Caiman's weight loss journey

Hi Caiman, for me, it seems that I dont lose weight if Im not focused and I find myself reasoning 'it would be nice to lose more (but right now I dont care enough to make a serious effort). Set yourself a challenging goal, or accept that for now you maintain 260 - that would be great too!
 
I'm the same as you hun, just all my motivation. I've put on a ton of weight, almost back to where I started a year ago. All we can do is get back on the wagon and keep trying--Hope you'll join me!
 
We can do it, Sunflower. Anyway, I've been holding out for some new inspiration and as if by magic I got a sign the other night... look what happened to my desk chair and all I was doing was sitting in it :(
 
Still 280 for the third week running, which at the minute I am content with- at least I am not gaining. I’m not going to keep repeating here every week what I’ve said numerous times before, I know what needs to be done to get moving in the right direction again and hopefully I’ll get on with it at some point.


This weekend I had one of the most active days I’ve ever had! I spent the whole of Saturday playing multiple games of Airsoft for about 8 hours, which involved being on the move all day, carrying some heavy gear around and generally having a lot of fun. I was damn knackered by the end of it and am still feeling the aches and pains all over my body today but it was worth it and I’ll definitely be going again.
 
Hi Jon! Glad to see you're still at it old buddy. After I left the forums in March, life gave a me swift kick in the groin and I ended up gaining back 20lbs, so I feel your stress. I'm happy you didn't gain anything back, and I'm back to root for you. Let's get back to our goals by the years end :)
 
oh no your poor chair!!! Hopefully you can get it fixed!! It looks like a fine chair, pure comfy!!



Congrats on loosing so much weight dude. 40 pounds is kerrrrrrazie. I know you've been stuck at 280 now for awhile, but keep doing what your doing and the weight will fall off!!


Best of luck man!
 
Thanks for the best wishes. In about six weeks, it’ll have been a year since I started this thread, and when I hit that ‘anniversary’ I’d like to do so being back on the rails. So here goes, started logging my food consumption and exercise again (stopping this probably contributed to the weight loss stopping altogether) and hopefully I’ll be back in full swing come w/c 17th October- I’m setting a short target of being at 270 by then, which would put me at an all round loss of 50lbs over a year. Fingers crossed.
 
Still at 280! Though yet again (and you’re probably bored to death with this thread over the last couple of pages) it’s because I’ve not made enough effort. Yes I am maintaining and yes I am still in a good place but I need to get my arse into gear if I am going to hit 270 by October 18th. Must admit though this week I have read some great diary entries and new threads in before and after which are really inspiring and motivational, and it was that which got me started in the first place.

I did record a food diary last week but I did so in a draft email in outlook at work and then proceeded to accidentally delete the draft. This week I am keeping one in a saved word document :p
 
Oh dear, well obviously, I’ve not been keeping this thread up to date.


Next Monday will mark exactly 1 year since I started this thread, and I am anticipating being around 278 by then. That’ll be 42lbs lost in the year, which I am still very pleased with, but also disappointed in myself about for losing the steam I had for the first six months or so in which I lost that weight, only to coast along for the last six months hovering around 280, which in itself is 10lbs over my pinnacle loss of reaching 270lbs.


I am not happy at my current weight, obviously being 40lbs down on where I was is noticeable and makes life easier in simple ways like walking long distances but I am still ‘severely obese’ and I still see it and feel it all the time. I still walk to and from work every day, I have even been going back to the gym and the swimming pool, but I have been nullifying that effort by not taking care of my diet, eating crap and drinking too much alcohol on the weekends.


For some reason, my willpower evaporated again and I just too easily override that urge that saw me through those first six months of effort. I realise the last two pages have pretty much been filled with me writing post after post of excuses and appearing to feel sorry for myself, I’d love to get back to checking in here weekly showing the lbs dropping, but I am struggling to find that spark again :(


This morning I weighed in at 278, but I’ve been up and down between 282-278 for the last six months now, so there’s no ‘achievement’ on my last check in at 280 here. I wanted to reach 270 by the ‘one year’ point, that isn’t going to happen now... let’s see if I can come back here next Monday and say I’ve hit 276...


Thanks for reading.
 
I am happy to report in today at 276lbs J I misread my calendar and today isn’t exactly one year since I started this thread... that will be tomorrow. But close enough!


To reflect on the year, overall of course it has been a good one. I weigh 44lbs less than I did this time last year and I certainly feel better off for it. The first six months after starting were my best, the last six months I have been lucky to ‘maintain’ really, due to not taking care of my diet and slacking off on the exercise front. I’d love to get back to updating this thread like I did when I started it, and my goal for the next 12 months is really to do better than I did in the last 12 months.


Onwards!
 
I went to Alton Towers yesterday, which those from the UK might know is a pretty large and popular theme park with a bunch of roller coasters and other rides. I had a really great time and managed to ride all of the roller coasters- I’ve never really been on an intense and ‘proper’ coaster before so it was a real initiation of fire but I loved every minute of it.


I’m still hovering just below 20 stones, at 276lbs and I still have a large, 50†chest and waist not far behind- I must admit I encountered some difficulties on some of the rides, getting the restraints closed and in one case rather embarrassingly had three attendants around me pushing down the shoulder restraints to meet the clip in belt to lock me in! Whilst I was able to ride all of the rollercoasters, I did have to do a walk of shame off a ride called ‘Ripsaw’ because the shoulder restraints just wouldn’t close. It was pretty sobering- but the attendant was quite polite about it and just told me that my ‘shoulders were too broad’ – heh.


It’d be nice to do it again next year and not have to deal with such worries...
 
Back at 280lbs this morning. Over six months now of yo-yo-ing between 280-270. No excuses, as ever, except my own ineptitude.


I was walking to work this morning, and feeling like I was going to be late I upped the pace a little... after 10 minutes of intensive walking my shins felt like they were splitting. I’ve not had that sensation for almost a year, back when I was 320lbs+. Horrible.


Yes, I’m 40lbs down on a year ago but I need to remind myself and remember that 280lbs is still Severely Obese. I am not even close to being out of the dangerzone yet, as it were. Not sure what is going on that I allow myself to so easily succumb to impulse and eat crap and skip exercise. I think the last page or so of posts by me show I’ve just been lazy and sitting back expecting something to come out of nowhere with no effort on my part, yet no matter how much I keep saying this stuff I keep failing.


Not where I wanted this diary to be a year after I started it, feel like I’m not going to drag myself out of this glut this time. Very frustrating.
 
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