Candy_f_x
New member
So to start off I have made and deleted 2 other diaries. I just didn't like the way they were going. I looked back over what I had written and realized that I was complaining so much about what was wrong in my life that I was depressing myself. So that part of me is done. I'm sure I will still find plenty of things to complain about but for the most part me new entries will be a lot more pleasant to read through. For those of you that don't know or don't remember me, my name is Candy. I have 3 kids and live in Oklahoma. I went through a very rough patch in my marriage but with the help of a very nice counselor we have managed to get our marriage back in the right direction. It's not perfect yet but its getting much better. I moved back to the town I grew up in and am working a job that I love. I am a youth counselor and a girls juvenial home and I feel like I can actually help these girls. I had a very hard ife growing up. You name it then it has happened to me. I have lived through it all and I am glad to say that I believe I am in a much better place in life than I was a year ago. I started gaining weight about 5 years ago after the birth of my oldest son. I struggled then with losing weight because I didn't have any motivation to do anything about it. About a year ago I hit my highest weight ever of 235lbs. I am only 5'2" so as you can imagine it wasn't a pretty sight. Over the last year I have lost and gained the same 30lbs getting as low as 202 as recently as July 09. I am now starting over again at 220lbs. My plan for sticking to it this time is simply to go one day at a time. I tried before to plan out to much in advance and just got overwhelmed. I feel this is the best place emotionally I can be in to start this again. So heres to me finally being able to accept the things I cannot change and changing the things I can. One day at a time. One pound at a time. My first goal is to be as close to 200lbs as I can be for my 26th birthday on January 20th. So here I am ready to start again for the last time because this time I will beat this.

