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calcmama

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day 0 (7/31/10)
i am 35 years old and am 5 ft 7 inches tall. i weigh about 200 lbs. give or take a pound or two. i gave birth to twins about a year ago. the sad thing is that i was at my lowest weight in years right after that. about 183ish.
i am also a high school teacher. i hate being the fat black teacher. i don't want to be like the kids, good god i am twice their age. but i do want to look chic and sophisticated. i want to be someone that they want to emulate not just professionally or academically but also aesthetically.
there i've said it. i am embarrassed.

i want to lose about 40 pounds so that would put me at 160. i want my new ceiling weight to be 165. so that's really 35 lbs. but if i lose an additional 5 lbs then i have wiggle room. so let's just say my goal is 40 lbs.

my time frame: i want to lose ten lbs in the first ten days. i know that's reaching and stretching a bit but i think it can be done. for the next 30 lbs i will give myself 2 months. the diet when done at the weight loss center will yield 3-7 lbs a week. at 5 lbs a week that's eight weeks. 2 months. that's september 30. i'll be happy i think if i am in the 160's by september 30th. and another 10+ lbs at the end of that month. by halloween. ha.

i have a number of goals here tied to the weight loss...
1) i want to be hot :)
2) i want to get my blood pressure under control
3) i want to take some pressure off my knees and ankles.
4) i am one of the few people who want smaller boobs they're about 38-40 DDD-FF
5) i want to get rid of my pooch. actually i would be ok with the pooch. i just want a waist.
i probably have a couple other reasons but lets leave it at that for now.

the how of it all:
i am doing a modified weight loss center diet.
3 servings of fruit (F) - i'll generally do two
4 servings of veges (V)
2 servings of starches (S) - i'll generally do one
3 servings of proteins (P) - i think this is supposed to be two. i'm doing two.
80 oz of water (W)
a fat serving (f)
2 protein bars (B) (slim fast bars are cheaper)
1 multivitamin (M)
2 omega369 (O)
3 herbal pills (H) - don't remember what's in them. at some point i'll put that down. i'm only doing 2 at most cause they do have green tea. and i do have that heart problem.

i also have to take the BP meds. one a day.

so tomorrows plans:
BP
brk - 1/2 can of pineapples, water, M, O, H
lunch - cauliflower O, H
dinner - protein, slice o bread
snack bar
snack bar

must remember to take bp repeatedly tomorrow..

so to sum up
start/current/okgoal/ultimate goal
199/199/165/160
8.1/8.1/9.30/10.31
 
i didn't mention anything about exercise. that's because i don't think i will have room for any. i'll be at school from 6 till 4 probably. by the time i come home to the kids ill probably be dead tired. if the weight loss isn't going the way i want i will try to throw something in there. the gym is open at five after all...
 
Day 1
bp meds

bf:pineapples
l: cauliflower
d: tuna/egg sandwich
s: 2 bars

2 omega
0 herbal - bp was way too high 145/110 ish all day.
1 mv

80+oz water
all in all a good day i would say.

wanted some of dd's cookies at bedtime but other than that. still motivated. i think if i get some catalogs from my favorite clothing store i would be more motivated. nothing worse than the feeling of walking through a store and looking at the cutest clothes and knowing you can't fit into them. sigh. well here's hoping i can fit into a size 8 or so at the end of this. here's hoping that i am not the fat sister of the four of us at the end of this.
 
Day 2 (195.4)
bp meds. blood pressure was about 140ish/105ish. going down slowly but surely. i guess thats one of the other things that i have to look forward to... no more meds to control bp. but i have the feeling that one won't improve. we'll just have to see.

exact same menu as yesterday.
i forgot my other omega 369pill so i'll take it right after i finish this
i need another 16 oz of water so i'll take that with the pill.

i want to go surfing for some clothes to keep me motivated. the funny thing is that i am not a stylish person. if you were to ask and five people that know me who i am smart and parent would be the two words that would dominate the description. my style tends toward comfortable. jeans and tshirts and sandals. but i would love to be the sophisticated teacher. i love the stuff in anthropologie but its not stuff i can wear. i love ann taylor... there is this store that was just opened near here. but i cant think of the name. but every time i walk by that place i fall in love with the things in the window. ruffles. but sophisticated ruffles. i am a girlie girl at heart.

on another topic... yay 3.6 lbs down! i knew that was going to happen. the hard part is keeping that type of weight loss up for the next week. or two. and if it starts slowing down... to keep motivated enough that i continue. or ... i need a word... or something enough to do what it takes to keep up a similar type of weight loss.
i forgot to mention that i had avocado with my cauliflower. and the cauliflower is the seasoned steam type.

i was flipping through the channels while i was watching the twins today and saw some beach volleyball going down... call me envious. which yes is a sin... or is it? is coveting = envy? but that's what i want. i am not that tall. but i would love the long lean look of a beach volleyball player. so... i'll put that on my to-do list. look up the exercise routine of a bvp. i would imagine that the exercise makes them look that way and not that they are all predisposed to that type of look...

oh well... off to look for exercise routines and some clothes.

199/195.4/165/160
 
Day 3 (194)

Little different diet today. Protein was chix nuggets since I was on the road. We'll see how that affects weight loss tomorrow.

Laid some sod across half the backyard which was pretty good exercise.

Regarding the bvp body, I found a site for misty may trainer where she said that pilates is her number one workout. Which makes sense! So I looked for some pilots videos and came across Jillian micheals video for problem areas. Now while I was tempted to buy it although it's not strictly pilates I decided to try and do some on my own and if I stay committed I will allow myself to get it.

On another note I am thinking about starting a little side company. And I think I can do it while teaching. And it might be something that I can employ my little sister for... More on that later. I should mention that ironically it has to do with food.

199/194/160
 
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