~Jenna
 
Down with Temptation!

I totally just resisted one of the donuts left over from breakfast... my favorite chocolate frosted...:doh:
 
:jump: Sometimes it can be soo hard to resist it when its right there. Sometimes my mouth waters a little when my boyfriend is eating something I would really love to next to me. If I told him not to eat it near me he would go somewhere else but I'm not like that.

I saw in Dany's journal you plan on have surgery eventually ... I do too. Probably a tummy tuck and a lift and I am also probably going to need implants to fill me out. I've always been well endowed up there currently a DD/DDD and before I became really heavy I still had a D/DD.
 
CatsMeow said:
I hated it when people would say "You look great. Are you losing weight?" When I'm sure they knew damn well I hadn't lost a pound. "Are you losing weight" is not a compliment in my book.
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I completely hear you. If people actually thought you were losing weight, they wouldn't ask, they'd just come out and tell you you looked damn good!

The one I hate is "you have a pretty face." ARGH! That's like the kiss of death to me...I have to bite my tongue every time.

And I totally agree re plus size stores. Everytime I go into those places, the clothes are either a) boxy and matronly or covered in sequins or b) modeled after what is "in" which is totally the wrong style for a heavier person to be wearing. So annoying.
 
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