Casey's Diary, Part Deux!

Lunch was a plate of whole wheat pasta with veggie/spaghetti sauce and a salad of baby greens, carrots and broccoli. Not full, but not empty either...thought it would fill me up more than that. Weather is terrible here...not sure if I will be able to run after work or not. My head is hurting, possibly from the 2 1/2 cups of coffee I had this morning.
 
Bleghh....I just want to lay in bed and eat...I am so hungry! I had a big lunch....why am I starving again? I just want to get a burrito at Taco Bell, some fries from McDonald's, and finish off the ice cream in my freezer. Oh, and add a few slices of pizza to that. I need to run but I am just so TIRED. The weather is wet and crappy. I just want to go to bed.
 
hey casey. we all go thru those craving times. I've been craving french fries from this place called crown burger for the past 2 or 3 days. All I want is french fries and fry sauce (its a Utah thing)...

I didn't go run today. My warm bed just felt so much better. Its just been so bitter cold and ugly here lately... Its supposed to snow tomorrow but we'll see.

Hope you have a good rest of the day!

-Sam
 
Thanks Sam. I decided not to run today---took a nap instead. I had a peanut butter sandwich when I got off work and so far I'm fighting the cravings pretty well.

Remember those A&F jeans that I wanted to fit into? Well, I tried them on today, and, uh, they fit. Not perfectly, but I had minimal love-handles and they pulled all the way up (didn't get stuck right underneath the crotch due to big thighs). I even put a belt on. I'm happy they fit, but now I gotta think of a new goal...my weight is always screwy, so it will probably pertain to my measurements. I didn't think I had even gotten any smaller yet. And I start my period in a few days, so I know I'm bloated....I feel like I'm in the Twilight Zone! Oh well, LOL.
 
Great job fitting into the pants, Casey. I know how it feels to want to be always working toward something, but take some time to enjoy the goals you've reached and all of your successes.
 
Thanks for the congrats guys! Last night was a disaster....more ice cream and a frozen pizza after a dinner of more pasta. I am so bad at this. I start my period in three days and my cravings are out of control. I'm gonna run four miles on the treadmill tonight (I'm at my parents' house) and three tomorrow, then another long run of7 on Sunday. Then a day off :). I just look in the mirror and see fat...it's really confusing. I feel like I will be disappointed in my looks no matter how thin I get. It's like sometimes I have a handle on it and some days it really gets to me.
 
When does food become toxic? I can feel it psychologically---after a few days of crappy eating, I feel awful about myself. Instead of complaining, I have to do something about it. I have to remember how pizza and ice cream affect me---I gotta be strong enough to turn to healthy foods for nutrition instead of crappy foods for comfort. More thoughts later.
 
What Works For Me:
-Eating fish, whole wheat grains, fruits, fresh and frozen veggies, soy milk, beans and lentils
-Running at least four days a week, 3-12 miles, and spacing it so I have time to rest
-Reading/studying everyday

What Doesn't Work For Me:
-Eating cheese and cream
-Eating white breads and crusts
-Putting off exercise until the end of the week
-Waiting til the last minute to read/study
 
I had my boyfriend take my scale and tape measure and put them in the trunk of his car. They were both helping me get even more obsessive with my size and I didn't think it was healthy to have them around anymore. Maybe someday. Leaving in 45 min to an hour to do my long run for the week (7 miles). Hoping it goes well. :) This morning is nice and relaxing after a night of drunken revelry. I cannot believe my semester begins tomorrow...my sixth semester in college.
 
Today's Menu

Breakfast:
2 whole wheat Eggos
3 tbl peanut butter
1 banana

Snack:
1 baby greens salad

Lunch:
1/2 cup wheat pasta
1 cup broccoli
1 serving spaghetti sauce

Dinner:
1 foot long veggie sub on wheat-no cheese
1 bag baked chips
 
Dear Casey, I totally hear you on the food vs. mood. I heard something on tv the other day about how our brain runs on "FAT" ie Healthy Fat, and I realized, wow I totally better get some in me. No wonder I've been down, haven't beentaking my fish oil caps!

Your runs really amaze me. I am walking 45 minutes a day. Was doing a bit too much. Your outlook shows maturity (whoopdidoo), but you know what works for you. It really isn't worth it to let ourselves go.

Hey, 6th semester, that's all I did, a three year degree. You're gettin up there.
 
CaseyAtMartin said:
I had my boyfriend take my scale and tape measure and put them in the trunk of his car. They were both helping me get even more obsessive with my size and I didn't think it was healthy to have them around anymore. Maybe someday.
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Well done! If the scale was obsessing you too much you did the right thing. Losing weight should be about health, both physical and psychological.

Have a good sixth semester!
 
Thank you for the support ladies! I made a frozen pizza for the boyfriend last night and instead of the usual three or four pieces I only had one. I probably shouldn't have had any but I am still very proud of myself! :)
 
Yesterday's Menu

Breakfast:
2 whole wheat eggos
1 cup choc. soy milk

Snack:
1 med banana

Lunch:
1 pb sandwich on whole wheat
1 serving sliced apples
1.5 servings wheat thins
1 serving mixed nuts

Dinner:
2 pieces baked salmon
1.5 cups mixed vegetables
1 cup brown rice
1 bowl baby greens with Fat-free Italian dressing

Snack:
1 pack Ramen noodles

Exercise:
treadmill, 53 minutes (5.8mph)-five miles
 
Kind of tired this morning, but hoping this coffee perks me up. Classes don't look too daunting so far. Hoping for another good day today.
 
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