bluemomma
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Awesome Vero! Good for you! 
I'm feeling very angry right now......... I'm really angry that this happened to me. I feel as though I did something wrong and that's why I have this hideous flabby belly. I can handle stretch marks and scars -- no problem. What I CAN'T handle is this flabby fat body I've been left with. I worked my a** off for 3 years to get where I was; to be able to shop in *normal* clothing stores for the first time since I was about 19. I felt beautiful. I felt human. I wasn't self-concious. I wanted to DO things. I loved seeing a dress or a blouse in a store window and going inside and being able to find my size.
Now..... well I'm not going to ramble on about it again. Suffice it to say, I'm miserable. I don't mean *oh gee I'm feeling down*. I mean, I have days where I want to off myself because of how I look. I know....... completely illogical (hence the reason I haven't done it). Two weeks ago it didnt' help that I was at the doc's office and I walk out and there are two women there, each with a set of twins, and they were both no larger than a size 4 (and I'm being generous). The children seemed to be 4 and 9 months-ish respectively. What did I do wrong??????????????????????
bluemomma
I'm feeling very angry right now......... I'm really angry that this happened to me. I feel as though I did something wrong and that's why I have this hideous flabby belly. I can handle stretch marks and scars -- no problem. What I CAN'T handle is this flabby fat body I've been left with. I worked my a** off for 3 years to get where I was; to be able to shop in *normal* clothing stores for the first time since I was about 19. I felt beautiful. I felt human. I wasn't self-concious. I wanted to DO things. I loved seeing a dress or a blouse in a store window and going inside and being able to find my size.
Now..... well I'm not going to ramble on about it again. Suffice it to say, I'm miserable. I don't mean *oh gee I'm feeling down*. I mean, I have days where I want to off myself because of how I look. I know....... completely illogical (hence the reason I haven't done it). Two weeks ago it didnt' help that I was at the doc's office and I walk out and there are two women there, each with a set of twins, and they were both no larger than a size 4 (and I'm being generous). The children seemed to be 4 and 9 months-ish respectively. What did I do wrong??????????????????????
bluemomma