Casey's Diary, Part Deux!

Thats an awesome attitude Casey. I haven't weighed myself in just over a week. Im thinking I might tomorrow, just to see. Haven't had my measurements done in awhile either. I think my trainer wants to take them soon, so I gotta make sure I stay on track with the weights so I can see a loss. Next week I plan on hitting up Costco and getting some more groceries. I need new cereal too. I hate the South Beach ones I bought awhile back. I want to either go back to Kashi or maybe find something fun and exciting at Whole Foods, lol.....

ttyl,
Sam
 
Hello all!

After having medication problems (wasn't on enough of it) and other issues, I'm trying this again. I joined figwee (anyone else use it? like it?) and I am DETERMINED to get this extra weight off. I estimate that I am pretty close to where I was this time a year and a half ago, about 15 pounds to lose. Wish me luck guys....I need to do this not only for my vanity, but for my physical and mental health. The extra weight isn't good for my knees or feet while running and the lack of exercise and poor eating habits only make my depression worse. Wish me luuuck!
 
Hey Casey,

Great to see you back. I know you can do it! Glad to hear you got your medication issues figured out :)

-Sam
 
I have a lot more weight then 15 pounds to lose, but I have to agree that the extra weight bothers my knees. I believe losing the weight will definitely help for (both of our) mental health. Have a great night!
 
Hey guys! I'm still using figwee and loving it so far. Much better than fitday, in my opinion.

I got weighed at the doctor's office yesterday....yikes! Keep in mind I had my shoes on, I was bloated, retaining water, and I had to go to the bathroom (yes, number two) and my weight was 171.6 pounds. I'd put my "real" weight without the extra factors at 163 or 164. Definitely not happy about it, but I am happy that I'm taking control of my diet and exercise again. I'm going to try to run this afternoon. I've gone a week without working out...can't wait to put my sneakers back on. It's just something I have to start making time for again.
 
Hey Casey,

It is so good to see you back on here again. Yeah, the exercise is definitely something that we all feel so much better about if we make time for it but, it's a constant balance... Some weeks my workout numbers are much better than others.

Getting weighed in on a scale other than the one that I am used to would be a little aggrivating for me too. Nowadays the only place I even get on a scale is the gym, and I happen to own a pretty nice scale that I don't even use anymore (it's put away).

Glad your back ;)

-Sam
 
Well, still haven't worked out yet but I'm optimistic. Having medication/depression issues, as usual. Nothing serious, just getting used to a new dosage. This time of the semester is stressful anyway, and it's much harder to handle than usual.
 
GREAT DAY! Did a presentation and I am so proud of myself! I get to move ahead with my big project for my scholarship program and was commended by my professors. It's really what I needed.
 
Thats great news Casey! Glad to hear of your GREAT DAY! It's so nice when hard work gets validated and rewarded :)

-Sam
 
Yes, I'm still here. I have no idea what I weigh...between 165 and 170? Ups and downs, blah blah, gotta lose weight, blah blah. Everyone knows how it is. I'm ready to quit complaining and DO IT, for good, and keep up my healthy habits instead of doing good for awhile (a few years, even) and getting lazy. More updates soon, although I plan on posting more emotional/mental aspects of exercise and nutrition than calories and pounds.
 
Very glad to see ya back :)

Thanks for the kind words on my pics I posted. I'm looking forward to you being a regular poster in here again!

-Sam
 
I have looked at my calendar and I realized that I have worked out 4 times in the past seven days! Woo hoo! I'm proud of myself. I'm starving AND I forgot my healthy lunch I packed this morning. And I have to work late....I'm just getting a big lunch to-go so I don't have to eat again until 9 or 10 tonight. Not the healthiest of choices but I don't want to spend a lot of money on take-out and this way I can eat healthy at home this evening. I've got fruits and veggies, low-cal popcorn, tuna, salmon and other good stuff. Hardly any of my clothes are currently fitting at the moment. It's terribly annoying and I can't wait until I can fit into all my old jeans again. I had to buy a pair of jeans a few weeks ago that were a size 13...biggest size I've ever had to buy. I haven't measured or weighed myself, but I think I've gained about ten or fifteen pounds in the past year...maybe even twenty. A lot of it has been in the past six months.

My depression is getting a lot better. I'm still on Cymbalta and it's working great. I'm also still getting counseling. I've learned to deal with a lot of feelings and I have made a lot of positive changes. The past six months have changed my life for the better, even though the depression I went through was very tough.

I'm going to the beach in a few weeks! Very excited, even though I have to be in a swimsuit. I've ordered two swimsuits, a monokini and a tankini, and they're very cute and modest. Not old-lady modest, but they cover a little more than I tend to cover. I'm excited about wearing them---I know people at the beach will be focused on other things besides my body.
 
Way to go on the exercise! That is great. I always try to have some healthy food here at work too, because I've been working lots of long hours lately... My dad just informed me though he brought some chicken for us to eat for lunch, so that will be nice. I've been trying to save my money during the week so I can play a little on my weekends, and go out to eat then if I want. I just bought two more pairs of jeans in a 33 on Ebay. I had a little extra dough in my paypal account and I need more jeans that actually fit me! I'm in around a 34ish probably a 33, and I own a bunch of 32's that still don't fit... It's a little aggrivating but it's my next goal. This summer I plan to do what i can and hopefully be a solid 32 or 33 jean for this fall/winter.

I do typically know a good deal about fashion, and I know what a tankini is but I don't quite know what a monokini is... Perhaps I will google it and find out :)

Glad to hear your depression seems to be getting better. I know it's something you've struggled with for awhile now. I'm glad you've really found somethign that works for you, and I mean that :) I'm doing alright with mine as of lately too. I'm not on any meds, just kind of taking things one day at a time and trying to be more positive and optimistic, trying to focus on the good things i have going instead of what i think is still wrong with my life... I must be honest with you and let you know I recently gave up smoking mj everyday. I had been doing it for a few years and was convinced it helped me with depression, anxiety, etc... In actuality I think it probably did the opposite. I don't think mj is bad, just for me it didn't serve the purpose it once did... I realized after I got away from it for awhile that I can be a happy and productive person without it...

-Sam
 
I am a regular smoker...I'm not sure if it helps with my depression or not but it does help me relax and unwind. I try to only do it with my boyfriend and not when I'm feeling lonely or sad. Sam---I'm glad that you're doing well without it. Good for you! I have stopped drinking, since it could possibly interfere with my medication. I have found that I don't miss it one bit. I am turning 21 soon, so I will probably have a beer on my birthday, but I am not interested in getting drunk anymore. I feel pretty good about this---I had a hard time figuring out my limits and would usually end up throwing up or acting completely stupid.

My eating is improving greatly. For the past three days I have cut out night-time snacks. This is a big deal for me! Sometimes I get a little hungry, but I just grab a bottle of water and it goes away. I'm not starving myself. I had gotten into a bad habit of mindless eating and/or eating with my boyfriend when he gets off work (sometimes late at night). I also gave into the munchies quite a bit over the past few months, and that has stopped as well. When I want to eat, I just tell myself to wait awhile and see if I'm still hungry in an hour. It usually is just a craving and goes away. As for exercise, I worked out on Saturday but I have taken the past few days off due to a minor surgery I had. I'm feeling good about how I look again, which is great! These little changes are making a big difference in my self-image. I hope to fit into my old jeans before school starts.
 
Yeah. It's still a struggle for me sometimes. I think I miss smoking it with the people I did it with, so now when I'm with them and they partake, I have to be strong and not give in, and I'm still around it quite a bit, so I try to just "decide" it's not going to be a big deal for me, and try to have it not be... It really did help me relax and unwind, because I can get wound tight pretty easily. I'm now relying on exercise and trying to find other things to channel all my nervous/stressed energy into. It's really been a day at a time... I thought I would start drinking more, which maybe i have a little bit. I do drink beer or red wine on the weekends some but I don't really allow myself to drink during the week. I really enjoy beer, good beer, and there are some awesome breweries here in UT, at least imo...

For some reason I thought you were older... You seem wise beyond your years I guess :) You've probably stated your age in your diary many times but I've just been too dense to retain it, lol... My little bro just turned 21 officially in May and has been living it up ever since, lol. I guess I went thru that too for awhile. Good to hear you don't plan to, especially if drinking will affect your medication. I know it isn't worth it. Great job on the eating. I'm slowly reeling that back in to a healthier range... Now when I feel like I'm hungry and know i'm not really, I will have a big glass of water and see if that does the trick. It really works, imo....

Your goal jeans wise sounds a lot like mine, so hopefully we both will be rockin our hawt jeans in our desired sizes by the time school rolls around ;)

Take Care,
Sam
 
Thanks Sam! It is really difficult not to smoke when others are passing it around.

Going to Chinese buffet for lunch...my goal is to consume only one plate of food! Wish me luck!
 
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