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His name is Clint. How long have we been together? It's quite the long story...we met around two years ago and hit it off, but at the time I was dating someone else. We met again in June of this year and hit it off again and were both single, but he was living around four and a half hours away, so I thought nothing would come of it. We kept in contact for a few months and he moved to my city in the beginning of August, so we've been seeing each other since then. We made it "official" about a week and a half ago. He's quite a bit older than I am, extremely intelligent, almost has his Master's degree in Philosophy. Very funny, very handsome, great in bed, affectionate. Kind of a drama queen, but I'd rather fight with him than get along with anyone else. Tall and can eat whatever he wants without gaining an ounce. Grr.
I do feel I am my worst critic. I checked the scale at my parents' house today (the one I used when I was losing weight the first time) and it showed 158. BUT I'm on my period at the moment so I'm going to see if it gets a little lower before I leave, because of water-weight and whatnot. I am still really disappointed in myself, and I feel like a beached whale, but Mom and I talked tonight and I feel a little better. She explained that I'm going to have to work at it for the rest of my life, because she's the same way. She has to constantly watch what and how much she eats to stay at her weight. Due to my body, metabolism, genetics, etc., I will never be one of those people who can eat whatever she wants and maintain her weight, no matter how much exercise I get. I will always have to be conscious of what I'm eating. It's tough, and I wish I could blindly stuff my face full of junk food. But I can't. The good news is, I can learn this lesson in my early 20's and be healthy for the rest of my life, as opposed to my friends who can eat whatever they want now and will have trouble with it later. And, there are other things that DO come easily to me that I need to be grateful for. I'm intelligent. I have a high IQ (or at least I used to, haven't been tested in awhile), I'm a fast reader and learner, and I don't have to study all that much. I don't get sick very often and I have had one major injury my whole life (a sprained ankle). I think that's a lot to be grateful for. I have two wonderful parents who I get along with extremely well. I have enough money to pay my bills and eat. So if this eating and exercise thing is something I'm going to have to struggle with, it seems okay after looking at all I do have.
